May 17, 2004; 10:30pm, mercurial Monday
_Yeesssterdaaaaaayyy was such a SCRUMPTIOUS SUNDAY!!! Tom arrived at around 10am and then we went to hopped into his shnazzy Lincoln to Morgan Hill. when we got there we ate at Marie's Callendar, where, luckily, there was a Sunday Buffet Brunch!!! it was the bomb!! i especially loved the chicken lasagna. on the drive to Morgan Hill though, Tom spoke with me about a whole variety of topics. he told me about how anti government he is and he chatted with me about communism. he was planning to take me to this airshow in Salinas where there are aircraft flying around performing tricks and stunts. but ANYWAY the best thing is obviously the good ole diddly iddly musical!!!!!!!! whenever u see a real live show in front of eyes with a live band/orchestra, it's so totally different and mesmerizing!!!!! cross my heart and hope to die... the best voice was Sarah Brown, and she didnt look half bad either. everyone else's voices were waaaaay worse than hers in full comparison. the songs were much more bland compared to the better "Anything Goes" numbers. But "Guys And DOlls" makes up for their lack of super singing with group dances, and many of them are really commendable. it involves a lotta gambling, and there are two male and two female lead roles. ill make sure im Sky Masterson, for he participates the most in singing. this musical is all about the guys, fortunately and unfortunately. its set in New York, and man oh man it was really GREAT!!! i did some previous research which helps nevertheless, and whew- the show surely blew me away. and maybe ill see a few more in the Morgan Hill Playhouse. they're dazzling, they really are. anyways Cheok and the computer defeated mister Styner... only cuz the two proved a bit overwhelming in the beginning... and Styner underestimated Cheok in the worst extents... im sure. the seats and the stage were really cold- but thats elaborately correct- why else would u be comfortable when ur heart heats up in the middle of such fantastic musicals?! so i ate dinner at Sizzlers, and almost got sick... felt a bit queasy- the motion sickness almost kicked in again. AND i ate an "endless buffet" of sweets and rice and chicken... and i drank pink lemonade, hreh. my two accelerated classes are REALLY nagging me everywhere. i suppose i wont really finish..... but ill give it a TRY. believe me, i will._
May 18, 2004; 10pm, timeless Tuesday
_ARSENIC AND OLD LACE!!! its a dark comedy + overdramatic play and soooo far..... it received the BEST overall reviews to my knowledge. in fact, due to alotta recent research, i found out this is actually just a play with minimal/no dancing and/or singing. sometimes i use the slashes "/" to mean and or or if u get what i mean, not to confuse anybody... so i heard about it from mister glover told the singing classes that its being hosted by California Conservatory Theater on East 14th. it takes up quite a bit of time over the summer though and there'll be most likely 4 performances of it, all on the weekend. i was pondering whether i should be in it or not- its NOT a musical, and ive been in multiple other plays before, but only ONE musical, "Anything Goes"!!! oh yeah we ROCK SOCKS!!! i might be in it, yet im still a bit 2 busy so im sure i cant attend all the rehearsals. mis green got a bit sentimental im sure, and she posted a quiz for thursday on some simple math- i better pass this!!! and i WILL! i feel the mightiest urge to quit my volunteer job at the SL main library since it IS getting extremely pathetic... especially the impunctual part of me. so at lunch there was yet ANOTHER class election. i voted for Carol Chiu, Laura Chew, Jonathan Osalbo. and the rest i forgot. a few people voted for everyone; some didnt vote for anyone. vote correctly, people!!! this saturday and sunday, from 10am to next morning 10 am on the weekend, im attending a Relay For Life associated with the American Cancer SOciety. its really gonna be fun and exhilarating, i bet. in my minds eye i see it all NOW. though the participants such as unfortunate me might need to sleep over... in sleeping bags... its located at the Burrell Field in San Leandro. Dirty, doity, filthy!!! bleahhh if it werent for my strong love for maintaining the peace, id never even think of volunteering for this!!_
