| calling it quits. when you don't believe the reasons in your life. when you believed that things will not be alright. when things go away. when things start to fade. trying not to relive. trying not to forgive. so hows it going to be. when your're too stupid to see. there is no use for you, when you stopped caring too. when you started being someone else. when you stopped being yourself. the questions in your head. the answers wont be said. someday you'll get it right, someday you'll start to fight. tried to bring back, back all those wasted dreams, but those scences turned into schemes. a day late, a buck short. you're tired of doing all the work. when things seem to be heading in the wrong way. when your dreams are close but it moves further away. when you start to believe there is nothing more. you say to the world what are we fighting for. when nothing works, nothing fits, once you had it all now you're calling it quits. when things don't work out. what is it all about. defeat. tried to live where no one wants me around. so i walk down this crowded town. searching for a place, where someone would recognize my face. some place so comforting, not so distracting from all the familiar places that i've been. a different scene, something that will mean, more to me, then where i live now. somewhere, somehow i will find what i'm looking for, someplace where i can store and not be a burden to anyone anymore. a special place, where i'll be special, i'll be just like the rest. a best place, with no stress, living in a mess. where i can dress the way i want to dress. no distractions from the people, where i live, i don't have to give or give or give. a place where i can be alone, a place to call my own, a place to call my home. i want to find a place that i can call mine. so i will have to find. in time, i'll find, my time, all mine, only mine, now until i leave, i must at least try. but i will always know defeat. restrooms, are for paying customers only. when people don't want to be seen with you. and only you, they want nothing to do with you. people walking two steps in back, not walking on the same tracks. too scared of what others might say. they want to be your friends when everyone is away. when cooler people are around. they talk behind your back, pushing you down. using you for all the money you have. using you for all the money you had. knowing you are broke they don't want to be your friends anymore. they walk away like they never met you before. why do people act like this. how much time do we miss. how much friends do we lose. when people tell us to choose. but we choose the wrong friend. knowing he wont be your friend again. you let your bestfriend down. just to make face in your hometown. a stupid reason you've made to get drunk or to get laid.. another friend, another enemy. another day of apathy. so being alone today, because you pushed all your friends away. your friends was the cost. so what, i guess you have lost. |
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