Author: Braz T

Rating: R

Keywords: angst, romance

Disclaimer: ok! Well the only thing in this story I don't own is the s club and a lot of songs will be taken from other artists because I like them. Everything else is my own material from my own head!

Spoilers: Finally Rachel is found. But what's going to happen and who found her first?

::Barbados::

The wind whistled through the palm trees, just a few feet away from her as she watched the sun set in the distance.She sat back in her chair, and ran her hands along the purple top she had put on. Mashka and herself where supposed to be going out tonight, check out the night life, or see if there was any in this quite town. She loved it here, she'd defiently be coming back to this place. It suited her perfectly. And for once she had finished getting ready before Mashka, she could fully appreciate it. Especially the beautiful view she was being subjected to, as she sun slowly sunk down behind the horizon, it's reflection on the calm sea and the beautiful shadows that where cast because of it.

Rachel: Are you ready yet?

Mashka: Give me a minute!

She relaxed back in her chair, and her thoughts suddenly left the happy thoughts she was having. She remembered why she had come here and what she had done here. She put her right hand on her stomach and looked down. She'd have to go back and face them all. Especially Paul.

Mashka: Okay, I'm ready!

Rachel: Well lets go then!

She jumped off of her chair and walked towards the house. She walked through towards the door as she heard Mashka coming down the stairs. She opened the front door, and suddenly a shadow was cast over her. She froze as she looked slowly upwards.

Paul: Going somewhere?

She froze as their eyes locked. In the background, Mashka quickly rushed down the stairs and to the front door. She stepped in between Rachel and Paul, showing none of the fear or worry that was apparent within Rachel.

Mashka: Perhaps you should leave it for now Paul?

The tone to her voice was pleasant but the look in her eyes suggested she wasn't going to stay like this if he didn't oblige.

Paul: I need to talk to her!

Mashka: NOT NOW!

Paul looked at Mashka for awhile and then it seemed as if Paul was just about to leave before Rachel interfered.

Rachel: Mashka, could you leave us alone?

She turned around to look at Rachel, who had regained her compsure.

Mashka: Are you sure?

Rachel: We need to talk!

Mashka: Okay!

Mashka reluctantly leaves the former couple, walking off to the town like they had planned earlier. Paul walked in and Rachel brought him through to the back of the house. Back to where she was earlier, waiting for Mashka. She sat down in the same place as Paul sat down on another chair. He looked at the setting sun, and was taken aback by it.

Paul: You've got a very nice view!

Rachel: It is nice, isn't it?

Paul: And you look great!

Rachel: Thanks, I would say the same about you but you've obviously had a pretty rough time.

He looked down at his clothes and ran his hand along his chin. The stubble had grown even further. He could tell he probably did look pretty bad. After an uneasy silence he decided to cut to the chase.

Paul: I'm sorry baby! I didn't mean all those things I said or did! I just lost it for no reason. I was out of order and you deserve much more than that.

Rachel: Why though?

Paul: I don't know. I think it was because I was afraid I'd lose you. I love you Rach and I never want to lose you!

Rachel: Then how could you hurt me so many times?

The whole conversation was getting to Rachel as tears began to run down her eyes. Paul cupped her hands in his.

Paul: I don't know, but I'll change. I'll get councilling and all that other stuff. I just don't want to lose you.

She didn't answer, and instead just looked down to the floor.

Paul: I want to have this baby!

That was the final straw as the tears wouldn't stop, she put her hands in her head.

Rachel: There is no baby!

Paul: What?

Rachel: I had an abortion!

Paul immediately turned away. He could feel anger rising in him again before he took a couple of long breaths.

Paul: It's okay Rach, as long as I haven't lost you!

Rachel: We'll have to see. I'm not ready to get back together yet.

Paul: That's okay, I'll wait!

They both got out of their chairs and hugged each other.

Paul: I really am sorry!

While they embraced in their hug, standing on the beach about 100 metres away he watched on. He was walking along the beach, hoping to see the occupants of each house, which where a few yards apart. He had come upon Rachel and Paul talking and just watched. Not wanting to interfere if there was nothing wrong. He had taken a seat on a ledge on the remains of what must have been a house. He smiled at what he saw and was relieved that he didn't have to do anything in this situation. He turned around to walk away, assuming that everything would eventually sort itself out.

While Paul hugged Rachel, the gently rocked side to side as he slowly looked up and saw the figure. He let go of Rachel quickly and moved closer to the edge of the pattio.

Paul: JOHNNY!

He turned around as he heard his name called. He immediately regretted being seen. It wouldn't exactly help. He walked over to them as they waited for him to reach them. He jumped over the fence, onto the pattio.

Paul: What are you doing here?

