“Hi, Em,” said Howie, as he wandered up to the Hinton back porch. “What are you doing?”
Emily was seated on the steps of the porch, similar to the one at the back of the Throckmortons’ house. Contrary to the rule which dictated that Victorian homes be painted in three complementary colors, the two porches were painted just white with blue railings. Of course there were plenty of colors in the vines and flowers growing in the garden.
When the farmer’s son wanted to marry and raise a family, he and his father built the two houses next to each other. Back then it was common for the oldest son to stay on the farm and eventually inherit it, when the father retired or passed away. Farmsteads with two houses side-by-side were not unusual. The wives appreciated the companionship and help. Life on a farm can be lonely. The system worked great. As the farmer got older, his son took over the heavy chores. And the new wife had her mother-in-law to show her the ways of rural life. It was a hard, yet fulfilling way of living.
“Hi, Howie,” Emily looked up and gazed at Howie through her thick eyelashes. She crinkled her nose, causing her freckles to fade across its bridge.
Flowers everywhere were in springtime bloom. The sun was shining and there were only a few wisps of clouds high in the sky. Across Cow Field, in the sycamore trees, robins and bluebirds were singing, and blackbirds were cawing. Nests were hidden among the thick leaves.
Emily was sitting there enjoying all the sights and sounds and smells. As usual she was wearing tennis shoes, jeans, and a white shirt with the tails hanging out. Her strawberry-blonde hair was in its customary ponytail. Snowball, her white cat, lay lazily sleeping on top of one of the porch rails. The cat’s head was on one paw, while her tail and her other paw were dangling, unconcerned, over the edge of the rail, and her whiskers fluttered as she snored.
Emily
showed Howie the new cleats she was coating with leather wax to protect and
soften them. This was the time honored
method ballplayers use to protect their leather. The shoes were black with large white
laces. They were small. Emily had to shop in the young boys section of
the sporting goods store to find shoes to fit her. This embarrassed her. Her uniforms were small, too, but they could
taken in by hand.
“See my new
cleats,” she offered them up for inspection.
“I saved the money and bought them myself. Well…mostly,” she added truthfully. “My dad gave me some of the money. It was a reward!”
Snowball
opened one eye and glared at Howie for interrupting her nap, as he leaned
against the rail and examined Emily’s new cleats. He made sure to check the bottoms to see if
she had sharpened the spikes. She did
that once, after reading that Ty Cobb sharpened his to a point to better spike
infielders covering the bases. That was
a painful summer for Howie. Satisfied
they are not been sharpened, he handed them back.
“Did you
get these for winning the baseball game?” he asked.
“No,” Emily
replied. “It was a good game, though,
wasn’t it? I thought Coach Buggese was
so funny wearing his hat backwards and crossing his legs. And we beat Cornville; we’re the league
champs! I’ll always remember that. Of course, we all have a trophy.”
“Ya,”
replied Howie. “Mom put mine on the
shelf in the parlor. It was a good
game,” he continued. “And you played an
outstanding game at shortstop, Emily.”
“Oh hush,
Howie! I did terrible at running the
bases. I’m so ashamed that I fell for
that bush league trick of Butch Pratt.
He is no gentleman! And I know I
lost the no-hitter for you. I wasn’t
paying attention when he was at bat, so when he shifted, I didn’t change my
position. The rest of the school may not
understand that, but I do! I was out of
position. Still you won it! You were awesome!”
“Don’t be
so hard on yourself, Em. I don’t know if
anyone could have caught that ball.
Butch hit it pretty hard.
Besides, I am the one who let him hit it.”
“That’s
right!” Emily agreed. “And here I was
feeling guilty about it.”
“I am never
going to win with you, am I, Em?” Howie
grinned.
“It depends
on what game you are playing, Howie,” replied Emily enigmatically, looking up
at him, through her thick eyelashes.
Suddenly
Howie felt breathless.
After a
moment, he said, “Coach Buggese and I had a talk about you playing catcher. And I don’t think he’ll do it again.”
“Howie,
what did you do to the coach?”
“Nothing! We just talked, but he said if I felt that
strongly about it, you would never play catcher, again.”
He’s
worried about me, Emily thought. That
pleased her! She said, “I won’t mind not
playing catcher again. I admit I was a
little scared. Karen made Butch
apologize for trying to run me down.”
