December,
2001
November,
2001
October, 2001
September, 2001
August, 2001
July, 2001
Three months after the September 11 terrorist attacks on America, things are coming to a head in Afghanistan. The Taliban has been crushed (and good riddance!) and they may be close to capturing Osama bin Ladin. In America, the first charges have been laid, as an Al Qaeda-connected man has been charged with conspiracy. The US now claims to have indisputable evidence of Osama bin Laden's involvement. Which is good, you know? Because 2 months of bombing would have been pretty silly if it wasn't Osama.
December 10
Another upsetting encounter out in the big bad world for poor little Kimmy. An ex-boyfriend (a real creep) and some of his hip-hop homies ran into a bus-station and saw me. They jostled me! I was so upset. I also think they insulted me but I'm not sure, since I don't speak ebonics.
December 9.
Terrible headache today :-( Had to leave early from work. What did I ever do to deserve this?
December 6
A 30-something guy in a suit started hitting on me today. At first I was very flattered! A successful adult approached me out of nowhere and was interested in me! YAY! What a great boost for my self esteem!
But after a few minutes, I started to realize, this guy really thought he was going to get him some Kimmy! I got a little nervous, and told him I had to leave. He said "But I haven't got your phone-number yet!" Well, that was kind of on purpose. I waved and started off, and he started to follow me! He stopped, and went away, but the whole experience left me feeling uneasy. What would have happened if we hadn't been talking in a busy public place?
December 5.
The Tick is a great TV show! Watch it!!
December 2.
At the risk of sounding cryptic... ever spend a lot of time and energy building yourself up for something that scares you, and then nothing even happens? A couple of people who read this will know what I am refering to, and the rest of you will have no clue and trust me, you're better off knowing, so don't even ask.
I've been feeling blah. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's that I've been a little sick lately, I'm not really sure. Just feeling blah.
I had an argument with my special guy last night, but we made up. It wasn't really anything major, just me acting like a baby.
November 24.
Dinner with my special guy. Not only is he sweet, he can cook! :-)
November 22.
Something really weird happened to my body today while I was having sex and I don't even understand what happened. It was confusing and scary, though very exciting. I wish I knew what happened to me. I don't think this exactly the kind of thing I can ask mom about. Shouldn't there be someplace on the Internet where you can find out about stuff like this?
November 18.
My guy was over last night we drank and watched hockey with my parents and drank and I got really drunk and made a fool of myself and my parents and my guy teased me. I am so glad that my parents love my guy. I just wish they didn't have so many laughs at my expense!
November 17.
The G-20 conference was here today. I was downtown today and saw some of it. A lot of the streets were blocked off. It was an annoyance, as the police had many of the main streets and bus-routes blocked off. It made it difficult to get to work. Of course the reason for all the streets to be blocked off was because there were thousands of protesters. It was quite an experience. Hundreds of people marching, beating drums and waving banners. The echo between the tall downtown buildings made a howling sound that was almost otherworldly.
What is the G-20? Apparently, this was a meeting of trade and finance ministers from the 20 largest economics on earth. They were here to talk about global economics, trade and tariffs, high finance, and whatever else it is that trade ministers do.
What were the protesters protesting? They are protesting against governments that put the interests of big business ahead of the interest of ordinary people. For the record, I think it's a good cause. Government should be for people. We give corporations so much already. They get away with so much already. And now they are pushing for looser environmental standards, for less restriction on the way they do business, less accountability to local governments and the communities they work it. People should know about this.
It's such a shame. It's a shame that the protesters make such FOOLS of themselves. It was embarrassing for me to think that when society as a whole thinks of my generation, this is what they see. It is a good cause. It is something that people should know about. So why do they make such fools of themselves? Don't they know that when people go down the street and see leaflets that say "Beaten and Robbed by the Police at G-20" taped to telephone poles, they will laugh? Everybody knows that the "beatings" were of a handful of anarchists who were looking for fights, and that the "robbery" was confiscation of weapons. When people see people like this acting like martyrs, there can only be scorn.
I guess somebody with my fine sense of Irony should appreciate the humour in seeing a mob of angry university kids smash the windows out of a McDonald's, while sipping Starbucks coffee, and wearing Hilfigers and Nikes.
