August 22, 2004; 8:30pm, sunny Sunday

August 24, 2004; 9:30pm, tattletale Tuesday

1st- AP English4

2nd- Notables

3rd- HP Govt/Econ after that is Psychology

4th- AP Calculus

i care so much about my pals..... it kills me.... its so unbearably unbearable... they say my schedule's gonna be difficult.... its 100% loaded with accelerated classes except for Psychology..._

August 26, 2004; 7:30pm, turning Thursday

August 27, 2004; 9:30pm, FUCKED UP FRIDAY

What's your Cowboy Bebop theme song?

August 28, 2004; 3pm, split personalities Saturday

August 29, 2004; 1pm, sweet Sunday

_my bathroom has 5/10 lightbulbs burnt out. SOMEONE be kind enough to donate me some lights?! id be so content after someone did that generous act of kindness... ok Annie ill go with u to watch Wicker Park when it comes out. just dont bail out on me for some purpose (0_0). i have 3 days including today to finish that ugly BIBLE reading & taking notes. SOMEONE be respectful and lay me to a permanent peace, plsssssss!!!!! btw ive got to be MUCH much more cautious about what to say in the realm to my soul AKA my site..._

August 31, 2004; Noon, tested Tuesday

_worried and nervous about the friggin AP English4 Exams this week... i might get a C- on each one of the three. or WORSE... anyways i dont use Xanga OR Livejournal since they're like communities and my geocities site is more of solitude and confinement & isolation which is more my style. AND i dont wanna share so much or the intrusion of myself will certainly turn into total death. sometimes recurring thoughts pop up in my head just as much as my pals do. like the time i was buying stuff at 7-11 for beatrice during springtime on the weekend and with some other people... she was grateful for my kindness. she was hungry, what can i say? have i ever told u this asian girl started her Xanga on my bday THIS year?! Btw her name is named after a loverly song, Autumn Leaves.... her name is really Autumn tho and annie wants me to go watch Wicker Park with her but i wanted to get a big group started so I questioned Stellar to go watch it with us & now i have to clear the air... ONCE AGAIN. I tried out this scary hair removal spray and roll on gel... and it turned out to be 99% ineffective. I MIGHT as well shave my ass all over!!!!!! geez...... but Tom, thanks for ordering the hair removal products for me to try out (0_0) i really dont like being hairy lol. Okaaaaaay.... either it's me or father's parents are becoming more sentimental to us.... as in me, father, and bro. Their only source of income is from govt and they still pay father's expensive cell phone bill while they live in SF apartments. ANYWAYS, they give me and my bro each money sometimes when the the three of us go over to Frisco to visit them... and they're really against fighting, especially physical fighting... the aunt especially. my whole life they've been preaching to us to be blah blah blahhhhhhhh hardworking, determined, initiative, and smart and all that other bc (bullcrap) that ive been preached about my whole life... at a few instances i wish i could just bare hand slaughter all these filthy humans. But all the other times? People who tell you to be hardworking and strive for a living....??? they're incredibly, fearfully right. Im beginning to hate it.

took some quizzes and/or test last week from www.tickle.com. sorta fun. self realization i guess... all the next stuff is from tickle's results aka test results.

Here's what we found out: While your overall attraction factor is 56, you are getting most noticed by others for your behavior.

... you have a Fearful Avoidant relationship attachment style. You tend to have mixed feelings about relationships. A part of you may want to have a close, loving relationship, but another part of you may be somewhat uncomfortable with commitment. It's also likely that you are afraid others will let you down or abandon you. Although you tend to be open to relationships, you may not easily reveal the true you, and potential partners are likely to be intrigued about discovering the person you are deep down.

... the thing you need most in a relationship is Deep Connection In your ideal relationship you and you partner would be deeply and passionately connected. This sense of intimacy is really important for you. As is the need for certain rules and an understanding of who wields the power in your relationship. But regardless of how this works, your deep need for this kind of closeness will ultimately drive your relationship._

September 1, 2004; 5pm, WHAT IS IT WEDNESDAY

_Continued from yesterday's test and/or quiz results...
... you're inspired by Being a Trailblazer Were you the kind of kid who was always starting up lemonade stands or selling candy bars door-to-door? Even if you weren't an early entrepreneur you definitely like doing things your own way. And why shouldn't you? There's a huge rush when taking (somewhat calculated) risks and heading into uncharted territory � whether that means starting your own business, or just heading to some underdeveloped mystical and magical vacation spot.