Emily
dipped the blue cloth she was using into the wax and continued rubbing her
cleats.
“You know,
Em,” said Howie, “that rag looks like the blue dress Karen Switzer wore to the
game.”
“It does?” asked Emily innocently. “How peculiar. I am afraid I didn’t notice it. But I am sure whatever she was wearing was
not to my taste.” Then she gave the
cloth a vicious shake and globbed more wax onto it.
“Just
think,” Howie said, “Karen Switzer is Butch Pratt’s girlfriend. They don’t seem much alike, do they?”
“I don’t
know,” replied Emily. “I think they are
just perfect together.” Karen together
with anyone other than Howie was perfect to Emily. Still, she felt badly about her
suspicions. “She seems like a nice
girl,” she admitted grudgingly.
“Karen is a
nice girl and smart, too, only not as smart as you, Emily. She and I both missed a problem on Mr.
Bishop’s test, but you aced it!
“I know!”
Emily crowed. “That is what I got
rewarded for. My dad said he couldn’t
reward me with new cleats for baseball game, but getting the top score on a
math test was different. He said ‘that
was worth a bribe!’”
Emily put
the cleats down, jumped up and did a victory dance, through the garden. Her ponytail was bouncing and she was
twirling the blue rag over her head like a victory flag. Then she danced and whooped and hollered all
around Howie.
Snowball sat
up yawning and watched, curiously, while Emily celebrated.
Howie
ducked as a glob of wax flew passed him.
But he was grinning. He wondered
if he should try learning to dance by twirling a rag over his head. Nothing else had worked.
”How did you do it?” he asked about the
test. I was worried you weren’t going to
pass based on our homework discussions.
You didn’t cheat, did you?” he asked suspiciously.
“Howard
Thomas Throckmorton,” Emily stopped dancing.
She put her hands on her hips.
“Do you have so little faith in me?”
She dropped the rag onto the ground, so she wouldn’t be tempted to flick
him with it.
“Then how’d
you do it?”
Emily got
right in Howie’s face, and poked him in the chest with her finger. She said, “I imagined the answers, Howie. I looked at each problem and I thought, what
color does this problem remind me of?
And then I wrote down the number that matched the color.”
“YOU DID
WHAT? That’s as bad as my mother and
sister. Do you know they believe that a
person’s favorite color matches his personality?
Emily had
the grace to blush.
“But
numbers don’t have colors, Emily. Word
problems don’t have colors either. They
are just words, written down in black and white.”
“And black
was the color of problem number three, Howie!
So the answer to problem number three was 6. Because the number 6 is black, you see.”
Howie did
not see! But Emily stumped him. He stopped and admitted, “6 was the right
answer. That is the one Karen and I both
got wrong. How’d you do that, again?”
“And the answer
to problem number five was red,” Emily continued.
“The answer
to problem number 5 was 4,” Howie insisted.
“That’s what
I said. The number 4 is colored red, and
3 is a yellow, 2 is a blue, and 1 is a white…and sometimes it’s a brown. So you have to be careful there! And of course, the number 6 is always black. That’s not so difficult to understand is it,
Howie?”
“THAT’S
CRAZY!” Howie replied. “What would
happen if I changed problem number five so it had a different answer?”
“Then the
color of the problem would change, of course!”
“I suppose
if I saw a pretty girl. And I added up
the colors that she was wearing, they would add up to a perfect 10?” he asked.
“Howie! What girl were you looking at?” wondered
Emily, with tears in her eyes. “I’m wearing
blue and white. Does that make me a 3?”
Even Howie
knew better than to answer that question.
But if he had, Emily would have been pleased to know she rated much
higher on the scale.
“You know,
Em. I am beginning to believe you’re
right. Girls do not need math! Not if they’re going to use it to drive boys
crazy. They already rule the world; why
give them anymore power. Numbers having
colors is unbelievable,” he shook his head.
Emily
giggled. “Mr. Bishop didn’t think
so. When I explained it to him, he
decided he was going to experiment with it scientifically. The next test we take will be color
coordinated. Thelma Takahasi volunteered
to help, because she knows all about color coordinating.” Emily wisely didn’t say anything about the
article on color personalities. “And
that will help with her grade, some extra credit. Mr. Bishop was so nice about it, I have
decided I am going to work harder to get a good grade in math…or maybe, I will
bake him a pie. He offered to teach me
how to use a slide rule, but I think it will easier to bake him a pie. He likes rhubarb.”