Johnny: We were all worried about Rachel and you. I came to make sure everything was all right. I was just going to go back home and leave you two alone.

Paul: Your a bad liar Johnny! You came to get in with Rachel didn't you! You thought you could take advantage of Rachel.

Johnny: You've got it all wrong Paul.

Paul: Don't try it, I can see right through you. The day you get with Rachel is the day you kill me!

Johnny's temper began to rise as he hated being accused of something which he wasn't guilty for.

Johnny: I'd be careful what you say!

Paul: Is that so! Well go on then, show me how careful I need to be.

Paul began to walk towards Johnny as he stood his ground.

Paul: Or perhaps I'll just show you that you need to leave Rachel and I alone.

And without warning, Paul's fist suddenly flew up in the air and connected with Johnny's face. His head flicked to the right as Johnny lifted up his fist to repay the favor.

Rachel: Stop it, the both of you!

The tears welled up in her eyes, her vision becoming blury. Johnny's fist froze in mid air, as he heard Rachel and gently let his fist fall. Paul suddenly looked down to his right side and then brought his right fist flying up again. With Johnny's guard completely down, the blow knocked him off his feet and two his right, his head and neck landing with a sickening thud against the fence, as his neck twisted as he fell to the ground.

Rachel rubbed her eyes to check what she saw, as Paul looked down at Johnny, completely shocked. Johnny lay on the floor, not moving an inch.

Paul: Johnny?

Rachel: What have you done!

Rachel run past Paul and to Johnny's side. She tapped Johnny's face but got nothing. She checked for a pulse and got the same result.

Rachel: Don't just stand there. Call the ambulance!

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All of the S Club members, along with Mashka, Stacey and Mandi all sat in the waiting room. They hadn't heard anything at all. Johnny had been stabalised in Barbados. They said he recovered and would be fine! However they flew him back to England without Rachel, Paul or Mashka, straight into the hospital in London. the rest had been informed of Johnny's condition but they weren't aware of how it happened. They had sat here for two hours, without any news. Suddenly Bradley lifted his head.

Bradley: Why aren't they telling us anything?

Tina: They'll tell us something as soon as they can.

Hannah had been worse effected by all this. She hadn't spoked since she heard. Everything would have been so perfect if she hadn't sent him after Rachel and Paul. Tina held her closely as she looked at the clock.

Stacey: I'm sorry if I missed this or something but how did this happen?

The rest of them all looked to Rachel and Paul for an answer. None of them had been told what happened.

Jo: Yeah, how did this happen?

Paul immediately felt guilty and looked away from the stares at him. Rachel intervened for him.

Rachel: That's not important, you'll find out after we find out who Johnny is.

As soon as she had spoken, the door to the waiting room opened. A nurse popped her head around the window.

Nurse: You can all see Johnny now if you want. However I've got to explain somethings first.

Hannah immediately perked up and jumped to her feet.

Hannah: He's all right!?

Nurse: He is stable at the moment and is consiouse. But there have been some ill effects of the blow to the head and neck.

Jon: What are they?

Nurse: Unfortunately, Johnny has lost his voice! As of right now he can't speak at all. Also he's got amnesia!

Hannah: He'll be okay though?

Nurse: It's not definant.

Jo: Well can you give us figures?

Nurse: His memory coming back is 50-50 and the chances are improved if he's helped and encouraged. However his voice isn't as good! There's a 25% chance he will get his voice back in the next week. If he doesn't get it back in the next week then it's a 75% chance of him never speaking again. If he's not talking in 2 months then he won't speak again. And that is just speaking. As soon as he can speak again, there's only a 10% chance he will ever be able to sing. And there is no guarentee that he will sing like he did before.

The tears returned to Hannah's eyes as she realized that Johnny might never be the same again. Tina tried to reasure her.

Tina: Johnny's a fighter Han, he'll be back to normal.

Hannah: You can't promise that. He might not even remember me when we go to see him.

Tina: He might though. We have to go see him to find out!

She nodded and all of them walked towards Johnny's room, behind the nurse. Jo opened the door as they all piled in. Laying in the bed, looking sound asleep was Johnny. The number of people in his room seemed to awaken him as his eyes slowly opened. He blinked a couple of times and looked at everyone. He turned to his side and picked up a computer laptop and opened it up and switched it on. They all looked at the nurse.

Nurse: It's so he can communicate with us.

They all nodded as they looked at Johnny. He begun typing into the laptop.

"Hi Everyone!"

Jo: Hi Johnny.

"I feel awful"

Brad: Yeah, well you've been unconcious haven't you.

"All right Brad, it's been a long time"

Brad: Not that long!

"Who are all these people?"

And it suddenly sunk in. They all felt as if they had been struck down. Especially Hannah!