[pasted from a small project] My dominant intelligence is mostly intrapersonal. I am also logical, mathematical, and spatial, as well as musical. But overall I am extremely intrapersonal. I realized a long time ago that I liked to work independently and I liked to think by myself about things whenever I had spare time. I had an abundance of free time for myself to do what I want. Because I keep to myself most of the time I didn't prefer joining clubs or groups. I actually see this as a great advantage. In a collectivist society this kind of isolation was referred to as the "corruption of solitude." In Hinduism it's called Tapas, when you look within for answers. It seems to me that people tend to gravitate towards collectivism, most of the time without even realizing it. I think that it is best when people learn to think for themselves about things that are really important and not just things like, "what am I going to have for dinner?" I am in search of basic fundamental truths. It's a basic human instinct. To put it simply, my goal is almost the same as Steven Hawking's, "to understand why the universe is as it is, and why it exists at all."
It seems like the simplest questions are often the most difficult to answer. Here are my best attempts to answer them.
Extremely important questions:
What is human? A human is basically a thinking creature that eats a lot and runs around.
What is the meaning of life? Ooh the big question. To put it simply, it has no meaning. People spend their entire lives looking for one and as a result they make one big circumlocution around the cold reality. When someone around you dies, what did their life mean when all you have to do is clean out their house?
Don't get me wrong I'm not a pessimist. Actually, I find peace and satisfaction in the absolution of the absolution of truths. Once you find out that humans are not so special.
I think Ash Bearfox said it best when he said "I am here, nowhere, and everywhere." This sums it up very beautifully.
[inspired by the Hawking cambridge lectures, and a book on non-euclidean 4space geometry.]
Even when predictability and logic breaks down under certain conditions, and even under certain paradoxes There is sense.
It has been said that the laws of physics break down under certain conditions. But even when these laws are distorted to what I call 'physics on crack' they still follow some set of rules. Only the rules are bent, and I can guarantee you that there will be a way to account for that variation.
The limit of reality is perfection, and vice versa. But our perception of reality is a paradox, so it never existed to begin with. heheheheh. Too bad. -me
Kurt G�del's proof basicaly says that in any particular field of mathematics our knowledge would be either inconsistent or incomplete.
This might cause some people to lose faith in the absolution of math. But actually it opens new doors in other fields.
Some one once asked me 'how hard can this possibly get?' I answered, 'It gets infinitely harder. There will always be new truths and concepts to be discovered.' This gave me a great feeling of calmness. It also means that thee is an algorithm or constant out there with my name on it.
[interesting thought to ponder, about non-euclidean 4space: imagine 3 90 degree angles on a Cartesian plane. try to make an equilateral triangle with it. solution: the angles have to be bent into another dimension slightly skewed, collapse the dimensions and you have an equilateral triangle. cool huh?!]
how i got into beasty---
hmmmmmmm. back in 6th grade i used to draw Earthworm Jim doing funny stuff, i guess thats where anthro came in.
then i drew stuff influenced by mortal kombat series. thats where the violence came in. and,then i sort of slumped
off for a while. then i picked up again in middle school when this other kid had a siimiliar sense of humor.
we drew funny comics with sick humor. a bit of porn here and there.
by this point i had Sheila for 2 years. and she liked humping my leg and it progressed into me eating her out and so on.
im not sure how much of an influence that was. but i liked drawing extreme violence or extreme porn.
i was developing some of my characters pretty well and i wanted to put them in a comic series but its so hard to
come up with a decent plot that i like. i dont like being mediocre.
i had kharnak for a long time. he's changed only a little bit over the years but he really started to grow on me.
now he's my persona.
I used to fantasize about dragons and other herp creatures but i thought they were out of my league, like they're too good for me.
I consider dragons to be very special.
But you know a long long time ago when i was very young, maybe 5 to 7 years old, i used to draw the weirdest sickest things, which even today i find disturbing to my own standards.
first of all, get rid of that "us/them" mentality.
im not entirely sure what the root of the zoo thing is. it's something like a regression into one's own roots i guess. You can't fight it, and don't even try. It's not healthy to hold things like that back. If you happen to like something then that means it was in you the whole time. Repressing it for a long period of time will only remind your subconscious.
The harder you try to suppress something, the more your subconscious is reminded of it, thus causing problems later on.
ever notice how people actually have a big interest in anthro and they may not know it? anthro is everywhere. zoophilia is everywhere as well. listen closely to movies and stuff.
[section on the issue of burned furs coming soon]
Answer to, "why do we need church in the new millenium?"
that's a very good question that alot of people must be asking themselves.
Throughout history people have been trying to make sense of everything and setting down rules for themselves to improve life and promote progress.
The bottom line is, things change and times change.
Now, there are lots of good things that religion has to offer, but the only problem is... everyone is going about it the wrong way.