With your creativity, vision, and loads of leadership skills, you're a natural at knowing how to get everyone � your friends, your family, or your co-workers � on board with your plans. Of course, that probably also has to do with that positive vibe you're projecting. So keep moving to your own beat. With a pulse as strong as yours, others are sure to follow.

... your connection type is The In-depth Conversationalist Whether it's 4 in the morning or 4 in the afternoon, you're probably the friend people call when they need someone to talk to. "Lean on me" might as well be your theme song. You're a great confidante and advisor who's especially good at listening to your pals when something's on their mind. Just make sure they're willing to do the same for you!

Marathon phone calls don't tire you out! You've been working on your endurance for years. Whether talking about the major events in your life, spelling out every detail of your last vacation, or giving the all important blow-by-blow of your last date, you've got stories to share with the loved ones in your life! And if that afterthought occurs just after you hang up? No worries. You're not ashamed to call back for a quick update. Sure, your friends might tease you about your flair for drama and attention to detail. But they always know that when they need you, you're just a phone call away.

... you're Magnificent at Midnight No doubt about it, you're bright-eyed and bushy-tailed in the hours when many have already given their last hurrah! You're one of those fine few who move with the moon and thrive when the sun has been down for hours. And that gives you lots of advantages.

When most people are losing steam � at events, on the streets, at dinner parties, on the dance floor � you're just revving up, ready to amaze people with your charms, ideas, and thoughts about the world. It's pretty energizing to think that while you're at your peak, most of your neighbors are already falling into a deep, deep sleep.

Unfortunately, there are some disadvantages to your midnight hours of power � like finding cold, stale coffee in the pot when you wake up, or realizing it's too late to call your friends when you have that spark of a great idea. Then there are those times when you have to get up early even though your body feels like it's only half-awake.

But when that happens, all you really need is a sure-fire, pick-me-up � like a quick shot of caffeine, getting some exercise, or even taking a power shower to rejuvenate you. And once that happens, there's no stopping you as you move into a whole new power hour!

... you're most at home in the Bedroom Your "me" time is sacred. And who can blame you? With all the different directions we're pulled in each day, we could all use a little time by ourselves to refuel the old battery. That's why the bedroom is a great haven for you. Surrounded by the things that comfort you most � whether down pillows, soft blankets, or your favorite knickknacks. The boudoir is a place you can take time to relax, think, and just be you.

It's where you can tuck yourself into your favorite chair and write in your journal or climb into bed, pull the covers up, and take an undisturbed catnap. Even as kids, our bedrooms were places that were definitively ours, and that's never changed. A heavenly mixture of coziness and solitude, you'll find no better sanctuary than your very own bedroom.

Todayyyyy i saw many of my pals aka companions w/e the heck u call it. An intriguingly interesting day, im beginning to agree with many Seniors that Senior yr is like the laid back yr- what im typically well known for. its basically too easy and such. its beginning to seem that way.... i saw Christopher Jacobs, Gerald Morlidge, Mike, Suzanne Tsang, Carol..... (0_0)... i THINK i saw i glimpse of Samantha, Duy, Melissa, Stellar Chan, Annie Cheong, Xian Kuang, Cheok Fun U, and maaaaaaaaan..... there's a whole lotsa people i recognized. geez, what fun. OR NOT! actually it really IS FUN!!! my schedule for Senior yr is as follows...

AP English4, Marie Duffey

Notables, Roy Glover

Advanced Algebra, Nnenna Foster

Psychology, T Levy
_

10:30pm;
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families,more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.

