listening to: nothing.
me at 38 weeks.
the days have been passing by too quickly and now it's practically down to the end of the line. i've been at home for a little over a week and i haven't gotten as much done as i wanted to.
the photo above was taken about a week ago, on jon's birthday. it may not seem that there's a lot of difference since the last photo of my tummy, but it has slowly been getting bigger over the last couple of weeks.
every week my doctor asks me if i've been having contractions and i've been telling him only the false ones. until he informed me yesterday, that i was having one right at that moment! he told me the tightening in my tummy WAS a contraction. maybe not a serious one, but a contraction, nonetheless. so all this time i've actually been having them without really realizing it. for the life of me, i really can't tell a false one from a real one. the cramping have been bearable, like mild to moderate menstrual cramps. and the tightening, although at times uncomfortable are, at the most just that, uncomfortable. and they've been completely sporadic throughout the day. i thought the contractions were going to be unbearably worse. and come to think of it, i probably just jinxed myself right now. this is probably just the beginning. god only knows how bad they'll get later.
i've also learned come to learn that i've dilated to three and that there's a possibility that my doctor MAY be seeing me this weekend ... to deliver! =:o which mean WE may be seeing kyden this weekend! i can't believe it! at first when my doctor told me that i was still only at one for the past couple of weeks, i was a bit disappointed. i've been really excited and anxious at wanting to see kyden already. but at the same time, i know that once he comes out, he isn't going back in so i've been trying to enjoy my last few days of freedom.
by the way, if you didn't noticed, we've changed the spelling on his name to "kyden" instead of "kaiden". which is the spelling i had originally wanted. but jon thought spelling it "kai" would give it a bit of an asian feel to it ... although it would cause a whole lot of people to mistake its pronounciation. a few weeks ago though, he changed his mind. he should've just listened to me in the first place. :b
by the way, we've also finally found the meaning for 
(shin-kwon). the kanji is 
which means "trust" and "power". and we still haven't settled on a meaning for taka yet. i'm having my friend asako help me out on this one because i don't want to use the kanji 
, which is the most commonly used one.