_"Phantom faces at the window... empty chairs at empty tables where my friends will meet no more... empty chairs at empty tables where my friends will sing NO MORE..." -Empty Chairs At Empty Tables, from Les Miserables play. godamn, i feel so immeasurably depressed and lonesome and-and... ah nvm. another day another destiny, and as of 12:30pm- im officially a senior as wel as several other people i know. long after freedom freed everyone from the school's custody, mister Styner was hella hugging miz Styner!!! it was SO damn freaking emotional and .... omg i nearly broke down. mister Styner said something like he loved her so much and stuff... mannn, that is LUUURVE!!!can u feel the rhythm? now AS ALWAYS, there are numerous hurtful errors i perform on last days like everyone else, ehhh? so i tried finding annie around in the morning to sign her Yearbook AND let her sign mine, but she freaking wasnt around!!!! so i dint get the chance to sign Bunte's Yearbook OR Emily's... and dint get chance to sign Emily's either..... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! all's fair in gravy and mashed potatoes, for i didnt even tell Shirley to take care of Carol CHiu! i might never get to see her again... (damn). tomorrow Garfield The Movie and Chronicles Of Riddick are opening in theatres everywhere. i might go see both. i dint see The Day After Tomorrow though... drat. owel, after school was fantastically amazing!!!!! because we got to goto the science lab third floor, where mister styner keeps hella animals and "pets". DAMN, its tight cuz theres alotta various animals! there, mister styner let Tao have a hugeass Boa Constrictor. It's 7 thick feet long... i petted it, and it felt smooth and its skin was so shiny! niiice... however, i do not risk getting 2 close to it. watching those reptiles in that science class was fun, and touching em was scary and fun 2. and in 4th a total of 3 out of 8 people finished their Final 4 real. which is to link to other's pages and put up some works from Advanced Computer Science. the 3 included ME!, Tao Cheng, and David Tran were really the only ones who accomplished everything correctly. Advanced COmputers odd enough has only few guys and thats it. there's rarely enough, and its rarely spread out. so i had my last lunch for Junior year- two triangle balogna sandwiches. they say drinking milk cartons with a straw is much more healthier... well today i didnt- representation of my casual, enormously laid back self. this weekend might goto Foster City or visit some of the Bay Area for multipurpose. PLUS i found out i had a B in HP English3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWESOME! well rick Styner briefed us on next week- its really starting at 11am-3pm. and then till thursday. he said "they" quit the funding for after next week, and thas BS! i swear... looks like my job experience will consist of minor things & this 4 day comp thing *sigh*... im in desperate need for a great vehicle. rented, used, or new? hreh, all seems sucky to me. everythings concerned with money, aint it? and yesterday i got the $76 Spanish book to "aid" me with Spanish3... argh... im beginning to think i still have a buncha unfinished business to attend to. meh, maybe, maybe not. i just saw this man walk downstairs in Moscow, Russia with only his 2 hands! that might go in the Guiness World Records! Till next time (waves) ill be back! Surprising that Jay Wong was last person who got the "honor" of signing my Yearbook... hah._
June 11, 2004; 11pm, faithful Friday
_hey hey! the spanish class being taught by instructor Sweenie is only Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday!!! fascinating.... but then there's this SLHS summer orientation from 1pm-1:30pm next Friday. as i said b4, this summer is one of mucho fun and appreciation and practice, and redemption and make ups. but thats it. cuz my senior year im hoping is going to be quiet sailing. i still have to clear all my attendance marks. dave, my little brother, got Burnout from his friend- a racing game. he let his frend borrow badukai DBZ, which was getting outdated anyways. i used to ache for racing. hah... its very ironic and astonishing ya know? at some points in my lifetime, i wanted to be in occupations involving cops, politics, psychology/therapy, massage, aeronautics, computers, basketball, piloting, chauffeuring, and now... MUSIC. im sure this is my final choice."Live is evil spelled backwards." & "I love what I do and do what I love."_