We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
A colossal part of philosophy right there... what a speech it was by someone, literally. anyways this is turning out to be quite the post aka edit aka..... update.... first thing- like SLHS always has been, it was disoriented when everyone was getting their shedules in the morning near the cafeteria. i spotted so many familiar people, but unfortunately, they've never been friends with me for real and unfortunately, it's going to be that way forever. anyways there was this one black guy, a sophomore, who transferred from Antioch and he lives just 3 mins from SLHS? i went to this dump school for over 2 yrs and i still ive 40 mins away in walking distance. maybe he was speaking of driving time, but STILL- it still takes me longer than his ass to get there. anyway cheok and i (yes, cheok- he took 3 college classes and passed em all; what a nerd... jk) were conversating near the student center AND I WAS POTTY MOUTHING so much obscene language about random issues. hey- sometimes i get to the point where im so bored and/or hyperactive i speak garrulously. it gets really annoying, and gerald can inform u of my annoyances when i get on a rant. so while cheok and i were talking w/ my cussing (it doesnt bother my guy pals, but gals it does) i suddenly noted someone who looked all too familiar to Suzanne sitting on the porch steps of the Student Center. she had her back to me, but i was pretty sure it was her. i suddenly panicked, thinking she noticed my voice and maybe she was getting disgusted by my lame, filthy language. I'm really self conscious. I've always been that way. i was such an egghead...!!!!! *hits myself* actually i dont injure myself on purpose cuz thats not peaceful. i hate myself. so i made up something to leave the area since i was getting a bit worried.... (0_0) i see Styner walking by. i have to ask him about some things. i go 2 my AP English, and DAMN! i see Carol Chiu (who shouts out at me when i enter nervously), Suzanne Tsang (son of a !!!!), and Amanda Frey?! shes supposed to hate me or somethiing, but she didnt seem that way. i saw a couple other people i knew b4, but hey- the teacher Miz Duffey loved me; vice versa! i was like BOOYAH! i sit in the back, but in front of Amanda.... (0_0) scaaaaary..... shes LOUD. and a stereotypical critique. overtime. she should get friggin paid for what she blabbers... BUT shes not evil evil- she's sorta arrogant, id say. anyways then i finally got to NOTABLES, where Samantha DID NOT !*#)!*#)($!) show up for some odd reason. everyone seemed to be really confused by that and didnt know why. mister Glover was sorta frantic when he saw the musical class had only about 15 people in it. i was so sure this yr's Notables would be the maximum people SLHS Notables had EVER!! but wrong i am, so sad. i started pondering whether samantha got her schedule mixed up, since it happens... i was thinking about her the whole day (man i suck). but i cleared the air about her when i interrogated Stellar about her. Her classes did get messed up- she doesnt even have Notables on it. TY STELLAR!!!!! shes a HUNNIE. so i breathe huge sighs of relief as my heart is relaxed once again. YOU know, i failed many math classes b4. part of the explanation is that my TEACHERS are lameasses but THIS FALLL, Nnenna Foster is teaching it!! i was joking about her name because Foster is named after a lot of things. every 1 of my classes is filled up to the brim, except Notables. Edward Tran, same age as me, is the first person to ask me for notes on the AP English4. how surprising- like many people, he didnt take notes. its alright.. for all those leadership qualities and acts he's performed over his life, he deserves some great help. CAROL CHIU! you're in my Advanced Algebra class with Miz Foster........ MAN SHE'S GETTING REPETITIVE!!! i friggin swear. what a coincidence.... i swear this is dejavu all over the place. im SURE this years gonna be so fun, itll rock my socks off!!!!!!! WOOT. and for those of u who're up reading me? my bad; i apologize. but its MY LIFE. i write it out. unlke everyone. that teacher, Foster? shes the best math teacher (in personality at least) taht ive had for 2 years!!! shes enthusiastic, personable, taught 15 yrs in Nigeria b4, taught in Juvenile Hall, and taught for 2 yrs at SLHS. this is, as she says it, "My final ballstop." how fun. this school where im attending is her FINALE, her retirement place more than likely. she has a STRONG African accent, and man- the whole class was charmed and LAUGHING it all up everytime she said a word. she seems to love to talk. talk about things OTHER than maht, that is. Psychology was totally opposite- the teacher ..... this is like the only time i ever had 2 gal black teachers before for education. whoa, thats odd.... Miz Levy is worse than i thought- she's strict & i dont think she likes many things. but the class is fun enuf, since we learn about the mind and heart and stuff like that. i have no pals in Psychology. how drab; ill make some by the end of the year..... i HOPE...... doesnt really matter. there was this HILARIOUSLY comical but awkward scene as Miz Foster told us an experience of hers- she drove pass this other driver and he stuck the middle finger up at her and he said something bad at her, but she misinterpreted it (how the squirrels can u misinterpret bad language such as that?!!!!) so she said "thank you". i swear, if i was the only person in the world, id be crying with tears. as Miz Foster said to the class today, "Don't use bad language. Because soon every word, the B word, the F word, the S word: they'll all be bad words. And you shouldn't pass that down to the youth. Even if you don't want to have kids. THAT's why you should stop cussing." great lesson there, so ill try to adhere to it. nuff said. niiiiiiight world..._

