hmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

i have a headache aye. and im in the worst mood, again. i just wish i could run and hide away from everything. and i mean everything. from being yelled at to being judged by people. and everything else. life is just so frushtrating. and i dont like it. actually i hate it. i hate a lot of people. i know they say that hate is a very strong word, but u cant help how u feel. and im guessing that a lot of people hate me. but to tell you the truth, i could care less. why should i have to change to benefit others? or why should i apologise for the way i am? when its the way i am? i dont want to be fake, i would rather people see who i really am. and i guess when im happy, im bubbly and easy to laugh with. i like to listen to people and help them, and when im in a bad mood, i just want to be left alone, unless someone understands what im going through, or can help me with it. but how can you tell someone something without them judging you? why is it so hard? why is our society so judgemental and stereotyping? and why is it so hard to just want to be yourself? you know what, i hate the world, and majority of the people in it. i hate people who do things and dont realise the impact it has on someone. how much they are hurting you. but then again, those sort of people wouldnt even care. not even caring how much they ruin peoples lives...they just take advantage of what they cant have...losers....and why do people have to base their lives on lies? why do things that hurt people? i mean i know you cant help it sometimes, but a lot of the times...and especially in my situation, they had total control, and they didnt even care......

So anyway, i spent my afternoon walking around with naomi, just talking about stuff, and taking random photos....i went to the bank, and put some money in for my trip..i got about $500 spending money saved up...SO FAR...and there is more to come...i hope that my trip comes soon. its the only thing keeping me happy right now....tataxox