May 21, 2004; 7pm, foolish Friday
_OK, OK, as Annie says, breathe... there you go, Charles. AANYWAYYS havent updated in a looong time... or maybe not that long. so Emily Wirt, sophomore, brunette hair, returns on Wednesday to mis green's class. she was absent since last wednesday, so meaning she was out for a week cuz she was exceptionally ill & even went to hospital!!! aye caramba i hella missed her and hoped she was well, and i know why but simultaneously i dunno why... i guess its one of those episodes of... so i signed up for Relay For Life and im getting interrupted by Cheok, great friend he always is... ill speak with you all later; tata for now!_
May 22, 2004; Noon, slick Saturday
_The words formulate so unconsciously on my mouth like saliva.... ; - P so im going to Relay For Life to donate my charitable, devoted self to curing cancer, or at least making an effort for a try so the steps are closer to the cure. however that meant. yesterday man Carol Chiu and Meng Zhang and Akosha (i think thats how u spell her name, im not sure)- the 3 of em were hella joking with me and making me noticed and harrassing me and embarrassing me right in front of Mister Thomas, the sub... DAMN i was turnin crimson as a beet!!! u ALL should know i dont become bloodred unless its something unnecessarily ridiculously... you shouldve been in my shoes. nobody dislikes being center of attention as much as i do. in fact,i almost despise that. i just cant stand that shit. Shirley and Sarah both stood up for me though yesterday in different periods. i notice more and more lately that alotta gals stand up for me. even if i dont always stand up for them.... i guess they're being a bit more masculine?! dang man just cuz im softspoken and sentimental and sweet and smart doesnt mean im SHY. shizzo my nizzles for rizzles, HASH BROWNS!!! ughh... = - \ i wonder what ill do today... im procrastinating against studying FOR ANYTHING, though i seriously gottta freaking catch up on The Great Gatsby. gotstago, buh byes!!!_
May 24, 2004; 2pm, murky Monday
_Anna Wang has the same ring tone as "mine"... Canon In D... she randomly remarked that on that chilly saturday night at Relay For Life... shes asian, somewhat shorter than me, really artistic, is brunette. shes really nice to look at and i think she tries to smile but not like super smile... we had/have the hots for each other... but im really confused if she dislikes me with some extent. but anyways i have my yearbook since last week sometime now. its called Chaos '04, appropriately named for the lack of sturdiness in SLHS, a bs place. hreh, but im outta here in less than 1.5 years... im gonna miss alota people. LAFF!! cheok finally gota miserable looking haircut. i think im gonna visit Tom this weekend to retrieve a new computer!!!!! COOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yessss finally!! he's the loveliest, bestest friend a friend could have!!! EVER!!... today i woke up a bit late and didnt have time to comb my hair so it looked like a rat's nest... damn, that disturbs and annoys me quite a bit. hrmmmm this habitual routine is killing my "punctuality"... and The Great Gatsby isnt so friggin bad- im supported by pinkmonkey notes; quite scrumptious. ALSO I JOGGED FOR A LITTLE while in the death cold night of the Relay For Life with 2 50 something yr old couples... not sure of their age though. NO one but those 2 and i jogged at the relay. we did it for health and mainly... FOR PEACE!!!_
May 25, 2004; 8pm, tip Tuesday
