To let your mind wander
To let your body rest
God, if only I could
I'm so tired and yet
I fear sleep so deeply
No unwinding for me
My mind doesn't wander
It flows into the pit of my mind
There it relives the past
Feeling again the pain
And the despair of years
It becomes once more
The frightened thing
Hiding on the floor of the closet
Wondering what will
Set it off this time
What word will I say wrong
What action will I do
To earn the next strike
For earn it I will
And so I huddle in my chair
My fear of sleep stronger
Then the exhaustion I feel
Another night will pass slowly
As I struggle to hold on
To what little mind I have left
But I know sometime
I will have to sleep
And slip into the pit