“I refuse
to believe you passed the test by matching colors, but there were too many
problems for it to be pure luck. You’ll
just have to give me credit for teaching you, or next you’ll be telling me it
was the thing about knowing something is right in your heart. What did your father call it?
“Zen!”
Emily told him. But if he insisted on
being so closed minded, he did not need to know about it.
“Then
what?” Howie asked.
“Then…”
Emily repeated, “Then are you proud of yourself for teaching me?”
She started
dancing around again, giggling.
Snowball
stretched and jumped down to get a closer look.
“Oh
Em!” Suddenly Howie looked
dejected. He moved Emily’s cleats aside,
and sat down on the porch. “Maybe I can
teach. But I can’t learn. I know I am going to ruin my sister’s
wedding. What if I break on Aunt Mae’s
foot? Meg is still limping,” he added.
Emily stopped
dancing and looked at him, puzzled.
“Em, I
still can’t dance!” he uttered hopelessly, raising his arms in despair.
“Oh!” she
sighed, and sat down beside him. “Well
Howie, dancing is really no harder than playing baseball.” From her new found Zen wisdom, she told him,
“You’re not able to dance because in your heart you don’t want to dance. At least not as badly as you want to do other
things.”
“You are
not going to try to hold me under water, are you, Emily?”
“No silly,”
she giggled. “Besides I wouldn’t want a
shark to eat you. You have all those
scraps on your elbows and knees and sharks come if they smell blood.”
“There are
no sharks in
“Good! And let’s keep it that way. You will have to figure out some other way to
learn how to dance. Did your mother put
hydrogen peroxide on your scrapes?” Emily wondered.
“Yes,”
answered Howie, puzzled.
“And did
they bubble?” she asked. “I‘d loved to
have seen that.”
“Emily!”
Howie cringed.
Emily stooped,
picked up the blue cloth, and returned to sit beside Howie. She started waxing her cleats once more,
carefully rubbing around the heels and completely ruining the cloth.
“What do
you expect me to do to help you, Howie?” she asked quietly. “If you don’t want to learn to dance, no one
can force you.” She did not look up at
him. She kept her eyes focused on her
cleats.
Howie
didn’t say anything. Well maybe he
muttered something, but Emily politely pretended she didn’t hear him.
She sighed
and looked up. “Howie, you have to stop
feeling sorry for yourself. You know if
you put your mind to it, you can learn anything. You’ve proved that, over and over again. Let’s see,” she continued. “What student in the school knows the most
about space and stars and constellations?”
“I do,”
answered Howie. “You know I do! We went all over with my telescope,
remember?”
“And who is
it that understands physics?” Emily cut him off. “Although, why anybody would want to
understand it, I don’t know. But who is
it?”
“It’s me,”
Howie admitted.
“And who
knows the most about medicine?”
“Probably
me again.”
“Then there
are grades. Who has the best grade point
average at
“That would
be Karen Switzer,” Howie sighed.
“Oh!” Emily paused to consider that. “Well after all, Karen is a girl. And that’s how it should be!” Emily had to approve of this evidence of
women’s superiority, even if it was Karen.
“Then there
is baseball. Who’s a started pitcher on
the Binnington High School Varsity Baseball Team?”
“That would
be me,” admitted Howie, “and three other guys.
There is Billy Higgins and…”
“Close
enough,” said Emily, interrupting him again.
“And who can throw a knuckleball and a slider?”
“I can
throw a knuckleball and a slider,” answered Howie proudly. “So can Billy Higgins,” he added.
“Leave
Billy out of this,” Emily ordered.
“And who
just came within two outs of throwing a no hit baseball game, which was the
best thrown game of the entire season?” she asked.
“Hmm!” replied
Howie. “Maybe I should play baseball at
my sister’s wedding. Instead of putting
on a suit, I could wear my uniform. And
I could put on my cleats. Then instead
of stepping on Aunt Mae’s toes, I could slide into her with my spikes
high. At least I would injure her on
purpose. Or I could charge at her like
she was a catcher…”
“Wait!” Emily stopped waxing her cleats, and just stared
at Howie. She did not say anything for a
moment.