_i dont really remember if i ever told u about the "honorable" story of when Cheok said outright "NO" to these negroes who wanted to jack up my Yearbook. there were roughly 3 of them standing around, and when cheok suddenly replied to their question of seeing my Yearbook, i was dumbfounded... literally!!! AND im quite grateful of that... dang man. memories- they're worth it. and if he got jumped cuz of what he said or did, I'd SURELY back him up. people seem to be getting nicer... its nice like that. cept when mister Styner reported that no one can stay after school in his computer lab anymore- that reeked. last friday was the final time me and Cheok and Alex Bassett were after school and hung out. i think it was my LAST ever time to spend some friendly time with the two. cherished moments, my friend... (sings) I've got the horse right here, his name is Paul Revere... Tom invited me to go see GUYS AND DOLLS! again!!! but for one LASSSSSST time this weekend saturday at 8pm. and ill have to sleepover there, TIGHT! hes the best of the bestest, FOR SURE!!!_
May 26, 2004; 2pm, weeful Wednesday
_Let's make it happen! as some used to say... and it HAS happened!!! or at least it will!!! OHYEAHHH... in addition to the saturday sleepover and new computer im getting and the musical im reattending, im gonna have to SIiiiiinG for the Choral Concert today from 6pm to 9pm!!! for Choir, such a delectable class... everyone has to wear a darn tuxedo and stuff... all formally dressed up and such. OK, thats good... but my lips are chapped, totally dry..... ughhh its the worst feeling. i always get chapped lips around summertime. i loathed summer so much.... a MAJOR DEFINITE DISLIKE. "I'm telling you... when it all falls downhill..." that was a chorus part in All Falls Down by Kanye West featuring a female backup part. its an absolute fave song of mine.. till later; peace out!_
May 27, 2004; 5:30pm, turbulent Thursday
_GODAMNIT!!! im fricking sure i failed another math test... OK, ill make some dreaded confessions- i failed 2 total class in my life, counting the future few days of that surefire F im gonna get. unless mis green decides to have an "illogical" change in her sentimental ness... SHIT im feeling turbulent- my fucked up parents, more fucked up than usual, denied me from going to Tom's sleepover!!!! FUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! im so damn angered... but NO, anger is bad. not a good thing to have... anyways i guess ill have to cancel sleeping over. hopefully i can still go there and get the important computer... geez... im worried about Annie Cheong. she inspired me to make this site, a huge inspiration frankly... and now she's leaving Xanga, HER journal entries site!!!! god freakin dam... as u know, all things fall apart. me, i try to fight against the fates and destinies. im just that sorta SUPER DUPER rebellious individual. im anti Life's Given Hand. i wont, i desperately say I WONT give in... and some of you know what i mean. i saw Annie picking up trash after school today cuz shes serving detention!! she seems sorta downtrodden a bit... or maybe not. maybe im a bit hallucinating... YES! that MUST be it... sheesh. the seniors are about to leave in roughly 1 week, next friday. ill miss them all SO MUCH!!!! AND yesterday's Choral Concert along with the orchestra was conducted BRILLIANTLY, i MUST say.... everyone i knew shouldve been there!!! damn good times... u know when u search and search and search forever until the one thing u find is finally found? its such a relaxing sensation... its hilarious, you know. life... and its strifes... " If you keep facing forward, you can miss seeing something. It is a virtue to devote oneself, firmly believing one�s own ideals. But that doesn�t mean you maybe belittle the ideals or feelings of others. That is only self satisfaction. It�s all right to stop every now and again. If you want a moment�s rest. If you want to feel what other people feel." thats what this guy has to say... till later, adios, au revoir.
