BAGHDAD, Iraq
Some people have their favorite "desert-island discs."
Reporters in Baghdad have music to listen to bombs by.
Music is a major diversion for the 300-odd foreign
reporters covering the war in Iraq from the capital city. We
play it on mini-speakers, disc-players and 20 gigabyte Apple
iPods bought during layovers at duty free in Heathrow or in
Dubai's glistening shopping malls. We play it while we write
and file pictures. We also play it at deadline, as we decide
whether to throw ourselves or our insubordinate laptops and
satellite phones off our hotel balconies.
But most of all, we play it as shock waves from nearby
explosions shake our 17-story hotel to its foundations and we
are face-to-face with the question of whether those "smart"
bombs and missiles are going to suffer a momentary lapse of
intelligence?
Before I regale you with a list of what music Baghdad's
reporters are listening to, a few caveats are in order. (You,
reader, are welcome to skip this part. It's really for my
publisher and editors, who might suspect that their employees
in Baghdad lobbied Pentagon war-planners so that we could live
on expense accounts longer.)
We're not listening to music over lavish meals of haute
cuisine. Most of us eat out of cans or cook envelopes of
flavored sodium, i.e. soup, on hot plates in our rooms - that
is, when there's electricity.
We're not listening to music in lavishly decorated hotel
suites. The Palestine Hotel is - to put it generously - a
no-star hotel. Its decor, service and maintenance represent
the cultural fruition of Soviet-Iraqi ties in the 1980s.
Television? Before U.S. warplanes knocked it off the air
for good, the Iraqi state-run broadcast gave us endless
choruses of "I love you, Saddam" on the only station
available.
Some turn to verse. Sitting on the bedstand of Tim Lambon,
a producer for London's Channel Four, is a well-thumbed copy
of a collection of short poems by W.H. Auden, the great
British poet and our choice for bard of the war on terror.
Why do many reporters listen to music so obsessively? One
answer is that reporters, photographers and television
cameramen - "hacks," "snappers" and "shooters," respectively -
are obsessive about everything. They must be, or deadlines are
missed, equipment breaks down and the magical quote or picture
slips into the ether, never to be recorded.
For some, music is a talisman, and the more the bullets and
bombs fly, the more we cling to our songs as though they
possess magic powers that will somehow pull us through. With
anarchy always threatening, no reporter begrudges another
their good-luck charm. As one put it: "Forget the rabbit's
foot; you can walk around with the whole damn rabbit as far as
I'm concerned. Whatever gets you through."
For others, music is what helps them deal with fear.
("Playing Metallica, Guns n' Roses or any rock music very loud
when you're driving into a bad situation helps calm your
nerves and helps you concentrate," one said. "You can't work
when you're scared.") Music also softens the edge of the
emptiness and exhaustion that invariably follows the
suffering, destruction and bloodshed first-hand. ("The blues,
along with the Chieftains and any traditional Irish music,
helps me come off the high slowly. It's emotionally painful to
careen from one extreme to another.")
Following, then, are results of my random survey:
Monica Garcia, correspondent, El Mundo newspaper, Madrid,
Spain: Mozart's Requiem and Handel's Dixit Dominus ("Perfect
music for every war," she said. "It's like therapy.")
Giovanna Botteri, correspondent, RAI 2 and 3, Rome, Italy:
Bruce Springsteen's The Rising. ("I love this CD," she said.
"It's the story of 9/11, the story of Afghanistan and now the
story of Iraq. It's about the America I love: democracy,
opposition, who can speak, who can think.")
Sean Smith, photographer, The Guardian, London: "Walk on
By" by Dionne Warwick, "Say a Little Prayer," by Burt Bachrach
and Hal David, and Johnny Cash's Live at Folsom Prison. ("I
have this completely absurd idea that everyone would stand
together here, a bit like the Blues Brothers, and sing these
songs plus 'What the World Needs Now (Is Love, Sweet Love),'"
he said. "I think there's too much testosterone here.")
Bob Graham, correspondent, Daily Mail and The Mail on
Sunday, London: Mozart's clarinet quartets, Van Morrison's
Astral Weeks and anything by violinist Nigel Kennedy.
("Gentle, anything gentle.")
Scott Peterson, correspondent and photographer, Christian
Science Monitor, Boston: Springsteen's "Empty Sky," "Worlds
Apart" and "Further On (Up the Road)" from The Rising. ("When
I have a major piece, or have done so much preparatory work
that the actual writing simply requires going through the
motions and ensuring enough beat-driven white noise to
titillate my brain, then I just line up all the Oasis albums
in a row, switching from time to time to every and any Green
Day album," he said.)
Robert Collier, correspondent, San Francisco Chronicle:
Iraqi singer Kazem el-Saher and the late Umm-Khultan, "the
goddess of Arab music." ("This music is completely foreign,"
he said. "In a situation like this, you can't try to hold on
to your old world. It's too distracting. It makes me daydream.
I don't want anything that reminds me of home, friends, family
and past experiences. I have to dive into where I am.")
Richard Downes, correspondent, RTE (Irish Television &
Radio), Dublin, Ireland: Wakafrika by Cameroon's Manu Dibango.
("I lived in South Africa for four years and worked the whole
continent for the BBC. Dibango takes me away from all the
nonsense. One night, I listened to it because I didn't want to
listen to the anti-aircraft fire.")
My choice? Miles Davis' Kind of Blue will soothe the soul
anytime and anywhere. But in Baghdad, my vote goes to two
songs by Bob Dylan. "Oh God," you say, rolling your eyes. OK,
sure, he sometimes sings like he has marbles in his mouth.
Then there was that Christian phase, an odd spiritual detour
for a Jewish kid from northern Minnesota's Iron Range.
But with the hotel shaking under your feet from the
concussions of bombs falling nearby, "Knockin' on Heaven's
Door" and "Shelter from the Storm" played back-to-back - and
over and over again - amplifies your deepest fears and
yearnings.
Imagine warplanes rocketing overhead in darkness, and the
world around you burning in an Armageddon of thunder, glare
and destruction. Then listen to Dylan plead: "Momma put my
guns in the ground/I can't shoot them anymore/That long black
cloud is comin' down/I feel I'm Knockin' on Heaven's
Door."
Then dream about an end to the bedlam and being changed
irrevocably by all you've seen. And think about the one who
loves you. In short, "try imagining a place where it's always
safe and warm" and click to Dylan again:
"Well I've heard new-born babies/Cryin' like a morning
dove/And old men with broken teeth/Stranded without love/Do I
understand your question, man?/'Is it hopeless and forlorn?'/
'Come in,' she said, 'I'll give ya' Shelter from the
Storm.'"