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July 16, 2007
Kaizen versus Relapse…

For the past few weeks, I have been in an onslaught battle of my odiously , ghastly, horrendous final year project. Having been in reminiscent, a first week of my new trimester I fretted and languish with my dearth skills of programming language plus excruciatingly obtuse with what so-call genetic algorithm and tabu search of Artificial Intelligent. At first I defied all attempts to make the project possible but in any way I am a captive. Thinking back, I have no other choice and persist in the belief a miracle will soon come. Thus hesitantly, I continue the arduous mental torture, which mortify and undermine myself slowly as I blindly signed the form in front of my supervisor burdening myself with a huge responsibility.

Frankly, my life is in shambles after submitting the form. Final year project cast a blight to my life for ensuing countless days until one day, my prayer has been answered. The memory has always been very palatable. Hehe…I feel gratitude with the countenance and concerted effort of him to lend a helpful hand and emancipate me from final year project’s paranoia. I am completely entranced with his way…wink..wink....alhamdulillah… All praise is due to Allah. Without Allah’s help I wouldn’t be able to endure this.

Going through the episodes of relapse and had been battle the ‘diseases’ stoically alone, it made me realize without others help, we are impotent. Somehow, natural law teaches us that the strong and capable help the weak. Thus, it will be hard to surpass this very drudgery life journey alone. In addition, self reliant is an auspicious start is an understatement to begin with. Why ? The answer is simple. This is because I am not a stand alone. I am emotionally interdependent. I derive a great sense of worth within myself, but I also recognize the need for love, for giving, and for receiving love from others. Furthermore, I am intellectually interdependent thus making me realized that I need the best thinking of other people to join with my own.

Nonetheless, I will never be alone. Trials refine our character and fortify our faith. I am gratitude for such a blessing of Iman because through Allah, I sought comfort in prayer and supplication and I am gratitude too with his presence in my life so that my emotional script and mental map will replenish and the possible head ache insya allah subdued….*smile…

p/s : the most important things in life really are the Iman, knowledge, love, and honesty. The journey really does matter more than the destination—lessons human beings can evidently learn over and over and never tire of. Thank you Allah…*smile

June 17, 2007
Dear Soul MAte


I will be xtremely for the next following weeks.....until then, Enjoy reading this article...



DEAR SOUL MATE

I was four when I realised I needed you. Whenever I witnessed two hands holding passionately I would literally cry. I had a loving family, but it wasn’t enough for me. I needed you. My soul mate. The other half that will complete me. I knew you would be special. Someone who would fill the void inside me. No one could fill it but you.

And as the years went by I remember wishing to meet you, bump into you. I wished that I could just take a peek at the unseen and find out what you were doing at that specific moment. If you were thinking of your soul mate; me. I have spent many lonely days and nights without you, growing on my own, exploring the world through eyes that wish to see you. I remember days when I would cry because I missed you, even though I have never met you. But I believe we have met, before we came to earth; this is how strong my feelings are for you.

I’ve loved you before I even met you. I know I will love you when I meet you and get to know you. I know I will sacrifice my life for you. I would be happy to take a bullet for you, just so you can live on, because I know I would die without you.

My soul mate, I don’t know how I have survived all these years without you, but I have, successfully. I know when I do meet you though, I will wonder how I ever did get along without you, your love, your care, your voice, the gentle loving way you will look at me.

And there’s only one thing I want from you my love. I don’t want the riches of the world, I don’t want you to go to the moon to prove your love to me, nor do I want you to swim to the bottom of the ocean to get me the most precious pearl.

No. All I want is your love. All I want is to feel it, even if we sit across the room from each other. I want to be showered with emotional love. I want to feel that you genuinely can’t live without me, that you adore me, honour me, love me. I want you to be my best friend, someone I can talk to, laugh with, run around the park with and play hide and seek, screaming with laughter.

I want to have a special connection with you, for us to be much more than husband and wife; friends, family, soul mates, twin souls. It’s that simple for me, to have that special love with you. To feel that I’m one of the most important people in your life. To feel that you can’t breathe without me, like I can’t breathe without you. To be sleeping in the middle of the night and feel you hold me because you love me. To be watching TV or reading a book and to have you cuddle up to me. To be walking in the street and have you hold my hand with love and devotion in your eyes.

