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Sliding silently down my face. I wish my body would quit shaking And my heart would stop its rapid pace. All over something small Is how it all began I disappointed you once again By being the mother I am I know you don't approve Of the way I raise my kids But then again, you never approved Of anything I ever did For years I have tried To make you proud of me Its only now I know That will never be Because I said no And demanded my daughters respect You became angry with me By making sure to interject Of course it wasn't with words Or even a harsh glare No, you pursed your lips and ignored me While off in the distance you did stare Only by my caving and eventually giving in Did you finally start talking to me. But I need to tell you now, Im not here to make you happy. I am not a perfect mom by any means, But neither were you. So listen now and listen close, Because if it continues, with you I will be through. You are wonderful When you think you are the hero I just wish you could realize To others, it brings nothing but sorrow. You've called me names over the years And said other hateful things You would think by now, My thickened skin wouldn't feel the stings. I am positive these words, Should you ever read them will make you mad. But I can't help it Because right now, I am very very sad. I'm ready to throw it all away And never speak to you again. Its not what I want But my choices are running thin. Please understand, Now I am grown And the decisions I make Should not be yours, but instead my own. It shouldn't matter If you approve But I always feel like My adulthood I must prove. Now this poem has gotten quite long And now I am no longer crying. Maybe, just maybe if you listen close You will now hear me sighing. |