Howie
looked at her skeptically. She didn’t
really think he wanted to spike his aunt, did she?
Then Emily
started grinning from ear to ear.
“What’s
wrong, Emily. Are you enjoying thinking
about my humiliation?”
Emily put
down the cleats, and the wax, and the blue rag.
She leaped
off the porch and began, once more, dancing up and down, and whooping and
hollering.
“Yes,
Emily, I know. You got all the answers
right on our math test. You beat us
all. But haven’t you celebrated enough?
She came
back and took Howie by the hand. “That’s
not it, Howie! What did that Greek guy
say?
Soon they
arrived at home plate. “Close you eyes,
Howie – and keep them shut. I just want you
to feel. Think, hear, smell, and
imagine, then tell me about it.
“What?”
“Trust me,
Howie. Just do it!”
“Okay! I think…you are crazy. I feel the warmth of sun and the wind on my
face, and…the softness of your hand in mine.”
Flustered,
Emily yanked her hand away. “What else,
Howie?” she whispered.
“I can hear
the wind, as well as feel it…and I hear a crow.
And I can smell…you smell good, Emily!”
Emily
stepped away from Howie. “Now imagine,
Howie. And tell me what you are
imagining”
“I can’t
imagine why you are asking me to do this.”
Howie opened his eyes.
“Imagine
that I’m going to hit you - hard! Close
you eyes!”
“No! Don’t hit me, Emily! See! I
have my eyes shut as tight as I can. But
I can’t imagine why.” He chuckled.
“It is a
good thing doctors do not have to be funny, Howie! Or you would flunk out of medical
school. Howie! I can see you peeking. Close your eyes tight. Now I will help you. Imagine you are at your sister’s wedding.”
“Okay.”
“Can you
see me in your imagination?”
“Yes.”
“I’m not
wearing pink, am I? No, never mind! Do you see your Aunt Mae?”
“Yes. She’s limping.”
“Howie!”
“Okay! Yes, I can see Aunt Mae. She looks fine.”
Now imagine
the dance floor is a baseball field,” Emily continued
“Okay.”
“Can you
see grass growing on it?”
“WHAT?”
‘Just do as
I tell you. Imagine grass is growing on
it.
“Alright. Can I open my eyes now?”
“No! Imagine where the dance band is playing is
the bleachers. And the pitcher’s mound
is right in the center of the floor. And
home plate is over by the wedding cake.”
“You know
you have gone off the deep end, Emily!”
“Hush
Howie. That’s swimming, not baseball! Can you make out the base paths? If it helps, you can squint your eyes
tighter.”
“Yes, it
helps! Now I can see base paths. But why?”
“Doesn’t
the minister kind of look like an umpire?”
“Emily!” Howie opened his eyes in shock.
“Okay,
maybe that’s going too far. You can
forget that one. But you can see a
baseball field on the floor at your sister’s wedding reception, can’t you?”
“Yes! But why?”
“Because Howie,” Emily explained, as they stood near
home plate, “the answer to your problem about learning to dance is…you are
going to play baseball with your aunt at your sister’s wedding!”
“You’re
crazy, Em! I can’t play baseball at a
wedding.”
“Howie,
every step in dancing can be explained in terms of baseball.”
Howie
looked at her like she was crazy. “I don’t believe it. There’s no dancing in baseball!”
Emily didn’t
answer him. She bent down and began
putting on her new cleats.
She stood
back up. “Okay,” she said. “Tell me a dance you need to learn.”
“Emily?”
“Just do
it!”
“Okay, I
need to learn to waltz. One, two,
three…two, two, three. Something like
that.”
Emily
thought hard for a moment. Then she narrated,
“It’s a high pop-up to shallow left field.
What do you do?”
“Well, I…”
“Call it
out!” commanded Emily.
“The
fielder circles on the grass,” Howie called out.
“Good! But you are circling the wrong way. Circle the other way. Keep circling.” Emily started to chant,
“Left, two, three…right, two, three…left, two, three...right, two, three. Well?”
“I’m doing
it, Em! I’m doing it!”