September 2, 2004; 8pm, tireless Thursday

_i saw many more of people i knew and more, much more pals. Alex Bassett, Matt, and even Edward Tran, Anna Wang (who looked at me adoringly for like 1 sec and then i turned away as usual ARGH), Alexander Higgins Bunte (and i saw his jacked up car which really sucked but i shouldnt complain), and Lorena (who high fived w/ me and spoke with me for awhile). but most of all... Samantha. why do i sound like a damn deadened tone? Well DONT blame ME, geez. i really forgot how difficult it was to speak to her. and now, since we both know each other's secrets, life is THAT MUCH more difficult. what a day what a DAY. Jessica Gorham, flirtatious as she is, came up to me in the middle of the Quad at lunch and high fived with me at least 2 times. i sensed a hug. but no, im too !)#*!)*#!)!*)&$ scared for that. it was right smack in the middle of the school, geez!!! AND WHEN WILL I GROW UP?! she even loudly blurted that we were best friends... SIGH. and THEN Annie aka Pinkyswear shows up!?? and she said hi. jessica's on one side; annie on the other. im dumbstruck for awhile, BUT luckily annie walks off (seeing that i was busy) and jessica asks me, "It she your girlfriend?" i say NO, she's my cousin! all the while im thinking damn, why do i lie and WHY oh WHY do i burn like this?! im so fortunate gals wont see thru me... unlike other people. onto OTHER stuff... Tracy Levy is teaching alot in Psychology nowadays.... though many people are right- she's a bit random AND doesnt provide much work or does much. she seems a bit too young & shes a psychologist... which explains why shes so damned critical. and outspoken TOOO... whadda u expect though? shes into articles and reading material.... and thats that. its extremely bright in her room, but how can I change THAT?! there are going to be seat changed in all my classes but most likely NOT Notables. sitting behind samantha, i feel like its another f'd up coincidence. im the deepest BASS in all of SL, WOOT!!!!!!! and samantha was placed by mister glover as the SECOND highest soprano. Laura's THE highest. Samantha's been on my deep mind ALL day. i noticed she was wearing makeup, or at least MORE of it this year. what happened to plain, good ole samantha stettler that I once knew? everyone but me changes. how lame. yeah i see like hundreds of people i recognize- 99% of them arent fit to be pals with me and vice versa. it's a sad, sad world, & that's not a lie, my good fellow. samantha and i didnt even speak to each other at all. such awkward, terrifyingly embarrassing moments. "I love fool's experiments. I'm always in them." School is extremely fun though.. but Carol, damn.... i should really get to class earlier. and im dreading these sweats- they fall off EVERY second no matter WHAT i do standing up._

