Finally Free

I drop to my knees as I stare blankly up at the night sky.
The only thoughts that plague my mind are ones of you.
Your face... Strong and Wonderful..
Your voice.. Enticing and Passionate
Tears streak down my face
Each new thought teasing and tormenting my soul.
I feel as though I could die.
I reach out towards nothing
Arms upheld
If I could bring you to me
You would have already been here.
My body lost in your arms.
My lips pressed tightly against yours.
Oh how that dream tortures me daily.
My wants..
My needs..
Should I be so selfish?
My heart says be a child and take what you can.
My mind plays the adult and stay where you are.
So what does one do
When feeling so hopelessly in love with another?
One who makes them feel more like themselves than ever before?
If I could have but one wish in life
I would wish for you My Angel.
If I knew what I know now
Everytime I threw a coin in a fountain,
Everytime I blew out candles on a cake,
I wouldnt have wasted those wishes.
Sometimes I lie in my bed at night.
Hugging my pillow
Imagining it were you.
My head nestled against it
Listening to the relentless pounding of your heart.
I think of awaking in the middle of the night
Watching you sleep peacefully for once.
Or wanting to hold you when I know you are sad
About things of the past
All the while knowing
You would do the same for I.
Sometimes I look to the night for answers.
My mind begging and pleading
Wanting the knowledge of what to do.
Then I think of the words you have spoken.
Be patient..
Whats meant to be will be.
But I want to scream back
Ive been patient too long.
If I dont take the risk now
Wont I only be filled with regret?
But I dont.
Deep down I know you are right.
I just wish you could convince my heart.
Everyday it aches more and more.
Filled with a longing like never before.
I think back, going over my past.
How niave I was to think I knew what true love was
Now I feel it.
I feel it like a knife
Cutting through my soft flesh
Making a permanent mark upon my heart.
We are connected.
How it happened, I dont know.
Why it happened, I dont care.
All that matters is its here
So I will hold on to this love
Hold on with everything I have inside.
You are my savior..
My light in this dark cruel world.
I love you My Angel.
Separate or Apart
You have me like no other before.
And why you may ask.
Because you have made me see myself
For who I truly am
So I shall pull myself from the self pity I dwell in
And I will look to the heavens
Giving Thanks though tears of joy
To whoever sent you to me
Allowing me the chance to finally..
Finally Feel Free..


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