June 15, 2004; 9:10pm, tranceful Tuesday
_"Wouldn't it be loverly???" -from My Fair Lady Soundtrack. DAMN! that song is the one!!! its so soothing and calm and smooooooth... absolutey... and professor Sweenie is a blondish, white woman, and shes hella tight at teaching conversational spanish!!!! yesterday the class was singing and repeating hella stuff about the vowels in the alphabet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the job times continuously change, today its 9:30AM to 3:30PM... darn... hecka longer than yesterday not to mention earlier. Spanish is a funass class, ill speak to u all later, for those who are escochar (listening). ?Como estas? (how do u do?)_
June 19, 2004; 3:30pm, sleepy Saturday
_Devil damned!!! im going many places, far too many to keep track and up with "personal things"... so yesterday, i went to Vinh Le's graduation party at his small home. it was a wreck there- though there was a whole ton of good food, chips, noodles, mien, salad, soda, candy- starbursts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ohhhhh yeahh good times.... Ken, extremely thin, overtly hypocritical, and Tommy, a first class jerk, were both there. and then after i got to the party in an extremely impunctual manner (i was an hour late, was supposed to be there at 6pm, but Vinh contacted me 2 late!) we all played a bit of basketball when i luckily spotted Vinh's flat basketball... i won all the times we played for real- whether i was 1 on 1 or whoever was on my team. sorry, Vinh- but you cant get everything, not even on ur Senior graduation day!!!!! his bday was June 16 and graduation was 2 days after... tight... we ate ice cream cake to celebrate his birthday (hey that sorta rhymes!) we all even tepidly sang "happy birthday" to Vinh while his older brother was recording with a camcorder, blah. Today im pretty sleepy, nowadays i can sleep 3-6 hrs or even 7 or more hrs and i still am frustrated because im lacking energy. im not the incredible zealot i was before. i think somehow... environments cause me horrible things. i think. i watched Dodgeball- all 4 of us... in Jack London Cinema... thats the most appropriate place to watch theater movies, in my opinion. welp- i think ill goto the Jack London fireworks scenery on July 4th weekend night. Vinh's sister, 4 yrs older than me, somewhat shorter than me, is so optimistic and happy. shes really cute 2- a true sweetheart and soulsoother. she really, almost completely reminds me of my sister... she has a great heart and smile and goes to UC Davis and i think i forgot her major, but Vinh's older bro's major is Computer Science, and he goes to San Diego. I question vinh a couple times about his major and college, and he answers that hes doing Mechanical Engineering. hes attending Alameda College most likely, and surprisingly he's moving to CONCORD!!!!!!!!! a 45 minute drive from alameda to there?! godam, vinh! so anyyyyways today went to Frisco Azn restaurant tomorrow is FATHER's DAY?! i never really gave a damn about these father and mother day things or easter for all i care... they're minute, and to me, its all about the bigger days. or maybe im hallucinating, like e'ryone is telling me. they also say im on crack. on thursday this week i met Dory and this other african american chick- she works for housing agency. and dory is an artist!!!! bravo, cheerios!!! dory's somewhat famous, from how she explained to us about her paintings and fantabulous art. when they figured out i am an actor and singer and dancer, they were in complete shock and total awe. next week starts my 6 week 10:50am-12:50pm US History class... its gonna be a big cinch!!! ive got it all clinched because Mister MacDonald is teaching is to my huge glee!!!!!!!! ohhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhh this summer's been fun already! i found out Annie Cheong- she finally restarted her Xanga page. her website... i should repost the link on my front site. she almost fell apart on her life story, geez! she said she played the piano before.... but stopped.... i wonder why. i stopped playign piano and flute at around 13 due to *ahem* horrifyingly emotional problems. god i cant live without music. OK, Detroit Pistons WON THE CHAMPIONSHIP FROM THE pathetic clutches of LA LAkers! AMAZING! the east isnt really garbage anymore, or were they???!!! happy people keep the world turning round and round as always... and guess what? im back in NukeZone(NZ)!!! its a cool RPG free online multiplayer game and its simple and fun to play. i got 2 accounts there and my bro? he has 3! we're gonna make this 5 person Clan starting next round after July 4th. tomorrow for "celebration" we're going with mom's parents to breakfast or brunch, whichever i dun care. "It is really quite nauseating how I shield my pessimistic character with dreamy optimism."_