May 29, 2004; midnight, sleepy Saturday
_u know, i look around and get around and see more and more that as people age, they get tired and dreaaaaaaaary of these journals... these memories, these thoughts. some say its just sheer boredom; others say it costs time, and time=money, or so they say. and my lips are STILL horrifyingly chapped!!!!! ughhh..... in less than 11 hours tom is gonna be here; i dint even shower yet!! guess i was extremely busy "saving" whatever precious stuff i had on this old computer. after this last, latest twilight entry, i will begin forth a new era... the BEGINNING of the newer generation of machines!!!! YEAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!! tom is gonna hook everything up tomorroww for my new comp- dat means no more errors and frustrations, man that friend is an exceptional man. so far, akosha, cheok, jessica, and several other people noted me with a girl straight up on me... in the yearbook pic!!!! people favor color pictures, and the musical was the exceptionally, fantasmically interesting ones in it. Melissa Modifer was in it holding me, and damn do i never look good in pics- BETTER BELIEVE IT!!!!! now STOP saying stuff about me in pictures!!!!! sigh... i cant seem to find the right times to rest. im gonna get cancer SO ez if i dun find sleep soon.... and i feel so dirty..... LONNNNNG day.... mister styner told me once that mis duffey retired and then returned here to teach- man, department heads of SLHS subjects SURE are half crazy... psychotically deranged. AHHAHA ^_^ not like they're worse than me; they're not actually... lotsa people signed my Yearbook... and theres only gonna be MORE!!!!! alllllright, GO ME!!! now that i spent all those hours compiling and rescuing my valuables from this dump caleld a comp, ima sleep now!!!new new new stuff for me waiting in morning!!!!!!!! "Happy people keep the world turning 'round, 'round, 'round..."_
May 31, 2004; midnight, strange Sunday
_i feel so reenergized and vivid today. throughout the whole day im bustling, and man do i never want to lose these powerful surges or energy thru my every morsel and fiber... so i did a MUCH better job at memorizing Guys & Dolls yesterday. in fact, i was concentrating so much i almost sweat...so today i got more in sync with the Window XP comp- it takes forever to loadv EVERYTHING... dang, and "Exactly how long is forever?"sigh... anyways, it really IS more stable in every way. Yet the connection is around 35 kbps!!!!!! WTH!!!!! that's outrageous!!! and not in a great way either, eisenhowers... i should stop procrastinating and be grateful- yeah, thats it... tomorrow im gonna be finishing very "important" HW. and the summer school soon and- and- i think im gonna be chilling a lil bit, as they say in the south! (or whatever)... besides, college, as most say, is a breeze. literally- les you live in an oddly swelter causing location, something i'd never be likely to do... i hope. but even the Bay is heating up. 80s today, nearly a 90!! disgusting... i got a tight weight from Tom!!!im sure its about 50, 60 lbs. i use one arm and hold it in the air for about 10 secs. and then im a goner. i tell u all, my muscles are my legs, NOT my arms!!! -__- . the musical Guys & Dolls was SO damn spectacular, even a 2nd time around. closing night usually have bloopers and little nitpicks... and the musical contained many yesterday... but i sensed as if the actors and actresses were putting as much as they could into everything. (applauds). so commendable. at least where i see things. aalriiiighty, mate- i must shower. one must practice stunning hygiene, yer know._
June 1, 2004; 9pm, tacky Tuesday
_"They love to tell you to stay inside the lines. But there's something BETTER on the other side." Geez, i remember when i said ill put in pics and stuffs into my journal entries to make it THAT much more better... BUT its far 2 much of a hassle and im a plain, simple person and im 2 dam lazy and impatient. as i was getting to know my new computer better yesterday and Sunday, i found out i need to fine tune it a lot more. hopefully it wont cause me anymore ugly problems... perfect cant even be perfect. *sighs dreadfully*... man, that BEACH BOYS CD called Sounds Of Summer is smashing hot!!! i certainly have hot pants for it... dang. so thats how summer sounds. today i cut 1st period by staying home and finishing my last minute John Steinbeck essay; i rarely did author analysis essays b4; Allen Chang is about to graduate soon- this week buy friday the seniors are leaving ALREADY!!!!!! SHIT, that sucks the bad one... i heard that choir and notables are gonna sing