WEll, this is some stuff that I wrote.enjoy.

IF ONLY IT WAS AS EASY AS 1-2-3

i judge my worth by scales and mirrors/and the sharpness of the razor/ determines my fate/i watch the world through my black and white glasses/ and i look at myself the way others wish i was/ for someone to love me would be a tradgedy/because love is a perfect thing/ and im nothing of that sort/ it's all based on lies/i love you's and goodbye's/the seem to go together so easily/ i judge my worth by scales and mirrors/and the sharpness of the razor determines my fate/ it's not at all likly/ for you to like me/ even tho i kissed you on the first date/things got all fucked up/and now its too late/ im just a fuck up/ i watch the world thru my black and white glasses/ i wish they werent glued to my face/ i see so many images that i just want to erase/ im sick and tired of this space/as i judge my worth by scales and mirrors/and the sharpness of this razor in my hand right now determines my fate.

I WISH I HAD A REMOTE THAT COULD LET ME REWIND CERTAIN SITUATIONS

i've grown so old the past few months/everything i do just isnt enough/ i think it's time to run away/i have to get away/just not yet today/i could talk about how tommorow will be different/and how someday i will win/well, i've past so many somedays/and found that somedays always end/and i've grown so old/so fast/trying to act tough ins't enough/and it's hard just to laugh/so, maybe if i say i'm happy/i wont jusmp off this bridge/i'll just walk across the thin ice underneath/and maybe it'll break and i'll fall in/ i guess this is what you get for opening an umbrella inside/ although ive grown so old the past few months/i guess i'll never be fucking good enough/even though i at least tried

TELL ME A STORY, ONE WITH A HAPPY ENDING

i'm like an openbook/that hates to be read/the wind blows my pages open/to the place where secrets are said/i just wish i knew my ending /before everyone else

I FEEL LIKE THAT PINK VIDEO WHERE SHE'S FIGHTING WITH HERSELF IN THE MIRROR, FUCKING SCHITZO

you can sit in your room and cry/for as long as you want/ punch holes in your walls/and ignore all your calls/none of it even matters/you'll probably get over it/just dont get me involved/you are what you make yourself/welcome to the first day of the rest of your life/you need to get your act together/you cant sit here forever/just ignore the mirrors/fuck all the tears/this is the advice you need to hear/its been said so many times before/but you never listen/ i wish i could just punch you in the face/ knock you into reality.

YOU NEVER KNW WHAT YOU'RE MISSING OUT ON UNTIL YOU CANT HAVE IT

its amazing how one person you dont even know that well can make a differeence/it's amazing how you can fall so hard for the person too/what else thats amazing is how smart they are/except theyre so dumb because theyre missing out on you
IF I HAD A PHOTO FOR EVERY MEMORY

i've locked my self in this room for too long/ i can crack open the door and see the world for how it really is/ sometimes i feel like im in a Kafka story /and ive turned into a giant bug/ sometimes i really just need hug/ take a picture to remember how things were/ how i thought they should be/ how i thought they could be/ it was a long trip to get you/ and i've fianlly found out the truth/it's probly the best for me now/even though i never could under stand the reason why/ i've spent so much time moving on/ i left my camera by the door/ i have no photos to remember it by/ its so hard to erase the memory of hopes and dreams/ the way i wish things could be/at least for me/it's been a long trip to get here now/ and there's still a lot of bumpy roads ahead

YOU DONT EVEN KNOW I EXIST EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE LOOKING RIGHT AT ME

i wish i knew what to write about you/ and how it made me feel when i left there /if only you knew how i wished things could be/ its like a neverending story for me /and of how things always turn out /its never been completely the way i wanted /but the things ive had i flaunted /i wish i never flaunted you/ bc i never actually had you/ even tho i thought i could have /the days of following the leader are over /and i cant be lead on anymore/ fuck the situations ive gone through /bc theyre all the same with the same ending/ but everytime i always think they will be different /during the beginning

I COULD SAY I NEED A VACATION...

i walk thru this place /with the world on my shoulders /and im afraid to get close to people /even though theyre walking on top of me/ i still smile /even tho im crying on the inside/ maybe i need to go to a new place

