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FRIDAY, February 28, 2003
WHATTABLOWER. Today is pay-day... perhaps one of the best days of the week EVER! Well, ALMOST. I just realized that we didn't get paid for that one day that the government closed down due to the snow. Shit, I know that our economy is bad and all, but DAYAM! That did me in a couple hundred! Don't worry, I'm gonna look into it and cry foul and blah-blah-blah. Me and my big mouth. So now I don't know what I'm gonna do :( Well, I know that means that I'm gonna have to take a "step back" when it comes to partying hardy, or doing the after-work happy hours. AHAHAHA! Which isn't a problem. It's not that I don't have any money to fall back on, cause I do. But I have other things to think about... Like Carrie's b-day weekend at ATLANTIC CITY! Goodness-gracious, give me BIG MONEY!! (i hope...)

So yeah, after paying mucho bills, I'm pretty much not as "cush" as I usually am. But whatever. I'm blown and all, but it's nothing to cry over. Spilled milk is so not worth the worry. All I know is that I need to get mah partay on @ AC next weekend! WoOhOo!@!

So today is the last day of February. Such a short month. We're already transitioning to our third month of the year. Time f*cking lies when you're having fun, I guess. Wow... And we STILL have snow to worry about. It was snowing like mad after I got off work last night. I still went to the gym, and then I stopped by the grocery store to grab a few things. Then it took like forever to get home still. THERE WAS STILL TRAFFIC, and it was pretty much 7PM. To top that off, people were driving like -1 MPH going down Oxon Hill Road (near my house). I live off this trife hill that is notorious for being slick and slippery when it snows. Luckily, I made it home safely. I came home to see my parents watching "Soul Food." Lemme find out my momz bought the videotape and was watching that jonx forreal! Go ahead, MOMZ!!

I got this picture a few times through e-mail yesterday. I must say that it was totally a blessing to receive. With all the "crap" that our country, and our world, is going through --- seeing something like this is like seeing a light peering at the end of a dark tunnel. A blessing, I tell you. I think that this serves as a reminder that there is much peace out there, and that maybe if we would just focus our personal lives on believing and trusting in The Almighty, we just might be okay... *wink* I don't mean to go overboard with the novena prayers and bustin' out the rosaries or getting overly-immersed in prayer groups and such (which, btw, I have such a prejudice about right now - but that's another topic for another month... *sigh*). All I'm saying is that we gotta shift that personal time, and personal relationship, to focus on Him. Cause in the end, He'll be the one that'll be waiting at that other end of the tunnel; arms wide open. Happy Friday!

THURSDAY, February 27, 2003
BUSY-BUSY-BUSY. As much as I try not to, I tend to get myself into these situations that make my life a freakin' living BUSY hell. OK, maybe not so much "hell-ish" in the way that you're thinking, but "hell-ish" in a way that my life just becomes so fast-paced. But you know what? I like my life like that. I like the fact that I am able to just "pick-up and go;" to be able to jet-set. Being able to do that is all too normal for me, and I don't know what my life would be like without that shining-shimmering splendor. (LOL) And so, my March comes upon me with another "loaded" schedule. The weekend of March 7-9 I'll be off to Atlantic City for a friend's b-day weekend. It should be fun...reuniting with dear, ol' college friends who are practically family. No, I don't think we're hell-bent on gambling our asses off, but winning a couple here and there wouldn't hurt. Yanno?! To pay for the trip, perhaps. AHAHAH! j/k! Then from March 21-24, I'm supposed to be flying out to LA with my Godbro and another friend...visiting my cousin, Perce, and his bun, Lesley. That should be fun. It'll be good times to party up and down the Sunset Strip and get a few celebrity sightings again. Perhaps I'll get phaded enough to ride the bull at the Saddle Ranch, but that's all too unlikely. That's also Oscar weekend, so there should be TONS of stars there for that. Ooooh, and there's also TODAI. YUM!! (I love TODAI!) Then - the weekend of March 28-30, I'll be in Norfolk (again) for my friend's cultural night @ ODU.

You see? What was supposed to be a very chill March has now turned into a travel-vacation month for me. Not that I'm complaining. I know that in April I'll have to stay my ass home (except for the possibility of a day trip to NYC to watch Les Miz w/the TG gang before it leaves Broadway - ahahah... day trips are NOTHING!). May, too, except for that last weekend (my b-day weekend!), when I'll be back in LA for another friend's wedding. You see, traveling is part of who I am. My life would be so incomplete without it. The experiences I have, the people I meet, the environments that I am introduced to --- ALL of these things are part of what makes me "Wen." And this is what I love about my life. My so-called "single" life. AHAHAH! It's great; just like in the movies: career-minded, dreams to see the world, and having a million-and-one things to try and do before living a life in obscurity. Wait a minute, Wen living a life in obscurity? Uhhh, I guess that'll never happen. AHAHAHA! But I think you get where I'm coming from...