I remember a time when thinking and intellect was valued. There hasn't been one of those in 3000 years.
I think that if the philosophies of all religions were made common, everyone would be much better off. But... the moment the "theism" part is brought in that's when trouble starts.
Let's face it, nobody likes to be made to feel like they don't know what they're talking about.
It's not easy for me to explain, but let's just say you have to "integrate" all the aspects of all philosophies presented so you can find absolute truths.
Now, lot's of people have called me a pessimist. I am not a pessimist. Here's a thought to ponder:What is the sum of all real numbers?
[0] think, none of our perceptions of good and bad will mean a thing when you integrate them.
I don't like the institution of organized religion, or unnecessary teachings that ultimately hurt people.
Don't get me wrong im not an atheist
Otherwise, it's mostly all good stuff.
About crime and consciousness:
Bottom line is, impulsiveness needs to be curbed and people need to develope foresight and hindsight.
[reply to a philosophy forum.] repeat, im not an atheist. they aren't even half way right. agnostics are just plain confused. the rest of the world's philosophies are at most 80%right, none are perfect.
one powerful concept is that "the limit of reality is perfection, you can approach it but never touch it." but in a less abstract way, everything is already perfect and as it should be. whether or not it seems that way to someone.
One quote that sums that up very nicely, "All shall be well."
on a sidenote, if you really want to assign godliness to something, for someone who just -has- to have some kind of spirituality, think, that 'god' is the assurance of the omnipresence of math concepts. they are eternal immutable and absolute.
Interesting thing, when i read the bible or listen to some preacher, and everytime they mention 'god,' and i think of it as what i just described, they are right. i am nodding my head in agreement.
like i said, it's all good stuff. but people are going about it the wrong way.
'god' should not be reffered to as a "he." (not even an it for that matter)
but 'it' is not something to be feared, but respected.
"god cannot lie, it will not lie i dare you to trust 'him'" -some preacher
[Reply to a post about sexuality] oh and on a side note. homosexuality is intrisic. it is not something acquired. And it's been proven that it occurs in nature as well in animals. The nazis used that argument saying that homosexuals were incomplete humans. pretty sad huh?
also, it's been theorized that everybody is a bisexual deep down inside. even the ones who say they are purely gay. if you take away societal expectations and take away the persecution complex, which has been taught at an early age, everyone is a bi.
-kharnak the goat
Other---
Franz Kafka stated, "we should read stories that wound us, like an axe in the frozen ocean of our minds."
Things like conciousness, freedom, humanity, race, love, hate. simply do not exist.[on a fundamental level]
Any thing that is an intangible or abstract concept simply does not exist.
The mind is not absolute. Conciousness is a predictable mechanical process, it is the human interpretation of thought.[there is a concrete logic proof for this that is also used in calculus to prove that limits are "close enough." It sound lie this: "If the limit approaching from the left does not equal the limit approching from the right, then the limit simply doesn not exist." example, you show a normal person and a schizo an ink blot, one sees nothing, the other sees rainbows and pink elephants.]
The mind is not absolute.
I think it is very important to realize this, because many people are slaves to their own consciousness. When you learn how to 'break out of it' and "take control of your own consciousness" then you will reach a sort of "enlightenment." All of a sudden things become much easier and simpler and the secrets of the universe don't seem as complex. It's not that hard. Although some people spend their entire lives looking for a way to do it.
But most importantly this knowledge has become a very powerful foundation for something more important, something incommunicable, Wisdom. Many times the quality of the information can only take you so far, but it is up to the individual to make use of that knowledge. When you learn to use wisdom you become more 'human,' by definition. like your supposed to be.
---You know you've reached enlightenment when: You see the universe for what it really is. When you become one with the universe.
I realized recently that this is impossible. This means that no one has reached enlightenment. not even the great Shakyamuni or Siddhartha Gotama. They can approach it but never touch it.[Spinoza's analogy of asymptotic perfection]
There are absolute truths in this universe. The concepts of math are absolute. They are the only things a person can really know anything about. That's why they're so dear to me.
Franz Kafka also talked about the 'potentially disastrous effects of conforming to societal expectations rather than going with one's own feelings.'
Douglas Rimbaud said that If you truly want to know how the world works then you must experience all things in all
their aspects from the goodest to the baddest. And when you do, you should have an optimistic outlook. (hold that thought)
It's good to experience everything. Gives you a better idea of how the world works.
Fatalism and Free will both exist at the same time. The only thing is, nobody can tap into the fatalism part.
unless you know the position of every particle in the universe and their velocities with unlimited accuracy
(which is impossible because there is no such thing as the smallest unit of time, according to the uncertainty principle of quantum mechanics.)
then, and only then will you be all knowing and be able to predict everything. but since that's impossible
and nobody can tap into fatalism, you can 'say' that free will exists, which is also true.[well.. the fatalism part is actually more concrete by proof.]