YOU HAVE JUST ENTERED THE TWILIGHT ZONE, I MEAN, WILKES-BARRE

and you play me like monopoly or scrable or soemthing of that sort/ and i beleive you when you say things like you care/ and i hang on everything that you say/ and i think about you everyday/ while you just move the peices along/ and you look like the double for justin timberlake/ i wish i could be your brittany spears/ we'd hold hands and wear simalar outfits / we'd smile for the cameras while i drank a can of cocacola/ you drive me around in circles all the time/ i feel like im stuck on a record player /playing a scratched record/ i just need to find my mind/ i need a little more time/a little more time

I DESPISE FEBRUARY

the beggining of a new year /only to end in tragedy /at least it is for me/ because my eyes hate february/and its something to be weary of in the end/ in the end/ im not going to do this to myself again/not again/ sit and watch you mingle /all around the crowds of people/ wishing that for once /that i was one of them/my eyes hate february and its something to be weary of in the end in the end/let me crawl into my corner/and for get about you/and all the things that you do/ forget about this thing called love/and all of the above/including you/out of my life for good/at least/thats how/it should be for me/ and i'll sit here in my corner/only to wonder/ what is meant to be/ be of me/and my eyes hate february and its something to be weary of in the end in the end
WE WILL ALL BE WORM FOOD SOMEDAY

i start to fade away/starting to turn grey/and i just want to shout/ my minds so full of doubt/and ive wasted so much time/ its the only thing on my mind/how do i get out of here/what is the exit near/can you direct me to a phone/i just want to go home/its already past my cerfew/and i dont like to break the rules/ but they have to be broken sometime too/as i start to fade away/ everything turns to a shade of grey/and i just want to shout/my minds so full of doubt/maybe another day/another day ill stay/just so you can play me for a fool.

HI, MY NAME IS CINDERELLA

when i die/i hope i become a bird/so i can peck your eyes out of your skull/ just a dieing wish/ something so mysterious/ but what can you do/i watch you rot away/every single day/ hoping for some life/ and tonight you're off with my twin/ too bad i didnt win/ but you are still the loser this time/just a dieing wish/somehting so mysterious/but what can you do/ still playing kids games/calling each other names/and youre still the wicked witch/ and i guess im still a bitch/and i hope you spontaniously combust/just a dieing wish/something so mysterious/ but what can you do?

DONT LIE< THINGS ARE EASIER THAT WAY

i hate geitting my hopes up
i wrote this song all about you
and how you said youd love me forever.
so where are you now?
to hell with you and your contradictions

STARLIGHT STAR BRIGHT

your eyes dont work the way i want them too /and you cant see past the uglieness on the outside / i wish you could see how pretty i am on the inside / then maybe youd take the time to say hello /instead youre like a star stuck up in the sky/ that will eventually burn out and fade away

HALLWAY HERO part 3

i cant do this again/ will i make thru to the end/ and i just cry/ cry over a nother guy

I THINK I'M GETTING SMARTER

breathing in and out/i have no doubt that/i should die right now/ and it is so cold/i cant see my last dieing breath/i can see in the/ mirror/ my last falling tear/and i know i have given up hope/ and every single one of you have already finished spitting on my grave/and some of you havnt finished planting weeds that will die away like me

MAYBE I SHOULD GIVE MISS CLEO A CALL

this is the only thing i see/i dont know what will be be anymore/ the only thing i can be/ is something i dont yet see/ and im already out the door/and i just want to know/ does the rain ever end/ does the pain ever end/this is how fate stands/ this is what god planned/ its out of my hands/ this whats meant to be of my life / i just cant cry/ when will i die/ and i want to wake up from this dream/ its so unreal/this tragedy/ and as it may seem/ i didnt do anything/ i never said a thing/to make you hate me/but this is how fate stands/ this is what God planned/its out of my hands/i dont understand things anymore/and you shut the door behind me/ i could say im sorry/ but i didnt do a thing/ i never do anything right/ its been a rough trip to paradise/when will we get there/is there time to spare/ i want to take a nap in the sand/but this is how fate stands/this is what god planned/its out of my hands/its always been to far away for me to reach/its out of my hands