Beach Boys songs such as lovely music "In My Room", "I Get Around", and "California Girls". Those 3 by themselves are short, but gratifying singles. firewall blocks me from utilizing certain programs, argh! i cant wait till the Finals and school ends. Isnt that what everyone wants??? i downloaded(dled) a whole crapload of music mp3s, but they're just 30 sec samples... and most of em are Guys & Dolls. In My Room: "there's a place where i can go and tell my secrets to... in my room... in my room." id approve of saying MUCH, much more... on these entries... BUT, as the fates have it, time crushes my impatience. and i cant fight fate as well like that. *sigh*... my lovely friend, Annie- she just quit Xanga! tis alright (pats her imaginary shoulders)... she switched sites. but then that means i dont have as many friend's good sites to link to! outrageous!_
June 2, 2004; 5pm, whitened Wednesday
_i found out today Choir aint singing for the graduating seniors- shit that sucks ass. BUUUUUUT!!! Notables are! owell ill be in there next year.. now we're just singing a buncha random songs in Choir. Damn! thats impressive, lemme get some more info! hmmm as my lil bro says once, there was a 7'7" player in NBA. i thought he was just pulling my big legs, but he wasnt! cat caught MY toungue this time, hrehehhehe... anyways now i know shawn bradley and yao ming, american and asian respectively, arent the tallest 7'6" out there. 7'7" Manute Bol and Gheorghe Muresan were the hugest bastards in NBA history, and they're both STILL alive and well! tiiight... anyyyways if only they stayed in the NBA... dang, that wouldve been interesting. So the NBA Finals are coming soon, and guess what! WHAT? as usual, the one of the top 5 strikingly defensive teams in the all of basketball history have made it yet again to the NBA Finals... Detroit Pistons, of the Eastern Conference. and the- *yawn* oh so boringass Los Angeles Lakers. that team and detroit have each won couple of championship rings, but COMON IM ROOTING FOR UNDERDOGS AND I LOVE DEFENSE IN BASKETBALL- NOTE: ITS ALL ABOUT DETROIT DEFENSE! OHH YEAHHHH. besides. Ben Wallace was last year's Defensive Player Of The Year. and damn that man deserves it. annyyyyywayyyss Lakers im sure will win unfortunately again... the East teams of NBA are a buncha garbage nowadays. believe me... detroit WILL assure me that they put in a fantastic fight. i favor Rasheed Wallace and Ben Wallace alot. the Wallaces represent me in different ways- "Big Ben" for his relentless defense and dunks; rasheed for his bad boy presence which symbolizes today's basketballers. Rasheed combines a spice of Nowitzki and style of Duncan playing. AND as we all know in the past... combinations outpace offensive slumps and defensive slowness. "Slow and steady wins the race." Or does it?_
June 3, 2004; 3pm, tweaked Thursday
_HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! indefinitely so! so Kevin Huang, a failure and loser, is "unfortunately" not signing my Yearbook. oh yeah btw i accidentally switched my Yearbook with Angela's... i gotta return it to her somehow. owell. its all fair and good. so seniors are actually leaving tomorrow. during some school time in which in i will feel really sad about a few of em. its definitely horrible, but at least the world out there isnt as safe as here... i THINK. i just deleted tao's crappy website work a few minutes ago. i was messing with MY life stuff, so therefore *magic poof*!!! he got hella damn mad, and i just either dint care much or not at all or was laughing and smiling the whole time. is there this sadistic, unbelieveably perverse evil inside of me somewhere??? take it from me- i think there REALLY is. and nowadays if it conquers over me, i wont give a dam. but then again thats why i try to anti anti peace things in life. hrmph, and done rightly so... S000 Tom helped me fix my despicable comp yesterday- it was simple- he told me to press the CTRL key and hold it until safe mode option appeared. i see im messing up alot. im getting extremely clumsy and my agility is greatly decreased/decreasing steadily... im mispelling many things, and thats agitating. Kevin and me are grouped- the lousy fool's good for one thing at least.... hes quite artistic. in 4th period today Rick Styner ordered 2 pizzas an a bottle a coke. it was a mini party and then Alex Bunte and Willie downed a whole packet of hot chili peppers!!! HOLY TAMALES those things are FUCKING HOT!!! im serious- in fact, it's so hot that my freaking mouth was just flaming once. but those two ate a whole packet each just for money... like $2 and the other got 75 cents.
