No one can know where I go
I must get away unseen
If they knew what I was doing
They would try to stop me
Make me give up this foolish idea
But I will not stop this time
There must be an end to this
The endless pain of living
Still I am afraid. I don't
Want to suffer. It's an end
To suffering I seek
Nor do I want others around
As the end comes how it will
Alone I've lived and alone I'll go
I pass through the shadows
Drifting ever further away
From the lights and laughter
They are no longer a part of my world
I find the darkness far kinder
Not seeing a blessing
And their laughter pierces through
To my very soul, twisting deeper
Tormenting me with what I don't have
Happiness is not mine, joy is a stranger
Love is unknown in my life
Only sorrow and despair are mine
No longer can I hear the laughter
The light is far behind me now
All that I find now is darkness
Here I choose, here to end the pain
The grass is soft beneath my feet
The night air cool to my skin
I lay myself down and look to the sky
The stars glisten above me
Twinkling brightly and calling to me
A peace descends upon me
As I breathe in the night
A calmness surrounds me
I know in my heart this is right
There will be a brief pain in the
Lives of those behind me
It will not last for them
No one will grieve for long
No one will mourn without me
Slowly I lift my hand
And caress my temple
With the coolness I hold
There will be heat soon
But I will not know it
I will carry this coolness with me
It's time, I must do this now
Or again I will fail
Even now I hear them calling
They look for me now
But they are too late
No stopping now.
I'm freeeeee..................