Sometimes, as I'm lying in bed at night, I can't help but just have this smug grin on my face as I think, "Man... life is AWEsome." And it truly is awesome. Thanks be to God that I am just flat-out SUSTAINED. It's a great feeling... even despite this dreary weather outside.

[ASIDE: Isn't it freakin' cool that Trenyce and Nashieka are coming back for the "wild card" show for American Idol?! LOL Depending on who gets chosen from that, I don't think I'm gonna keep up with the show. It's no where as interesting as it was LAST season. The Top 10 are quite mediocre, and Simon, Paula, and Randy are totally giving way-too-much praise to certain people that just don't cut it for me. It's just BORING, I know.]

Anyway. Let me continue to live out this day in a good mood. You know how quickly something can change that... Call it bi-polarism, I call it "just don't get on my damn nerves!" *wink*

WEDNESDAY, February 26, 2003
MENTALbabble. SnOw-SnOw-SnOw. When will it ever end? I remember while I was in grade school, I'd only PRAY & HOPE for winters like this one. Granted, we had our share of wintery-blasts back in the day. But this is just RIDICULOUS. RI-DIC-U-f*cking-LOUS. I just don't know what to say about it anymore, and I don't know what else to think.

Well, speaking of snow. Can I just tell you how much I think of my fellow Washingtonians? They are TROOPERS! Despite the weather, they put themselves out there -- ready to tackle the snow; living out their day as if it were just a day, just an ordinary day. Now THAT'S what I'm talking about. I get really annoyed when people actually use the snow (or any inclement weather, mind you) as an "excuse" to SLACK-OFF. Whatever. Yeah, when we were younger...the whole safety issue with snow and freezing this or that was something to be strict about. But now that we're older...it's not that the safety issue shouldn't be accounted for, but it should be DEALT with. I'm sorry. There are places in this world, let alone in our own country, that gets worse snow for much longer periods of time than we'll ever know in a given season. And what do they do? They plow on. They pipck-up, go to work, and try to live out their lives as best as they can. See, those are the kind of people who make the world go round. Those are the kind of people who have faith that, with a little confidence and caution, they can trek through the icy mess and make a point of living out their lives the way it's supposed to be lived. So KUDOS to those people! You guys rock, and make me happy to be HUMAN!

As for the rest of you... who make excuses that it's "too dangerous," or "they might shut-down this or close-down that..." All I have to say is "COME ON NOW." Let's not make an opportunity of something just because we may be in need of an excuse to NOT do what it is we gotta do. I've grown a really thick skin against SLACKERS, and I'm not just talking about your average person who experiences a short bout of laziness on any given day. We all go through that mess. I'm talking about the full-time all-around SLACKERS who continuously find/make excuses for them not to "go to work," or "go to school," or "pick this up," or "get there on-time," or "pay her back," or "scratch his ass." WHATEVER the case may be. People who do that are AFRAID of something, and they NEED to face-off those fears and get some order in their lives.

OMG. AHAHAHAHA... HuDaThOt that a simple snow-falling would incurr such emotion from me, eh?! AHAHAAH! It's a good thing this incident didn't make me go postal. I sat in traffic from my neighborhood to the highway---a regularly 5-minute ride---for 45 minutes. Then I spent another 45 minutes just getting to the office and finding parking. But you know what?! My usual quip to get hot-headed and furious did not even surface. I think I was just happy that all these people were out there doing their thang, without a hitch. Such inspiration. *teehee*

One other thing... I was talking on-line late last night with an out-of-state friend. We got to chattin' about the inevitable: AMERICAN IDOL. Not that I want to get into last night's episode, but I just wanted to make a comment about something. Why is it that there are some people who just have to be out-right trife and call out that this or that person "can't sing?" And you know what? It's usually the very immature people, or non-singers who think that way. I remember talking to my Godsis, Gina (who sings VERY well, might I add), about this stuff...and she agreed. She totally sees the "talent" on American Idol more in the same what that I do. BUT there are those people who just constantly cry about how this girl CAN'T sing, or that guy COULDN'T sing. Okay, first of all - they wouldn't be in the Top 32 if they couldn't sing in the first place. Okay? Simple as that. And Simon, Paula, and Randy were the ones who chose people to come into the Top 32. THEY CAN ALL SING. They may have different styles or techniques, all of which may or may not be right for the Top 10, but all-in-all they can sing. (in other words... some of 'em can SAAAANG, but some of 'em can just sing... ya' getz?!)

