4/11/02 Two very different outlooks on life:

1. "In all honesty, the good things in life don't outweigh the bad. The only thing that keeps us going is the hope that one day life will be better. For some people that may even be true, but for most of us, it's just not going to happen. Nonetheless, we carry on because of that slim chance of a better life."

2 "Can't say I know the song too well. but hey, loves good and grand. If you stop a movie half way through, you could miss the best part. Let things run their course and see where the river leads. Perhaps if you follow the rainbow you will find a pot of gold, and if not is the journey all that really matters? Enjoy what you have now and look forward to tommorow. I've learned the hard way not to worry about the past. Sail the seas and see the ports, treasures lay every where."

Now, both make very good points, but according the the "smart" people, number 2 will live longer b/c they're more positive... how? b/c #1 is more realistic? God said "hahahaha you're to smart, die sooner!" somehow i doubt that... sorry...

3/28/02 Truth: 1 and 1 make 2. YOU are no ones "other half". There is no half of a person, no one makes you "whole," that's bullshit. YOU are your own person, and if you aren't happy with who YOU are, YOU can never truely be happy with someone else. I don't care what you say, you can always be happier than what you feel, and that's what makes life what it is. So let time do it's thing, for now. There is no perfection, but there is happiness around every corner. It's what YOU make it.

11/16/01 "Why would you go buy a book, you could just go buy an outfit." Yes people, direct quote from one of Brooke High's finest. Yeah I mean why have a brain when you could just not eat and people would secretly hate you and but still pretend to be your friend. I mean come on people. *skakes head*

8/31/01 There are so many little incidents in life that help make up a whole person and somehow form a personality. Many such incidents are happy memories of a special importance to us and only us. However, there are also sad memories, uncomforatble feelings, and it is our ability to rise above these that is perhaps the most challenging to human nature. One of mine would probably be today... I pulled the penis of the display in anatomy today... Eric found it funny, I felt stupid... never doing that again.

8/16/01 People are hard to depend on, but holding it against them wont help you feel better right? People get screwed over all the time, why does it seem like you are the only one it happens to... I hate feeling sorry for myself, and I'm tired of disappointment, but its hard for me to let things go. Regardless of who did what and so on isnt something i can help, i can do my best but it wont get me anywhere, i cant change the way things are, i might as well get used to it... so the theory is, people get hurt, get over it.

7/28/01 Is the glass half full or half empty? I'm tired of the good side/bad side of life being based on this stupid question... here's my theory, if you just filled the glass, then the glass is half full. if you just drank out of the glass, then the glass is half empty. problem solved

7/9/01 I have a Theory that no matter how long you know a person, no matter how much time you spend with them, no matter how long you talk about views and ideas, no matter how much you think you really know them, you really have no idea who they are. They hide so many things, show so many sides to so many different people... These are the fake people that are afraid of themselves... afraid because they dont like themselves, and they dont want anyone to not like them either...Posers if you will... People never seem to shock me anymore, b/c i expect them to be two-faced... i expect them to back stab... i expect them to turn around lie to me and pretend it never happened... I expect them to lie, try to justify what isnt true, and all b/c they know they're wrong, but it makes them feel better. Some people just arent worth it.

4/18/01 The whole dumb blonde thing that girls try to pull off, is really annoying, and very obvious. So why do guys seem to like it so much. And comments like "I think I'm losing my cuteness." actually mean "You're not giving me the attention I feel I deserve, so I'm going to be whinny." I'd actually like to have a guy explain it to me. But when I ask "why is it like that." they usually reply "It isn't, I have no idea what you're talking about." So do they think girls are really idiots? or are they just oblivious to the fact that they're being played for attention?

3/30/01 "I read this article that said the typical symptoms of stress are: eating too much, impulse buying, and driving too fast. Are they kidding? That is my idea of a perfect day!" I got that in an email today...and I agree...I think that'll be a great day...everything that seems good, is apparently bad...that's my theory...

3/23/01...Ahhh I see you've set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public. Yes, way to go...but you laugh with them why? Of course you would have laughed also, had it been someone else. So that makes it ok? Well, today we did handoffs at track, and well the screw up fairy has visited us again kids. I fell...and it hurts. and everyone laughed, myself included...though i was in pain...and a certain person says "Way to go Mitchell! You biffed it like a champ!" I'm already visualizing the duct tape over her mouth. I'm trying to imagine her with a personality. This isnt a theory is it? We'll make one...The theory is, we laugh to...? i dont know why we laugh when we get hurt...the only thing i can think of is that when we fall, we would've laughed had it been us watching and anyone else falling.

Interesting thought today (3/9/01)...i dont know what brought this on, but a friend and i discussed this today...The modern language of breakup. It is so much more PC and delicate to say, it's not you. I'm not breaking up with you because you have habits that I can't look past, I'm not leaving you because you do things that make me feel uncomfortable. I'm not throwing us away because you won't do things my way. It's me, it's my fault. Something is wrong with me and I just don't feel natural in this relationship. To quote, "Something's not quite right with me, and us, and therein lies the problem." Yeah, something is wrong with you alright but it ain't what you think buddy. So as of today, anyone who says "It's not you, it's me." Tell them this..."Have a nice fucking life cuz you will never find another like me! And I am over, I say, over, I mean OVER you. Or at least getting there and I'll get there if I have to cut off something to do it."

Well, today 3/8/01, was very interesting...we had a "motivational speaker" and i thought the point of such a person was to motivate you. I believe he just told us no drugs, no alcohol, and no sex...thats not really motivation is it? He then more or less said girls are sluts and guys are "only after one thing"....i disagree...he said "Girls, if it aint for sale, don't advertise." first of all, i think if you want to dress that way, fine then, that doesnt necessarily mean you're a whore, right? and i dont believe all guys are like that...call me naive, but thats how i think...i also dont think a 10 yr old boys head can get stuck in the grill of your truck, but according to the speaker (named Guy) apparently it does happen...*shrugs*

I have this new theory, besides the well known one about popsicles...this is the new one for the date of 3/6/01... I'm going to become a nun...just for the fact that guys will leave a nun alone. Right? either way, I'm going to grow old and live in a big scary house...all the neighborhood brats will think i'm a witch or something along those lines. I'll have like 50 cats...wait no, i hate cats...I'll have birds, lots of noisy birds to keep me company...and i'll have little dolls or something that i talk to, i'll pretend they're my little friends...like George Bob Gus used to be...he went away, but you know i think he's coming back...but thats a different story...anyways, the theory is, guys are bad and not worth it, and i'm not changing my mind...it was either nun or lesbian right? well girls suck too, so i picked nun...muahahahaha....