And you say, �You do?�
I say, �I care�
You say, �I was unaware�
Why do I try?
Why do I cry?
Why do I want to die?
I look for an answer from the sky,
But time after time there is no reply
I go to church and I pray
I pray that this love for you will go away
Night after night I lay in my bed
Silently wishing that I were dead
I cry myself to sleep, it�s the only way that I find peace
Waking only to find that this love for you refuses to cease
Why do I try?
Why do I cry?
Why do I want to die?
I look for an answer from you,
But time after time you don�t have a clue
You have my heart
Not just an inch, but each and every part
My body reacts to your voice, your touch, and your hugs
Just the thought and I feel like I�ve been drugged
Has God truly given up on me?
Or is He just not hearing my plea?
Why do I try?
Why do I cry?
Why do I want to die?
I look for the answer deep within me,
But when I get there you are all I see
Reduced to uncontainable tears
At the thought of you being near
Cries for help that no one can hear
All because I love you and only you my dear
� April 22, 2000