Un-named sources and Kurt's Last Days,  Part 3

Now I want to focus solely on Melissa Rossi's book.  Her book was the first  to really bring un-named sources to power.  Before Rossi's book we had the  likes of; 

1...Dave Thompson's Never Fade Away, published 1994. Thompson mentioned the  internet posting by Kurt referring to Rome, and Kurt's preoccupation with the  quality of  the Milkshake he got on coming out of the coma in Rome.  Why  would a depressed and suicidal man give a damn about what the milkshake was  like?. 

2...Sandford's Cobain, published 1995, Sandford mentioned this same internet  posting but conveniently dropped the section referring to Rome and the  Milkshake.  Sandford did bring attention to Kurt's partial memory loss after  Rome (P.321.)  He also commented on the differing accounts between the  "official" (named), and "un-official (un-named,) sources.  It's a shame the  discrepancies  weren't challenged at this point. 

3...Nick Wise' Courtney Love, published 1995.  Here Wise voiced the question  as to Courtney's whereabouts at the time of Kurt's "suicide". 

4...Susan Wilsons' Hole, Live Through This, published 1995.  Here Wilson  wrote that the prescription for Rohypnol was Courtney's.  In short there was room for nagging doubts everywhere.  Rossi was to  consolidate and empower the mighty un-named sources.  Rossi seemed to know  her sources, she answered nagging questions and provided the most in-depth  picture available, which left no room to doubt that Kurt was suicidal and  taking drugs to excess after the Rome incident.  I fell for it, for a while,  for too long.  Rossi was Courtney's "information conduit", but not in the way  she believed.  Here are a few examples, all of which refer to the days after Rome.  Tom  Grant believed Rome represented Courtney's first attempt to murder Kurt, so I  am keeping this in mind.

1...Kurt's response to the increasing likelihood of a break up (at Courtney's  wishes,) was to dull his pain with more heroin; before he left Rome, he'd  made arrangements for a dealer to hide some in the bushes near his Seattle  house. (p.190.) No name for the source of this info, no name for the dealer.  Emphasis on  heroin, see Rome incident section. Emphasis on Courtney wanting to leave Kurt  which is the opposite to the truth.  Melissa, you say (pages 184-185,) that Kurt was depressed after the concert  on Feb 22, even though you admit his performance was good.  You say that Kurt  was alone in Rome and that his birthday had passed with no cards/words from  his parents, and what with Courtney being in London with Corgan etc, this  added to Kurt's depression. I say; "On Feb 21st, (the day after his birthday,) at the concert at Modena,  Kurt was joking and talking with the audience, albeit in a subdued manner.   He did look un-well, that's because, physically, he was.  But Kurt made  reference to his future grandchildren, this doesn't seem to be the comment of  a depressed/suicidal man.  I have this on film.  (Also, on the mainstream media in general, why does MTV only show the cut  version of Un-Plugged?, (at least here in England.).  Could it be because  Kurt looks a bit ill at ease here?, and that this helps to perpetuate the  moody guy image mainstream media want us to believe?.  I have the un-cut  version of this, where Kurt is joking with the crowd about playing Nine Inch  Nails songs, where he is recalling a cartoon and he puts on a cartoon voice  and jokes around, where he again is joking with the audience and sings in a  daft voice, and where he laughs, where he is relaxed and sits back reading  WFMU's First Catalog of Curiosities. And signs autographs at the end of the  set.  Kurt is constantly suffering the injustice of the media not wanting us  to see anyone but a moody depressed individual.   Also, I have on Video an interview with Kurt dating back to Dec 1993, where  Kurt is mellow and comfortable, this was just 4 months before he died.  To  everyone reading this I say 'dont accept the rubbish MTV and the mainstream  media such as Select, Melody Maker/Circus/NME etc offer.  Do Kurt a favour  and demand the truth.' It is no good the mainstream media fobbing off Tom Grant, Andrew Amirault,  Richard Lee, Wallace/Halperin, Broomfield etc as conspiracists.  The  mainstream media are the conspiracists, conspiring to perpetuate Kurt in a  false light.  Conspiring to perpetuate false information. 

2...A dealer called from Seattle's Capitol Hill.  Kurt was at his place,  buying too much heroin, acting like he was trying to overdose; the dealer  wanted him out.  Courtney told Krist, who drove over to pick up Kurt, who  willingly got in the car. (P.191.) Emphasis on heroin, see Rome section. Did this happen Krist?, I ask because  Rossi does not include you in her acknowledgements, and if it didn't come  from you it was probably from an un-named source, dealer, Courtney. If it did  come from you, are you sure Kurt was high? Kurt had been ill, and Kurt had  possibly just survived an attempted murder.  The distinction between being  high and out of it on drugs, to being ill and confused must be drawn.  Kurt  must be given the benefit of the doubt.  Questions must be asked on his  behalf and in his interests, even if Courtney doesn't like it.

