Humiliated beyond what I can bare
He said come with me
Be with me, share your body
To fill my needs
I've been alone for so long
I knew that this would not last
That it was but a momentary lust
I knew and yet my body ached
A fire burned inside that threatened
To consume me if I did not quench it soon
And so I went to give to him
What no one has wanted in years
We touched and kissed
I moaned as I felt his hands
His skin burned against mine
I pressed to him and offered all
But though he tries the fire
Would not burn within him for me
He closed his eyes and tried to find
Within himself and image to bring
His lust to the surface
Until at last he rolled away
Saying that he couldn't
That though he had promised another
He could not find a way to desire me
My God, it was not me he wanted
I was just the key to another
My heart plunged within me
As the fire died beyond restarting
My soul screamed in agony
Quickly I dressed and ran
Never had I felt such pain
To know that I was just a payment
And one not worth paying
Is this what my life has become?
Is this all I'm worth? A pity fuck?
If this is all I have to look forward to
Then is it a life worth living?
The pain becomes unbearable
I see nothing to look for but more pain
This isn't life, not living
Why prolong it? Let it end now.