Are raised as I
Enter the fray again
Will this be the one?
Will this time I find
Arms to hold me close?
I do not ask for love
I know for me there never
Will be a filling of my heart
All I look for
Is someone to hold me
So I'm not alone
Someone to touch
His lips to mine
To take my breath away
To feel for me
If not need, then lust
To want to touch me
Once again my hopes
Were raised and
Once again were dashed
Words dripped from his lips
Words of want and desire
Words of lies and half truths
His words talked of touching
Of sharing needs together
O being one if only for moments
He pressed his body
Close to mine
He stripped away my fears
He lay me down
He touched, he stroked
My passion into flames
Then came the moment
When two should be one
And there was nothing
With a groan he rolled away
With regret he sighed and spoke
To tell me of the reason why
"A favor,"he said was asked
To pay a debt he owed
A friend or so I thought
A promise he mad her
To give me just one night
To fill my dreams
But he could not do it
For within he could not find
A passion for my body
I was not what
He would want
And his body would not lie
Tears sprang to my eyes
Humiliated and scorned
I dressed and quickly left
Never again would I allow
My hope to rise
Dead will they stay
I realize now that always
Will I be alone
For never can I trust
I will always think
Is this but pity?
Will it happen again?
My heart cannot take
Another blow as this
Better to leave it still
And so again I sit
Watching life pass by
Never to chance the flow
A life alone I now accept
For me this is what will be
Never again to live.