MAY 2002
May 2002
May 1, 2002:
Only 30 days left until my last high school dance! I bought two Farewell tickets today! Tony's a popular guy this year, too! He's taking Jessica to her Prom, me to my Farewell, and Jenn from BK to her Prom! Anyway, now that I'm a little bit less stressed after finishing my Peru web quest, I know Courtney's waiting for me to write this month. She repremanded me just today because it's already May 1-haha! Chris likes me, or so I heard from the crew at work yesterday. I e-mailed him after closing last night, but he hasn't replied yet. Anyway, watched my brother's baseball game today. Very exciting! Northern Lehigh won 10-7 against Emmaus! Duncan smashed an awesome home run over the right field fence! Good job, Northern Lehigh! Stay tuned for more of your up-to-the-second sports coverage and local weather forecasts, every hour, on the hour, here on KHTV!
May 4, 2002:
Damn, it's early! 2:41am to be exact-haha! I closed tonight, so I won't be sleeping, anyway. Don't you worry your little head about little ol' me-haha! Court e-mailed me to let me know that she doesn't appreciate not being fed her daily Thinking Aloud. Well, sometimes every day isn't exciting enough to write about, you know? Anyway, closing wasn't horrible. I don't mind closing with Bill Eck anymore. Chris stopped by before his show, but he hasn't called me yet. We talked about how he heard about what Jenn told me about him liking me and everything. He said that he has to work out everything with that other girl first. Fine by me. I don't want him starting any chick fights because she thinks he's into her while I think he's into me-haha! Besides, I don't even know if I'm into him, you know? I mean, flirting with him at work is awesome, and believe it or not, time flies when you're having fun, but my heart's still mending. I don't want a serious dude right now. Besides, I'm graduating in 23 school days! I'm not sure I want to take a serious relationship to Kutztown with me. I realize that Kutztown isn't exactly out of state or anything, but I'd rather turn over a new leaf and renew myself going into college. I'm taking a big step outside into the "real world." I guess we'll see what happens. I mean, what more can I do besides straight up telling him to call me? He has every opportunity to get with me if he truly wants to, you know? I think I'm making everything easy for him-haha! The Farewell is 27 short days away! I can't wait to hang out with my friends and just dance and finally enjoy being a senior! Meanwhile, creative writing is stressin' me out right now. You know, the usual end of the school year stuff. Big assignments, quickly approaching deadlines, etc. Only 23 school days left! Well, I'm going to watch "Hackers," so catch a few Zs and watch the countdowns closely!
May 7, 2002:
What a weekend! I closed on Friday and on Sunday for Bill Eck. I was mad crazy tired yesterday, but I'm still alive and well, and I don't work today. A guy from my school committed suicide over the weekend! I didn't know him, and I can't put a face to his name, but hearing about his death scared me, anyway. I can only reveal what I heard as far as rumors, but I can't back up any of this story. I don't know what happened! I heard that his girlfriend was pregnant with his child, and on top of that stress, she broke up with him on Friday. I guess too much happening too fast cracked him. I also heard that he was supposed to be staying at a friend's house and snuck back into his house late at night. He hung himself in his basement, and his mom found him the next morning. I'm only fueling the fire by spreading rumors, but maybe someone will correct me if I'm wrong and let me know what happened. The administration sent out letters and flyers about suicide and the signs of suicide and myths about suicide to every classroom at the end of the day. His funeral was today, and some of the students left school on early dismissal to go to the funeral. On a lighter note, although it feels morbid to be in a good mood, only 22 school days remain until graduation, and 24 days remain until the Farewell! I'm excited! I can't wait to wear my prom dress again! I'll try to post a picture after the last dance. I haven't called Doug for a long time, so maybe I'll give him a call this weekend. He doesn't usually call me because my dad answered the phone the first time-haha! Everything's on me now. Anyway, I think the best therapy right now is a long, hot bubble bath and an early night. What do you think? First, however, I'm going to eat-haha! Good 'morrow, Everyone!