“Of course
you are! Now try it with me. But remember I have my cleats on and I can
defend myself!” Emily put Howie’s right
hand on her waist, put her left hand on his shoulder, and took his left hand in
her right one. “Okay, let’s begin. It’s a high pop-up to shallow left
field. Call it out!”
“The
fielder circles on the grass,” Howie called.
“Left, two,
three…right, two, three…left, two, three...right, two, three,” Emily joined in.
He was
doing it. Occasionally there was a
misstep. But Emily was wearing cleats
and her retaliation was swift and sure.
Soon Howie’s feet where staying where they belonged.
They danced
all the way from home plate around the base paths. Emily began singing, “Take me out to the ball
game – left, two, three… right, two, three...circle the ball, two, three.”
Howie just repeated,
“The fielder circles on the grass.” But
he wasn’t much of a singer anyway.
They
stopped when they arrived back at home plate – having touched all the bases
along the way. Snowball sat on the
pitcher’s mound twitching her tail, and watching them. Out of breath, they stood there giggling
“What other
dances do you have to learn, Howie?
Howie listed
all the dances that made Meg cry, “And last, but not least, my aunt wants to
tangle.”
“It’s
called the Tango, Howie! That’s quite a
list. We better get started with the
tangle…I mean tango. Now, you’ve got me
saying it!”
The
“tangle” led them far afield and, before they knew it, they had danced through
the Sycamore trees, ending up by the old graveyard. They stopped there to catch their breaths.
“Howie,”
Emily said, looking over the fence. “I
know I told you the next time I danced with you, it would be over someone’s
dead body, but I didn’t really mean it.”
“Lets take
a break,” Howie said, “and go in there.”
“What?”
said Emily.
“I like
graveyards,” Howie explained, as he creaked open the gate and led the way
in. “I think they’re peaceful places,
and I like to imagine what the people who are buried in them were like.”
The
graveyard started out years ago as the Binnington family’s private graveyard,
but now it was a public one and others were buried there. Some of the older tombstones had regiment
numbers of soldiers who fought in the Civil War.
The grounds
of cemetery were orderly and maintained, but most of the stones were old, and
mossy, and weather stained. In a far
corner of the graveyard, under a bush, was a small rock on which was inscribed
“Iggy” and instead of “RIP” it read “RIBBIT”.
This was a pet frog of Emily’s who died years before. Howie arranged the funeral and burial,
inscribing on the rock with his sister’s nail polish.
Howie
walked up to a tombstone in the center of the cemetery. “See, here is old Farmer Binnington. He lived until he was ninety years old.”
Snowball
jumped up to inspect it more closely.
“Look,”
said Emily, as she reached down and traced the dates on the stone with her
fingers, “his wife died so many years before him. He must have been lonely.”
“And they
had a son in the army who died during the war.
See, here is his military unit carved onto the stone.”
“Oh,” Emily
gasped.
“What is
the matter?” Howie asked.
“A baby
died, a little girl. It looks as if she
was the youngest of their children. How
sad for the mother.” How sad it would be
to lose a child or a loved one to death.
Except for Howie’s grandfather, they were both fortunate not to have
suffered so. Respectfully, they left the
cemetery; softly closing the gate behind them and latching it, after letting
Snowball squeeze through.
It was
nearly dark by the time Howie and Emily finally left the field and headed
towards home.
Snowball
remained behind to chase butterflies.
Emily had a
few last instructions. “Remember when
you do the Swing,” she said, “first you step forward, and then you step
back. Think of trying to trick the
pitcher into believing you are going to steal the next base. Don’t worry!
You won’t step on anyone’s toes!
When you do the Shimmy, think of winning the game and the team
celebrating by dumping the water cooler down your back. And when you do the Jive, don’t shake both
legs at the same time. It doesn’t look
polite.”
Both of
them were a little sore, but they were satisfied! Better than satisfied, thought Emily. She had actually danced with Howie!
It was a
good thing, Howie thought, that Emily had not sharpened her spikes. She was quick to retaliate whenever she was
kicked or stepped on, but that way he soon learned not to repeat his mistakes.
They said
goodnight at Emily’s back porch. That
is, Emily said goodnight. Howie was
muttering under his breath “fly ball in the dirt high and away.” But Emily knew he meant “goodnight, and thank
you!”