PLEASE REMOVE THAT KNIFE YOU STABBED IN MY BACK

and if i try/i fail/and if i fail / it means i didnt try/ everyday seems the same /without a change to mention/ aches and pains/i cant do this anymore/and in life/ people think im a cross walk/ walked all over/my lifes over/ bc everydays all the same/without a change to mention/aches and pains /i cant do this anymore/ heres my resignation/ im quitting this world/ ill still be getting no where/but with out the stress/ the end/its over/ all over/ and ill stop dealing with the things that bring me down/ but everydays all the same/with out a change to mention/aches and pains i cant do this anymore...

I TALK ABOUT LOSING A LOT...IM SO REDUNDANT

i dont know why i waste my own time trying / to get something that will never be mine and/ crying does no good so ill just sit here and/ take this world for yet another day...

IN THE END WILL IT ALL MATTER

i'm on my way to where ever that may/ be to get me somewhere that i dont / yet see and in the future i'll be happy / maybe with a smile on my face and a frown/ inside someday i'll figure out this world / of mine and realize where i want to be and / not where i think i should be because im / still at the starting line while everyones / finishing and so it goies on that the nice / ones finish last with nothing once again.../ maybe ill come out first in the end.../ just this once...i'm tired of losing.

IVE BEEN STARING IN THE MIRROR TOO LONG AT YOU

i like you.......but you dont like me..... and theres nothing i can do....its the way its going to be....just this once i wish i could win....i dont want to cry....im not going to cry....because i'm fine....at least i say that i am....and at least i tried...tried again....gave up in the end....just because i like you....but you dont like me....

HALLWAY HERO....PART 2

i feel so lonely in this crowded room.....
i really dont know why i try sometimes...

311 ROCKS JEFFS SOCKS

......sometimes i feel really lonely in my world that i have created for myself and i realize my life is so far from perfect......

TONIGHT WE DANCE THE TENGO

hey i messed up again/oh well i guess this is the end/just a failure for life i guess/cleaning up another mess/and this is my life /so far from perfect inside/wecome to my world tonight/ fall on my face/just a disgrace/another game lost/my life is its cost/runnining around in circles all day/and i just want to say/i said just so thats okay/why dont u take my shoes for a walk today/ and this is my life so far from perfect inside welcome to my world tonight

MAYBE I DONT ALWAYS NEED A BILLIONTH CHANCE.....BUT MAYBE I DO

i said i'll just complain,/ he said ill be there for you /and i said all i do is complain. /i cant win./just go on with your life /i'm told ,/forget the past/.sometimes the worst of times, / never last./ and the clock is still ticking,/because i've got some time left./make the best of it he says,/ and do your best/.and now i'll move on/ and now i'll cry, /and now i'll move on ,/ and now ill die./make the best of it he says,/ no use to complain./what good does that do? /seems like yur taking life in vain./he told me just to move on,/ try not to cry/ just move on now,/ you've got a while before you die/.a while before you die, /just move on now/, please dont cry ,/ just move on now, /just move on.

LONELY LONER

with a smile on my face /and a frown inside/ confused of everything going on and what they're saying/ i brush it off my shoulder/ agian hypocrit to my own advice/ who cares about this who cares about that i seem to care too much /but maybe ill get over it all /and maybe you will too/ maybe ill see you again /and i dont know why /but when i see the two of you /i know i'll cry /i'll put a smile on my face and walk around/ i'll feel like a mess /not sure what to do /i guess this thing called love is all a lie/ who cares about this/ who cares about that/ i seem to care too much /but maybe ill get over it all /but i'll remeber you always/ because that role you played /and the two of us not together /i have to move on/ but still will you remeber me/ because i rember you/ and why did you give up /give up so fast on me?/who cares /who cares about that/ maybe care too much/whats the problem with that?