June 23, 2004; 3:30pm, waypoint Wednesday
_WELL well, whadda we have here? im going on saturday to Castro Valley to take my senior picture as all seniors normally do for SLHS... its quite the trouble really... thought they "lend" the students tuxes, they also charge. what sorta freak company is that?! anyways im a novice really at japanese cuisine and eating; i ate sushi b4, and the big part i remember is that it tasted sorta sticky and super sour, and i also recall seafood + rice plays big parts in sushi. today after many years i revived myself in sushi eating- but as always i blunder into mistakes. i called for 2 orders of Sake Sushi, which came out in 4 pieces of raw fish with rice on top. it was really slippery trying to eat the pieces with chopsticks, and i dunked soy sauce on it... and then i tried this green paste called Wasabi- it was so godang spicy, but the worst thing??? it totally attacks the the sinuses, not the mouth. almost made me burst in tears. and another thing- it was so freaking expensive!!! the bravo part about all this horrifying taste testing is that its glorifyingly healthy. after actually learning about the oh so many types of sushi, i now know Maki is the one i most want. i need to buy a few for Samantha N Stettler, and i still dunno her middle name drat. so the History class is going OK- McDonald/MacDonald? he sounds like a military tough guy, but isnt. hes pretty old, and is lenient and easy- so ill pass with flying stars. Conversational Spanish aka "Spanish3" is going really smooth too. i think i should really put myself into higher gear to finish the 3 books for AP English4. this sunday Thomas and I are going to see loverly musical Do I Hear A Waltz at 2pm- i havent really researched much about it, but its classical, smooth, flowy, jazzy tunes and ways are catchy and so unique in this world of anti waltz. if i make any sense... birdy wordy, ive CHANGED like deranged ever since i was small. im gonna be 18 next year... and looking at all the things in my life... ive... its bringing so much to me. hah, but i dont have right time to speak of it, when i do, i WILL. abso darn defi lutely i'll conversate about it, OK? "The only way to make peace is to destroy everything that makes war." at rare times i so agree with this. basically no one has any conception of what a barbaric individual i am at times. but dont worry, thats why im a PEACEMAKER AND PEACEKEEPER!!! PEACE & love forever!!! yes!!!_
June 29, 2004; 4:30pm, truckload Tuesday
_well, i definitely need to find more words to describe each day. im still not halfway done in AP ENglish4 summer reading, but hey- who the hell IS; tell me now! anyways i found out more about Xian Kuang, a new asian friend i met in summer school- i always meet the most odd of odd sorts. found out a lot about him yesterday. the two of us are actually quite similar- we're both... well now come to look at it, the totally minute things change everything. hes an extremist at health, i suppose.he ate a salad once, AND i see him eating fruits openly, though they require little preparation, they're messy to eat, and i dont eat with my hands. hes conservative, and he was born in china somewhere i forgot the smaller details of it. he came here 3 years ago, and we're both gonna be seniors. his english is pretty well off, i MUST say. hes a restless individual just like me, but he REALLY wants to travel and see the world, not be stuck in crummy San Leandro , or even the Bay ARea... i so praise the Bay Area and its just like about everyone else wants to leave this area. odd, people always wanna bounce their original crib. i finally FREAAKING found out which sushi is the best. i bought this strange thing called California Maki which had roughly 9 pieces PLUS an additional small