I'm one of those people who can appreciate a good voice when I hear one. I think it's the singer in me --- it makes me more objective. While a person may have picked a wrong song, or while someone may have not hit the right note at the right time in no way or form makes them NOT able to sing. To tell someone that they "can't" sing would mean that they can't even carry a tune. But truth be told, those people who made the Top 32 CAN sing. Either you love 'em or you hate 'em, but don't sit there and say that they CAN'T sing. ESPECIALLY if you ain't a singer yo'self!! I REALLY HATE when non-singers all of a sudden become experts and start to call-out who CAN and who CAN'T sing. For those of you who think that way, just ask yourself this: DID YOU TRY OUT? WOULD YOU BE ABLE TO MAKE THE TOP 32?

So yeah... that's just one of my pet-peeves. And it's not with just singing. It's with dancing or acting, too. For instance, if you're an actor, and you don't do a very good job with a given monologue, I personally wouldn't call you a "bad actor." Well, if you absolutely sucked big-time, then yeah - perhaps you shouldn't be acting. But if you CAN act, but can't mesh-well with certain monologues, lines, or characters --- I ain't gonna sit there and say, "you can't act!" It's the same place I'm coming from when talking about whether or not people can sing. I just hate when I hear someone who's like, "Oh, that guy can't sing... he sucked." He may have sucked at that moment, but it doesn't mean he can't sing. He got that far, so he must've done something right beforehand.

I know, it's all pretty much relative, but sometimes I think that people just need a big, fat REALITY-SMACK-IN-THE-FACE. Don't ever tell me that a person can't sing, esp. if YOU can't. You can sit there and say, "Oh, she messed-up and won't advance to the Top 10," but don't sit there and tell me that the bitch can't sing - K?!

I SWEAR. I sometimes question the mental capacities of individuals and their "abilities" to make "sound" (callous is more like it... ahahah!) judgements .

TUESDAY, February 25, 2003
FRESH AND NEW. I guess that's what a low-maintainence night can do for the soul... it'll make you feel fresh and new in the morning. Actually, that might've been my shower, but whatever. As long as I'm not in the same TRIFE mood that I was in yesterday. Yesterday was a blower, but yesterday is now also a memory. MOVING THE F*CK ON NOW... *evil-laff*

I did watch BOTS again last night. They showed a re-cap of Rachel's last day, and then it was on to the next day. Let me just say that Puck (RW-SanFran) is one major weirdo. He was upset because his wife was detained at the immigration office there in Jamaica, and he went on some damn rampage. I gotta read up on Melissa and Lori's websites just to get the "real deal." The commercials made it seem so terrifying -- Puck w/machete in hand. But then that wasn't even the case. Total B-O-R-I-N-G-ness was that part of the show. But it picked-up again with the whole thing about Aneesa (RW-Chicago) saying that she wanted to sabotage Emily. (Emily is still "Super Bitch," by the way...) I admire Ruthie for her honesty, and for her "lookin' out for the team, AS a TEAM PLAYER." Ellen is totally on Ruthie's side, too (at least I think so). But all Emily was worried about was kickin' off Veronica (RR-SAS). OK - so NOW I get it. Emily is tyring to kick-off all the HOT girls so that only the butt-ugly ones are left. THAT'S IT... Goodness. She's just mad because she's "boring-boring." The rest of the girls are way too HOT for her. (What the hell is James thinking being with her? Oh wait a minute, I did say that they were BOTH cornflakes - in my last post. W!) I just can't wait until she gets booted off.

All that aside... I was reading an old TIME magazine last night. Actually, it was an issue that came out right after the Columbia shuttle exploded earlier this month. There was a section on "quotes." They had some interesting quotes from George Dubiya, Nelson Mandela, and others. But then I looked down, and there was a very DUMB quote by Britney Spears. Now this quote has totally got her lookin' like an uncultured IDIOT. She was saying something about the Sundance Film Festival, and she said something to the effect of: "Sundance is weird... The movies are weird, and they make you feel weird..." or something to that effect. The girl is trife. Hello!? What the hell did she expect to watch at Sundance? DareDevil? Crossroads? She's really lost it, that Britney Spears. I also heard somewhere that she was supposedly caught buying a round of cocaine at some bar or club, and was supposedly caught sniffin' that shit off a freakin' public toilet seat (in the club's bathroom). If that's not TRASH, then what is?