BEATING MYSELF UP

i hate when i feel miserable and sad...this feeling is awful...i just want to cry...walking around with a smile when my insides are being torn apart isnt good...crying to people isnt doing any good...i just wish i could smile and have it be me smileing because im totally happy and i have no worries...but i dont think i wanna die jsut yet....

I CANT OPEN YOUR EYES

and you're so unahppy with what you say and do/and you say things that are not true/you dont realize the things you say/ when you say them/and how it makes me feel/ when you say them/days passing/ you dont realize/what you're doing / times passing/clocks ticking/ again/ and you're missinturpreting things again/ and im over analizing the situation/ while youre talkingn im hanging on every word/ thinking of words i wish i heard/ from you, but i wont/days passing/ you dont realize/ what you're doing / times passing/ clocks ticking/ again/ im so tired of wasting youre time / and mine/ maybe i'll just be quiet from now on/ bc soon enough ill be gone/ and you wont deal with me anymore/ and youre still unhappy with what you say and do and / you say things that are not true/ days passing/ you dont realize/ what you're doing /times passing/clocks ticking/ again/

MAYBE I SHOULD QUIT SWEARING

and its snowing/ you're off on your own/ it's raining/ only above my head/ winds blowing/ just another storm in life/ just another day in your life/ falling / into the concrete/ washed away like the chalk from summers ago

PLEASE REMOVE THE SIGN FROM MY BACK THAT SAYS "BREAK MY FUCKING HEART"

and i, dont need this shit, / and i dont need another conflict/ the end is nearing/ so what if you're not winning/ i could care less about what you do/ everyday it is something new/ you're like a spoiled dinner from 5 weeks ago/ that no one liked and left alone

WOWZA

it was never my fault at all/and in the end we're not friends anymore/i know you'll never call/you dont want to mend loose ends/again/i cant beleive what im putting myself through/and it's all bc of you...

CALANDERZ

another day goes by/another time that i ask why/tears cloud my eyes/i can hardly see the days go by...

HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY

it's been 3 long years/and over 3 billion tears/since i met you/sinei fell for you/i guess its time for this to end/its time for me to realize that im just a friend/thats all ill ever be/getting over you/its so hard to do/i wish i knew howw it felt to kiss you/but thats something we'll never do/for 3 years youve been clueless/its taken me 3 years to do this/i finally told you/now i dont know what to do/its taken me so ong/but i finally wrote this song/youll never be more to me than a friend/so i need my feelings for you to end/i wish i was more/but i never will be...
ORANGE SODA MMMMMMMMM

since you stopped with out notice/hitting me hard/driving away as if it didnt happen/i wish i didnt follow you/it wasnt worth it at all...

GO PLAY IN TRAFFIC

when you said goodbye/that last time/glasses smashed to the floor/as you shut the door/throw away the glass/if only the peices of a heart could be picked up like that/ when you shut the door/you opened old memories/something that you cant take away from me...

THE FRUITCAKE FACADE

the lights are all burnt out/theres nothing left to say/whats left to talk about?/this far away charade?/you're so far away/and you play your mind games/ all thru the long days/and youre so far away/so when am i going to see you?/because the pictures are getting old/we are getting older/sometimes i just want to see you/but yur so unaware while you play your mind games/all thru the long days/and how much it hurts me/and on nights when im alone/with out you calling on the phone/ i just want to see you/i just want to hear you/i just want one more kiss from you/but youre too far away and i dont want to deal with your mind games or all these long days/and youre too far away to be with/sorry i have to be the one to end this...

MOVING ON

legends dont have anything to do with reality/whathappened to you wont happen to me/as i dive into another trap/something so expected of me/so much for love/so much for life/what about the good times?/i guess this is goodbye/and maybe tommorow/i'll look both ways/i'll take the road less traveled/and wipe my tears away/maybe i wont fall this time/and maybe i wont give up so fast/maybe this legend could come true/it's happened in the past/but so much for love/so much for life/what about the good times?/i guess this is goodbye