salad aand i dunked soy sauce into it, OHYEAH! thats the one! with tax it cost $7.50, and thats decent. so thats the ONE, ive decided, OK. what a relief! got a dental appointment in early august; the DO I HEAR A WALTZ MUSICAL WAS FANTASTIC!!! INDESCRIBABLY AS ALWAYS!!! tom and i had a little road confusion while getting there, but my cell phone saved the day! the whatchamacallit theatre was pretty nice- i rarely get a chance to see public restrooms so clean and nice! once in the middle of the musical, my cell rang, due to some random reason(s), and basically everyone stared at me as if i was sticking outta nowhere. well SCREW them, i WASNT really doing that on purpose. im not the only one to blame! the caller AAND you staring people DONT fucking need to eyeball my ass like that. its not like someone died fuckit. so i got a 94.2% on a big EXAM in Conversational Spanish in LANEY!!! tighhhht... another quiz this thursday. my, i think shes the first college professor that ever packed so many quiz/exam/test things per week in a such a short course of 6 weeks. alotta mishaps with huge things. espeically HUGE MECHANICAL vehicles. yesterday, a bus passed us by since it was loaded. in the morning a truck was backing up into a narrow alley, halting the traffic (including me in moms car). and then, "waltzing" back home, i view a truck thats smashed in half- the middle of the rear part is totally cracked... 2 huge tow trucks and about 4 cop cars were around that area. what a day. "The bigger they are, the harder they fall. truer and truer. the cordless mouse i got is really quite amazing.... it runs on batteries + electricity though, what a major downside. in addition, tom also got me the right version of Microsoft Word Processing aka typing document for those who are much lazier. i ask people around for jobs.... but it seems like everyone's as destined for poverty as i am. Altoids rule!!! one last thing- when am i ever gonna get my music CDs figured out?!_
June 30, 2004; 10am, weary Wednesday
_June to August- thats the summertime, in my "bird's eye view" at least. and some people support rewarding only the smartest and strongest? screw those fags. i still haven't visited Samantha for the CD pickup of Choir songs... im totally afraid, and i cant help it. i cant stop it, seriously! so that fucker father of "mine" is gonna "temporarily" stop working in his job starting July 1. i somehow found out why- the bastard's gonna embark on a "mission" to LA. just to secure and take care of things revolving my sister. my elder sister, Auir, nicknamed "Lighthearted". oh, if a devil from paradise or angel from hell take her.... fuck!!!!! she tells me she's getting faint, but oddly ill during the Memorial Day weekend around end of May. and until now, i knew and she did and i know she knew that we knew that i knew that no one else knew that she knows and i knows it as well. SHE'S DYING. FUCK!!!!!!!!! im so remorseful. im close to suicide, probably more than EVER in this shithole lifetime. she's been my cynosure for SO damn long, i dunno how i'll live and... NO, knowing my sister, she'll NEVER want me to be that way. never... ima take the flight with jackass who calls himself my father to see my sister one last time. they say she's resting in a "top notch hospital", as everyone always says. screw the motherfucking assholes. im done with them all.
on a better note, the weather mostly ever since summer started has began on a cloudy, gloomy morning- and the great news? the temp's been pretty decent to life!!! another thing is that whenever my bro or me translate something for some "unforunate" bitch or ni99a about something he/she doesn't understand, the muthafuka always gets to thinking that me and my bro cant do shit right. FUCK YOU THEN! shit, its not like im a helper social type of gayass anyways. i try maintaining the peace 100% by actually getting outta my way to "aid" some faggots, and then they criticize ME for not doing it RIGHT when i AM!? if they dunno, and if they dont think I know, them DAMN THOSE ASSRAPES TO HELL, BITCH! btw- the internet connection is STILL so annoyingly slow. my impatience wears so fawking thin cuz of that. its like 35 kbps, how the hell can any headless potnut live with that crap?! at least be 56k!!! Thank you, Lord, for watching over some of us for so long. I know it's been a forsaken job, believe it.