This doesn’t just have to happen in the movies…it can happen for us too, if you open your heart and believe in Allah’s power to do anything; believe that you can find me so I can love you. So you can love me.

Until then I am still four years old, in a pram, looking at the others holding hands, laughing together, wishing we could be in that place. I am in no rush. I am in no hurry. I await patiently. I travel the world looking for you. I develop personally and professionally, religiously, so I can be better for you.

You deserve the best, I want to be able to deserve you. I know you will be mine, you were written for me before I was placed on earth. And if it is not our time to meet in this world, I will gladly die without loving anyone else, so we can begin our lives in heaven together, with our pure, true love that will last for all eternity.

June 11 2007

the hijab -- part II

We will notice that no single Islamic injunction can be carried out on its own separately but rather as a way of life in totality. That is why once the basic foundation of iman is accepted and nurtured consciously, we will find that it is easier to accept and practice all other aspects of Islamic practices in our daily lives.

It is known that the first 13 years of Quranic revalations in Makkah were mostly about matters of Iman and submission to Allah's will. This was obviously to prepare and educate the Muslims to strengthen their belief and commitment to the Islamic faith, thus sacrifices and willingness to obey Allah SWT anh His Messenger SAW were deeply sown in their hearts and minds.

Verses pertaining to hijab were revealed during the Medinan period where injunctions about more detailed practical aspects of conducting life were revealed. This was the deliberate act of Allah SWT , Most Gracious Most Merciful, as the willingness to abide to Islamic principles is made easier, once a strong base of faith is established.

Thus we just simply cannot force our Muslim friends to conceal most part of our body. If one action is done purely base by unwillingness, the result will be a vehement objection, protest and denial. i do not say that i am inimical to this subject, but my point here is, in retrospect and now, we have received and heard so many horrendous moral land slides caused by Muslim women who wears "tudung" and conceal most part of her body.

Why these ghastly error took its place in now society??
Becoz, Muslims now including myself inculcate little cognizance about Hijab itself..
All we know is Hijab means "tudung" ..pathetic !!
All we know is to force (note here i used word force) instead of persuade and explanation to our fellow crony to "wear Hijab" without even try to respect their feelings.....even pathetic !!

Soorryy to say to myself and my fellow freinds out there....
But enough is enough......
I have abundance of freinds who is pure at heart but do not "hijab"....
and i have known a few people who knows in depth about Islam, but manipulate the Islamic teachings just for their benefits !!!!...THAT IS SO SHAMEFULL.....

Oh people, be it Muslims or non-Muslims.....

The Qur'an and Sunnah are the only two mediums by which Allah has directly taught us about Islam. This leads us to the following simple but critical principle:

If any man or woman engages in a belief or action which clearly contradicts the Qur'an or Sunnah, then that belief or action cannot be thought of as `Islamic'.

This rule applies whether the man or woman is Muslim or non-Muslim. Hence, we cannot equate Islam and the Muslims. Islam is the way of life; Muslims are people who claim to follow that way of life. A Muslim may claim to follow Islam, but be wrong. In the context of misconceptions, we can restate the above principle in a slightly different way:

Some misconceptions about Islam are due to the wrong beliefs and actions of Muslims, and others are due
to a significant lack of understanding and false stereotyping by non-Muslims.

So, whatever misconceptions, overzealous attitude and defiant manner or look it will be, WE CANNOT EQUATE ISLAM AND MUSLIM......

For your information...
The word Hijab itself come from the Arabic word "hajaba" meaning to conceal or hide from view. Besides clothing, the meaning of hijab encompasses behaviour, manner, and speech for both women and men.

1- The enjoinment from Allah SWT for a modest covering for the women was contained in the following verse:
" O Prophet, tell your wives and daughters and the beleiving women to draw their outer garments around them (when they go out or among the men). That is better in order that they may be recognized and not be annoyed...."surah al Ahzab 33: 59

2- The injunctions of modest behaviour however falls not only women but directed to men and women alike.
Temptation is basic criterion on which these rulings rest.
"Tell believers to avert their glances and to guard their private parts; that is purer for them....." Surah An-Nur :30

the blue texts comes by courtesy of Norma Kassim and University Of California Muslims society... thank you