July 30, 2004; 2pm, frantic Friday
_Many things. Many many many many manyyyyyyyyyyyyyy things... i could've helped Annie a bit. but maybe im 2 late now. maybe she's not gonna arrive here at the SL Main Library... ill tell you more later._
9pm; AHHHHH!!! i can smell the fresh air on the deep blue ocean ALREADY!!! im going fishing around Monterey Bay, and believe me... there aint no SEVERE threat... to ME at least. idiots like parents "care 2 much" about me, hallucinating that i might drown, bit by a shark, AND/OR some other fatality occurruing to "their precious, now oldest child". SSCREWWWWWWWWW em!!! i find out more and more everday that people are actually similar to me in many ways- impatient and lazy. these are people's biggest trademarks nowadays... and u know what's really significant? as u age, u normally get tired more easily and more often. therefore if u continue moving aANNNND being active, then you wont "hop the river"!!! what a true thing, damn. i gotta pack up my shit for the long stay, so FUN FUN FUN!!! yeahhhh, i stalk a lot of people; so what?! i only SUPER care for the people i stalk, like.... Annie today. i was gonna catch up w/ her about some crap but she didn't appear at the SL Main Library for her volunteer work. it's some boring as misery if you're a volunteer there- in my pt of view at least since im not a people person, dislike people, and am uncomfortable around em. do you know how much an average sunscreen lotion costs to nurture ur lovely skin?!!? about $10 each i tell ya, and they're reaaaaly downsized. a lotion pack is only about the length of my outstretched hand overall. took some mighty cwazy quizzes, wutsup doc?
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and the most horrifying fact about these quizzes is that they're REAL. and HERE's evidence; an excerpt from pinkiexswear herself:
somethings going on. kevin was asking me if i miss being single ("no :T)". and if i like being a couple ("uh yes o_o''").
but when i asked him he was like "i dont know" to missing being single. and he wont answer me about liking being a couple.
oh. and he accidentally called me dana yesterday.
hahahaha.
i feel LOVED.
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Now thats obviously sarcasm right there, but hey... i hear there relationship's getting mucho better. welp, Xian Cai Kuang is finally the last one to sign my Yearbook. Tom's place is one of the rooms of the Milias Apartments place. This is my first time ever that I'll be staying at a pal's place for so long and away from everyone else that i normally hang out w/o those a holes in this 500,000 something dollars house. I'm so relieved that Samantha N Stettler AND Annie Cheong kept me so strong. i somehow feed off my friend's energies + love... especially all the times Annie stayed close to me and leaned against me... and.. showed me there are still wonderful individuals in this world. the exact same goes for Samantha, but she's much more timid and shy... she provided so much encouragement for the times in Choir, during the van ride to the afterparty, and a whole buncha other times during rehearsal nights. she always made such meaningful statements like, "Say something, Charles." and other stuff like "Come on Charles, it's fun." stuff like that... god i hate how she's all away thousands of miles overseas; the worst thing i hate is the fact that i was such a coward to get her contact info... omfg. anyways my habit of doing stretching and/or mini exercises has returned for some reason(s). i now attempt to do them every night b4 i sleep. remember, im a health fanatic. GOODBYE... for now, Bay Area. "A guy's better off without a gal to weigh him down." "I've realized one sad thing my whole life... the answer to 99 out of 100 questions is money." I'm getting my official fishing license tomorrow. Shirley Cheung's the official SLHS representive? Holy God that's surprising... she's such a dedicated, person who does waaaaaay 2 much... which, unfortunately, produces some horrible results about her because it makes her seem to spontaneous and random. not in a bad sense, but.. she doesn't seem to have many strengths or weaknesses cuz shes so damned nomadic. AND she's stil getting tired and not enuf rest/sleep... ah whatever._
August 1, 2004; 9am, SUCCESSFULLY SCRUMPTIOUS SUNDAY
_WHAT A VACATION!!! this is rivaled to a stay in England itself!!! in fact, tom and i began the stay by visiting the Hometown Buffet in Gilroy for some delicious beef steak and/or ribs. i ate until i got full- boneless fried fish!!! man, for a two person $14 all you can eat buffet, it was worth it. AND GUESS WHAT?! when Tom drove us to the Monterey Wharf in the Monterey Bay, by pure chance or deja vu or even coincidence or those 3 altogether, i somehow spotted Jessica, Juan Armendariz, and Melissa Modifer!!! TOTALLY ECSTATIC!!! jessica and juan, graduated seniors from june... jessica lives in monterey now... the four of us had our pic taken by tom. so i bid them "bye", and then walked around the beach near the waters. there was hella sightseeing, especially the countryside all around the sides of the narrow freeway. there was this odd sand dune which had people's love notes written all over sides of it. ALSO, WE WATCHED THE PLAY MY FAIR LADY WHICH WAS THE DAMNDEST BEST HELLISHLY HEAVENLY MOST AWESOME LIVE THEATRE MUSICAL ive EVER