8:14am - Why is it that almost every time I go bathe in the morning, the person directly above me jumps in the shower right after? And when that happens and they turn on their water, mine either goes extremely hot or extremely cold, and all the adjusting in the world won't get it just right again. Then of course, after I try to adjust, and they happen to turn off their water 1st, mine shoots back to the extreme of whatever I was trying to get. *sigh*

I get time to go to the gym today after work! *jumping up and down* No class this afternoon, so after work, it's BURN BABY BURN!!

3:40pm - Today of all days, when I have all the time in the world, I had to go feeling sicklie at the gym. So I only got in 10 minutes of cardio after my weight training.

O how I Need to move out of this college town, to someplace where it is not an unusual, overly exciting thing when there are warm weathered days, cuz I get soo annoyed on days like today when everybody is out jus trying to be (and some actually �being�.. I won�t front) cute. And I don�t think I�ve mentioned it in here, but those dyamn skirts ANNOY ME!! UGHHH!! Especially when they have 3 or more tricks walking together with them on, like them ah maggle fa de designer. Chups. Don�t even talk about the ones with words on the ass! *rolling eyes *

Mek me go put a little something in my system and look for something to wear to this senior dinner.

4:09pm - Zugu-robics! WHOOIEE!!!
*As I follow the leader to Family Radio*

8:430pm - Have you ever been in a room full of people you know, and still feel like a complete outcast and stranger?

The senior dinner was nice; food was banging, and it was great to have the profs serving us of course. I was fortunate enough to find myself at a table with people who were not cliquey, and overall, a down to earth group. Afterwards though, everyone was either going to the party at one girl�s house, or otherwise going out, and I had, and have no interest in going out, cuz I know I�d just feel out of it. I never did the 430 after party thing, so I never formed those drinking bonds, and I�m not a beer person, so I�m not interested in how many kegs they have.

One of the guys from my spring break group sent out an e-mail about going out earlier this evening. Apparently only 2 of them made it out. I stopped by to where they were after dinner, but they�d moved to an Irish Pub, and once again, I�m not in that vibe, so I came home. They said they�re going to the club a little later, so I told them to call me when they�re on that move. Of course now that I�m home, I�m rethinking that one as well.

We�ll see what stage my laundry (the ONE load I can afford to do) is at, and how I feel when they call.

10:20pm - *Chups* I'm going out.

2:35pm - The joys of State College weather I tell you.
Yesterday it was a chilly 40degrees, today� 80degrees
Now I�m looking at that black, long pants suit on my bed and wondering if it really is a good idea for this afternoon. This lady from the media company working on the video for the new school called to ask if they could get a shot of me faking being the manager of the last 430 meal tonight. I will be in the area, so I�m hoping I will be able to slip away from my group (again) for them to get a couple shots, cuz I did do a terrible job of having them do ANYTHING with me in a social or group setting. Sooo since that is my best suit�. But rass! I had on a 3 quarter sleeved blouse this morning and if U see sweat just from walking home from work.

5:40pm - I got my pictures.
Ziggy the one of the 2 of us is real cute. You said you had doubles of yours right? The one of the boy and his boy: his hand wasn't in front of his face like I thought, but still.. HIS boy's face is up in it front and center... the little shit, always ah bawl bout no evidence. lol

Well so much for this video thing tonight... the people not here yet (as they said they would be) and my presentation is at 6, not 6:30 as I thought it would be. I was trying 2 get to the prof earlier at the reception for our director, so I could tell him about it in case I'd be a little late (although I doubted I would) but it was soo packed in there and it was just before the program started and I was leaving, so I didn't get to. We'll c... I just hope this goes well and they're aren't too many groups presenting tonight. The last time 7 people went and they said it took 4 hours!

8:30pm - Halleluiah (ah so e spell?)
Another class bites the dust.
I really have 2 wonder what part (if any) of the industry some of these people in my major plan on going into though. To see people speaking in front of 20 of their classmates and clamming up, being all quiet and looking like they want to jump and hide somewhere...where's the interpersonal skills that are so vital for this business? lol I'm funny ent I? Although I am being entirely serious about it.