Many people are slaves to their own consciousness and don't even know it, and they don't like to admit it.
People dont like the idea of things being finite. infinites end, they end at limits.
Ego is very important, but pride is bad. Pride is ego with conceit. It creates barriers between people and distorts judgement. I've seen a lot of shit happen because of that. [ex: nationalism.]
[i know the answer to world peace so everything will be all good and happy fun, but nobody would want to hear it, the world isn't ready for it yet.]
[sums]
If you really want to assign a genre to my philosophy... that is very difficult because it actually derives aspects of almost every other philosophy. Most every other philosophy is flawed. The Buddhists are 90% correct. the Realists are also 90%correct. The Catholics are right half the time. Ancient Greek philosophers were also right half the time.
What I do is I Take all the best parts from each philosophy and integrate it into my own. I test it against others and I am consistently right. I have to remain unbiased, open, and receptive to new concepts. [unbelieavably important to be open and receptive. you can learn a lot by listening. "knowledge speaks, wisdom listens." -Jimi Hendrix]
You're apple has been rotting -manson
But for now, I think it would be called "universal philosophy", because that's what it is, I search for absolute truths; You can't argue with these, baby!
Most religions have certain phrases that perpetuate their existence. Catholicism is by far the trickiest. But with sound parallel thought and logic, flaws and inconsistencies can be pointed out. Religious thinking sets itself up for defeat.[well.... not always. ill get to that much later.] If I tell a true Catholic some of these concepts and get to the verge of overcoming certain tenets, they can say that these are the "words of the devil," and dismiss it. [btw, i am not an atheist.]
I dont like it when god is reffered to as a personal thing. it shouldnt be reffered to as a "He", not even an "It." but "god" is there whether you want to acknowledge it or not. [music of J.S.Bach embodies that feeling of absolution and omnipresence very well. I call his songs "the calculus songs"]
I'll have you know that the things in the bible are very good. whether or not the stories in there are true, there are still allegoric meanings that apply very nicely to our -perceptual- level of reality.
Let's face it, nobody likes to be made to feel like they don't know what they're talking about. This is why so many people hide behind tradition of the past, saying, 'it's all I need to know.' If you know all you need to know then there's no reason to live then eh?
Now don't get me wrong, I am not an Atheist. Atheists are only part of the way right. and agnostics are clueless.[show me a proffessor of calculus whos an agnostic and ill show you a walking paradox.]
Many people who are against thinking say that ignorance is bliss. This is true, but these are people who gave up on themselves and are living from hand to mouth, rather than taking the job of thinking into their own hands.
You can't be ignorant and free. -some senator, about education
Review of The Talented Mr. Ripley-
And we feel sorry for Tom when, eventually, rejection by Dickie and his friends pushes
Tom to murder -- as when he puts to use those unconscious powers of manipulation, Tom's
bad deeds become motivated out of necessity. We recognize that it's a twisted necessity,
and we don't condone what he does, but, well, we can understand it. but we've always a
sneaking sympathy for him, and a sadness when his one chance at true contentment is
ruined. The Talented Mr. Ripley can be enjoyed as a straight thriller, but it's the
film's subtext, which is open to interpretation, that makes it complicated,
enthralling, and richly rewarding.
About Jeffrey Dahmer- i was reading a bio on jeffrey dahmer. i felt really weird because it felt like i was reading about myself. the only major differences are that i dont have blonde hair, i wasnt adopted, i dont live in the suburbs, and im a lot smarter than that. hopefully ill find more. [more later perhaps.]
[I will have to organize these concepts in some sort of heirarchy of reality. Perhaps to break it down some more.]
[I will have to have a section of quotes that i think are really good.]
[Note to - - - or anyone else who would take it upon themselves to try to dismiss these concepts]
well, lets get something clear first, if you can prove me wrong about some philosophical point then i will gladly 'integrate' your reasoning into my own. thats how I work, and thats how i've been perfecting mine.
but... if i prove you wrong in something, then you would have to agree to do the same. I've tested mine time and again against so many others and I win consistently. I - will - not - back - down. i have lost friends because they refused to listen to reason. A few of my religious friends were among these people.
but knowing you, i dont think I'll have any problems. i just wanted to get that out in the open.
I accept challenges, I consider them to be good exercise. I could use some input every now and then. But I would rather have my philosophies to help others instead. You see I have NO contempt for human-kind, only pity for their follies.
the fact is, I have lost friends over this... that's how serious I am. You are indeed a very dear friend to me. But still, i want to make it clear exactly how serious I am. *snugs, kisses and pats your head* you are the friend i've ever had. I am very fond of you. That's why I don't want you to lose you the same way as the others. But I trust you enough to let you know. *snifs back a tear* I love you Slither.