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			Rei: First Love

	Rei looked sympathetically at Ami as the other girls crowded 
around her in her room and grilled her.  Rei was perched on Ami's 
elaborate dresser, one knee pulled up to her chin, leaving one 
graceful leg dangling own, toes brushing the blue carpeting as she 
swung it back and forth.  She was dressed casually like the rest of 
the girls, in black shorts and a silk red sleeveless top, and tried 
not to laugh as Mina jumped up and down on Ami's bed, long blonde hair 
flying, Lita begged in a tearful voice for information, and Serenity 
grasped Ami's hands and joined in the general melee.  Ami looked 
confused, not surprising since the troop had woken her up in their 
impatience.
	"Ami-chan...where were you last night?  We knew you were with 
a man Ami!  Tell us who... PLLLLEEEEEAAAASSSSEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Lita and Serenity wailed the last note together and Rei finally 
laughed as Ami blushed furiously and drew the covers back over her 
head.  Mina lunged forward and yanked the covers back again and a 
tug-a-war resulted as the two girls  began to pull their hardest.  
Finally Mina let go and Ami fell back with a thud. Ami spoke, 
begging for silence.
	"Please guys, I'll tell you already, just calm down!"  Instant 
silence reigned as they all leaned closer, eagerly waiting to hear 
what she had to say.  Ami bit her lip and sat up again, tucking a 
strand of blue hair nervously behind an ear.
	"I met someone last night..."  The girls leaned even farther 
forward as they breathed encouragement for her to continue.
	"Yyyeeesssss..."
	"His name is Zoicite, from earth.  We...we went out in the 
gardens and danced and talked and...and he kissed me."  Four sets of 
eyes got huge and round as they all stared at their shy friend.  
Serenity got over her shock first as she cheered and swept up Ami in a 
huge bear hug.  Abruptly they all began to pelt her with questions...
What was he like?  Was he nice?  Ami giggled and answered all of their 
questions before Rei's brought her to a halt.
	"Ami-chan, you're a princess...how can you ever see someone 
that isn't royalty?"  Ami met her troubled gaze bravely as she clasped 
her hands together.
	"I already thought of that.  It doesn't really matter because 
I have to forfeit the throne any ways since I am a Sailor Scout.  If 
it gets serious we'll just wait until Anni and Aski are old enough to 
ascend the throne.  Its all very simple, really."  Ami smiled brightly 
but Rei was worried for her friend.  She remembered that monster 
Hawrek and shuddered at the remembrance of the pain he had visited 
upon her gentle friend.  But she swallowed her fears, and doubts, and 
showed Ami that she supported her and all she did but privately she 
decided that she would make sure to watch this Zoicite.  Never again 
would she allow a man to hurt her friend.
	"Yes, it is rather simple," she agreed softly.  "I am happy 
for you Ami-chan."  Ami beamed and Rei muttered an excuse to exit, 
leaving Ami with the others who continued to drill her until they were 
satisfied with the answers.
	Rei strolled out of the palace and down by the sweeping river 
that wound its way slowly around the palace.  As she walked next to it 
she allowed herself to be drawn deep into thought.
	Their situation was unique.  Every generation the great 
planets' spirits chose a warrior from their noble house to become a 
Sailor Scout and protect the universe with their powers.  This was the 
first time ever though that all of the senshi were princesses.  That 
meant they would not only have to forfeit the throne but also reveal 
their secret identities to their people who would demand an 
explanation for their forfeit.  They would no longer be seen as 
royalty but as outcasts of their society.  Normal lives would no 
longer be an option because everyone would know their secret.  Why had 
the planets decided to doom them to such troubled lives?  The possible 
answer chilled her.
	Because they needed their chosen to wield their full powers.  
Princesses, as the highest royalty of their planets next to the kings 
and queens who were their fathers and mothers, could handle all of the 
power that the planets had to offer.  Which meant that they would need 
that power.  Which meant that something was coming to threaten all 
that they held dear.  A sense of foreboding chilled her and Rei wished 
she could see the future like Rani, instead of talking with the great 
fire.
	The raven haired princess smiled fleetingly as she thought of 
her twin and sent a tendril of thought across the vast distance that 
separated them for the frist time in almost a year.  
	'Rani?...'  Their bond was close, closer than any other twin 
she had ever seen, and they could communicate mind to mind between the 
powers that they shared.  
	'Love?...' came the hesitant reply and Rei felt herself smile 
again.  Ever since Rani had married their relationship had become 
strained.  Rei couldn't stand his wife and his wife, a duchess from 
Neptune, couldn't stand Rei either.  But she made Rani happy so Rei 
never complained, at least not publically.  