10pm; WHAT a day today was. today's the last day im spending in bay area with my sister still "alive"- she's dying, my elder sister. i think im being a bit repetitive, but frankly anyone who finds me like that, fuck them! 'sides, as i said, today... what a day. after school i spotted annie and vice versa... AND even worse, she questioned me for a hug in front of my enemy Ramon and friend Xian!!!!!!! I THOUGHT, OH CRAP! and answered her swiftly with a "Not today, ANnie.." i always stall these things, dont i? well, if you read about me personally, then youd figure out exactly why. so Ramon that ass, like always turns be straight around and makes me huge her. i do it with my own will finally, but it was a light hug. if i hug someone like ANNIE, i do not let go. i am like glue, and i decide when to let go.luckily we hugged lightly, because if not... then...... SOOooo the whole Samantha N Stettler thingymajiggy? its officially off....... *whew!* what a great relief! cuz i found out that AManda Rogers, not Samantha Stettler, called a few weeks ago... and i went to her house and it was quite elegant sorta. there were cds hanging on a wire outside, a black dog behind a black fence, and inside her house it has a brown carpet, and she hsa a driveway, and its a pretty quiet, decent neighborhood and house i might add. i was so sorry for mistaking her as Samantha. i gave her a "newer quarter" for her fortunes, and i spread goodbye by saying "have a great summer!" damn, sushi IS excellent!!! b4 i went over to amanda's house after clarifying she was Amanda... i went with little brother and mom to Costco. where you required a damned frickin card to purchase things. BUT an up side- there were food samples deeper in the huge department store!!!!! tight!!!!! SO for a few hrs we roamed around shopping and stuffing ourselves with chocolate cake, pizza, peanuts, yogurt, steak, sausage chicken, salad, etcetera!!!!! there was just SO freaking much to eat on! i think they have this sample food shop routine everyday until 6:30pm or so. SO todays last day of June, ehhh? and the final day of the Mythology book summer reading thing- i finished the notes for it! or well..... 95% thru..... i got a lil lazy, forgive me, dear God. theres a whole many more people who are getting AP English4 than i thought- i have Edward Tran, Shirley Cheung, and Laura Chew to ask!!! bravo, bravo... amazing... the worst part of today was at BART station. this muthafucka i swear, he caught me using the wrong ticket- a red one. so he says hes not in a good mood today and suggests i buy the correct one- a blue one. i was a little close to starting mayhem right there, since he said he might give me a $200 citation involving BART Police. godamn that lameass dirt sucker. anyways at the end of the day, i finally find out by confirming what the shitlicker said was true. i asked 411 Information, and i requested a connection to BART Police, and i questioned their rules, and hey- the law was the law. but anyways next time i'll be more knowledgeable and i dint know anyways, so are these damned megalomaniacs gonna gut my ass den?! "The world is becoming better; YES it is, but only for the 1st Class Wickeds Of The Earth and the ugly rich." megalomaniacs need to wake up on the right side of the bed, or they need to be less harsh. surprisingly, i ain't mad at the BART Station guy- he was just doing his job..... and disoriented. might need to be locked up in a damn asylum then, hah. you never quite know whether im being random, jovial, serious, idiotic, ridiculous, insane, or all of the above, DO YOU? u dont need to answer. although the fact that amanda had my Choir CD revived me 50 years, i swear! and around 6:15pm, Dorothy, a classmate of Laney College course im taking, Conversational Spanish- she drove a green car near the driveway to park and hollered at me, but i turn and dint recognize her in the car, and accidentally i waved her off and tromped off. SORRY Dorothy, i was having a bad day! coincidence and/or deja vus..... im sick of it all. i really am._
July 12; 11:30pm, marred Monday