Let's face it. 95% of these people were university students anyway. How many of them paid for university tuition by growing organic vegetables and making garments from hemp-fibre? They are so quick to raise their fists against all things corporate and all things government, but the truth is that these people, the privileged children of middle-class and upper-class families, have benefitted from this system more than most. I did not see any homeless people in the rally. I did not see any welfare moms. Just privileged kids, professional shit-disturbers, and over-the-hill hippies. How much credibility do these people really have?
It's just a pity that instead of getting their message out, the protesters are all about noise and antics and stupidity. When people watch this stuff on the news, do they think about the message? No. They just see a bunch of people acting like thugs. Vandalism doesn't get the message out, it distracts from the message. Most people don't even understand what the cause, they just think it's a bunch of hooligans out making trouble. What are people supposed to think when they see a bunch of people stomping around wearing masks, destroying property. I had to laugh at a young woman wandering around in a hockey helmet, army-jacket, camoflage pants, and a bandana over her face, carrying a hockey-stick and chanting "This is what democracy looks like!" No, that's not what democracy looks like. Not in this country.
November 9.
I have met a special person on the internet. She is sweet and funny and smart and cute. But what makes her special is that we feel so much in common. We like hockey. We both have the Wrath of Khan soundtrack on MP3. But most special, we have the same fantasies. The same ideas make us hot. It is so rare for me to talk to somebody who shares my weird ideas.
I want to tell her how much it means to me to meet somebody who shares the same feelings. I sometimes feel ashamed to fantasize about some of the things I do. It has been wonderful to find somebody who thinks about the same stuff. It makes me feel good to know that I am not the only one who has such strange thoughts. It makes me feel not ashamed. I know she will read this, so I just want to say thank you :-)
My friend who betrayed me gave me stuffed toy and a card that says "You are a special friend." How can I stay mad at her? She means well, she tries to be a good friend. She is sweet, she is loving, but she is just so dumb.
October 31.
Tonight I went for Halloween with my friends and my special guy. This was the first time that my friends have met my special guy. It was a little awkward, because my guy is a little older than me. I was unsure if my friends would accept him. For the most part, he made a great impression. And vice versa! It started off like a fun night, with lots or people in kooky costumes! I wore an awesome costume- I was a slutty police-woman! Everybody thought it was a great costume :-D and I got more than my share of naughty looks.
But something went terribly wrong. One of my own friends betrayed me. She flirted with my special guy. I don't know if she meant it. But she made a complete fool of herself. Luckily my guy saw right through her. As if she didn't make enough of a fool flirting with him at the bar, she found herself too drunk to drive home. She invited herself to sleep over at his place. Ugh! Every year since we were young I have beaten the shit out of her. I thought maybe we were past that stage of our lives. But now, I have to wonder.
October 24.
It's been a while since we've seen a movie, so we went to From Hell. It reminded me a little bit of Sleepy Hollow. Both movies are set in the late 19th century, and feature Johnny Depp as a perceptive, analytical detective solving horrible crimes while dealing with personal demons. In both movies, Depp's detective falls in love with a woman who knows more about the case than she lets on. As From Hell's Inspector Abberline, Depp is moody, pensive, troubled, and very handsome- much like Depp's portrayal of Ichabod Crane in Sleepy Hollow. As with Sleepy Hollow, the best thing about this movie was the look and atmosphere. The Hughes Brothers (the gansta movie guys??) have created a reconstruction of London's grungy Whitechapel district that is nothing short of amazing. It is the perfect setting for this movie, a world where seeing someone sleeping in a doorway doesn't make you take a second look. The other similarity with Sleep Hollow is that the weak point of the film is a leading woman who is badly outclassed. Heather Graham's Mary Kelly (like Christina Ricci's Katrina von Tassel) is supposed to be a key figure in the film, but lacks the dramatic presence to make the role work. As a horror movie, From Hell is unsettling, but not terrifying. As a mystery, the film drops a huge clue much too soon and the mystery is wrapped up in a way that's not very satisfying. But, if you can sit back and enjoy Johnny Depp and enjoy the fabulous atmosphere this movie has, it is easy to overlook the shortcomings.
