JANUARY 2002
January 2002
January 3, 2002:
HAPPY NEW YEAR! I had a blast on New Year's Eve! Christmas Vacation came and went so fast, though. I can't believe I'm back in school already. How depressing. Johnathan and I are dating again. On New Year's Eve, he told me that he's sorry and that he loves me. I love him, too!:) Unfortunately, he has to leave again on Saturday. This time he's off to Kingsbay, Georgia, and he may not be home for more than a year.:( I still want to take pictures of the two of us. I also want to add more new poems to Poetry, including my favorites from the book that Johnathan gave me for Christmas, Poems that touch the Heart. Thank you, Johnathan!
January 4, 2002:
TGIF! I'm exhausted. Johnathan has to ship out to Kingsbay tomorrow. I'm sad because he has to leave again, and I'll miss him more than ever, but I know everything always returns to "normal." Plus, both of us have to get back into school mode. Stress every second, but I'm going to try my best to relax and loosen up because I don't want to lose him again. When he said that he put me through Hell, he was right. He's always right. First semester final exams are coming soon. I can't wait, though, because first semester finals means that only one semester remains between myself and graduation from Northern Lehigh Senior High School. I was beginning to think that I'd never graduate! I haven't updated anything lately. I've been playing with formatting, but changing colors and moving pages isn't exactly exciting, so I don't have much to say. Feel free to e-mail me to give me your input. All suggestions are welcome and appreciated. Thanks!
January 19, 2002:
I can't understand how life is wonderful one week but creates obstacles and makes waves the next. Since last week, when life was wonderful, I took a fall that made my head spin, and my blurred vision creates problems that I can't solve. I don't know what's wrong with me. It seems like nothing has been going my way lately, you know? Johnathan and I broke up for the second time on Sunday, and for some reason, I can't get over him. Why not? I don't think I truly recovered from our first break-up, actually. I don't want to lose his friendship. He's my closest friend, and I confide in him and trust him and ask him for advice. When I need someone to listen to my complaints, I complain to him. He'll probably be choked with responsibilities, so we'll only talk online on weekends, if I'm lucky enough to catch him, and I have this fear that we're going to drift apart and end up with nothing in the end. In fact, my biggest fear right now is that I'm going to lose my best friend. All I can do is to hope that we'll be friends, but hope usually isn't good enough. I haven't bothered to be online this week because I know that he's too busy to be online. Anyway, I'm tired. I think that what I need is a nice, long, relaxing break far, far, far, far away from everyone and everything and everywhere. All I need is my car and my music. I'd love to get out of this place and drive for miles and miles and miles. I don't get the chance to escape a lot, but I go for short drives when I'm on break at work. I go to the mall. Whatever. All I want to do is to sleep anymore. I'm tired of school. I can't wait to graduate. I don't know. I hope that I snap out of my stupid depression shit soon. I mean, I got myself into it, and I'm going to have to get myself out of it. Maybe I'll be able to perk myself up when classes change. We'll see, I guess, and you know I'll keep writing. Check back here for more babble from the depths of my soul coming soon.
January 23, 2002:
I finally took my last first semester final! I can't wait until classes change on Monday! My Favorite Song Of The Moment, another new feature, is "Breathing" by Lifehouse. Download this song, listen to it, fall in love. I added two new links today: (1)Emode and (2)Forward Garden. I waited to add those links because those sites weren't created by friends of mine, but I decided that those sites are too cool to deprive you by keeping them to myself. Check them out, and let me know what you think of them! Johnathan called me on Sunday. The server was down in Kingsbay, so he couldn't be online this past weekend. Also, I got a letter from him yesterday, and he wrote that he's working on writing a new poem! I'm excited to read it, and it'll be up as soon as I do. I'll be updating a lot this weekend because I'll have a lot of free time, so check back here on Monday for the latest additions, and sign my guestbook! Thanks!
January 24, 2002:
My last last day of the first semester as a high school student! Classes change on Monday, and I can't wait to graduate and get the Hell out of Slatington! Kutztown University accepted me, and I'll be living on campus, so I'll be learning and experiencing a lot. I won't know what to do with myself! I think my life may be turning around for the week. I'm slowly adjusting to fit my situation with Johnathan, and we seem to be getting along. I got a letter from Kingsbay on Tuesday, and he wrote that my friendship is important to him. I'm glad he feels that way because his friendship is important to me. One of my friends from school, Joe, is going to be working with me! I'm excited because he's pretty cool, and I know that he won't be a slacker.:) 'Bout time Barto hires a good employee. The rookies he's been hiring lately have been duds, and they leave as soon as they find their hours too inconvenient. Everyone has streaks of bad luck, I guess. Well, I'm in the black again, and I know that returning to "normal" will feel good, so I'll keep in touch, and we'll see what happens.
January 29, 2002:
I'm having a great day today! Only the second day of my second semester classes, and I already know that I'm going to have fun. I'm so excited! I'm taking creative writing, which causes my atypical good mood every day. I already completed my first assignment, and you can check it out starting tomorrow. [Hint: It's an Original.] Spanish is already awesome, and I think that Senor Hauck will prove to be an extremely organized and confident teacher. He reminds me of Senor Ziatyk. Senor Ziatyk taught my Spanish class last year. What's better? Senor Hauck built his own websites with upcoming lesson plans and a translator for student convenience. Finally, I'm taking probability and statistics, and I'm not confused yet. So far, so good...
...Well, it's later, and I'm home from work. I'm exhausted, but I must stay awake because I'm important, and I can't leave my fans hangin'-haha!;) I've been slowly adjusting to singlehood and feeling pretty down on everything lately, especially love and romance. This scenario is going to sound like a fast food soap opera, but I'm going to tell you about what's going on, anyway. With Valentine's Day approaching on Cupid's swift wings, I wouldn't mind not spending the most romantic day of the year alone, even if that means hanging out with a friend. I'd rather have someone to be with than stay home and lounge, you know? Anyway, this guy who goes to Northern Lehigh and works at BK is kinda cute, and I tend to run into him between classes and work when he works. I guess you could say I subtly, casually, almost nonexistently, flirt with him. Like I know what I'm doing, right? Quite the professional flirt. Besides "Guy #1," there's another guy who works at BK, "Guy #2," who I think is hilarious. He's cute, too, and he knows how to laugh. I guess it's natural for me to enjoy his company. Well, he asked me out at work tonight, and we decided to hang out on Sunday, so I gave him my digits and a hug and drove home, my mind racing. I don't know what possessed me to hug him, but whatever, I guess. I want to hang out and have a fun day and be laid back for once, you know? I'm always frantic. I don't expect a lot, though, because I don't know him, and I'm not looking to date him exclusively. I don't feel right about dating anyone exclusively, but I do want to relax. Sounds good.:)
