You�re so immature,
Barely a moment goes by where I don�t get a second of peace,
Always are you on my mind
And always are they after you
I don�t know what happened that day
A time I try not to remember, but it haunts me to this day
A peace I never felt till I met you,
A time where I thought I was content
A silent hole was eating me alive�all around me, love and relations
A true warrior hides their feelings well in public.
A place and time we both know well�a rein that would never end.
They looked to me�a never-ending form of advice at my expense
I know so much, but I am so blind.
My feelings were unnoticed and left behind by those who thought they knew me!
Where did they go wrong? No one knows�I turned away on my own.
I�ve pulled this once before.
A poem, a rhyme, like a test of time�I thought I knew what love was
I jumped the gun, fifteen�s too young�hurt once again by a man I thought I was loved by
Expressionless emotion and a flow of external self
No one saw the pain, hurt and loneliness behind the smiles.
For so long I was content that every one was. All my friend paired�a some what perfect match
A card from a friend drew the line�he was so right.
Tears are shed once more, alone, and the pressure builds as I search for some one to turn to
No one�s around in my desperate hour�but I�m always there
A careless reunion�a one sided mission of comfort�I could only bend so far before I finally snapped.
A cold wind blew over and lies were created. All true feelings buried till late hours when I was alone.
A constant feeling of dread and dislike
Some days I wish he had never left I had never been so stupid
But what do you know at forth grade?
A crucial lie�they still don�t know how I looked on with envy and wish I had what they did.
I swallowed my words of basic advice and tried to wait patiently
�Wait and he�ll come to you.�
I thought I would never find I friend�even I a careless relation
I�ve always been so blind in a world where things come and go
I was sure I was passed over
No interest in you�as a whole
No interest in me�nothing new
Rejection was never a new game to me�I�ve been dodging my entire life
Never break the ice�lay life on that damn fucking line�hit by a train�back to square one
A fixed number in life�things happen for a reason and now I realize why I was one for so long
A secret I kept to myself�one piece of information you will always seek
No longer am I watching for that day, wasting my life away.