I am going to walk toward the sanctuary * There is this: the shadows moving on the stones at the bottom of the pool; how different the body of the insect striding on the membrane between light and dark. * Take this stone, stone�s mother stone�s father stone child, cool in your palm. * When the children came to that place it was calm out of struggle. Each wanted to place a foot on the moss, worlds called out of the mist entire. But grandfather said: step only on the stones; their life can bear your passing. * And so that was the game, stone from stone, heat and laughter, and we saw at our feet the unfelt lichen, a thousand colors� chalk white, the blue of a robin�s egg, the violet underside of a snail, and the red heads of moss, and the smallest of spiders� webs, each net, jeweled. * We were in that place where the birds flew below us and the dragonflies mated around our eyes. My son said he would build his house upon these rocks. My daughter filled her hands with blueberries and the youngest piled stones to carry back to the garden she had planned. * There is a bird now in a cage in the city. He fans his broken wing above his eyes waiting for whatever light or warmth can come into that place, to heal. Yesterday he flew to the top of the cage. I know the time is coming nearer. Will the children let him free? * I cannot remember my father speaking. He walked softly in places where silence was useful. The canoe paddle should make no sound and only the most careful ear will hear the fly on the water and know it is different than the sound of a rising fish. But he did say: Sing, if you hear a bear. They would rather know you are coming and step aside. * We were able to be in that silence, the boat drifting; why do I live now with people who demand so many words? (Or is it I who is always asking to be heard?) * Oh bear, come, and take your seat. * We have come to a sacred place, a circle of stones, a seed pod, a pine cone, a medicine bundle, the egg case of mantises; someone gathered these�now step outside the circle. We are still within. * Drop down on a silken thread. Doe the worm know the ground beneath? * You told me the trout lives within the prism of the water. In its world light is reflected. Where is the surface that twists our light? * A young tree grows beneath the canopy of great ones. It spreads its branches low to gather life. What is my world that seeks shadow? * Dear spider, I will not lift a twig or set my foot against your web, but should I blow away the insects from the tunnel where you wait to pull them against your heart? * What if when my body grew old it just dropped feathers that the children could gather and hold up to the wind? * The men I know all carry water. I think that I must rather thirst. * Did we go this way before? It doesn�t matter. I think I�ll try this way again. * There is the black space that is the crow and there is that which is not the crow. Open your wings, follow your brother away. if I close my eyes you will be an empty space carried for a moment. * Your stillness outlasts mine. * I do not need my eyes to know where light falls, and if I climb the ladder of roots, I can come no closer to your heart. * You see the life in a fallen tree, beauty, in the dissolution of form, a thousand points of life from one. * I am looking for the talisman I found as a child, the smooth stick carved with runes�only the tracks of beetles, feeding beneath the bark. But why should their tracks not teach me? * Ant, what do you carry, so alone? Where is your home? Your path seems so intent. * Who would think the forest a place full of death, yet life crawls overall, green and full and steady. * Did you walk today? Did you watch your feet as I did or did you lift your face to the air? Why do I so need to feel what you feel to feel that you are my own? * I thought we had gone beyond that place where men had piled stones upon stones. I see now that we have not and so this place says sit and think a moment. No, not think�be be be until you are inside the net of the spider held by the space the emptiness and not the limited strands. * I have much to say about the dangers of leaving the path. I don�t think I�ll say them today. * There was a miracle here, but see, even the deer�s hoof scrapes moss from the stone. * I know there is water. I hear it. I believe it. But today I do not expect to see it. * How can I let go when there are so many things I want to hold, to learn, to know? Why am I so troubled by the thought that you will forget my name? Why does that matter when you can hold this green leaf, this twig, this grass blade, this stone. Is my name more true? * I have let go but my hands are not empty. When the thread broke there remained a binding of light. Since I never stopped falling I have really been in flight. * I do not know if you are moss or flower but you are each a tiny sun and I cast my shadow on you. * I cannot remember a poem about childbirth. I see great tree trunks heaved out of earth and the force was only that with which the stem split the seed. The first time I was drugged, the second time I was cut, but the third time the body was not my body but all the world�s and I watched when the seed split and the child spun waxed and sleek and strong into my hands. This was not my power, but odd, the power needed me. * Grandfather, there are students for your bones. They have held them, seen the places of attachment; seen the breaks and the healings. Flesh is gone, warm muscle, brown eye, white hair; your bones, I might have held them for a moment, held one, laid against my cheek and set it aside� well used, let go, untied, loosened, windswept, open, clean.
These are links to some of my poetry which has been published in printed form
I am going to walk towards the sanctuary

                    
(Nepenthe Books, 2001)
The Patient Presents

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The People's Press, 2001) 
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