EXPERIENCED!!! it was the smallest live theater ive ever been in, but damn!!! the people were INVOLVED, as in they continuously came into the audiences and in Act 2, these flower girls gave me a batch of fake flowers. (0_0) they straight up buttered my heart with PARADISE yesterday there, for in the end, all the cast members shook the audience's hands. i "half" cried during the way back, and nearly bawled all out. but hey, it was the BEST!!! it was so real and luuurvely... HILARIOUS i woke up at 6:30am today- earliest in months. hrmmm... i feed off friends, hey, what can you say. Keme & Peter = owners of a travel agency in Ireland... Tom's niece is Keme, and i might even ask Samanthaaaaaaaaa if she got across them somehow. that improvisation at My Fair Lady? off the shiznit. its unforgettable._
3:30pm; returned from Casa de Fruta, a place about 10 miles or east of Gilroy. ate at the Casa de Fruta restaurant and rode a "Choo Choo Train", haha. then i saw a real live buffalo for the first time, a few cows here and there along my trip, horses, and peacocks. heyyy.. dental appointment tomorrow, 9am in Oakland. bleah...! friday was last day of summer school before my "maturity"... w/e._
11:30pm; holy god the purty gals of the My Fair Lady cast continuously gave me the laaaaazy eyes... ^-^_
August 2, 2004; 9pm, mushy Monday
_got my fishing license today at Walmart... it cost about less than $20. ima have to wake up at around 4am tomorrow to go with Tom to pick up Bob, who works on the boat with tom, one of my bestest of best companions ever. ive got this annoying ass mucus involved cough in my freaking throat which, i think, is killing me... (0_0). i ate KFG chicken today... it was decent, but nowadays i dont feel like i need food as much as i need SLEEP. arrrrrghhhhh...... sleeeppppy sleep sleeeeeeeepyhead...!!! annie's going to New York the last two weeks of this month? that sounds barbarious... if you've never been to china, india, or New York, then you have no shittin clue how crowded it is there ;- \ _
August 3, 2004; 8:30pm, tight Tuesday
_Seasickness = something i thought i would brave the first time i stepped onto a crowded, rocking, old boat while on a fishing mission. Tom, Bob, and i got there at around 5:30am...... whooooooa i woke up at around 2am?! and now my hacking cough is torturing me constantly and i cant do anything verbal w/o blasting my lungs out! the cool sea air definitely refreshed me quite a bit- what they say is true... "There is nothing like the cool, salty ocean air to rejuvenate the body." my throat is causing me elevated stress...... but i CAN handle it! harhar, matey!!! im feeling soooo sleepy and drowsy.... may i rest on her lap plsss? oh thank her so much... thank her..._
August 6, 2004; 6:30pm, flaming Friday
_my first ever case of seasickness was on yesterday out on the ocean. Bob, Charles Dougherty, Tom, and me went far fishing yesterday. Tom = Mister Punctuality all around. so i sorta enjoyed my days as a fisherman and/or someone experiencing the sea upfront. i rode an astonishing wave once, and the ocean water splashed all over the floor of the rickety, old, torn down boat. her name was Nephi, and yesterday might have been the last i'd ever be w/ her again. what an experience... ohhh we caught an estimated 10 pound SALMON ON OUR WAY BACK to the dock.!!!!!!!!! that was unforgettable. Charlie D and Bob ate some cookies and they each even ate a sandwich in front of me; godamn the tempation... while i was seasick too!!! argh, what a miserable feeling. i began becoming seasick after a LONG while when we were still out far in the ocean. i couldnt hurl much over the side of the boat cuz i didnt eat much in the morning, if anything. right now i keep up the fruit intake to maintain my health and fight off this monstrous cough that's elevated over the last few days. today tom and i watched Collateral- a movie with Jamie Foxx and Tom Cruise in it. Cruise was playing a super assassin aka hitman, and Jamie was a taxicab driver. Beneath all the violence in the setting of LA and the crude talk, there are some major philosophical notes in this here movie. its about a 7 on a 1-10 scale... and it leaves the audiences with limitless questions. we visited Charlie D's residence on Wednesday- he has this makeshift "barn" behind his house and he's been married to Evelyn for 6 yrs about. she's rich w/ "old money", and old money is better than "new money", as they all say. she got rich from leftover property from the past, and Charlie got rich with her... Charlie's only 50 something though while Evelyn's like 90 something. their house is so damn cluttered with material of all sorts like dolls, papers, 5 dogs and 2 cats. he owns a cadillac which isnt so bad, but he couldnt take me out for a drive with his red Jag, which is a sad jalopy. bob and charlie D are both married and live in Prunedale, and they live faaaarrrrrrrr out in the countrysides. Ohlone College in Fremont was located in the top hills with a killer view and separate from the city feeling. bob and charlie are really easygoing, nice people- bob smokes and drinks though. tom and i are about to goto watsonville for to watch some car races. it'll last from about 7:30pm to 8:30pm more or less. i return to my house tomorrow at a random time._
August 7, 2004; 1pm, summer Saturday