September 6, 2004; 4:30pm, maximum Monday

_TY SSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !@(#*&)!*&#)!$& much, you mentally moronic brother. AND YOU ALL KNOW FUCKING WHAT? I CANT CONTAIN MYSELF FROM STOPPING CUSSING AND THIS ALMOST A MILLION DOLLAR HOUSE HAS SO MANY FAWKING WINDOWS IT'S TOO DAMNED LLUMINATED IN HERE it's hazardous to health. man those architects think lighted places brighten up people's souls? not exactly!!! stupidass ignoramuses. hmmmmmmm ignoramos..... ignoramous? yeah thats how u spell it. ignoramouses. anyway id also like to thank those faggots who think they're my *fucking parents* because they aint. i hate em. i started hating them oh i dunno when... too much loathing clouding up my mind. why do u think i had countless nosebleeds during puberty?! when im furious, im blacker than the fucking devil. i swear. now u all should have a bit clearer of an idea why im so LIGHTHEARTED AND JOCUND. and dont stand/sit around when you dunno what i mean when i utilize "big words" and crap. go look it up like i normally do, gees. those gal cousins of mine are just getting plain annoying now. i might have to start being harsh, or maybe not..... it's difficult to get me harsh. but when i am, ill kill every single one of u assholes, you ni99as and mofos. gee........ so Pinkyswear cancelled yesterday's plans to watch Wicker Park and probably roam around Bayfair Mall to find some shtinking job. it didnt really affect me personally- mainly because i've never really treated anything too seriously... especially little, sudden changes like that; in fact, i was 10% relieved when she told me she couldnt go. she called me and told me "doesnt know why" she couldnt go. she thinks she cant go anywhere else for the rest of the 3 day Labor Day weekend. wow. its like a rat's ass...... this summer heat gets to some people, i know. i didnt bother questioning her, for i knew it might irritate matters. and i uphold the peace, peaceful me. harharharharhahahaha. hmmmmmm what else is new? i think im gonna start ranting about the past once more, HAH. i dunno how people other than my pals can get their eyes over all this type. it's my wonderful gift and my wonderful curse. so any lame wanderers who wander into this realm who think they can just spy and/or stalk me??? totally outta my league, cuz im sure they wont last 5 mins. Pals? thats a whole different thing. what an exception.

whats up w/ Laura? *_* i think i know what it is... but she keeps giving me random, quick glances back at me cuz she sits in front of me to my left... she's the highest Soprano in Notables while im the deepest Bass this yr. HOW FUN!!! Samantha got her wisdom teeth yanked out Friday and when Mister Glover said something like "bye, Samantha and/or have a good weekend" or something like that, she responded with a spiffy "Thank you very much." and then left thru the hall doors. She's either becoming sweeter and juicier everyday or im really losing it i cant get her *** outta my MIND, HEART, SOUL, BODY, AND U KNOW... i questioned my gorgeous friend Rick Styner... who i havent seen in about 2 months... about wisdom teeth. He told me something like if people who have wisdom teeth carefully brush their teeth and brush all the way in, they should live their lives 99% painless in matters of teeth. I was so relieved... but then, at lunch, while i was chomping down "happily" on my carrot sticks, Annie appears out of nowhere and probably stared at me for about a minute w/ her friend Lisette... i was sitting on a desk eating, right?! And i freaked the !*#!)#*&!)#&(&$!!)$&!)$)&%!!$+ out!!! when i turned, i saw her, and she grinned that cheesy, MAKE YOU LAFF AND SMILE ALL DAY sorta grin, and....... aaaaaaand- oh god........ i left the room and washed my hands and returned to finish my lunch in Styner's comp lab and Pinkyswear was gone (whew). (clutches head) this summer heat is still bothersome. How fun. Father's punk ass finally starts a new job at who knows where... AAND im just freakin sweltering like a mofo. Dave got me a new, extremely effective mouse from WalMart. sccrew cordless devices. they're just incompetent in matters of completing great jobs. should i dump this cordless, FAGGOTASS mouse that consumed all my loverly batteries?! man this music is sooooooo......... serene... its half stunning. half sucker. what am i describing ? spider webs. especially when they're in sunlight... if you closely examine a spiderweb in sunlight... its streaking. im staring at one right now. next to my printer. im about to kill that spider right now if i can find it.... ah how sweet death feels .... and TASTES. good day to all you viewers here._