I should go home now eh... and STUDY... not clean, or pack stuff, or throw away stuff... STUDY!!
*Self talk here again*

9:35pm - I wonder if thing is coming again soon. Cuz� it hasn�t been around this area for over 40 days and 40 nights, which I didn�t realize until my chest began to hurt for no apparent reason

7:27am - I was supposed to wake him up around 8. He gets up early and calls me. *Smiling* The things that make you know you're loved.

10:30am - It would appear that I still haven't recovered from Monday... I am soo sleepy.

So why I walking downtown to notice brown bags covering all the widows of GAP and two big signs up saying the store is permanently closed, so please shop at another location (there is only one other less than an hour away). I mean, there was no warning... no notice that they were GOING to close, no closing SALE... just a damn closure! N E way, I'm guessing they'll be something in the papers about it tomorrow.

10:42am -Yeah. I can view my banking activity online now.

2:20pm - Every year the alumni association has a "Senior Standoff" for 2B graduates, where they have all kinda free food, goodies, and chances at prize trips and what-not.
Get off work at 2 and head over there, and I don't know if more people decide they go take advantage of it this year, of if it was just a bad time, or WHAT, but the thing is outdoors, but still there's a long arse line to get thru the gates of the yard. *shaking head* I have tings to do, so I'll take care of my biz and head over there a little later when hopefully people have left to go to other classes.

5:40pm - Nuff props to the chicks who wear stilettos on a daily basis. For WHATEVER reason today, I decided to wear boots, cuz I tired of my daily sneakers. Can I tell you how much the balls of my feet are hurting?! I can just feel the blisters developing already.

Also, I had a hamburger; beef in general, for the first time in about ... shit.. it�s been 8 years! Of course the only food they had at the senior sendoff today was burgers, hot dogs, cotton candy and ice cream. And after waiting in line for over an hour, I was not NOT going to eat something.

N E hoot, I�m gonna go ignore all un-school related e-mail for the day and work on putting together this presentation for tomorrow b 4 I do anything else. Tomorrow�s gonna be another busy one.

6:35pm - Ugggh. Not that I mind doing it, but I�m annoyed that now I�m getting in the grove of my work I have to leave.
We had a student leadership thing with the director of our department (she�s retiring) and I took a picture of her as a few students were presenting her with flowers. So now these peeps have some gift planned for her for tomorrow for the college wide retirement party, and they want me to (prematurely) develop my pics so they can get that one blown up.
Pretty good idea� too bad it�s last minute, cuz now I have 2 put back on clothes and head the mere 4 blocks down the street to develop them.
Meanwhile, I�m wasting even MORE time by sitting here whining about it. *Shaking head @ myself*

7:38pm - I am sooo sleepy. :-(

8:48pm - Aite... enough ah dat now. The rest is to fill in numbers from the book that I do NOT have. Hopefully they can get that done and we can finish with the "prettiness" tomorrow afternoon.

9:16am - Got back at 1:30 this morning, had an 8am group meeting (Which I suspected, but I mean't I was going to delay checking my mail and not going to set my alarm to get up there too early, cuz it's about time I was the one to be late or not show up.)

Yesterday was aite though. A couple hickups concerning people who seemed to have gone on the trip on their own agenda and didn't want to stick with the program, and ended up holding us up, which is why we didn't leave till 9:30 / 10, and got back so late.. but other than those upsetting moments, (and the sleepiness dat ah kill me now) it was nice. Good re-inforcement of how much I LOVE my major. I love when people are excited about what they do.

The concept developer who works for BadBoy is from T 'N T. Started out his career in law enforcement, went to school for a law degree, which he did complete, passed the bar and everything, and now he's into restaurant concept development and lovin' it.

I have a test in a few minutes... work till 2, another test, speaking in a class of lowerclassmen about my PSU career (now that it's almost at an end), then... hmmmm lets just say I won't get a break and be home till around 8 tonight.