_BOOYA FOOYAHHHH!!! the last blasts of summer may be tragic torture, but hey- what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, as they all say. anyways today tom and i are going to look at the Academy Of Arts University in Frisco. im 90% sure that im going there after high school graduation. my 3 majors will most likely be involved with entertainment industries (in so many ways i look at optimistic views in life, so im sure im great enoug for this lightweight type of job). motion pictures, animation, sound, music, all that.. more or less. yesterday at the Watsonville race in the Santa Cruz County Fair, the half jalopy cars spouted such noxious fumes that the two of us left early at 8:30pm. it was loud, there were almost constant fumes in the damned air, and my cough was already choking me again and again... and AGAIN. later in the afternoon we're gonna watch The Village. its set in 1800s or 1900s in Pennsylvania. the cast consists of 60 townspeople of different ages, but all "American." im getting so busy during the END!!! why?!? allen chang that a hole still hasnt sent me some CDs as compensation for his grub headed mistakes of losing my CDs. screw that fatass. till later!_
August 9, 2004; 8pm, marsh Monday
_im incapacitated every time i cough- im generally one of the most hygienic, sanitary people of all life. this cough struck me so sudden 2 weeks ago and now it's dying down slooowwwly.... father took me to see Hua Chen, MD. that clinic's supposed to be the place where i go whenever im ill. the doc there poked me with a damned needle on my left arm... i think it was for TB (tuberculosis) check. if a red spot shows up in about 2 days later, i have to call him. it doesnt matter if any spot(s) show up; i still have to contact him... my condition might be fatal, which never really occurred to me because im a firm believer that if iself believe that im strong, then I really WILL be strong and every ugly disease will be nothing to me. this week is the "fabulous" family vacation: Tuesday till Friday all over Universal Studios and other places in LA such as Disneyland and MAYBE the LA Coliseum... the doc prescribed me some horrible tasting meds (arent they always?) at the pharmacy. i havent taken meds and/or pills in so long... and these meds are damn strong- almost every time i take em, i feel as if ive received morphine and/or heavy drowsiness. the coughing persists like crazy, and the people most susceptible to getting infected by a person with a sickness are younger people... in this case, my bro. if he gets it, it'll surely be severe... and his diabetes will worsen it. owell... i cant prevent EVERY little thing!!! i can only minimize illnesses like everyone else should. i got a B- in Summer School History and an A in Conversational Spanish. I received the mail sometime during my stay at Tom's what fun this summer has been!!! THIS HAS BEEN THE BEST, MOST FUN SUMMER I'VE EVER HAD YET!!!. god im grateful... yesterday Marius Rotaru, father, Dave, Marius's grandma, and I went to GA (Great America)!!! what fun that was!!! great america removed Greased Lightning and Stealth- two top attractions. i rode the Grizzly, Demon, and tried out the Go Karts. the lines were bloody hell long as usual. i still have to finish up my AP English assignment: does anyone have notes for KING JAMES VERSION OF THE BIBLE?!!?_
August 14, 2004; 2pm, stinking Saturday
_so my hacking, dry cough has finally died down to a tiny spark, but only due to extremely high doses of medication... some prescribed by the physician, others my damned father stuck me to. i only consumed all these sickening meds because i was horribly ill. i know that taking all those meds are BAD, B-A-D. it doesnt mean im gonna be 100% back to my regular ole self...no, meds dont ever do that. they always leave some sorta odd mess in ur body that might sicken you later on. these meds in fact, are so severe that they left me dizzy, drowsy, and a bit hallucinative. they put me in such bouts of sleepiness during my LA vacation... hah. i heard many times that morphine is the best painkiller of all time- it also has drastic side effects such as addiction and hallucination. all that medication ive been taking 24/7 might as well equal morphine itself since ive been so numb and physically insensitive. ive also noticed some patterns of strange clumsiness, worse than my normally klutzy self. the LA vacation was actually travel company sponsored, so tour buses had to take us tourists all over LA and Anaheim & even Bakersfield. we went to Livermore, were driven thru Pleasanton, Dublin, Richmond, Concord, San LEandro, Oakland, Cupertino, San Jose, and a buncha other places near the edges of CA. We travelled all over Disneyland and CA Adventure Theme Park in one day... the rides and thrills and attractions? NOT just mean for toddlers, no no!!! in fact, the combo of adventurous things to do like watching films, water rides, roller coasters, food, drinks, and of course- the cartoon chars were more than enough to entertain me. we even got to watch the 45 min musical Aladdin!!! for such a short musical, it sure had several amazing gimmicks and props. Genies, a flying carpet, opening floors, and stunt doubles continuously popped up all over the first floor. i was sitting up, up, waaaaaay up in the balcony. what a high bird's view that was!! we also went to Universal Studios