Who did you think you would be at age 23, when you were just 16?
I thought my life would closely resemble Holly Golightly�s (as portrayed by the incomparable Audrey Hepburn in �Breakfast at Tiffany�s).
Cocktail parties, little black dresses, adorable writers as my boy toys� I had a fabulous life planned for myself.
I would be independent, living on my own, going on dates with boys who found me to be completely amazing, and hanging out at the coolest clubs, bars, and parties to be found. I would be self-confident, have a job that allowed me creative license but still paid the bills, maybe a cat or two. I would have a wonderful wardrobe. I would be experienced with men and give amazing blow jobs, I would have conquered any personal demons I picked up in adolescence- in essence, I would be the girl you always wish you would turn out to be.
So who am I now? I am that girl, mostly, although it took a long time between 16 and 23 to get here. For quite awhile I wondered where my life was going, and what on earth I was doing with it. Not that I have all that figured out- far from it. I am not done with school (truth be told- I never want to be done with school. I would love to live in a society that truly values life-long learning), nor do I have the job I want for the rest of my life. I�m not pulling in the big bucks, but I make enough to pay my bills and a bit extra to improve my living space and fill my closet. I just got out of my first serious relationship that was dragging me down, and am dating a hot guy that rocks my socks. I don�t live where I want to- I live in a small town, and want to move to one of the big cities on the West coast.
But all in all- my life is pretty much where I thought it would be when I was that age. I am happy. I do go to the �cool� clubs and bars and parties. I make more money than I knew I could. I have job satisfaction, but still want to learn and achieve more. I am dating someone I find amazing. I think I�m beautiful, smart, and just all around cool.
I turned 23 in December, 2004, and just recently took stock of my life. I realized that finally, I am who I thought I would be.
And that is an amazing feeling. So when did you realize you�d grown up?