_BACK!!! although since im such an unbelieveable oddball i'm postponing the whole life story autobiography thingamajiglet, OK with you all? so no one i know of is even finished at all or halfway done at all with the AP English4 projects?! geez... by now i wouldve thought SOMEONE would... gees, shows you how the world leaves you to do things your own way by urself, eh? Tom came yesterday at around 10:30ish am as usual on weekend, and for a moment it seemed as if i had 10mbps connection when he hooked my comp with this "DSL box"!!!! i was about to die right thurr, but then he replied that it wasn't stable and yadda yaddy yadda... man, the best massage therapist that I know is and most likely always will be TOM!!! if you tried it, you'd totally agree with me TOO... i guarantee it (points at some of u readers). its totally outta topic like i am, but this saturday is the 17th aka my age and it's on a SATURDAY! my fave day of the week with my current age? how rare is THAT? probably never gonna happen within my 31 years old (cuz of 31 days in a month). annie told me a while ago that she got caught shoplifting, and i was surprised! another person was actually shoplifting and she stood up for that person aka her FRIEND. >=- \ im angered a bit at that, but her dad seems to be moolah filthy, so its all good though her dad had to make payments for the clothes that were stolen and none of the clothes would go back to her or her friend. annie wasn't really to blame, and the authorities weren't really to blame for being so fucking harsh, but hey- life's life; her friend should be more moral, or annie should be more careful around people. it's so amazing that i found out sometime during summer that Laura Chew and Anna Wang's bdays are same as mine! although anna's is 1986, shes older than me 1 year, but STILL! SO many people i realize have my bday... the start of spring... hmmm. deja vus i tell ya, they never end for me. AND although never had complete music devotion or began it ever since start of my birth, i'm still so incredibly musically talented (muah)!!! HAHA in everybody's face, NOW what?! The Los Lonely Boys CD Album? its still fresh new!!! and i got it at Walmart for a mouth dropping $10. hot diggity dawg, IT IS THE BEST MUSIC CD IVE EVER EXPERIENCED, SURREAL!!! its not for everyone though... but i have to say, it BLOWS MY MIND AWAY! the 3 mexicans who compose the band are a rare trio who are so talented to music. 2004 National Hot Dog Contest a FEW weeks ago im 90% sure this Japanese gal Kobayashi got 1st place!!! im like holy crap WTFKING HELL??? then the tv showed viewers her hugeass bulging stomach, and man-that is sick. Im not talking bout that anymore, some contests and things in the world are just so bleah. but SHE ATE 53 HOT DOGS IN 12 MINUTES!!! full moons are at end of months and beginning of months & i was staring at it at 9:30pm one of these recent thursdays... it was SO inviting... dang, those are beautiful, and its peculiar how people miss the chance to stare at those signs of beauty. a few weeks ago my azn "honorable" pal retorted it was his first time "cheating" while looking for answers in the teacher's edition book. hreh, "There's a first time for everything, isn't there?" theres this show called Monk on USA. godamn the dirty ass buses and mangy cities of life are despicably dastard!!! if u watched MOnk and u STILL dont know anyone IRL who's like him, then im a candidate for sure. especially the sanitation, hygiene, and health stuff... though im not exactly like him, only to an extent.
i had this luuurvely, dementedly soulful dream during the trip- i was flying. And i was flyyyying so hiiighhh and then there was this climax point where i flew so damn high and then i got a bit spooked and almost neared the light up there... so i fell back all the way down... all the way down into a dark, scaryish apartment and... and- i was back with the megalomaniacs who called themselves humans.
There's been SO many moments of me thinking about writing stories but never got to it even though i got a ton of inspirations from various sources. The Fourth of July is not only America's most patriotic holiday, it's also the holiday during which we consume large quantities of the foods the writer H.L. Mencken once described as "rubber, indigestible pseudo-sausage"�that is, the hot dog. Yes, the mighty hot dog: perennial of ballparks, barbecues, and lowbrow punch lines alike. LOL, i thought THAT was hilarious.
I met Lemuel a few weeks ago- a musician who's a drummer who plays for anything needing a drummer all over the US. he intros me to Academy Of Art UV and gives me great motivation, telling me how i could find some sound production and other cool shizzles there. i research (my near famous trademark) the UV and find out a tona cool stuff about it- you only need a $100 fee to get in, and THATS IT! then u go pick ur major outta 12... and i have 2 i want at that place, what a coincidence and strike of fresh life into ME! too bad i dont see him anymore- he was a tangible, personable guy i met in Conversatonal Spanish. it seems like just about everyone took Spanish3 b4 for the love of devil!