I don't get this world. You have Christina Aguilera dancin' around in practically nothing, then you have all these people accusing her of being a slut. DAMN! She ain't no slut! She's just proud of her sexuality, and she's very comfortable with it, too. She's "keepin' it real," and to be honest I respect her SO MUCH more for that. Or you have Michael Jackson, who's practically lived his life under a microscope. You have people calling him weird and nasty and what have you. But he ain't do a damn thing wrong to no one. So leave him alone! LEAVE THEM ALONE! People like to talk trash about people they don't understand, but then you have Princess Britney out there doing hell knows what with her you-know-what, and she's just branded as "young" or "inexperienced." Hello, not a girl - not yet a woman MY ASS! [ASIDE: i really do not like britney spears... i'll listen to her songs or watch her dance (is that what you call it?), but i sure don't like her...] I think people are just too close-minded, or they're so used to just seeing things ONE way that they don't know how to see ALL the facets of one's life; all the perspectives that a person gives/has. Life isn't boring, and neither are Christina Aguilera, Michael Jackson, or Britney Spears for that matter. But we know who's talented, and who's really not. We know who's tryin' to "keep it real," and we know who's not. We know who's tellin' us that we are beautiful no matter what they say, and we know who's askin' us to hit me baby one more time.

Ahhh... it's all so relative: this world that revolves round and round. The next time our stars are all on the same planetary line-up, let's have a party. Perhaps we can all live it up in peace and harmony for ONCE. In the meantime, I say to Christina and Michael (and, yes, even to Britney) - KEEP ON GOING ON... (Shoot, if we didn't have a Britney, we'd definitely be bored... AHAHAHAH!) Cause I know that WEN is gonna keep doin' what he's doin' --- fo' sho'...! *WiNk*

MONDAY, February 24, 2003
MONDAY, MONDAY, LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA. Monday mornings suck. Well, at least today. Wherelese on Earth can you go about your daily routine and have it ruined by on-going traffic and dumb-a$$ people who just DON'T KNOW how to drive. Man. If you can't drive (especially in the city), then stay your a$$ home!! I'm SO serious, just stay your a$$ home. ANYway.

I'm really not an angry person. LOL. But can I just tell you about my utter disgust with my television experience from last night? Okay, besides ALIAS, the other stuff I was flippin' back and forth thru just totally SUCKED. Well, the GRAMMY AWARDS were totally lame. I thought that every-single performance sucked - except for N'Sync (which was actually pretty cool), Nora Jones (she was aight...), and -oh wait- that's all I really liked OR cared for. I missed the performance by Kelly Rowland and Nelly, although my Godsis called me to let me know just how "good" it was... *BARF* OMG. AHAHAAH! I don't know. I'm happy that the Grammys went back to NYC and all, but for some reason the show just didn't hit it. Vanessa Carlton sounded awful. WHO or WHAT was she trying to emulate up there? She sounded like a bad version of Dolores O'Riordian (of the Cranberries) going Alicia Keys/Nora Jones. Boo on you, Vanessa Carlton. And then there's John Mayer. Who said that he was entertaining? Ummm, maybe to the mentally disturbed. He looked like he was gonna kirk~out right there on stage with his trife neck action and googly-eyes all fallin' out of their sockets. What he was on that night, I have NO clue. And my sista, Eryka Badhu. LAWDY LAWD!! What was that all about? The 'fro was cool and all, and her outfit was very trendy, but come on now and put yo' glasses on when you need to read that tele-prompter! GOODNESS-GRACIOUS! And while you're at it, shave yo' armpits! This ain't France, baby. And the whole "Paula Cole cult" thang has long since died with Dawson's F**king Creek. So sad indeed.

