| March 4th 2004 |
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| March 7th 2004 |
| Today, i talked to my friend about "Mindfulness". I had this idea about "Mindfulness" from a book that i read 5 months ago. Thich Nhat Hanh, the author of the book said we need "Mindfulness" to control our life. Mindfulness is peaceful, is concentrated. Sometime in our life, we really lost. we don't even know what we need to do. Be peaceful, concentrated will help you to understand yourself better. Jesus or God of Christian taught us the same thing. The book of Psalms said, "Be still and know that i am God". "be still" means peaceful and concentrated. In Buddhist term is "samatha" means stoping, calming, concentrating. It is actually true, you don't really close to God if you are not peaceful and concentrated. And i cannot understand what Buhhda taught me if i don't concentrate. I have a Korean friend, whose name is Mary. She is a believer of Jesus. A very nice Christian that i ever know. To her everything that makes human becomes stupid like swear, crazy shoping, crazy rock music are nonsense. She cares about her friend, she believes in God. The point is she really peaceful, concentrate in what she is doing. Man, i am so jealous of her. Even when i have argument with her about some philosophical stuff, i am still affected by her peaceful. Luckily, that i am still on my mind. I have my own background of philosophy, and i stand with it rockly. I told my friends, you need to be like her, to know what is your life about. I watched Mary eating in cafeteria learning in class, talking with friend, i realized taht she really put her mind on her thinkings and actions. She has the right to control it, and she know how to do that. We should learn that, knowing who i am, what i want is not easy. But trying to be "mindfulness" will give us a light in the darkness. |
| March 5th 2004 |
| Last night, i finished reading the story "The Dancing Girl of Izu" by the Japanese Nobel price winner Yasunari Kawabata. This story remind me a lot about my highschool time. Kawabata wrote the story when he was still going to school in Tokyo. On a trip to Shimoda, he met a family of entertainers. Unexpectedly, suddenly, wondefully and silently, he felt in love with the dancing girl of the family, and she felt in love with him. I said silently becoz they have never said they love each other but we can realized that when you read the story. The dancing girl talk nice about Kawabata, and she wanted him to take her to movie. (girls don't ake you go to movie if they don't like you). And Kawabata felt special when he saw the dancing girl naked: " She was stark naked, without even a towel. It was the dancing girl. When i gazed at her body, legs stretched, standing like a young paulownia tree , I felt pure water flowing through my heart. I breathed a sigh of relief [...] . She is a child - a child who can run out naked in broad day light, overcome with joy at finding me, and stand tall on her toes. [...] My head was clear as though wiped clean." (page 14) |
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| You can see Kawabata feelt purity in the girl of dancing girl. he loved her, with a love of delight, a love of nonsexuality. The only thing between them was the old traditions custom of Japanese. At that time , girls cannot go out alone with boys, the dancing girl's mom didn't let her go to movie with Kawabata. Such a sad thing. Even at the last moment, they had never said a word. Only when Kawabata was on the boat for leaving already, she was waving something white that even the author didn't know what is that. Generally, i like the story because sometime in my life, on the way going to somewhere, i also felt love somebody or something a lot but i don't have a chance to share it or tell it to them. And that loves just passed away, be forgetten in my memory. Sometimes, that memories come up just like a strong sea wave. Unreasonable love and short time love but powerful. I felt harmony with Kawabata, i understand what he wrote. And i feel that i don't waste money to buy the book. Suggest eveybody to read the story. I had fun with it. |
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