May 8, 2002:
Well, I couldn't save yesterday's entry in GeoCities, so I saved it in Word so that I wouldn't lose everything. I know I'm a day late, but I hope that you vultures didn't starve-haha! Anyway, today's top story-channel 13 news, Lehigh Valley Edition-is the Northern Lehigh Senior High School Walk Out 2002! Believe it or not, my fellow classmates and underclassmen from my good ol' Alma Mater actually are capable of organizing a school wide protest! Shocking-haha! See, the student body loves Mr. Papay, the "acting principal," and wants the district to hire him as principal. Mr. Papay has been the "acting principal" all school year, anyway. The district, however, has been interviewing candidates for the principal position, and even though a principal hasn't been chosen, hearing about the district's interviewing caused the students to protest. After homeroom this morning, many underclassmen and a handful of seniors walked out and stood outside chanting "Papay or no way!" When asked to come back inside, the chant changed to "Hell, no! We won't go!" Eventually, Mr. Papay went outside and asked the unruly mob-haha!-to come back inside, and he spoke to the protesters in the privacy of the auditorium. Over 100 students walked out on Mr. Papay's behalf! What a crazy week this week has been! First, Danny Merkel's suicide last weekend. Then, a walk out to protest Dr. Sham, the district's superintendent. Also, I'm in the process of adding "A Mermaid Tail," my first short story, to my site as per popular demand-haha! Please read and review! What will tomorrow drop on me? Stay tuned for the latest breaking news flashes! Maybe I should start lifting.
May 9, 2002:
What an annoying day! School was annoying, work was annoying, home is annoying! School brought Xeroxed copies of newspaper articles about yesterday's protest. The Morning Call and the Times News covered the story! How lame is that? I stayed late at work again, of course. I worked 4-9:10pm without a break!-haha. The five-hour rule. Seham, a manager, freaked out because I stayed late when shit got busy (like no one ever stayed late to help me out). The only good thing about work was that today's Chris' birthday! Happy birthday, Chris! Seham told everyone to give him a kiss and a hug, but (figures) Christine walked in right after the words passed her lips-haha. I decided that I would choose a better moment and kept to myself until after she was gone. Besides, Chris complains about how Christine hasn't broken up with her boyfriend yet and how this boyfriend is the only obstacle between their perfectly wonderful relationship, but he also complained about how no one except Seham gave him a kiss-haha. I promised that I'd kiss him before I left work, and I kept my promise (although he was wearing a headset at the time, so my peck on the cheek was a bit sloppy-haha). I can forgive myself, though, because I'm way out of practice:) Anyway, I made it a point to remind Chris that it's his turn to e-mail me and left, and I'm happier to be home. I'm just so busy! I have dishes and laundry to take care of and assignments to finish and a long, hot, relaxing bubble bath to take before I fall asleep on my feet-haha. Well, I can't wait to read Chris' e-mail just to see if he says anything about the kiss. Probably won't-wasn't that amazing, anyway;) Only 20 school days left until graduation and 22 days remain until the Farewell!
May 12, 2002:
I have so much to write about! I don't even know where to start! Well, I guess starting where I stopped makes the most sense. Friday brought closing with the owner at BK, and what a headache that was (literally)! I actually popped over to the drug store on break and purchased a bottle of generic asprin and a bottle of generic water-haha. I closed with Chris, and there was the usual flirting that comes with that situation, of course. No biggie or anything. There was this guy, Sean, too (one of Wendy's friends), and I talked to him before long enough to hear that his name is Sean and that he just moved here about a month or so ago from New York. Some relative or friend or something of his used to own the tattoo parlor on Slatington's Main Street. Well, Sean scares me, so you can imagine my paranoia when Ron, the closing manager, calls me into the office to take a phone call! At first I think it's probably my dad for whatever reason, but it's Sean! He actually called me at work! He asked me if I wanted to hang out, like, each day this weekend and even asked about beyond when I had an excuse for every day he asked for. I didn't completely lie to him or anything, but I had plenty of excuses, and I didn't feel bad at all about turning him down. What am I going to do? He's extremely intimidating and always wears this camoflage bandana. Besides, he's one of Wendy's friends, and (nothing personal, Wendy) I'm not about to befriend her friends. He even asked me how old I am! When I said that I'm 18, he told me that I don't look it. What the Hell does THAT mean? That means I'm legal is what that means! Anyway, me and Chris got out pretty late and decided to go out to eat breakfast at the Bowmanstown Diner. I ordered French toast. MMM...French toast-haha. I had a good time and was kinda sad to go home. I didn't want to sleep. Plus, I saw Wendy and Sean at the mini-mart when I got back to Slatington! At 2am! Today I worked 4-7:30PM, and Sean came in. I tried really hard to ignore him, and I felt pretty safe at work, anyway. I said something to Wendy about him calling me at work, but I don't know why because she probably let him use her cell to do it. I'm amazed at how much I honestly fear this guy! I just get a bad vibe from him, I guess. Anyway, after work me and Courtney went to see "Life Or Something Like It" starring the radiant Angelina Jolie. What an awesome movie! Four thumbs up! I'm definitely buying "Murder 8y Num8ers" and "Life..." when they're released on video! I can't wait! Guess what else freaked me out, though. On the way to the movie theater, Courtney and I passed BK, and Sean's sitting on the guard rail across the street from work! BLAH! I'm like, "That's the one, Court!"