June 4, 2004; 6pm, final Friday
_as all in all, today is the FINAL friday of my Junior 11th grade year. as usual, its my last year of being "immature" and "childish" or whatever the hell. im gonna stay me still, and everything will still be good. i hope... SO, today i was a perfect gentleman. ALMOST. ahhahahahahahhahahahhaaaaa!!!!!! im a sure ladies man!!! and man oh man do I LOVE IT!!!! im a ladies superstar, and that motherfrickin RULeS!!!!! in first today "Sammy Wammy" and Melissa Modifer were there. melissa, you bad girl, u, u were freaking cutting! geez louise... but owel, shes just cutting PE, a class i finished a LONG ass time ago, back in sophomore year... anyyywayys during second, i had more than my fair share of ladies. im NOT bragging, or showing off, or whatever like being a P-I-M-P or blah blah yaddy yaddy yadda hahahahahaha. (0_0) man do i feel jovial and giddy today!!! lasagna tastes really damn good. and u know, Sara was borrowing my black pen and she says to me "Thank you very much." and the she says "Thank you" in the end. and THEN Angela is borrowing my stuff- my paper for drawing a house, specifically Gatsby's mansion. and she was using my pencil. and then Shirley was taking up my seat. and she signed my Yearbook, which is getting a little crowded... it es mucho hilarioso what alotta peopel said in there... ahhahahhhhhaaa... and angela and i retrieved our Yearbooks back, i took care of hers for her!!! i absolutely adore maintaining the peace... SO, i then said goodbye to Kevin and Anthony- hope ill see em on the big stage one day, Broadway!!!!!!!! ohhh yeahhh they're definitely on their way to fortune and fame. ima miss many of these here adults, 18 or older!!! they're breaking my heart and caused me a ton of grief and sorrow and stuffs... *sniffle* G'BYE SENIORS CUZ I'LL MISS A FEW OF U ALOT!!! SO, i saw Maytak in the morning walking to school. then glimpsed at her at lunch. we liked each other... i think. but she's the past- she's not really that type of girl for me... AND i definitely think flirtatious girls are turn offs. Maytak's such a freaking overachiever. i think i am at times, but i dont like it very much. i dissaprove of flirtatious tramps em A WHOLE BUNCH. The Great Gatsby was such a sad book AND the movie was especially overdramatic. man are those people sad, and they're excellent actors and actresses. PLUS they got sophisticated flairs and polished good looks. Its quite delovely, old sport, as Jay Gatsby used to say. so Lend decides to pay me a visit after school, eh. me and Alex Bassett were walking across school grounds and he suddenly appears! we all know each other, and Lend and us said our goodbyes to each other. he was one of the greatest companions i ever had... so Nicole Sangalang, asian chick, helped me out a bit on my poster. she seemed really concerned for me. and ME! i forgot to get the friggin poster paper from mis duffey's class for the project due monday!!! FRUCK!!!!!! GODAM MOTHER A HOLE DAMIT!!!! i knew i had amnesia, and at times it gets strong. meanwhile in 3rd period Akosha that black bitch- im a bit angered at what she did- she yanked on Sarah's hair 2x. i told her, "But you don't gotta pull her hair [dammit]". disturbers of peace, i hate. Vine comes along in 1st period, and slaps me on the back- a goodbye tap at least. and we say our farewells as well. ima retake Driver's Education Training for $50 freaking expensive ass bucks at this San Leandro driver's program. and THEN im a schedule to get my permit/license by taking the DMV test at the gay coliseum of Oakland. forgive my vulgar, obscene actions, but i am not really like that. SO then in 4th people gossip that i like EVERY girl, and Ryan, that perverted bastard of a goth- he says i like Holly, this blond, white chick temporarily in computer class. and AFTER school, alison says to me she can't act so she wont try out for lead role next year. i think unfortunately, theres some truth in it-but she DOES fill her daily schedules with craploads of work, which agitates acting abilities, believe me. we tested on Agnus Dei, a latin song in Choir. it's a frighteningly difficult song to sing, and like always, deeper voices get more harder to sing. and in the morning 2!!! i sounded a bit like bird shit but OK, we all did OK. tomorrow i think will be a busy day, busy busy me. "You know what? The government has more interest in a dead person than a live one."_
