(I went to a thing Called Festival of Con Dios. What it means i have
no clue. I was helping my roomate take some jr. high students to this
Christian Concert. We stopped ended up sleeping at a Presbyterian church
that night. I had a notebook with me and decided to replay some of the
things i was feeling during the event. It was the first time that i had
seen my VU friends since i had transfered to Purdue University. So I was
with my friends again (since i was the only one that graduated that year practically)
but they were there group minus me. They kept coming back to say hello
to me and hang with me and my jr. high kids, but i don't think i had ever felt
more alone in my life than in that huge group of people singing to Newsboys
songs. Granted it was fun.. but these are my thoughts that came
out on paper that night.))
I stand alone
Pushing and shoving
Jumping and swaying All around me
But I am here unmotivated and unspritual.
Why am i always left out.
I want to be in with the crowd
But i struggle with lifes problems
Friends i see come and go and back again then they leave... again
Why must i live off my friends love for me.
When i have God's love surrounding me why can His love not Complete me.
(why can i not let his love complete me)
Do i Feel unworthy or not Good enough.
i myself am scared to share the thing that saved me
I feel so alone in this world filled of Grace and love for little ole me.