-haha. She freaked out, of course, and I believe she's as afraid of him now as I am. I stopped for gas and saw Mrs. Evans, my creative writing teacher, pumping some petrol herself. Me and Courtney talked to her for a few minutes while I pumped my own at the full service pump-haha. It was pretty cool seeing her on a Saturday. I talked to Johnathan a couple of days ago and promised him that "A Mermaid Tail" would be posted this weekend, so watch for my first short story tomorrow! I know I'm excited! I hope you like reading it! Well, I'm pretty damn tired after getting lost coming home from the movie theater tonight! Can you believe it? I definitely took a wrong turn (plus several more) and ended up headed to Harrisburg! I was scared and exited at some truck stop (Big Bubba's Trucks 'N' Stuff, no doubt) to ask for directions. I'm guessing that Bubba talks to a lot of lost travelers because he gave me directions as quick as can be, and me and Courtney were on the road again. Of course, I had to pee, like, the whole way home, but I managed to get her home safely and in one piece and wait until I got home to go-haha. I just didn't want to get lost a third time! What an adventure! Some kind of impromptu road trip or something. Anyway, it's after 2am and way past my bedtime, so I'm going to head upstairs to change into my cute duck pajamas and watch either "Fallen" or "Independence Day." I haven't decided which leading actor I'm more interested in right now-haha. These are the decisions that make life a journey! Whatever. I hope y'all sleep well and enjoy tomorrow because it's Sunday, and you know what that means! Remember: 19 school days until graduation and 19 days until the Farewell!
May 14, 2002:
Well, another night, another closing. Of course, I'm freakin' tired, but I can't sleep! At least I actually finished my homework tonight-haha. A night owl has to do SOMEthing to pass the time, right? Besides, I was working on a rough draft for creative writing-a pretty interesting topic this time, too. Change. Anything about change! Personal change, change in technology, change in environment and nature, anything about change! I chose the personal approach and wrote about how much I changed in as little as two years' time. Honestly, sometimes even I don't believe how much differently I see myself than I used to. What a short almost two years!-haha. College will be a challenge. Living with two other girls, sharing a tiny dorm meant for only two people in the first place, with bunk beds to fight over and masking tape "boundry" lines all over the floor-haha. I can see it all now! "You're on my side!" "Well, I'm hungry!" "The mini-fridge is on my side!" This commotion is followed by name-calling and pillow-throwing and soon after a group hug and a walk to the Student Union for hot chocolate and doughnuts-haha. I can't freakin' wait, Guys! Actually, I'm eager to find out who my roommates will be, and I want to call them and get to know them over the phone before school even starts later this year. Something about hanging a tassel on the rearview mirror makes me feel, well, older, I guess. More like an adult and less like a young adult-haha. I don't know. Anyway, I have good news! No sign of freaky camoflage Sean today!-haha. I told a couple of my girlfriends about him today, and they thought my story was hysterical! At least I'm the only one who's honestly afraid of him-haha. Geez! I wouldn't mind a little concern for my well-being!-haha. Nah-I'm always safe at work, so I'm not that scared of crazy Sean. He's just different (a lot different) from normal guys in that he scares me-haha. Maybe he gave up. Anyway, what else is going on in my life? Well, I know I promised that "A Mermaid Tail" would be up and running by now, but I don't have any excuses except laziness to cover my ass this time-haha. Seriously, I want to finish the last of that page today because I don't work, so I know that I'll find time after school. I'm sorry, Johnathan! I know you've waited patiently for quite some time! Thank you!-haha. I got a letter from him on Friday, and hearing from Johnathan brightened my entire week! I felt awesome when I found it as I was flipping through my dad's stupid mail-haha. Rarely anything addressed to me (sigh). Oh, well, I love reading his letters, so last week was a good week! Only 17 more school days remain until graduation and the Farewell! Somehow I don't understand how the two countdowns are now synchronized-haha. If you can solve my mystery, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!
