| 9/17/03 ~Didn't do anything today, cause I am sick. It really sucks too...Cause today is a really pretty day, and my friends wanted to hang out. But I don't want to get them sick...So stay away..lol.....9/18/03 ~Went to school all day, it was pretty fun, me and my friend Amber were being silly, our math teacher wanted to take us to O'charleys....lol...And I made a friend mad at me today too, Sorry! I am not as sick today, I think it was a bug. Can't wait till tomorrow!9/19/03 ~Hum, What a nice night. Well I cleaned all day today. It was about time too, my floors needed a good moping. Watched a movie, Malibu's Most Wanted, it was pretty funny. Gosh, I love those orange shorts...lol...I need more good days in my life, I wonder where I can find some.9/20/03 ~Being rejected by your own man, now that has to be a bad thing. Heck I have been rejected by him more than once. That should tell me something, but I just don't learn. Went out with my friends, didn't really do anything, but for some reason I had a good time! Gosh I love you guys...lol...bye9/26/03 ~Well it has been a very sad week, My boyfriends dad went to be with the lord. It seems awful when someone you love leaves you, but actually we are all going to be together in the end. I pray for god to bless his family and be with them everyday. I love them very much, and would do anything for them. I went out of town today, with my boyfriend, and i really enjoyed getting out for a while, and thank you babe for the little kitty! I love you! Oh, and to the quote"Don't get use to this". Well i guess i won't, but i wish i could!..lol...9/28/03 ~I did laundry at my moms almost all day yesterday, gosh i would love to have my own washer and dryer. Its almost hard to beleive that i used to have my own house, nice cars, and everything i needed. Well that was married life, that is a thing of the past. Life went from simple to hard with in one year. It all seems like it was just a dream. The point that i am at right now now is a ruff one, it seems like i am just floating on a cloud. I just don't know what is going to happen to me. I guess i will just go with the flow!9/29/03 ~Well, I must say my focus on life has changed, I thought that i was going down one path, but i found out that i am not. But that is ok, you can't make someone want the same thing that you want. I went to class tonight, Gosh, i miss one class and it seems like i missed everything...lol...I went and put applications in today, maybe i will get a job soon..Well i gotta get in bed, i gotta get up early.9/30/03 ~Hum, went to school, it was ok....It's not fun to be toyed with. That is how i feel! Oh well it will take a while but i will be ok...10/1/03 ~Last night was bad, got in a fuss with my boyfriend. And now we are just dateing, but that is his choice and i will respect it. I try to be perfect for him, but i can't always, so i guess i messed up. Well life goes on and if we don't end up together then i guess that means that god has someone else for me. I guess that i was selfish when i prayed for him to be with me forever...i have learned my lesson. But i know things will turn out good for me sometime, cause there are so many people that care about me........I took my baby boy to the doctor today and he had to get shots, he cryed and screamed, it hurt me when they did it, i don't know who cryed more me or him...lol...my poor baby...I love my little angels! Oh and thank you Misty for takeing me out to lunch, i really needed someone to lean on..love ya...i gotta finish my homework and get in bed..bye10/2/03 ~I am so tired, School is driving me crazy, I know I am going to fail math, i will do good in everything else, but not math. Oh well i will just have to retake it i guess. I need a job, i think i will find one soon though. Oh My Gosh....There was a giant spider on my desk today, i went crazy , i hate spiders....But i killed it! Sheww i hope there isn't any more around here, but i am sure that there is...lol...Thanks guys for helping me through ruff times, at least someone cares.......Well gotta go relax and watch some tv...bye...bye...night....night........10/5/03 ~Ok, Tennessee lost, that was close though..lol..Well not to much going on, I just want to say that I am praying for our troops in Iraq, God be with them and there familys everyday. And I had a pretty good weekend, concidering that i have had my heart broke. Well gotta go tend to my youngins...lol...bye....bye........10/7/03 ~Today is a ruff day, it is my granfathers birthday, he left us on Nov, 7th 2001, and I miss him alot, loseing him was really hard on my whole family....I think about him and what happened to him alot...........But i know that he is looking down on me and my kids, and i will join him one day...................Well school is so not fun..lol...But i really like my humanities class it is fun and so is writing class, just mainly cause i have friends in those classes. Hum i am single now, and it seems weird, cause now i have to go on, but i really don't want to ...........But i guess it will get easier as time goes by. Well i must sign off now and go find something to do....lol..bye..bye...10/8/03 ~I feel like crap! I went to the doctor, and i have the shingles, and it hurts so bad. I hate this so much...And i just found out that my ex boyfriends brother is moving into my apartment building, and i know he will cause me alot of problems....great like i need anymore stress...My little world just keeps getting worse and worse...Hi John!! I Love You!!.....lol....I just thought that i would say that since you might read this..lol..Help ME!!..I am going crazy.............I got 2 really good coupons today and i plan on useing them...lol...ha ha ha...well i am going to take my meds and go to bed...night...night....... |
