June 11, 2002 Black clouds roll by continously, never ceasing to end. Darkness inside my mind covers the depths of my being. Constant turmoil, constant shattered dreams. Believe in me, oh God, show me that I to can be someone in this cold and desolate world. Take away the ongoing senseless memories of past situations. Breathe your life into me. I wonder so many times, is your love for me real? Or is this some imaginary hope I feel. I grieve inside, you only know why. Why do I doubt? What kind of life is it here without love? Needing to find solace in any form, I search for color. For light. Bright sky above me shine inside. Grieve no more, for times lost. Love and live. Calm the raging waters inside my soul. Help me breath fresh, clean air. Oh you, blackened soul, rise up out of this pain. This sorrow that overwhelms.