O yeh! BOTH the guy from Phillips and Tony W called me yesterday. I felt soo bad. I was planning on calling both of them... The guy from Phillips in particular 1st, cuz we were supposed to have an interview next Monday when he was in town. As for Tony, he questioned me on why I went with BB, and he came out and asked how much they offered me. When I told him he was like: "ok... we couldn't have topped that one.. might have been able to come close, but we couldn't have matched it" (and laughed)
Imagine if I was much more interested in them (EnP) nuh. Their first offer was 7Gs less than BB's. Can U imagine the kinda negotiation that coulda gwarn? haha.

6:10pm - Well I finally got to take care of this thick ass hair of mine. I really do have a lot of hair, but rass hole I swear it�s thicker than it was the last time I cut it all off and started over.

This morning they started �issuing� yearbooks for those who ordered. It would seem like I was the 1st to get one. *smile of pointless accomplishment* cuz I got there as they were pulling books out of boxes and setting up for day 1.

What else�? Had the shortest exam ever today in Soc. class. Spoke 2 Dr. B. It�s been a while since I�ve been able to chat with him. Just stopped in to tell him I got the job with BB. (Not that he was surprised) He said he had to lie for me as a reference. lol This was before I said anything to him, but I�m sure it was for BB as well. We�re always teasing each other, so I used his reference and told him I stopped being a dumb-shit and was able to get the job. He asked how much they offered me and when I told him he said; �holy shit, THEY are the dumb-shits� lol Now there�s a smile of true accomplishment *wink*

I dunno what�s up with the today, but the temperatures are lower than they�ve been in a while. I knew this, but I only wore a long sleeved shirt today. Had to call K and ask him to bring me a sweater that I�d left by him when he was coming on campus.. Now I�m home to get jacket and GLOVES to tell u the truth, cuz it really is that serious! It�s low 40s now and supposedly going down to 30�s later tonight, with rumors of snow in neighboring towns and the chance of hail or all kinda shit. *shaking head at PA weather*

8:17pm - Waaw. *eyed wide open*
I knew, (as most if not all of us did) that C was pissed about some of the shit that went down at dinner and in NY in general yesterday. I also knew from last night that she was planning on taking to us after the general meeting tonight.
I walked in there and SHE was commenting on how everyone seemed either tired or bored and we need to be happy. I was, as I have been most of the day, pretty chipper. N E hoot, so meeting ends and she starts to talk with the 6 out of 9 of us that were there and boooy. Even before she started, her mood changed and if U never see a black person turn red. *i'm backing off from you expression* My girl's cheeks went flush, her EARS turned red, and I never heard soo many F and S and H words from her total in life!

She had every reason to be pissed, but I was fooled into thinking she'd calmed down any since then. She had the 2 of us softies in the group crying, and she did a HELLUVA job not cracking up and shedding (more) tears.

Needless to say, although I thought I was one of the two on the good list for the entire day, I felt like complete and utter SHIT!
Didn't do any more than re-inforce what I already knew... she puts her all into us as a group and as students, wants nothing but the best for us, and from the 'none of this leaves this room' convo, that she is not about to have anyone else see ANY of our 'dark side'

N e hoot. *sigh* Once again, I love my major, love my people, and I'm off to the gym.
It's been 5 days now

11:50pm - *Pouting* K just suggested I pass it by Flo to fly into NY instead (and he'd drive them here) so she can come a couple days before, instead of a full week, AND more-so because then Faye can afford to take just 2 or so days off so she can come as well. It's weird he brought this whole graduation thing up, cuz I was thinking about it (and a lot about how much I'd like my FayeFaye to come) today. N E hoot, I called Flo, but she said she already decided she's coming the week before, and Faye has exams at that time, so she can't miss.

That woulda been nice huh... and was nice of him to bring it up and make such an offer. Apparenlty his bro (younger one) is thinking of coming too, but he may be working. Ent' that exciting...although U done know he'd be coming more for his bro than for me...but still.

Ahh. I feel dispondent after that pick-up / let-down, so I'm probably gonna go to bed.