	But it was hard to have the closest person to her heart bring 
another one in closer to his.  He had always been there for her when 
they were children, growing up in the shattered and hate filled place 
called home, and he had protected her.  When their father would scream 
and hit Rani would shelter her from the blows.  He was stronger than 
she could ever be.  After all he had the strength to get married after 
living in the hell of the royal house of Mars.  He had the strength to 
do his duty for his people, for even though Rei was older by a scant 
five minutes, he would take the throne and would have the children 
needed to sustain their line.  But what she admired and hated the most 
was that he had the strength to fall in love.  He didn't just marry 
Jutance because she was a suitable match, he married her because he 
loved her and that broke the promise they had made as children, to 
never fall in love.  They had seen what love could do.  Their mother 
loved their father and he had hit her until the day he died.  It had 
been the happiest day in their lives.  And in this alone, this matter 
of love, Rei could never join him, her brother and closest friend.
	'I'm here brother dearest...' She felt his joy in her talking 
to him, after shielding him out for the last year.  It had taken 
awhile for her to get over the hurt, and yes she could admit it now, 
the jealously.  Then she felt his caution yet barely concealed wonder.  
'Rani what is it?'
	'...Jutance...Jutance is pregnant.  We're having our first 
child in a month!'  Rei felt her mind reel with the news and guilt at 
not talking to him sooner.  She knew this was probably the most 
important thing that had ever happened in their seventeen years of 
life to him and she hadn't even give him the chance to tell her.
	'Rani...that's wonderful!  And I'm... I'm...I'm sorry for not 
talking sooner.'  Rei felt his startlement at her apology.  She never 
apologized.
	'I'm sorry too Rei-chan.  I should have handled it all better, 
but I didn't.  I've talked to Jutance and she's sorry too for the way 
she acted with you.  She was jealous.'
	'So was I Rani, so was I.  I'm not used to having to share my 
twin with anyone.'  She felt affection for her coloring his tone.
	'I'm sorry I broke our promise...but what we and Jutance have 
is different.  We aren't like mom and dad.  I'm not sure we know how 
to be.  The very thought of it makes my stomach churn.  When I met 
her I knew I was in love and wanted to spend the rest of my life with 
her.  All my anger, the coldness I held inside, just melted away.  And 
what about you big sister... has anyone managed to warm your heart?  I 
want you to have the happiness I have...you deserve it.'  Rei wiped 
tears away from her violet eyes.
	'No Rani.  But you and the senshi are all I need to be happy.  
And now that dad is gone mom can finally have the peace she deserves, 
and a grandchild to bounce on her knee!'  He sent his laughter across 
their mind link but Rei still sensed his disappointment.  Well she had 
met that charming man Jadeite last night...
	With ruthless ferocity she suppressed that thought before Rani 
picked it up.  Asking Jadeite to dance had been a weakness, a passing 
whim.  Besides she had more important things to ask him.
	'Rani...do you still see the future?'  He was quiet so long 
she wondered if he heard her.
	'Sometimes I see flashes...I sense feelings...but nothing 
definite anymore...its all blurry and distorted.' 
	'And what you do see?'  When he replied his mind voice was 
sober and full of quiet fear.
	'What I see makes me run to Jutance and hold her and our 
unborn child with all of my might.  I see destruction and death.'
	She knew it!  The nine princesses had been chosen because they 
were going to be needed.  Great troubles lay ahead, for all of them.  
'Rei... promise me you'll be careful...please.  I love you.'  Rei felt 
her throat tighten with emotion and eyes cloud with tears.  She 
stumbled a little as she walked along the river-side.  
	'I promise Rani.  I'll be careful.  Take care of yourself and 
Jutance and your child.  Continue to watch the future and Rani...my 
mind will never close to you again.'  She felt his mind reaching out 
across the expanse of time and space to hug her, at least in spirit, 
before leaving her with her own thoughts.  Her reverie was broken by 
the urgent call of a familiar voiced counselor.  
	"Princess Mars!  Princess Mars!"  Rei looked up to see Luna 
trotting up to her, her pace conserved and dignified.  Rei knelt down 
to ruffle Luna's ebony fur.
	"Hay Moon Eyes.  What's up?"  Luna sighed and allowed herself 
to be caressed before straightening.  
	"Did you forget that the senshi have a friendly 'training' 
session with earth's generals?"  Rei blushed and ducked her head in 
answer.  She had forgotten.  Luna sighed sternly again before 
grinning a bit.
	"Don't worry Rei-chan.  Everyone else forgot also.  Sometimes 
I worry about you guys."  Rei laughed as she began to walk back to the 
palace with Princess Serenity's advisor.
	"So what is this friendly 'training' session Luna?"  Luna 
grumbled for a moment about nobody ever listening to her before 
answering.
	"Its more of a show of power.  I believe that the Terra Queen 
and King aren't entirely sure that the Moon Kingdom is powerful 
enough to ally themselves with it, though with the way Serenity and 
that prince are going at it they might not have a choice."  Rei 
bristled.
	"Not powerful enough?  We brought peace to eight of the nine 
planets and that is no small accomplishment!"  Well not true peace, 
only peace among themselves, for the outers were absent for this ball 
because they said there were some problems back home and she had those 
strange forewarnings...
	"That's just it!  They say, well not say of course but hint, 
that if a war ever came that we couldn't hold our kingdom together.  