for a whole day, and man that was some getaway!!! i especially liked the part when i was in Cyberdyne Theatre. the blond lady in a red suit was hilarious- some act she was putting on like when she kept repeating super in such horrific tones!!! the Waterworld show was spectacular with all that diving and boats and flames appearing outta nowhere. during the vacation down there, the weather was almost constantly hot... the highest it got was about 90s, so the temp wasnt as fierce as LV, Nevada. and we also stayed at the Anaheim Park Hotel, which was somewhat cheap. September 1 is when school restarts. we also went to Beverly Hills and roamed around Hollywood... the pavement had many engraved signatures of stars aka celebrities. finally received my DMV CA ID Card yesterday when i returned to the Bay (im telling you, i missed the Bay Area's weather and temperate climate like nothing else). ive STILL got a lot to say...
3:30pm; OK, Annie has finally left for New York today and she'll return by August 22... harhah. my eyes are basically stabilized; went to optometrist today and he said told me i had a minor eye infection... dirty eyes, he adds. i agree because i have DES (Dry Eye Syndrome), which can become very lethal. he proclaims the treatment is simple- wash my closed eyelids 2x/day with warm water and possibly soap!!! it'll be cured eventually, he says... we conversated a bit about eye surgery, and he responded that not even he'd ever try any form of it because of the deadly cons. "They don't tell you about the cons because that'll ward people away. They don't tell you about them. They don't." the optometrist seemed so damn frank in his reasoning of cons that im encouraged to never ever try any laser eye surgery or any other eye surgery w/o researching all the full cons and pros of it. scarring and other fatal risks are involved with laser eye surgery as well as all other kinds of eye surgeries... as always, the eyes are the most sensitive parts of the body. Ive pondered obtaining contact lens from time to time, but people and optometrists continually discourage me- the cons include scarring, pain, high maintenance, etc... it looks like im so pressured into wearing glasses all my life. Ah BLOODY hell..._
August 15, 2004; 7pm, super Sunday
_Today in the around the wee hours of the morning i had a terrifying dream of going thru the process of transferring to Oakland High School... but the frist, strongest thought that stopped me and brought me back to my senses was Samantha N Stettler. Whenever I thought of her, it pained me so much to think about never having her presence near me ever again so I stopped the transfer so I could return to SLHS... anyways it was a nightmare, not a dream... haha damn you Xian. So tomorrow ive got a bloody blood test where the doc(s) and/or scientist(s) stick a long needle into a vein in the middle of one of your arms; i strongly dislike pain, but have never feared death. geez... this wednesday father's bringing me and my lil bro to a water amusement park in concord somewhere... sometime.. AND i still have to finish taking notes on The King James Version Of The Bible, that piece of literary garbage i tell ya!!! Hey guess what?! Annie proclaimed she wouldn't dump Kevin, but a few hrs after she said that, they broke up!! that was yesterday.... in the eency wincy hrs of the morning AM. Their relationship seemed to be repairing slowly, but the finale was as i predicted once- the two weren't adequate for each other. Love is a haze, I tell you. A mysterious haze."_
August 16, 2004; 1:30pm, mere Monday
_OK the blood test wasnt as bad as i figured it'd be... the gal who was gonna stick the needle into my the back of my HAND? i barely felt any pain... it was like mini prick. i alsoooo had a urine test... 2-3 days from now i have to check with my doc to know the results of my urine and blood tests. hopefully that blood test will be the last one i deal with because the gal who tested me said she couldnt notice any damned blood vein on my left arm... so instead she poked the back of my left hand. WHY oh WHY dont they just draw blood from the hand instead of arm then?! this way older woman than me was after my turn in the lab and she encouraged me to stop being so nervous and stay calm. she's a cancer patient and every 3 months the lab doc(s) and/or scientist(s) have to draw blood from her arm(s)... if she has to go thru that ordeal, i thought, I shouldnt be squirming like a hellish idiot!!! i mean my younger bro takes insulin shots on various body parts every single freaking day, so man... i have it good.. grateful i am. overall im almost the most hygienic, sanitary, and cleanliest individual that anyone would ever know. however, people like me (incomparably rare in count) still get horrible sicknesses like this terrifying cough. it's almost dead, and within THREE weeks. last year when i had this uglyass cough involved with a ton of sticky mucus, im sure it took at least a month to rid. i couldve infected the whole precinct and everyone i was around... instead, father got a little cough and Hua Chen, the secretary that works at my doc's office, got a nasty infection of it too... lol. i wonder if anyone else got my dreaded cough? hopefully not- it's not peace. on wednesday the fang family's going to Concord's Waterworld USA!!! WOOHOOO, w00t wo0t n199as!!!