May 20, 2002:
It's been a while! I have a ton to talk about, so I hope the vultures (Courtney) are hungry! First of all, I haven't seen scary camo guy Sean for maybe a week or so. No new news on the Sean front-haha. While I'm on the dude subject, though, I want to mention that Tony, my Farewell "date," dragged me into the photo lab on Wednesday to confess that he's had this big crush on me for, like, two weeks and just had to tell me. He surprised me, so I was basically speechless (a rare occurence-haha). I managed to express my shock and tried to explain to him that I'd really rather hang out as friends to get to know him better before any dating happens, if any dating happens. He came to my choir concert on Friday to watch me sing, and we planned to hang out at the mall afterward, but the concert lasted a lot longer than I expected. Anyway, Tony's curfew was 11PM, but I kinda felt bad to just take him home, so I drove around and tried to talk to him. The thing was, though, that he took my "getting to know" him comment too literally and says to me, "So ask me something." Strike one. I honestly told him that I didn't exactly have a list of questions prepared (not in so many words) and turned the tables. "Why don't you ask me something?" He asks me, "Well, I'm probably treading on personal ground, but what do you look for in a guy?" Strike two. I said something about not diggin' car guys and sports guys, and he let me know that he's not either of those types of guys. I never told him that I wanted him to change anything about himself to impress me or something, though. I took him home and said, "Good night (this situation is awkward for me, and I'd like to go home now)," but (and I could be wrong) I think he was looking for a kiss. Strike three. I didn't give him a kiss, of course, and I'm not trying to hurt his feelings, but I'm watching everything I say and do when he's around so that I'm not sending him the wrong signals. I'm kinda quiet around him now. We work together a couple of times this week, but I'm not worried about work. I'm worried about the Farewell. I'm not going to cancel my plans because I asked Tony to be my "date" a while ago, long before he suddenly started crushing on me. Does that sound like Teen Magazine or what? BLAH! Anyway, Tony hasn't asked me to hang out again yet, so maybe he didn't like the awkward car ride and decided against pursuing me-haha. In other news, I called Johnathan yesterday, and we talked for almost three and a half hours! We had a ton of catching up to do! The best conversation I had with anyone in a great while! I felt so good to hear his voice because we haven't called or e-mailed or IMed or written for a long time. I told him all about Tony and work and everything else I could, and he's anxious to read "A Mermaid Tail." He has a pen pal from the Philippines, and her name's Karen, and his original poems are back online! I was pretty sad to hang up, but batteries last but so long (even the bunny kind-haha). The best news is that we're going to start writing letters again! YAY! I felt like an idiot today because I got dressed in my snappy Burger King uniform and drove to work (4-9pm tonight...wait...tomorrow)-haha. I'm such a freakin' dork! Well, Sailor, "A Mermaid Tail" should be online for your viewing pleasure tonight! I added a few little things to my Originals page, so check out the latest! Countdowns: 13 school days until graduation, and 11 days until the Farewell! Kutztown, here I come!