June 6, 2004; 9:30pm, succulent Sunday
_its rare that 3 or more friends are on Instant Messenger. liek today... its rarely happened b4, but when it does, its very strange. today, annie said she was afraid. she was extremely afraid of being alone. that is her biggest fear- being alone. me, i never had that fear, never will. but then again its hard to fight fears, take it from me. Man, Bunte, Alex Higgan Bunte- him? he loves cheese. today he ate a cheese steak and he admits he loves cheese cake and like many cheese containing foods. hes an honest, sane individual. hes jovial, and adds offhand comments sometimes, but all in all, hes pretty decent. and Laura- shes overtly busy as usual. these friends, hreh, they all need me, and i need them. some things never change- like the dreaded fact that im still finishing up a project due tomorrow for english. this is the last week, farewell children, the small... after thursday 12:30pm, we, the CLASS OF 2005 will be large and in charge. ohhhyeahhh... but then again oh nos. so maybe im gonna go see some musicals in san jose, not sure yet. Love em- they constantly amuse me. they're marvelous. id love to chat more but time crushes me. my past- ill tell u more about it. and my elder sister, i got word of her illness last month, right b4 i visited her on Memorial Day weekend. she seems a bit heated up. and a bit weary. my sister, deary... dear god shes NEVER EVER EVER NEVER been like that. shes always possessed infinite compassion, empathy, love, zealousness, and super health. this is definitely bad. i shall not lose her. i shall NOT. but my parents dont really like her, odd. ill speak more about her later. i miss her more and more and i dont wanna cry over her... she DOESNT want me to cry over her. i dont wanna lose her. I dont wanna..._
June 7, 2004; 4pm, motley Monday
_www.geocities.com/flyboy1242001- a new link to a friend's site ive added to my site. he's alex bassett, a cool guy- i think i told u about him b4, but im not so sure anymore. amnesia and stinking absentmindedness rules over me gradually. OK, so 6-7-2004... each day crawls and edges towards virtual insanity and it feels like im gonna drop, despite the strong support of my pals. also, Sarah said im sexy in my Yearbook... WTH is up with flirts dese days, homies?! flirtatious vamps really are not my type. they're so damn annoying... and then akosua writes about my dick when she signed my Yearbook. its hella gay, im not kidding. then there's another post about masturbation. god kills a kitten each time u do that- im like, wtf?! some people joke waaaay over the top. its quite perverted that way. today duy took samantha's keychains repetitively. he was annoying her over and over again, and i saw that samantha was getting hella irritated. i was getting sorta irritated 2, but i didnt think i couldt get it back. duy's always messing wit her- does HE love her or like her? that little punk really is a punk! most athletes are- trust me, the more athletic u are, the more brain damage u got. believe me, i been there b4... its not that hard to figure out. so im in styner's comp lab. hes most likely gonna open it this whole week, cuz its last week and hey- hes a nice fellow. btw the tech work is like tuesday to thursday 8am to 3pm, $8/hr! tight! nice shifts and lunch,and decent locations, the comp lab!!! sweet... rare job experience opportunities!!!and peopel are gradually saying more and more taht im a pimp! i dun think so... or maybe i am! (GRIN) Al Alcino, hes a tight dude, hes mexican. him? hes a 9th grader, a wild, free wildebeest. hes got like few worries and is extremely carefree. hes sorta the motorbike roughrider sorta dude. as he says to me, "Don't get that attached to people, Charles. It's easier to live life that way." Al, you're a great pal, but... we all have DIFFERENT perspectives in and out and on life. too bad, i guess..._