3...He was extremely depressed, an obvious clue that the overdose in Italy  wasn't accidental.  Anyone who had nearly died accidentally would have been  happy to be with the living.  A suicidal person, who awakens after attempting  to die is depressed at having failed at death too.  (p.192.) Melissa, who are the sources that told you Kurt was so depressed?, because  they weren't the people who knew him, not Carlson, Lanegan, Cleary, Rosemary  Carroll, doctors at Exodus, etc. I say, "Anyone who had nearly died after attempted murder and who didn't have  his memory back as to what had occurred would be expected to be confused and  distressed.  On top of that, Kurt had been physically ill. This possible attempted murder must be taken into consideration when Kurt's  physical and mental appearances after Rome are brought up.  This mustn't be  mistaken for suicidal depression/proof of drug taking, allowances must be  made for this possibility. Melissa, you say, "A person who intentionally tried to commit suicide would  obviously be depressed on failing." I say, "Would their first thought be to ask for a milkshake.  I doubt it.   And wouldn't they remember if they had tried to end it all?. Kurt didn't know  what had happened to him when he came out of the coma, he did know that he  hadn't tried to commit suicide though. 

4...While waiting for them (the police,) to arrive, she attempted to break  down the door with a fire extinguisher.  Finally he opened it.  She grabbed  the gun from him and pointed it at her own head.  "I am going to pull this  right now, I cannot see you die! I can't see you die again." This was supposed to have happened in the March domestic violence dispute,  after Rome. Whilst the police were on their way, after Courtney had called  them because Kurt was locked in a room, and she told the police that he was  suicidal.  When the police arrived, Kurt told them he was not suicidal but  that he was trying to keep away from Courtney.  Courtney's bold and brave  attempt to take the gun wasn't mentioned in this police report, Why?.  Surely  if she had been trying to break the door in with a fire extinguisher the door  would have been damaged, and the police would have noticed?  There was never  any mention in this report of any such thing.  Because it was a fabrication,  another lie in Courtney's defence.  This looks to me like a case of Courtney  hounding Kurt and not leaving him in peace.  Perhaps not wanting him to have  the peace he would need to remember what had happened in Rome?.  5...When he later went to dinner he didn't look the waiter in the eye, he had  a companion order for him, and all but hid under the table at the scene his  presence was creating. (p.192.) So?.  Are we supposed to believe that because of this he was  suicidal/unstable/high?  Kurt didn't like a fuss, this is well known.  I  can't accept that because of this it automatically becomes translated in a  negative sense. Everything Kurt did has been bent to fit the rubbish that un-named sources  want us to believe, it looks like a systematic charater assassination to me.   It is strange that prior Courtney meeting Kurt in Rome on March 3rd, Kurt had  been described by several people around him at the time as clean and not  drinking alcohol, also that he did not seem suicidal or talk of suicide  before or after Rome.  Immediately after Courtney joined him, un-named  sources lead us to believe that Kurt became a rampant heroin user, who used  Rohypnol and champagne to boot, who was suicidal and who was so incapable he  couldn't even order a meal or catch a fucking cab by himself.  We Know this  just isn't true.  On MTV's tribute to Kurt, Kurt Loder said; "With In Utero out and the tour in progress Kurt Cobain seemed to finally  have found an accomadation with rock stardom.  Friends remember him at this  point as genuinely happy.  But then Nirvana went to Europe and somehow  everything went wrong.  Cobain got flu, dates were cancelled.  Recuperating  in Rome he drank alcohol on top of a prescription sedative and collapsed in a  coma.  It was said to have been an accident, but behind press releases and  doctors reports Kurt Cobain's life was spiralling out of control." Well, I am not being pedantic here, but Kurt's life began to spiral out of  control immediately after Courtney and her Rohypnols joined him in Rome.   Before she arrived Kurt was suffering from flu/laryngitis, and nothing more.   The coma was due to alcohol and Rohypnol, Courtney's choice of drugs.   So I don't believe these un-named sources, I question them, and where they  don't tally with reliable witnessess, I refute them.  And there is so much to  refute. In Ross's book, there is an over-emphasis on Kurt's "huge drug  habit", his "suicidal/overdosing tendenceies", his "mental instability".   Why?.  We will see soon. I am not asking these questions to be trivial, there is nothing trivial about  this.  There is a definite line between the truth and outright lies in all  this, and the very existance of all these lies is proof that a cover-up is  warranted.  Grant put forward a very convincing theory, and his recorded conversations  with Rosemary Carroll, and Courtney Love, along with a mass of circumstancial  evidence, shows me that he is probably right in believing Kurt was murdered.   I believe Grant, I believe Kurt was murdered. I am entitled to my opinion.   Courtney had the responsibility to  defend her reputation against Grant's  claims but she didn't, and on the assumption that it is permitted not to be  legally bound to agree with/believe Courtney, I find myself asking questions,  the answers to which are not very nice. These claims are now public domain,  and everyone has the right to form an opinion on the facts/evidence  available.  Opinions are not illegal, and public opinion can be enough to  pressure for a new investigation. Courtney, if you have nothing to hide it would be totally in your interests  to have a new investigation.  Justice. copy and distribute. Frances Barnett.