2:30pm; Friday the 13th passed last week!!! these occur about 1-5 times every yr... they say it's bad luck, but i say it's a rumor aka superstition. mreh... =- ]_
August 17, 2004; 7pm, tiresome Tuesday
"All babies look alike."That's very true actually... my 2nd uncle's wife's daughter, about 9 months older than my 1st uncle's wife's daughter, visited our house today. both of the two gals visited today, and my oh my oh my... they're so cute and adorable!!! normally they'd get on my nerves BUT they're just so innocent and wide eyed. it's almsot impossible to deny them. Soooo what if they're around 4 yrs old? they're toddlers. gotsta go... my cough 99% died out. Samanthaaaa Samanthaaaa where aaaaaareeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuu?!?!?!?_
August 19, 2004; 10:30pm, truly Thursday
_I nearly DROWNED IN WATERWORLD yesterday from the Hurricane ride. i somehow got stuck in the STRONGass current at the end of the ride... and i was wearing a belt with slacks on and my boxers. and i got tugged underwater... im not a swimmer; NEVER WAS damnit!! i was down under for like a minute, and all the while i was wondering WHO the hell would realize i was freaking dying.... omfg at the last minute, when i felt i was die from all the powerful, pressuring, chlorinated water... i was pulled from the treacherous waters (those a hole rescuers take forever). as Tom's lovely advice, "The ocean is beautiful, but it's just as unforgiving and merciless." Heed the dangerous seas... u know what? i lost my glasses. luckily i ordered a prescription last Sat, so this Saturday im getting new glasses. i like "gold" rimmed ones- they provide a more snazzy, pro look. at the last few seconds of my struggle underwaters, i felt an oddly tingly sensation thru my body- as if everything would be better if i let myself drown, like letting go of an impossible struggle. what a near death experience... almost unforgettable... tomorrow im gonna yum cha at Downtown Oakland, and get a haircut, AND possibly play some bball. the medics that rescued me along with the lifeguards? they're right about the fact that gals swim, but guys play basketball. harhar... i might've gotten some sorta infection or shit in my respiratory system, like pneumonia... im gonna check with my doc at his office tomorrow. owell lets hope for the best.... damn i havent had any near crucial death experience like THAT one ever!!! ive g2g, so buh bye!!! Pray for the best!!_
August 21, 2004; 11am, surviving Saturday
_Since Wednesday's most threatening incident, I'm no longer deathly afraid of myself anymore... instead, one of my Big Three Fears is drowning. hahahahahahahaah verrrrry funny.... stressed friends are all over the place for me... argh.... ill speak later. busy busy right nowwwwww...
3:30pm; i watched The Bourne Supremacy, and it was LAME.... sure, there were 2-5 heartfelt moments along with a few high thrilled, crucial killings... but altogether it was a THROAWAY, garbage movie. Jason Bourne, Im glad your saga has ended. Now onto SUSPECT ZERO, WICKER PARK, MEET THE FOCKERS!!! they're all during this month, next, 4 months from now, or basically THIS YEAR!!! muahahahhahhahahha booooooooyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. today made me finally hate, so loathe despicable haircuts. im done with em, thru wit em. "OUT!!!" outta my waaaaaaay......
10:30pm; heyyyyyy...... for the first time ever... on thursday... i got someone on to set their online profile after me!!!!! Her nickname's Stellar, but her real name's Stella Chan!!!!! Junior in September, she's an alright person. she has a sis, and is pretty OK. "Life is something that happens when you can't sleep."_