Preface

Not backing down.
I expect everything and nothing-
But it better be big

Big and life-changing and-
I don't know what.  I am
Afraid to dream: dreams are too small
For what I want.

I am convinced
That we are too easily satisfied. 
I want big things and I'm not
backing down.   I am more afraid
Of missing an opportunity
Than of ending my life. 

Let me out.  I want to wrestle
And be changed, wrenched in the hip
Like Jacob, Jacob alone who saw
The face of God
And was renamed Israel.  I am not afraid
Of anything
Except myself.  I am desperate
To be made desperate. 

Keep me, Lord. 
Keep me.