Okay, the Grammys aside... what pissed me off last night was BOTS. That's Battle of the Sexes to you, non-MTV watching souls. Yes, I am a fan. I am a die-hard fan of The Real World and Road Rules, and I got to see the latest episode where Rachel (RR-Campus Crawl) got booted off. (Tonight's show will be a new episode, btw...) So tell me HOW appalled I am!! RACHEL so wanted to be on that show, and she got booted cause of SHEER TRIFENESS. I'm sorry, but that inner circle crap is too much, and it's obvious that it all leads back to dumb EMILY (RR-2). Okay, so here's the situation. The inner circle - who consists of Ruthie (RW-Hawaii), Ellen (RR-MaxVelocity), and Emily (RR-2) - deliberate on who to send home. Now, the logical choice would be to vote off Aneesa (RW-Chicago), cause she's currently in last place. BUT they all agree that Anessa is good for the morale of the team. Next in line would be Tonya (RW-Chicago), but Ellen decides to give Tonya the "ION" something...this thing that "saves" a person from being voted-off. So next in line would be Christina, but Emily doesn't wanna boot her off since she's her friend (I'm sorry, who cares if she's you're friend at this point. If the girl SUCKS then she needs to be voted off). SO anyway, they actually deliberate through ALL the girls and decide that none of them is worthy of leaving, UNTIL they come to Rachel's name. Actually, Emily puts her name out there. And in her "confessional" interviews she says stuff like, "I really can't stand her," or "I just want her outta here..." So I'm assuming that in high desperation of choosing someone to get voted off, Ellen and Ruthie go with Emily's idea of voting off Rachel, although withOUT Emily's hostility. Ironically Ellen is the one who makes all the announcements that night, and EVERYONE is on her tail about it. EVERYONE. Even the guys. Things get worse when she announces that Tonya is given the "ION." SO then Ayanna, Miss "Road Rules Hot-Head from Semester-At-Sea," gets up in this mess and confronts Ellen about everything, and ends up having a screaming match with Ruthie and Ellen about their "whack ass" decision. So the tears start, and the drama gets REAL hot... Then they show Melissa (RW-New Orleans) say something about how it sucks that Ellen and Ruthie are the ones taking the wrap for the the "Inner Circle's decision," kinda alluding to how Emily isn't there to be "in the line of fire." Then they show dumb Emily with the guys, and some of her gurls, talking about, "I am NOT gonna go there; it'll be like walking into a lion's den." Ummm, hello?! DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED.

Emily is one of those girls that you hated in high school. She's a self-righteous b*tch who thinks only of herself and her "people." And to top it all off, she's all talk, but she can't even defend herself AT ALL. She won't confront anyone because she knows her ass will look LATE, and that those other girls will probably kick her ass. And then her "posse" of equally dumb gurls would probably do the same. They'll b*tch and coo behind everyone's back, but when they get confronted they'll just cry their butts of and talk sh*t about how "This is so unfair and BLAH-BLAH-BLAH..." See, those were the kinds of girls in high school that THOUGHT they were cool, but didn't even realize how stupid everyone thought they were behind their backs. And they keep talking about how: "gosh, everyone's acting so HIGH SCHOOL," when in reality THEY'RE the ones who are so damn high school-ish about everything. I HATED those people in high school, and I don't care about 'em no less now. And Emily can't blame that ish on poor editing on Bunim/Murray's end because she flat out said "Rachel" and "can't stand her" in one sentence. Emily can go screw herself.

So anyway, in the end...Ellen and Ruthie talk about how they feel played, and that the decision to let-go of Rachel was really messed-up...and that ish all leads back to EMILY. It's Emily's fault, cause she's a freakin' bully behind everyone's back, but you put her up in that mess face-to-face and she ain't gonna do sh*t! So what, she gonna get her boyfriend - who is equally cornflakish - to stand up for her? Child please. Sure, it's a game...and you gotta play dirty and blah-blah-blah. But Emily has gone beyond "dirty." She has gone out-right trife, just like she was on the last challenge. I just wish I was on that show cause I would've marched right up to where Emily was and been like, "B*tch, I KNOW you better go and defend your 'inner circle' people about the crap that just hit the fan before i beat yo' a$$!" Shoot. What started out as pure entertainment for me ended up making me so freakin' PISSED. I can't stand people like that. Those are the same kind of people in high school and college who thought they could get away with sh*t, but didn't realize how stupid they actually looked in the process. Emily needs to watch her back, cause I know that the rest of them girls better get on her for what she is trying to do. She manipulated Ellen and Ruthie, tryin' to make the Asian girls take the wrap for making dumb decisions. Someone needs to go beat this girl up.

Other than that, the show was great. (LOL)

Sometimes I just wanna go on these shows just to be the one to beat-up someone, or tell someone else off, or whatever it is that you can do to make an already dumb person take it where it hurts. Emily is going down, and so are some of those fools on the Top 10 of American Idol (yes, my friends, it all leads back to American Idol... ahahaha!).

To make matters worse, I found out that I was ticketed for a parking violation in early January, but that sh*t must've flown off my windshield, cause I never recalled gettin' that crap. And if you know me well, you know that I pay that ish ON THE SPOT. So my mom gets this notice in the mail telling how the ticket has now doubled (from $15 to $30), and has to be paid. I just paid a rack of TRIFE bills this past Saturday. Now this adds to all the madness. I am FRUSTRATED! What a way to start my Monday. Get out my way, ya'll. I ain't afraid to let some heads roll...

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