8:22am - Well I'd already confirmed with Coren last night that we weren't actually going to leave at 8, more like 8:30 (just said 8 to make sure people were there), but now I get here a little after 8, she's not here with the van yet, some people don't konw who else is driving, cuz a person or two have not showed up... *shrug* I'm Sure we not leaving till closer to 9.

4:51am - When I woke up almost an hour ago, I thought I woulda� just drank my tea to soothe my stomach and fall back into bed. Now it seems I�m up for the kill. Study study, here I go.

5:20am - Dee birdies waking up. (I tryin'a sound Trini)

5:40am - Ah jus remember.. of my weird dreams last night, I dreamt of going to get my hair cut/ trimmed. Which reminded me of Friday night when K said the only thing he doesn't like about me is my hair. LOL He say I had 'nice long, full head ah hair' when he met me. LOL Granted I remember cutting my hair the 1st of Feb (when Jason did it), and I met him early that same semester, but I guess he was going forward to when we were actually friends and there was plenty thick hair to hold on to. lol

12:24pm - Just spent 45 minutes talking to big sis.
O yeh, and I spoke to Kaye yesterday as well.

2:50pm - I haven't said for the day how cute he is, have I? *Smiling*

Yunno I almost forgot I'm going to NY tomorrow. *Shaking head* 8in the am. *sigh* I want to sleep in/out. *laughing at myself*
Do I really want to go to see P-Diddy's restaurant?
Coren would kill me if I didn't go though, cuz I know she probably passed up someone else going to that I could.

8:26pm - You know what? Someone is thinking about me leaving just as much (if not more) as I have, cuz he�s been wanting to spend an awful lot of time together. (Not that I�m at all complaining) *smile*

1:05pm - I feel so 'blah' once again. Slept in (relatively speaking, but not really considering we didn't go to bed till after 4); skipped/ skipping the tailgaite and charity thing; and now I'm just here, tired of TV, not really in the moood to study, but tryin a ting all the same. What I SHOULD do is go cross to Wal-Mart and deal with my groceries and pick up whatever it is this boy wants. *pondering* *Sigh* I hate lazy feeling days like this. At least I get to go by the Lee's this afternoon for Dr.Lee's surprise party. What sucks about this weekend is that tomorrow I have a group meeting to work on a final make-up budget for this hotel simulation class. I also have to meet with another group (my faaavourite one *rolling eyes*) at some point or another, so we can prepare for our final class presentation. Ugh.. not looking forward to that one at all!

3pm - Home again.
'Bout to go over to help Mrs. Lee.

8:35pm - From appetizers to Entree's, it was a Chineese dinner. It was no joke when she said she needed help. Their oldest daughter got him out of the house to take her shopping, to come back around 4:30 and they hadn't started cooking ANYTHING! The plan was that their son who is in town, was having some old friends come over around 6, so he knew there was food to be cooked, so they had everything preped and tings.

N E hoot, me TYAD!

10:07pm - Holy Christmas my hair is thick!
I just combed it out completely for the first time in a couple months. lol No it's not nasty, I wash my hair on a reg, but since I'm always twisting it, the twists sort of become semi-permanent, and it's hard to untwist all the way, especially closer to the roots... maan. My head feelin 'sore' now. lol
Aite.. now that THAT is over, I'm going to bed!

4:23pm - Today was the least annoying Friday at work ever. Other than the wicket sinus headache I started to develop, the day went by quickly, and I had random pleasant memories to keep me smiling.

I almost didn�t go out last night, but I�m glad I did (hence the random memories that made me smile). He called after 9, at which time I was just about done my work and ready to go sleep� I was just in too down a mood, but HE sounded like he was in too down a mood when I said I didn�t want to go anymore, so I went.

lol. Ok.. I might have 2 run again now, cuz he�s about 2 come get me. Today went from; we taking a 2 hr drive so he can go home 2 get his hair cut, but the barber was about to lock shop, so I suggested a 45 minute drive to the mall. Now I�m home, I sent him a message to say nevermind about that and he called to say I am �something else� lol. That I am. * Wink* . Bout to go �watch a movie and kick back�
O how good it feels to be done early on a Friday and being able to chill. It was one helluva hectic Friday getting to this point though!