October 23.
A milestone day, of sorts... I am not sure if this is the kind of thing I should write on the internet. I made love for the first time. After all the fear and anxiety and panic, it turned out I had nothing to worry about. I feel wonderful and have no regrets. In a way, it is a relief. All of my friends have already done it. For me, it was becoming a big hang-up. In my mind it was becoming a BIG DEAL, in fact it was taking on mythical proportions. Now it's done, gone, out of the way. I notice that the earth didn't stop spinning, the sky is still the same colour, and life continues as normal. Considering the mystical attachment I put on this, I'm a little surprised. Anyways, I feel good about it and there is no looking back.
October 21.
My kooky internet friends have helped me plan the ULTIMATE Halloween costume! BWAHAHAHA!
October 18.
Survivor: Africa is pretty sucky. None of these people have any personality.This show is crying out for a Colby or Roger or Jerri to save it. No such luck from this bunch of dopes.
October 15.
The people who interviewed me for my first job invited me for another interview, but I told them I already took a different job so they're out of luck. Sorry, guys, but Kimmy don't come easy. If you're not quick, you could miss the boat!
October 12.
My new job is going very well! The people are nice, and the work is ok. Best of all, I don't come home smelling like cheese and salami. I might quit my old job, but I am doing so few hours there it is hardly even worth the effort to quit.
October 8.
Mom invited my guy over for Thanksgiving dinner, and he came. It was a very nice evening. I am so glad my parents like him. By the way, in Canada we celebrate Thanksgiving on what Americans call Columbus Day. In November, when Americans are celebrating Thanksgiving, Canadians will be celebrating what we call...
October 5.
I have a new job! YAY!!!
October 4.
Another job interview! It went well, despite the hangover.
What a terrifying day. My parents met my special guy for the first time. I had wine with supper to calm my nerves. A lot of wine. Then we all had beer and watched the hockey game. It went really well! Mom and dad think he's great. They all have so much in common. Him and dad used to work for the same company. They all like hockey. They all hate the government. They all thought it was funny that Kimmy got completely loaded. I'm glad to have this off my chest. Thank god.
And yet, just a teensy bit disappointed that my parents weren't shocked or outraged. Although, I've shocked and outraged my parents enough for one lifetime already.
September 29.
After a week of rain and darkness, a day of sunshine and biking makes the world seem right.
September 28.
YAY! I had a job interview today! It went quite well. I hope I get the job. Retail would be nicer than pizza.
September 26.
I went out applying for jobs today. Hurray.
September 25.
Two weeks after the terrorist attacks, life is slowly returning to normal. It's nice to be able to talk to people and talk about something other than the disaster.
September 20.
Another sad day. Time to put away my summer stuff. My short-shorts, my bathing suits, my sun hat, all the wonderful silly stuff I won't be able to wear for more than half a year...
September 15.
My special guy took me to see the Gustav Klimt exhibit. It was fascinating. But I still felt horrible, and asked him to take me home right after. I am in pain here, people! Pain!
September 14.
Ugh, I feel even worse than yesterday.
September 13.
Ugh, I feel horrible..
The WWF did a live show tonight from Houston, the first major public event since the tragedy on Tuesday. I am sure that many people feel that it was not appropriate for them to do a wrestling show so soon after a national tragedy. But I for one am glad they did. President Bush and others have been urging Americans to get on with their lives and to not live in fear. WWF did just that, providing the public with an alternative to rewatching the same news-clips over and over.
I think WWF did a tremendous job under the circumstances. Vince McMahon's opening speech hit all the right notes. Lillian Garcia's emotional performance of the anthem was incredibly powerful, leaving the everyone, including Lillian herself, overcome with emotion. The wrestlers gave a series of personal interviews, many of which were excellent. The wrestling itself ignored sneak-attacks and brutal beatings, and instead focused on sportsmanship and light-hearted fun. All in all, I think it was just the right thing.
Edge's interview might have said it best: "...I actually contemplated whether this show was the right thing to do. And once I contemplated it, I decided that, as the WWF family, we need to do our job tonight, and our job is to bring smiles to the faces of all your families. And if we can do that, then we've done our jobs, and...this can't be forgotten, it shouldn't be forgotten, and it never will be forgotten...but if we can do that, then this show was the right thing to do."
