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The 2 songs that would describe my life at the moment..

Do you ever feel like breaking down? do you ever feel out of place? like somehow you just dont belong, an knowone understands you. Do you ever wanna run away? do you lock yourself in your room, with the radio on turned up so loud, know one hears your screaming, no you dont know what its like, when nothing feels alright, no you dont know what its like to be like me. To be hurt. to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when your down, feel like youve been pushed around, to be on the edge of breaking down and no ones there to sve you, know you dont know what its like...Welcome to my life...

Day after day time pass away,and i just cant get you off my mind. Know body knows, i hide it inside, i keep on searching but i cant find, the courage to show, to letting you know ive never felt  so much love before , and once again im thinking about, taking the easy way out. But if i let you go, i will never know, what my life would be holding you close to me, will i ever see, you smiling back at me? how will i know if i let you go?. Night After night i hear myself say, why cant this feeling just fade away? theres knowone like you, you speak to my heart, its such a shame we're worlds apart. Im to shy to ask, im too proud to lose, but sooner or later, i gotta choose, and once again im thinking about taking the easy way out. But if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me, will i ever see you smiling back at me? How will i know if i let you go?

Can you tell im still in my bad mood?..hmm i had a pretty bad day today.. just when i thought it couldnt get anyworse...hmm im not going to write it down but lets just say it had something to do with a certain teacher....and the later on when i got home....hmmm....anyways i just got home from work..hmm to make a bad day worse....and i had the most dullest time ever. it was so....dull?...hmm....So yeh....5 months and 2 days to go....exciting...thats the only thing thats keeping me going at the moment...i used to get happy about soccer, but its not working no more..and the fact that there were dark and depressing clouds in the sky on my wak home tonight...hmm kinda matches my mood at the moment...well enough sed, im off to fix the front page...tata.....

kimmyxox

Listening To:  Acostic Guitar.