There are times when you have to make decisions. The decisions can hurt; they can help; or, they can do both. A decision that I made today is doing both. Not only does it hurt me, it hurts someone close to me. I know that. And I knew before hand that it would. And, yet, I did it anyway. Why? I felt that it was the right thing to do.
Today, I made the decision to stop talking to one of my best friends. Yes, it hurt me. And yes, it hurt her. However, I needed out. Without getting into details, I will say that it was beginning to be way too much. No, there was no fight. There were no harsh words exchanged. I just decided to do this. It wasn't really out of the blue. It took thought.
I really don't know what else to say at this point. I started out with a good point that I was trying to make in this rant. I guess along the way, I kinda forgot what that point was. I guess that I wanted to tell everyone that sometimes, you have to do what you feel is the best for everyone involved. It's a hard decision to make sometimes. But it has to be done. If it isn't, things might continually get worse.
If you read this "Melissa," I'm sorry. I just didn't want to put my mental health in jepordy. I need to be happy-go-lucky. I need to smile 24/7. It was just getting to be way too much for me to handle. I'm truly sorry.
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