Just before
she went in, she saw her wishing star and the man in the moon peeking over the
sycamores. “Oh look, Howie. There is our star.”
“That is
Venus, a planet,” Howie reminded her.
“And the moon is waning.”
“Howie,
you’ve still got no romance in you.
Venus is still the goddess of love and that makes her good enough to
wish on.” She didn’t care if it was a
planet! It was a magical night - a night
for wishes. And she was going to make
one.
She went
sat on the steps of the porch and took off her cleats. Howie sat down beside her. For some reason, they held hands again. Probably they were just used to it, after
dancing all afternoon. “You are not
sweating so much any more,” said Emily.
“What will
you wish for this time,” Howie asked.
“Did your last wish come true?”
Emily
remembered her last wish. It was that Howie
would love her new dress, and Karen Switzer ended up wearing it! She reached out with her foot, and kicked
that blue rag off the steps. “I’m not
sure what I will wish for this time,” she replied. “But I know this. It won’t have any blue in it!”
Howie
looked puzzled
“Then I’ll
make the first wish,” he said. “I have
to practice making a toast to the bride and groom at Meg’s wedding.”
“This I’ve
got to hear,” said Emily.
“Hey, I can
be poetic when the mood strikes me.”
“If I hear
anything about “over the gums” or “here it comes”, I am lending you one of my
Emily Dickinson books.”
“Just
listen to this,” Howie replied. Without
realizing it, he took both of Emily’s hands in his. Then he said, “I wish you long life and
happiness, and a love that lasts forever; good friends when you need them and
better friends when they need you. I
wish you wealth in the bank, but more importantly wealth in your hearts. May you always be in love and stay in
love. May you have all the children that
your arms and your hearts can hold, and all the health and life to enjoy
them. May your children live to honor
you in your old age. May you always have
a sense of humor, but may you never need one.
I wish the years to bring you more joy than sorrow, but when sorrows
come, may they leave you with room for even more joy. May you grow more beautiful day by day, so
that when you die people will not come to mourn, but to gaze and say, ‘Ah, what
an exquisite jewel.”
There was
silence for a moment.
“That was
beautiful, Howie. Did you write it?”
“Yes, I
did,” he admitted sheepishly. “I do love
Meg and I want her to be happy, you know.
I just hope she can walk down the aisle.
She hurt her foot pretty bad, when we were practicing.”
“Maybe, I
should loan her my cleats.”
“Don’t you
dare,” begged Howie, rubbing the lower parts of his body.
Emily
continued to sit on the porch for a while after Howie left. Now she knew her wish! She wished that someday she and Howie could
share the same wish he would offer his sister.
When Emily
entered the house, she leaned back against the kitchen door, humming to herself
and waving 3/4 time in the air with her cleats.
Her mother
was in the kitchen preparing dinner. And
she watched her daughter, bemused.
Emily
smiled at her mother. Then she executed
a little waltz step and sang “Take me out to the ball game…left, two, three…
right, two, three...circle the ball, two, three.”
“Well,”
said Mrs. Hinton, “those are interesting lyrics. Have you and Howie been practicing singing?”
“No, Mama,”
replied Emily. “We have been playing
baseball. AND IT WAS WONDERFUL!”
“Go wash up
and come back. Then you can help me set
the table, while you tell me all about.”
When Emily
came back, she had not only washed up, but she had combed out her hair, letting
it fall gracefully down to her shoulders.
She had changed out of her tennis shoes.
And she had put on a skirt, even tucking her blouse into it.
“I thought
I would dress for dinner,” She explained.
“After all, you and dad do it all the time.”
Easter
continued smiling and watching her daughter.
Emily went
to the silverware drawer and began collecting knives, and forks, and
spoons. Then she proceeded to set the
table, still in ¾ time.
The mother
eyed her daughter, speculatively. There
was an interesting sparkle in her eyes, a spring in her step, and a flush on
her cheeks. Emily looked much as she had
years ago, when she first met a studious young law student named Ira. She knew Emily and Howie often made up
variations of baseball to play. “What
kind of game did you play today, Emily?” she asked her daughter curiously.
“It’s hard
to describe,” replied Emily. “It was
kind of…a tangle!”
Mrs. Hinton
smiled and shook her head.