And remember- when i DO post my grand autobiography, that'll be the day... THE day..._
July 13; 4pm, tested Tuesday
_I FINALLY HEAR FROM ALLEN CHANG, THE GRADUATED SENIOR WHO HAD THE (UNKNOWN TO HIM) SO IMPORTANT OBLIGATION OF BURNING MUSIC ON MY BLANK CDS from his email... HE SAYS HE FRICKING LOST MY CDS AND THE PAPER... ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!! U DONT WANNA KNOW HOW HASTY THAT SOUNDS AND HOW FRUSTRATED I AM... luckily, im such a peaceful mother fer that im calmed. anyways he's "compensating" (that bastard) by placing replacement blank cds back in my mailbox. i didnt have a copy of the fawking paper for the love of love, ALLEN!!! now im basically disabled like crap! aargh. son of a *****!!! tom tells me bout the fishing/boat trip we can go on, and it sounds amazing! whats even more positively charming is that he makes bout $1000 in a week just working on the boat! that is more than $100/day... im saddened and mesmerized quite a bit when i reminisce about the past, the cast party for "Anything Goes". i remember when Samantha's parents "wholeheartedly" drove us (peter, me, samantha, and some other people) to Kevin Lee Yi's grand house. she piqued up and said outta topic, "Charles, say something." it wasnt in an offensive way at ALL, but she was just trying to include me into the social conversation. damn, Xian Kuang, great friend of mine, tries to convince me to be more social as well... he says to me, "Charles, you should be more involved with people and socialize with them more." even Anthony Vega, "Society is a piece of crap, but try to be more social anyways, K?" godamnit, i know for sure that im never gonna be a true social l33t like many people i know of. ALSO, i have a general peeve against people. it's got a lot to do with my cranky past, all of which will be hopefully explained in my grand autobiography later, sometime during sometime... meh ~.`. so when i was subconscious, i was sorta planning whether or not i'd visit Richard Daniel Salsbury, most likely the best friend ive had in Encinal High. i might meet up again with Paul Story, counselor... lotsa things to ask em and chat with. but it feels like a real bad dream... complicated shit. all that; it's like alphabet soup when u wanna sort everything out._
July 14; 11pm, wack Wednesday
_if one looks straight into Mister MacDonald's eyes, that person should get a really bizarre feeling. i did it yesterday, and damn! few if anyone's eyes are so naturally green, cuz his eyes... if u stare into them long enuf, you feel something weird. he magnifies the effect furthermore by grinning (w/o baring his teeth)... he's a really magnificent person, and not only in the present... but as well as in the past. you can tell that sometimes in one's eyes- "The eyes are the windows to one's soul." then in Conversational Spanish, i met Sergio, who's from Nicaragua. he'd like to visit mexico, which he says, is similar to his birthplace. he's (disgustingly) inhygienic, and is truly hairy and speaks to himself andis just that sorta caveman style... (DONT mention it), but he's really nice and helpful. he's been in america for 7 years, and i question him if he came here for a better life and obviously he confirms it. however, i ask him another question- has this "American Dream" become reality for him? nope, he says. and for those few seconds of tragedy, i felt remorse for him... screw this wicked world!!! i played him 6 times in Tic Tac Toe, the classic paper & pencil game of Xs and Os... i won the last time... what if i played him one more time, a seventh? maybe his seventh year here will contain Ladyluck herself. I'll pray for unfortunates like him. angie aka angelica, an african, asked me if ill feel sad since Conversational Spanish is near over. i replied, "Neutral." she said she'd be overtly remorseful since it didn't last long enuf... ya know, Angie, i feel ur grief as well. but hey, as they say, Life must go on no matter what. and... i miss so many people already. some stay, some go away. simple as that. my mom still didn't find enuf info about that interesting Nevada 5 day trip. pshhh... tick tock tick tock!! HOLY BANANAS i knew Key Club took ridiculous pics, BUT I WAS IN (AT LEAST) one!!!!! omfg!!!!!!! Anna Wang, senior, indirectly led me to the site... damn thats scary... i TOLD u i disliked machines AND people before... THIS IS BALLISTIC!!! i cant freaking believe that im in so many pics!!!!!! in fact, to prove it to ya, ill post up some fancy droolingly handsome pics of me! ^_^ i keep coming back here and leaving and editting my entries... hope it doesnt bother u much! I fixed the link for my pics and now it's at 9: Reassurance._
July 15; 11:10pm, tulip Thursday
_I took these bizarre quizzes a few weeks ago...
| How to make a Charles |
| Ingredients: 10 parts psycho 3 parts peacefulness 2 part unbelieveable 3 parts friendliness |
| Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add ridiculousness to taste! Do not overindulge! |
Personality cocktail
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