Lita: "...Whenever I have a problem... it always begins with stopping everything and taking a deep breath. So tonight I hope that the entertainment that we provide for you can help you kinda relax and get your mind off things, just for a short time so that you can relax, maybe start to take that first deep breath."
For people who felt that it was inappropriate, well, there were dozens of other channels with nothing but WTC attack news...
September 12.
I've donated blood. I've urged others to do the same. I've put up flowers on my website. As little as that is, I don't know what else I can do...
September 11.
The whole world changed today. And not for the better...
There have already been so many people who expressed the emotional devastation of the terrorist attacks much better than I could ever hope to.
How will this change our lives? From Dalton Camp's editorial:
We are present at a scene that will change the shape of things to come and change our own lives. The American people have been aroused as never before since Pearl Harbor and they will demand satisfaction and retribution. We shall be reproving Newton's Third Law that for every action there is an equal reaction - this theory may well be extended before the American people's rage is sated.
Canadians cannot escape involvement. There will be some substantial revisions in defining the need for enhanced public safety. We will all be more uneasy and fearful, more suspicious and wary of strangers, especially people from the Middle East and of the Muslim faith.
This new climate of insecurity cannot help but unsettle the economy and business practice and may bring on the recession lingering on the fringe of the world economy. This new and unhappy environment will test our commitment to civil liberties and harden attitudes in the formation of immigration policies.
There will be military action. There will be economic recession. There will be mistrust and prejudice. And there will be people who want to restrict freedom in the name of preventing future attacks.
September 8.
Today I was watching TV, and there was an ad reminding me that it's time for the annual Terry Fox run. If you don't know, Terry Fox was a young man who lost a leg to cancer, and decided to run across Canada, 26 miles a day, to raise money for Cancer research. In Canada, the image of Terry Fox running down the road on one human leg and one metal prosthetic has become synonymous with courage. Terry made it about half-way across Canada before the cancer killed him. But every year in his memory, thousands of people collect pledges and run to raise money for cancer research as well.
I told someone that I want to make a difference somehow. He told me that I already am, because the entertainment I provide through this website makes people happy. Blush! Now I REALLY have to hurry up and draw some more comics!
My little brother is going back to school in a couple of days. My friends are all going to university. I am doing absolutely nothing. It's the first time in my life that the end of August hasn't meant back to school for Kimmy. I thought it would be great to be finally finished, but it isn't. I feel hollow. I feel like everybody is moving on except me. The start of a new school year always had such excitement. New classes, new teachers, new classmates, new clothes. So many little rituals were a part of it. Now, I've just got memories. Maybe someday I'll go to university and experience that feeling all over again.
August 30.
Ohmygod, I can hardly believe what happened to me today.
August 28.
...We went to see Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. I just don't know what to say.
August 26.
My best friend Julia was mad that I went to the fair without her. So I went again. Me and Julia and some of my other friends, plus my little brother. My brother ate too many mini-donuts and threw up. Yuck.
August 25.
My special guy took me to the fair today! We had those little mini-donuts, and went on a bunch of rides! We had great time!!!
August 20.
Customers are idiots!
August 15.
We saw The Others, starring Nicole Kidman. I liked it, but I can see why some people might not. It's kind of a 1-woman play. If you are buying into Nicole's performance, the movie works, and if you don't, it doesn't. I think she does a good job with it. This film is a good antidote for horror movies that use cheesy computer graphics and buckets of fake blood to try and scare you. Nicole Kidman is the only special effect in this whole movie. It's pretty good.
August 12.