SORE LOSER

sometimes i need to leave this town/and take a look around/to see the world i'm missing /and the life i could be living/it's hard to beleive i've made it this far /after wishing on the same old star/now that i've left and sat on my own /i ended coming back to the same old tone/i realized it's all the same/my life is just a game/where everyone keeps playing but i keep on saying/i need to get away from this town/and take a look around/to see the world i'm missing /and the life i could be living/but i keep turning back/can't figure out what it is that i lack/i dont want this moviie to rush to the ending/because it had no beggining/to set the story straight/maybe it'll happen at a later date/i need to get away from this town/and take a look around/to see the world i'm missing/ and the life i could be living/sometimes i need to get away from this town /and take a good look around

WASTED TIME

i wish i was 4 years older/i guess thats wishing my life away/ eliminating my cares/and running away/burning pictures from the past/drinking my coffee/momories that last/giving up on me/wasting time and not careing/it's only my life/my time is wearing...thin/i wish i had a second chance/to start over/my life flew by with a glance/ now its all over/ i wish i was 4 years younger/i guess i wished my life away/maybe if the days were longer/ i couldnt have ran so far away/ wasting time and not careing/it's only my life/my time is wearing... thin/wasting time and not careing/it's only my life/my time is wearing...thin

THE NON-BOYFRIEND BOY FRIEND

i like us better this way
with everything that we say
you'll always be my friend
till time reaches its end
and that time at the dance
there was that little bit of romance
i smiled for the first time in a while
when you held my hand
i knew you were my bestfriend
always by my side
talking me thru rough times
and when you found your soulmate
i began to feel my heart ache
when i felt i was losing you
i didnt know what to do
when i found out you still had time for me
it made me really happy
because i know that you would always be my bestfriend
until the end...

I WISH I HAD 3 WISHES, THEN I WOULD WISH FOR MORE

i wish i didnt leap when i saw you
i ended up falling hard
there was that moment when i thought maybe you felt the same
but i found out your heart belongs to another girl
i wish i didnt fall so hard
i wish they made knee pads for the heart
that way mine wouldnt be broken so often
i wish i could find someone to mend this bruises
someone to want me for me
and i want to want that someone
i wish i looked before i leaped into your life
it could have saved me a lot of pain
i wish you didnt have such a beutiful face
i could look in yuor eyes for a long time
i wish you werent nice
that way you would be a jerk that i wouldnt want to be with
i wish you were dull without a wonderful personality
that way you'd be boring
i wish you were mine
you would make me happy.

I FEEL AS IF I'M FALLING...INTO PEICES

another day trying to survive
the pain going through me
it doesnt ever dissappear
maybe it's your fault
for breaking my heart in two
so if i begin to fall
you're coming with me
i can't do this alone
and you're the one who caused it all.

TEARS AND MUD

Tell me how it's going to be
without drgging my heart through the mud
with out stomping on it in a puddle.
Tell me if this is going to work out
or should we just end it now
and pretend we never met
just be honest
and don't drag my heart through the mud
the tears don't hurt as much then

TAKING AGE FOR GRANTED

it hurts me to think back to when I was 5 because when i look outside now its not the same world i saw then.i think i liked it better when i was clueless,but at least now i can try to do something to help this world i see and make it better.i know im not alone when i say this.I remember always wanting to be a grownup, now I'm growing up and i want to be 5 again.I used to think that when i saw the news showing footage of the war going on was just another movie then i learned what war meant.I like being clueless and carefree.I liked not having bills to pay and having a job.I liked going to the store and buying penny fish and gummy bears.And i liked thinking that one day i was gonna marry all of the New Kids on the Block...I now that I've grown up now but still act like a litte kid, i just wish i had that mentality and cluelessness that i did when i was 5...it's scares me to see the world another 12 years from now...I wish i knew what to do...I hope i'm not alone when i say this..

PUTTING A SMILE ON MY FACE

i guess i try to hard to live up to others expectations
and that how i fail
maybe i should just be me and say fuck everyone else
and then i can be happy...

