I will start from the top although I wish to quickly get to the end part of the day. The morning to the early part of the afternoon had been almost the same. The only parts that had been different were:
1) I had already finished all the review questions in the ACSM Review book and it is time to take the studying in a different direction
2) The air-con man came by in the later part of the afternoon to clean the air-con
Then except for some SMS I sent while I was having a nap before going for tonight's course. Everything was very much the same. It was raining by the time I got to the MRT nearest to where I need to go for my course. I opened up the collapsible umbrella and went on my way. I was the first to get there. And I spent my time drying up the umbrella, sending some SMS and a little organizing on my PDA. Then more classmates came and a bit of chatting commenced. Then I realised that I had not been objective enough in my studying. Anyway, the lesson started after some waiting for more classmate to come.
Right now, I can hardly recall anything about the lesson. The lesson is a continuation of the last lesson but moved on to newer stuff. I only remembered the most interesting part which is the skinfold equation demonstration. I volunteered to be the model to demonstrate where to pinch to take the measurements. And I had to remove the vest and T-shirt to show where to pinch. The instructor also used the marker to put a dot at each area. It was really fun, funny and a little embarrassing. After that was over, it was time to go home. Took a ride in a classmate's car with the same three people again. Including the gal I used to meet often at the gym. As usual, it was really hard for me to say anything. And that did not feel too good. Some chatting with the same classmate who was also going to the MRT Station.
Then I got home and carried on very much like usual. Then I got some SMS from various people including my best friend. And also a phonecall from a classmate who did not showed up due to OT serving NS. I had photocopied the notes he missed as he was absent from that lesson. Among the SMS I received, the one from the gal I used to meet often at the gym made me feel very unhappy. It seems very obvious to me that I will not be able to go out with her anytime soon. But that is not all, she also told me to make better use of my time. That really hurted.
All of a sudden, I got feelings of a negative nature. I felt that I was so alone, that I just have to manage with the best friend I have. And that I must manage to be able to spend my leisure time alone and feel happy about it. The time is getting really late. It is almost 1:30 AM and I really have a list of things to do tomorrow. So I really must sleep even if it means doing a bit of crying first.