June 8, 2004; 2pm, tragic Tuesday
_It really is too sad. THe fact that i whooped DONALD IN A CHESS GAME!!!! it was hella tight- in the beginning we were both fantabulously locked, as in constant stalemate. thing was, i was matching him for every move. it was a helluva mirror image... i learn thru tiring experience that if i cant beat them easily, ill match them. Donald Pang, 10th grader, hes pretty large as in chubby and big. but hes a GAMEMASTER, take it from me. hes like THE best game player EVER that i met, im sure. hes brilliant in chess, starcraft, and cards. damn, thats the only thing hes spectacular at- games, pure non reality. AND YET i defeated him. he bluffs u around, but like many gamemasters, he's arrogant like them all. damn... i can never forget... its the small things that matter. i always strongly believed that. godamn, i stick to that like none other. and THAT played a big part in my win... donald, like tao cheng, are extremely oblivious to details. like the fact that they ignore small things in life, focusing on big pictures. man, the Gatsby essay in english was terrible. but guess what??? the AP English4 meeting at lunch was even WORSE!!! we g2 read 3 thick books to get into that class. and then- then- seniors in notables came into choir 1st period to rehearse the national anthem. Juan, the crazyass, was there. he might really be a pornstar b4 me! hreh... and then in 3rd, Sarah spoke of me and her loving each other!!!!!!!!! IM LIKE WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wat the fuzz, u wrote it all on the board for everyone?! damnit Sarah u bitch + tramp! so tom, he introduced a whole gutload of musicals and plays for me to see in Monterey. *rubs hands together* research, research time! anyways the final is gonna be optional- either blackjack or a madlibapplet java applet program. welpppppp i think im gonna try for next next week's 2-5pm computer job 2. ill do my best, so pray for me. (prays) g'bye now! cheerios!_
10pm; godamn!!! TOM QUIT HIS SMOKING!!! ISNT THAT ABSOLUTELY THE BEST!>!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! welp, my Yearbook has been put to full good rest. unless... there's still a few more people to sign... most importantly carla and emily. OHWEL, i guess ill just formulate some crazyass stuff. remember when i said im really distorted in any sorta recordingS?! its true, so true.. i almost blew my top off when Sarah Davidson, blond chick, taped me on this dudes camera. I called her tramp, hoe, prostitute, bitch, and indicated other sick things. she got mad 2, and made some "love taps" to me, haha. SO then after school, in the main library, Laura and Collins were at a table, eh? i got there and Laura couldnt stop grinning from ear to ear. Im sure shes got... ahhh nvm, i dont know love, dont wanna know love, and dont ever wanna know!!! so there! i was being jovial as usual with her, and then i said randomly, "You got a butt?" she hella freaked and was about to slam me with her book. her heavyass calculus books, hah. but these girls all got LUUURVE 4 me, dont they? yup yup! hrah, harharharhar! im gonna go watch Annie and My Fair Lady and The Producers, A Chorus Line, and Jekyll And Hyde musicals. sometimes people still amaze me- i cant figure em out at the gayest moments. +_-_
June 9, 2004; 9pm, woeful Wednesday
_well, heres my estimation for my grades: Choir- A, HP English3- C, HP Advanced Algebra- F, Advanced Computer Science- B. yup, im a definite underachiever- dont even ask. it doesnt matter at all how much i do or vice versa for math- im just the lamest at it... and u know what?!?! Lend Ham, that smily, optimistic one of the MOST friendliest guys i ever known... he kept appearing everywhere today and yesterday! talk about spawning! Today... (big sob) i missed my greatest love, Samantha Stettler. but... but but but- but-----> ill see that alligator in Notables...!!! YAY!!! another year of fine music. cya laters._