well my dear blog

my whole life has practically been a waiting game. but today has gone the longest of the lot.i went to bed at about 1am this morning and went to sleep fine. i woke up at about 2am, with a really really sore throat and ear.  I drugged myself up on cold and flu tablets and panadol and tried to go back to sleep. a failed attempt that was. So there i was waiting sitting up on my bed, for the stuff to kick in and work....but all that happend was the pain started to get worse....as a last resort i didnt want to wake up my parents, unless it was a must..yes im a very considerate person....at about 2.45am i made my way through my house and into my mum and dads room. The pain was that bad i just stood there and burst into tears. In the end they calmed me down and i got my blanket and pillow and kipped on the lounge...well i barely slept from here on. As i layed there i felt the panadol starting to work. or was it? for 30 min i was unsure....but through the pain i slowly drifted off to sleep. About and hour later i woke up and the pain was worse even more. i think i cried for a bout 15 minutes. then mum and dad came out and tried to find something in the medicine cupboard. That whole time i just sat there balling my eyes out and screaming...the pain was getting more intense...they found some ear drops that mum had once for unblocking her ears...so we thought we would give that i shot...so in the ear drops went and mum and dad sat with me for a while. without them i woud have probably had a panic attack. The pain was slowly being relieved. and i mean slowly....the parents drifted back into bed...and i lay there scared and uncertain of what was going to happen. I could feel the ear drops disolving something...all was going well until BANG!....the ear drops must have hit something in my ear. The pain was one of the worst i have ever felt and all i could do was scream. really really loud. finally mum and dad calmed me down..and then i went back to sleep......so i had about 4 hours sleep. I woke up this morning, pain free....then i get an itch in my ear so i stick my finger in to scratch it and then blood appears all over my finger....my ear was bleeding. i ran in and screamed to mum and dad that they had to take me to the doctors, that my ear was bleeding....it was recent blood too...mum rang the doctors and well here i am an hour later...waiting for mum to take me...they said they were full but we  could go down at 10 and they might be able to fit me in...well thats my story. im going to go get dressed and ready for the doctors...ill keep you posted. kimmy xox