I truly miss you Fontane! I wish we could talk and I wish I could see your beautiful smile and hear your wonderful laughter. Without you, I feel so alone in this cold, cold uncaring world. You were the only one who ever loved me without judging a thing about me even though your "religion" is staunchly critical of people. I am glad that you are now in heaven with Jesus though, I just want to be there too. I love you Fontane, I know you know that. And thank you for helping me start a new life without fear, but it is a bittersweet victory because you are not here. I would have continued to live in that hellhole if I had known you were leaving so soon. I feel like I don't deserve my life sometimes. I try not to feel that way because then everything you went through with me was in vain and I WILL NOT let you go in vain. |