JUST ANOTHER DAY

i thought about you again today.
whats the price i'm gonna have to pay,
to get you off my mind?
i wish you were more kind.
just another day
i cant wait to say
that it's over
and you'll be off my mind
i thought about you yesterday,
and how you used to say,
we'd be together forever.
and you would leave me never.
just another day
i cant wait to say
that it's over
and you'll be off my mind
i'll think about you tommorow.
and there will still be so much sorrow
i can't wait to get you off my mind
i guess it will just take some time.
just another day
i cant wait to say
that it's over
and you'll be off my mind

FOR TYSON

flying barbie
hit me in the head
i'm so sorry
i tore off its head
flying barbie
poked me in the eye
since im so emo
i started to cry

PHOTO ALBUM TEARS

I tore your picture up today
but the memory will always stay
i see a picture of us in my mind
i cant beleive i was so blind
so many ways that you hurt me
that picture of us i never want to see
i've been unhappy for so long
i guess i just have to stay strong
so much time has gone by
and your still on my mind
i found the ripped up picture of us today
this time i threw it away

HALLWAY HERO

another faceless drone
is just another face in the crowd.
another mindless clone
is just one who acts proud.

POINT OF VIEW

Everyone has changed
Now with different perspectives
all with different faces
but theyre still the same
Points of view
the way that I see you
after all these years
me and my peers
different points of view
what you think of me
different from the way
that I see you
Times have changed
and no one is the same
NOt the same kids I went to school with
they now spend their friday nights in Ambercrombi and Fitch
Not the same kids I went to shows with
they say they grew out of it
maybe I'm the last one left
that thinks staying the same is the best.

LOOK I WROTE A HAPPY ONE FOR EVERYONE WHO THINKS WHAT I WRITE IS DEPRESSING

When I stare up at the stars
I wonder where we are
I love things being this way
I hope tommorow's like today
And I know it's the truth
I am so happy with you
I havent felt this way in a while
I want you to know you make me smile.

NOWHERE

i think that ive actually tried too hard.
again i have failed
maybe i shouldn't try at all.
i'm at the same place, nowhere.
i think that i've actually cared too much,
so i stopped caring.
i feel sad.
i've cried too much,
i don't think there's any tears left to fall.
and i'm still alone.
guess it's just part of life.
maybe i can't deal with life anymore.
i'm dying.
so are you.
i don't want to go yet.
but i don't have many choices in this life.
maybe in another.
i'm at the same place,
nowhere.
maybe i should never have tried or cared or cried.
look where it's gotten me.
nowhere...

SUNSHINE

Not watching where I'm going,
because-no light is showing.
Once again I'm in a trap.
The darkness is blinding me.
I don't know which way to go.
How should i spend these next hours?
Debating my life?
Have I made the best of it this time around?
Will there be a next time?
Will this blinding darkness begin to show some light?

RAINY SATERDAYS

I know we've been growing apart,
For me it's just another broken heart.
It's just another break-up
Maybe we could make-up!
Because
Rainy saterdays aren't fun spent alone,
I always want you with me,
I dont want to sit here on my own,
Won't you tell me what I did wrong?
Then i could stop singing this stupid song.
I guess I've been naive,
Do you know what those kisses meant to me?
I knew it had to be too good to be a true,
a love so true with me and you.
Because
Rainy saterdays aren't fun spent alone,
I always want you with me,
I dont want to sit here on my own,
Won't you tell me what I did wrong?
Then i could stop singing this stupid song.
I know it seemed as if I pushed you away,
But please don't go ,i really want you to stay.
Can we start again?
I liked us being more than friends.
Because
Rainy saterdays aren't fun spent alone,
I always want you with me,
I dont want to sit here on my own,
Won't you tell me what I did wrong?
Then i could stop singing this stupid song.

THERE IS A KNIFE IN MY HEART AND THE BLOOD IS DRAINING OUT

I feel like I have no heart anymore
because its been broken so many times
and when I develop feelings for someone
they are always destroyed
Slowly they are destroyed
which makes the pain so much worse
They can never kill me fast,
it always has to be a slow death
They rotate that knife then pull it out and stab me again.
Everyone with their own knife that is always left behind
hanging out of my heart.
The tears seem to bring people pleasure these days,
they just bring me more pain.

SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN

i want to wake up in your arms without it being a dream
no matter how unreal that it may seem
everything would be fine
me and you will last forever,until the end of time
the thing i'll always remeber is this
u always had such a wonderful kiss
i want to fall asleep in your arms tonight
and wake up in them tommorow
to bad that will never happen...

HERE ON EARTH

everything is so complicated
i can hardly take it
all the emotions goin thru my head
all the words that were said
death i welcome you
i don't know what to do
i'm so tired of running away
so, i guess this time i'll stay.

SOMETHING I PONDERED

i have come to the realization that-
no matter how hard i try i usually end up failing.
Whether it be with school,friends, family,realationships,or life in general.
This unhappyness has been with me for 3 years now,
when will it stop?will it ever stop?
it's hard to get over everything that has happened so far
and it hurts to know that things could actually get worse.
all i do is complain....
i'm sorry.that's all i can say anymore,
i'm sorry,i don't know what else to do.
i'm alone.i can't win.

WHY CAN'T THE KIDS WANT TO BE MORE LIKE ME!?

I try to be me,
but I am a shadow,
following everyone else,
unable to be my own leader.
I follow the crowd,
unable to be
who I want to be,
trying to be
something I'm not,
someone I'm not.
I try to be me,
but something always stands in my way.
I try to get through the barrier everyday.

JOCKS, BANDS, and ROCKSTARS part 1

youre not a rockstar.
stop acting that way.
because its making you fake.
i know how you really are.
you dont REALLY have that attitude of a rockstar.
you've let a little fame get to your head...

REASSURING MYSELF THAT I'M OVER A STUPID BOY

i faced realtiy today.
its actually over.
I can't complain,compare,or upset myself with it anymore,
because it's actually over.
It's been over for so long now.
I took your advice,I got over it,
that was hard,but i got thru it.
maybe you can put the past behind you too.
it's over.actually over.
there's some releif in saying that.
there's so much saddness in saying that,
but since you stopped it with out notice
hitting me hard
and hurt so much.
even though i have moved on,
and i noticed you have too.for some odd reason,
i always want to go back to you,
maybe that's what love is, what we had...
i thought so for that time.
i guess i was wrong.
because if that's what love really is-
it wasnt worth it at all.

i guess that it really is over.i hope that there's a new beggining.i don't want another rerun.

I'M REALLY PATHETIC SOMETIMES

maybe i'll get over it all,
maybe you will too.
you've moved on now,
and so have I.
I see the both of you,
and I begin to cry.
maybe i'll see you again,
I don't know why,
I thought we were meant to be,
I guess it was all a lie.
together is never,
for the two of us,
i'll always remember you
will you rememeber me?
why did you give up?
give up so fast on me?

NO LONGER YOU

Your face,
going thru the thoughts in my head
I keep thinking about what you said
That night when we were together
I was hoping it would last forever
I liked having someone there for me
to hold my hand, to be by my side.
Your voice,
I keep hearing over and over
Wishing that night would never end
Why did things end up the way they did?
Why did you go back on what you said?
You,
NO longer by my side
NOt holding my hand
Not with me anymore.
This is the end,
maybe we will meet again...

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I'm my own person.
I don't need anyone to tell me who to be.
So what if I'm out of controll.
At least I'm me.
Are you really you?
or do you strive to meet others expectations?
Are you doing what you want to do?
YOu seem a little beat.
I am what I am.
I hope you are what you are.

I LIKE BOYS FROM NEW JERSEY(well some boys from NJ)

NJ oi boy had a beautiful face,
I wish I got his name,
NJ oi boy with the cool personality
he liked cool bands
he had cool pants
he had shaggy hair
and a Misfits patch.
NJ oi boy- I wish i got his name.

I TRAVEL THIS ROAD A LOT, IT'S BUMPY

I've been down this road so many times before.
I can't run away,
trying to find reasons to live for.
I guess I'll stay ,
this time.
Friend of mine,
you helped me get thru the day.
thanks for listening to me...

CHEEZ DOODLES

maybe it was never love at all,
whatever love means...
maybe I fall too easily,
with out looking before I leap...

That's it now, i hope you enjoyed my crappy cheezy writings.
~Kel