That's really why they insisted on this match.  They want the senshi 
and the generals to have friendly sparring matches.  I guess if you, 
as our best and most renowned  warriors, pass the 'test' they will 
seriously push this treaty between them and us."
	"Really now," Rei all but hissed.  It angered her that they 
dared to question their power and ability.
	"And how do they plan to have a 'friendly' match if we use our 
powers.  Those aren't toys and they are meant to kill.  It would 
hardly look good if one of Prince Endymion's protectors died here."  
	"I believe this will be a purely physical match.  I've heard 
that the generals possess mystical powers as well but it has been 
agreed that none of the powers will be used."  Rei felt herself smirk.  
Many underestimated them as fighters because they were women, in 
skirts no less!, but they soon learned better.  She almost wished 
Neptune and Uranus could have been here.  Especially if they had 
gotten Neptune mad.  She was the gentler of the pair, true, but rile 
her and there would be hell to pay.  Of course people said that about 
her also...  More amused now Rei grinned slyly.  There would be 
another added benefit to this match.  She would get to see Zoicite's 
and Jadeite's true colors.
	She was a firm believer that you could see the true person 
underneath all the masks that people were so fond of wearing in battle.  
In battle words meant nothing, only actions.  The bravest new 
recruit that ran at the first sight of blood was in truth a coward.
	She could see if this Zoicite was worth Ami, if not she would 
make a point to not so gently inform him that his attentions weren't 
wanted.  And then there was Jadeite.
	She had asked him to dance the other night on a whim.  He had 
looked almost vulnerable there on the balcony and the jealousy that 
flared when his friend had so smoothly asked Lita to dance was almost 
endearing.  In a weak moment she had asked him.  They had shared 
dances for the rest of the night.  He had been charming, quiet, 
polite, and treated her like an equal!
	People treated Sailor Mars as an equal.  But men never treated 
her like an equal as Princess Mars except for Rani.  She was always a 
prize to be won, a willful girl to be broken, and it infuriated her!  
Of all the senshi her sailor persona, her true personality, was 
closest to her princess persona.  Ami was so much self-assured, so 
much more daring and brave in battle.  Lita went from fiercest fighter 
in battle to boy crazy girl as a princess, though her loyalty to 
Serenity was legendary in both forms.  Mina was so strong when she 
fought, just as much in spirit as in power, and always had a plan, 
always knew what to do.  In the court though she was never serious, 
was bubbly and sparkling and always brought a smile to everyone's lips 
as she and Serenity caused havoc in the kingdom together.  
	Rei's strength, her will, her authority put people off.  Rani 
was by far the more beloved of the twins.  It was already whispered 
that if would be better if he was king and she knew no few people 
would sigh in relief when she forfeited the throne in one year.  One 
more year to live a normal life before she turned eighteen and had to 
formally proclaim herself a sailor scout.
	By all rights Michiru should have already forfeited the throne 
but her father and mother both lived and she was not the heir yet but 
since Rei's father was dead if something happened to her mother she 
would inherit the throne.  Ami and Lita had two more years since they 
were only sixteen and Serenity was barely fifteen.  Mina could keep 
her secret if she wished since her older brother Marcus would someday 
be king.  Horatu was still a child and Haruka was in the same position 
as Mina.  
	Shaking off troubled thoughts Rei returned to Jadeite.  He had 
been so shocked that she had taken an interest in him and it hadn't 
bothered him a bit that she had asked *him*.  Reviewing all that they 
had talked about she shook her head regretfully.  He was a geuinely 
nice man but he was too timid, to cool to ignite her passion.  Though 
perhaps in battle...  Shrugging she decided not to hope for anything 
so whatever happened she wouldn't have to be disappointed, she had had 
enough of that already in life.  
	Reaching the palace with Luna she slipped behind a pillar in a 
darkened corner of one of the hallways leading to the weapon practice 
building and transformed.  Teasing Luna on their way, now as Sailor 
Mars and Luna, Rei couldn't help but walk a little bit lighter.  If 
Jadeite truly was all that she wondered, wanted, needed, then perhaps 
she too could break the childhood promise made to Rani so many years 
ago.  Perhaps she too could find the strength to love.

Author's Notes:Not a lot of action I know but Rei just seems like such 
a complex character and I wanted to show some of that.  Did I suceed? 
Let me know by emailing me.  Thanks to the people who *did* email me
(Jeny,Sailor Tears,Venusian Goddess-check out her fan art and mine!-,
Echo-chan, Yoshi)and those of you who didn't please please do.  Those 
that did your imput was appreciated!*luv ya!*  Hope you had great 
holidays and on the age thing I *kinda* messed up a bit.  I made Rei 
and Rani twins but couldn't make them fifteen since I made Rani 
married, dunno why just a nice twist, which seemed kinda wierd for 
fourteen.  Sixteen, were married then by these ages, still seemed 
early but not as bad as fourteen, which would have been when they were 
married if they were fifteen now.  Umm that didn't make a lot of sense 
but oh well. LOL I tried.  Anyway more action next time.  Emails 
pleeze! Till next week,have a good one.