September 7, 2004; 8pm, takes time Tuesday

_Hmmmmmmmmmm Roy GLover, director of all vocal classes at SLHS for a loooong time, is about to retire soon. i thot it was 2005. but, apparently, he might stay a bit longer..... he told the class that no one has ever finished all the music lessons he has for them to learn. there are about 100 or so...... but im somewhat unsure. i STILL havent turned in the freaking Yearbook form for a cheaper Yearbook price when it comes out in May or June. you know what song's the best? Musiq Soulchild- Just Friends. it's so totally descriptive of my life.......... ARGH. STILL didnt start HW. might as well start..... the glue stick i was using today turned out to be totally used up. freaking dave, that punk. Notables is gonna have a song named Hail, San Leandro. its a song about saying farewell to San Leandro. its a simple song but for now i dunno the lyrics (scolds myself). Notables isnt so difficult. AP English4, to my guh reat dissapointment?!! i got a D on the essay AND multiple choice tests. but hey, there's always room for improvement. everyone seems to not have any AC (Air Conditioning) but wants to goto UCs. wow. UCs are the highest places of edumuhcation in CA, USA. me? im pretty content that im gonna be going to Academy Of ARt UV in next summer. Fun times- its SF, and there's not too much (*!#)(!&*$)&!$)&!)$& to handle like tuition fees at all at that UV. its simple since im gonna take Motion Pics & TV as my major. and if THAT doesnt work, let's try Animation, shall i? right now i really dont really have any real HW to do. BUT if i want some loverly GRADES, then i might as well produce a great start. "Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's what's in the middle that counts. So, when you find yourself at the beginning, just give hope a chance to float up. And it will..." Samantha's mouth and cheek is really swollen- like a chipmunks. im not freaking playing. Clubs should have started this week. who knows. im gonna make it, so NEVER FEAR. There's nothing to fear but fear itself._

September 8, 2004; 7pm, weeding out Wednesday

_ive slowly begun the to describe each day with more than one word. itll sound better and be better and all those other blahhhhhhhh blah stuffs. w/e. so this Crematorium is about to be built in San Leandro near the center of the city... basically everyone opposes the building project..... but im only 90% sure it wont be built. u know how governments are. sometimes they never listen to the public, even if something in the public vicinity will harm those govt idiots also. a crematorium is a place where they incinerate dead bodies. then the ill, life threatening stench the factory produces? the wind blows it all over the Bay so everyone would get sicker than !*&#)(!#)(&!. thats why its deathening to people's health. SOooo.... next time there's a meeting to oppose and speak against this Crematorium factory project, i might have a better chance of being there. the next meeting is October 18... but thats a rough estimate. today was an ok day.... finally spoke to Stellar face to face in quite awhile. and tracy levy, the psyche teacher? she really doesnt do anything. how boring, yet fun. advanced algebra's getting on my nerves once again... and i dont care much whether or not anyone EVER finishes all of Mister glover's music lessons. hmm....... (scratches chin and grins awkwardly) maybe if i finish all of them, ill have a better shot at winning a trophy or medal or something like that to remember for the rest of my LIFE!!! BOOYAH! but id say thats a slim chance............. ~.~

I walked w/ Samantha and Antonio out of M1 where Notables is held... and i abruptly had a moment of intense infuriation. WOW. i started by stating that samantha never told me how her summer was like.... and then i drifted spontaneously to say something totally inappropriate.... i think. ill just post up the chat as best as i can remember it.

Antonio (before the doorway): you first.

Charles (grimaces a bit): no, you first (gestures repetitively to the door)

Antonio (in music building hallway): you're a liar, Charles. you said you were moving to Utah!

Samantha (half joking...?): yeah charles u lied. (charles is terribly confused)

Charles (in hallway): what?! i didnt lie... and samantha, u STILL didnt tell me about ur summer.

Samantha (a little disappointed tone...): Well you never asked.

Charles (barely containing his tears and anger... of course, im overdramatic and exaggerated too much in this emotional description): but... (pounds the door window w/ both fists w/ medium force... head is down in agony and Charles slowly moves out the hallway, into the ugly world of hurt and pain) its alright... you can just ignore me... everyone can just ignore me. (throws up hands while he says that)

What a fool i am. *sobs inside my heart and soul*.... well on a muuuuuch better note, tomorrow is most likely the day when i get my last locker until... never again basically. *_*; =_=' anyways it costs about $7 more or less. Pinkyswear made the tennis team. BRAVO! *clap clap CLAP*.......... ARGHHHHHH HER BDAY IS TOO SOON- NEXT MONDAY!!! sunofa!!!!!! Mister Styner still hosts all his computer science classes in spring term only and lets people use his room after school? daym. he is the GREAT. such loverly friends i know..... *sigh*..... "Ni99a, you outta yo mofoing mind?! Till you clean up the mess you made... HUCK peace. Until we all get a piece of it, FORGET IT. PEACE..."_

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