May 25, 2002:
Closing tonight was as annoying as ever, and Bill Eck is still the biggest asshole on the planet, as far as I'm concerned. Burger King just sucks anymore, though, and every time I work I can't wait to quit. I just hate having to stay at BK, you know? I mean, it's pointless for me to find another job for a few months, though. I'm not going to work around here when I live in Kutztown. Duh. It's just that I close with Bill Eck every Friday! BLAH! In fact, I'm eating a Big Mac right now-haha:) Anyway, Thursday was awesome! Jessy and me went to the mall after school, and you'll never guess what we found at Claire's! Care Bears and Popples! No freakin' way, Dude! We bought pens and a set of three pink Care Bears bracelets so that Courtney could join our Care Bears Clan-haha. Care Bear power! I slept over at Courtney's, and we had a blast playing freakin' board games! Remember "Perfection," "Bed Bugs," "Memory," "Bongo Congo," and "Pizza Party?" Awesome! I had the most fun I've had in a long time just being stupid and playing board games meant for ages ten and under-haha. I called Johnathan to wish him "Happy Birthday," too. He was "dozing" but let me talk his ear off for, like, two hours, anyway-haha:) He told me that I was the first person to say "Happy Birthday" to him and that I cheered him up before we said "Good Night." I felt so freakin' awesome in the best mood for the rest of the night simply because I brightened Johnathan's day. Sounds corny, I know, but I'm serious. Hearing him laugh was beautiful. Plus, I'm sending him the perfect card! It says simply, "I have you for a friend. You have me for a friend. Life is good." After filling in a few MadLibs, Courtney and me tried to watch "Gone In 60 Seconds," but we both fell asleep before the goddess Angelina made her first appearance-haha! Maybe next time we'll actually stay awake:) I didn't wake up until 2PM yesterday, too! Courtney's just freakin' awesome! Ya-Ya, Court! I e-mailed Tony a few days ago to say that I'd rather be friends than date, and he e-mailed me to say that everything's cool. How relieved am I now that he knows I'm not interested in dating him? I honestly was nervous about what he'd reply, but I can't wait to go to a movie with him tomorrow. The Farewell will be awesome! I can be me again! Anyway, I felt lonely yesterday for some reason. I guess having a blast at Courtney's and then closing depressed me or something, huh? I was in one of those moods where I just wanted to be wrapped up in someone special's arms sleeping, you know? It's times like then when I'm looking for a boyfriend to be there for me, but I'm enjoying stressing about one less thing, too. I don't know what I want-haha! Anyway, you vultures, I should catch my beauty winks for tonight. Countdowns: ten school days until graduation, and six days until the Farewell!
May 29, 2002:
What a weekend! My room looked like a scene from "Arachnophobia" last night! Even though I killed three of my four lovely "pets," I didn't sleep very easy and felt like sleeping all day today. Closing tonight sucked, of course-haha. I closed with Zach, and he's "so good," but Barto ordered the cleaning of the three kitchen drains, and we closers left late once again. Speaking of work, Chuck's on a tour of northeast PA BKs, and I haven't seen him around Walnutport since, like, forever. I really miss making fun of him-haha. No new news on the guy front, but the Farewell is a mere two days away! I can't wait! Only eight school days remain until graduation, too! This past weekend felt like summer, and I tried to enjoy the Memorial Day holiday as much as possible. Classes are beginning to wind down, too, so I'm seriously pumped for graduation. Courtney wants to put her creative genius to work this summer by developing a site of her own! I'm so excited about teaching her everything I know about HTML coding, and I'm sure her journal will turn me into a common vulture! Anyway, me, Courtney, and Jessica chose Care Bears and Popples names for ourselves today-haha! I'm Tenderheart Bear and Puzzle Popple-haha! I'm seriously going to start writing e-mails to the two of them using their new names-haha. Our bracelets are the cutest things, and I'm going to wear mine every day, just because I can't feel grumpy or have a "bad" day while I'm wearing a Care Bears bracelet (or cute, blue duck pajamas-haha!).:) We're so dumb with our little Care Bears Clan (CBC)! Whatever. I'm a graduating senior, and I'm going to act as freakin' immature as I damn well please. Well, I suppose you've endured enough immaturity for one day, so I'm going to bed. Sweet dreams, Everyone, and enjoy the brightest tomorrow!