| 10/9/03 ~New day and a new page.....I still feel awful.......Me sad.....I need someone to baby me.............. 10/11/03 ~Why do i always end up, the girl to hang out with, until the right girl comes along? I have actually had an ex tell me that in the past after we broke up. Why is it that this always happens to me? I just don't know what to do anymore! Its weird, the guys that won't me, i don't want and the guys that i won't don't want me.Well go figure..lol..I am nothing but a big bowl of oatmeal...no one wants it..lol...Well tomorrow is my little angels birthday....Austin, he will be 4 years old..he is growing up way to fast..But that is ok, cause he says that he is going to take care of his momma when he grows up. Ok, Tennessee got there buts kicked. Give them some time they will make a come back...Gosh I have no school on monday and tuesday, it is fall break, i am going to be so so bored. Thats ok i will find something to get into..... I am not feeling to great right now, i think that i will go and lay down...night..night...bye...bye.....10/12/03 ~HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUSTIN~ I love you sweet boy...4 Years old..Big Boy! We had a little party at my parents house, it was fun. We had a good time! John, Thank you, for your help....Your such an angel...well sometimes...lol...j/k....I love ya! Heck i just don't know what to do anymore, my life is driving me crazy. I hate being alone, I need a comfort blanket...I need someone to pick me up when i fall. I just can't have what i want!! Or who i want!!....Well i am going to get in bed...love..love...night...night....10/13/03 ~Not much going on today, just been thinking alot. I want to go to Gatlinburg...I want to just get away from everything here.......................................10/15/03 ~My computer is not working, but it will be back soon, my dad is fixing it, So for now i have to go to my parents to use their computer. Well not much going on in my life, same old depressing crap. I go back to school tomorrow...yea....how fun..lol...Well gotta go ...bye...bye10/18/03 ~I haven't slept all week, and it felt so good to sleep last night. You know what sucks, when you make plans with someone and then they forget! It just makes you feel not very important, but heck i already know that i am not important to that person so i guess its ok...Well i think that i am going to pass math..YEA! isn't that just wonderful....lol...I hate my computer, it won't work right, i think i need to take it to the computer hospital! The other night i decided that i was going to teach my 4 year old his ABC's, so we sat down and i started saying them, and then he said them all...Heck i didn't even know that my son knew all his ABC's....He needs to tell me these things..lol..But now we are going to work on counting..lol..Well i gotta go clean and study..later...Dang tonight sucked! I am gettin really tired of alot of stuff......It's funny how your there for someone and you care about them so much, and they end up treating you like something that they found on the bottom of there shoe...oh well...i guess that is how it goes....Love means nothing, these days.....................Night! 10/20/03 ~You know what its not nice to be hateful to someone that you supose to care about..but i guess some people just don't care about anyone else but themselves....Well today is such a pretty day, i think i will leave and go out in it..i gotta go to school later too ...lol..oh what a joy...I have a feeling that someone will be flirting with me tonight..lol..well later ...bye...bye.... Well I just got home from class, it wan't to bad...We are learning about India and China..... lol...I talked to a good friend on the phone, and we was talking about my problems. And he said to me"Kelly why don't you just open your eyes and see that you have had the perfect guy right infront of you for along time" He was talking about himself, and maybe he is right...I am going to have to do alot of thinking about what direction i want my life to go in......But for now i am going to go in the direction of my bed....and get some sleep, i gotta go to school in the morning...Night...Night.......10/21/03 ~Sheww weee...I am so tired....It has been a really long day! And i am ready to lay down and get some rest! ...........I am moving on...........Well night.....night...bye....bye......10/22/03 ~Well what a wonderful day, i did laundry all day...lol...My poor baby boy is sick, I might have to miss school tomorrow to take him to the doctor. He didn't let me get any sleep last night...i am a ZOMBIE!!! Well isn't it funny!!! How people use other people!!!! Some people just don't care....oh well...there loss......Well it is off to bed now....night...night....(I can't stand spoiled brats!!!)10/27/03 ~goodness my son is still sick, i had to take him back to the doctor today. He will be better soon though, cause he got good meds...lol...Hell Far none of my friends wanted to talk to me today.....oh well.....i just wanted to talk..is that to much to ask for.....I got a DVD player for $29 cool huh.....Heck if you don't want to talk to me anymore just tell me!!!!...ok....its funny how your there for someone any time they need you, but it isn't the other way around...Well anyways......Today was a rainy cold day...i just wanted to curl up in the bed and watch tv, but i didn't get too...i was running around in the cold rain all day long, and i had both boys home from daycare today so i had my hands full, but i am used to it by now...lol...And my darn computer is messed up again..What A Wonderful Life....oh well....Go Vols!...Hey all that matter is that they won...lol...It is almost here........HALLOWEEN............I am takeing the kids out trick or treating...and then i think that i might go out and try to find me a ghost or a goblin or two...Well i am off to bed now...Goodnight all and sweet dreams...night ....night...bye...bye...........10/28/03 ~Misty thanks for talking with me, i know i need to let go, and i am trying my best, i guess it just takes time. i love you girl, your the only one that has always been there and that always will be there for me. And girl i would do anything for you. JOHN, i wish there was something that i could do to bring you back to me, but there isn't(but if there is you really should let me know) so what else is there for me to do? but to let go!!! " There goes my life, There goes my future, my everything, Might as well kiss it all goodbye, There goes my life."( Kenny Chesney) I Love You! Well , anyways my son is getting better, and gosh his cough meds knock his little but out. I went to school today that is always a joy...lol...Didn't learn much, i guess i never do. Misty don't foget about friday, okie dokie!!! Goodness this page is almost full...........about time for a new one.....well it is off to bed for me know, but i am sure once my head hits my pillow that i wil hear the wonderful crys of my son..oh well i guess that is a part of being a mommy(no sleep)...lol...night....night...bye10/31/03 ~HAPPY HALLOWEEN! The best thing about having kids is that you get to be a kid again! Tonight I am takeing my son and my niece trick or treating....It will be fun! Austin is going to be a lion and Kia is going to be a princess and Aaron is going to be a little doggy......awwwww......~Well the kids had a great time, but i am not sure if my legs did..lol..gosh we walked alot... Oh yea Happy Birthday Mamaw(grannygirl) I miss you and I love you so much. (She lost her battle with cancer last year. She was what held our family together, I guess that is why everything is falling apart now...well night..night..bye...bye.... |