I watch you silently sleep
Your little hands caressing the cat
Hair framing your angelic face
Such a big heart for a little girl
A heart filled with love and yet so much pain

Your body in stark contrast from moments earlier
Shaking with fear,
Each sob making your little body writhe
A mother holding back her own tears.

Tears of a time gone by
Tears of not knowing
Thru the sobs come tiny words
Four words that can make grown men cry
I miss my Nana

You lie there....holding you close
Telling you that Nana and I love you
Feeling my heart tear from my body
How can I help you understand little one?
When I myself don't understand?

1/12/99
 

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