I've been watching the World Track and Field championships, held in Edmonton Canada this week. I like to watch because I'm a bit of an athlete too. I know how the runners feel as they finish their 10k race, because I run a pretty decent 10k too. I got a new sports hero this week, Gabriela Szabo of Romania. The tiny runner won gold in 1500m and then spoke out against drug cheats- especially the woman she was to face in the 5000m, Russia's Olga Yegarova. Olga was caught just a month ago using EPO, an endurance-boosting drug, but she was reinstated on a technicality. Normally people in Canada don't care much about Romanians or track and field, but Gaby's outspoken remarks created a big build-up for the race. Imagine a whole stadium in the middle of Canada, decked out in Romanian flags in support of 90-pound Romanian girl. Everyone wanted to see Gaby beat the cheater. No such luck. On the last lap, Yegarova blasted ahead of the field and finished far ahead of the next closest runner. Most of the crowd was silent, though a few booed. For her part, Gaby didn't even try to keep up to Yegarova and jogged to a disappointing 8th place finish. "I knew I could not catch the robot," she said later. The crowd was as heart-broken as I was, but they chanted her name after the race anyway.
Cheaters DO win. But we don't have to like them for it...
August 9.
Is there no end to this suffering?
August 8.
Still unbearably hot. I can't take it anymore.
August 7.
Julia and I went to Rush Hour 2. It was ok. Jackie Chan and Chris Tucker are a good team. The best thing about this movie was that the air-conditioning was working. The out-takes are hilarious.
August 4.
Things have kind of calmed down. It's almost like nothing happened, except that everybody is walking on egg-shells around me.
August 3.
Holy crap, the shit really hit the fan today. I got into a terrible fight with my family. I made my mom cry, and I didn't think that was even possible. I felt bad at first, but then I remembered all the times she's made me cry. Basically what happened was that my little brother stole $40 from me, and when my parents found out, dad paid me the $40 out of his own pocket and it looked like that was going to be the end of it. What's the big deal? I got my $40 back right? What made me so mad? Well if I got caught stealing $40, there would have been hell to pay. But because its my little brother nobody was even going to say anything. I love him but he's overprotected and spoiled rotten. So I told dad that I was going to go to Ed's room and steal stuff, and dad could pay Ed back for me. Things just went downhill from there.
Oh my god, today was the horniest day of my entire life... The details are too private to put here, but I can say that I don't have much experience with this stuff. Everything is exciting and new.
July 27.
"Help! The human's
about to escape!"
"Get your paws off me, you dirty ape!"
I went to Planet
of the Apes today! It was fantastic and I loved it a lot.
July 23.
The heat and humidty are unbearable. I can't stand it. If there's really a hell, I bet it's a lot like this.
July 21.
I had the most wonderful night. I feel like I've been taken away to a different world. For the first time in my life I feel like I know who I want to be, who I want to be with, and what I want for myself...
July 18.
Waitressing sucks. Why won't you cheapskates tip better?
July 16.
I went to Final Fantasy, the Spirit Within. Oh my god, boring. The computer graphics were really cool, they have some wild eye candy in this movie. But oh my god could they have made this any more dull?
I was out on the town tonight with some friends and some stupid mimes grabbed me and used me as a prop in their comedy act! Can you believe it? Mimes! There were dozens of people watching and laughing. I was so embarrassed. I hate mimes.
July 10.
I went to The Fast And The Furious today. Oh My God, Vin Diesel! Mmmmmm! If I ever decide to become a celebrity stalker, I will most definitely stalk Vin Diesel. Save me the trouble, Vin, please marry me! pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease
Oh yeah. The rest of the movie is ok, too. Especially if you're into fast cars and racing. It does glamorize street-racing and street racers. This movie almost made me want to become an outlaw street-racer too. Too bad I sold my Reliant.
Ever know two people who should never, ever be together? Two people who should just steer clear of each other? Two people who just can't get along? Usually you can find a way to just avoid people you can't coexist with. But what if you can't? What if that person you can't stand to be around is the one who gave birth to you?
I really appreciate that mom lugged me around for 9 months. And I can't thank her enough for the 7 hours of labour it took to bring me into the world. But everything since then has pretty much sucked. Because of me, mom couldn't go out and get shitfaced for nine whole months, and spent a day in excrutiating pain. And somehow I don't think she's ever forgiven me for it.
I've decided that I'm not going to go to University next year. I'm going to try and find some way to support myself and move away from home. I know I have other options, like going to school in some other city. But for now I just want to be independent. I don't know exactly what to do yet, but I've got to do something. I would like to work for a year and save some money so that I can afford to go to school without help from my parents. It would mean a lot more if I can do it on my own.