Lemme go get myself together before he gets here and then hopefully come back and finish what I was gonna �say�

4:38pm - So we went to dinner last night at a relatively new place in town that neither of us had ever been to. Really good food, and even better company and conversation *smile*. I got the �option� of spending the night with him or doing it this weekend. I figured I wouldn�t be able to this weekend, cuz it�s gonna be a busy one, so he convinced me it would do me even more good if I forgot about him and him having to drive me home 2 get my stuff to go back by him, and waking up earlier than he had to, to take me to class this morning, and I spent the night.

I don�t suppose there�s anything else I want to say about last night. Though it was a rather revealing night.

6:07am - I dreamt that the world managed to hid from me. Either I had this dream before, of in the dream, it�d happened before, so I knew what was going on the 2nd time, but it was stll a helluva task trying to figure out/ remember where everybody was and why the hell they were pulling this huge ass prank on me.

7:48am - Uhhhh. My body aches!

8:47am - I�m almost positive this man�s call to me was billed. And he was so personal and so precise about being certain I understood what he was saying. lol I�ll explain in a bit...

...Aite. So a lawyer from the company called and left me a message yesterday afternoon. He called this morning to talk to me about some stuff, and to make sure I had my OPT request in. What he finds strange, (and I do too) is how come these people didn�t tell me I should have put in the request for an earlier date, because I only have 60 days after graduation in which to stay in the US if I�m not working.

Granted I can get that date changed,(I e-mailed AND left a phone message with the International Student office) the company is preparing to put in my HB request as soon as I get that (it can�t be done B 4) . So they�re about to send me something with all the info they need, so that as soon as my OPT comes thru, they can put in their official request for my H-Visa. Requests for the following year can be started in April, and he says they anticipate they will reach the quota by August! This is for the FOLLOWING YEAR! *Shaking head* What a ting.. didn�t realize it was that serious.

So dem have all kinda special filing process they go go thru to get first dibbs at consideration for my ting te ting.

Well.. nutten more I can do right now, except prepare for the 2nd stage of my OPT request... I'll try not to worry about this part of the process taking too long.. ie more than 60 days!

2:19pm - Hollah back for book buybacks.
They passed some new 'law' (for lack of the proper word) where the bookstores have to give back 50% of the purchase price if the books are being re-used. So I got $30something for an Accounting book I used a couple semester's ago. And when I 1st tried to sell it back then, they were only giving me a couple dollars.
Good to go.

Actually, what I meant to say is that I'm NOT good to go, or at least good to go home maybe. The OPT thing takes 'about 3 months' and I have 60 days, (which at my last math calculations, was TWO months) to change my status so I can stay , or be shipped the hell out of dodge!
So yeh.. now I'm worried.

6:17pm - Hey. Did you know that the guy who invented the game of basketball was from Ontario (I was about to say "Canada"). I also thought U should know (Dre) that he was educated at McGill, (among other places) gaining his first undergraduate degree in philosophy.

That was me in my mentally disturbed attempt to review some theory for my basketball 'exam' next week. I'm a bit distressed, so I'm also putting off the real work (after I did all kinda legal, government paperwork) while I wait for dude to call so we can go out for dinner!

6:45pm - Dyam. For the 2nd time ever, I've gone over my cell minutes.

I knew 'whenver U ready' would not be when I was ready, seeing I was ready over an hour ago when we spoke.. so is a good thing I ate a lil' something anyway.

7:38pm - I'm gonna pop the big question tonight.
If there ever IS a tonight, at the rate things are going.

7:47pm - "How does 9o'clock sound?"
"Good thing I ate"
Common K..that was just MEAN. *Shaking head @ myself* He wants to get his work done first, nutten wrong! After all, is not like I'm not sitting here doing work myself... no need to go make the man feel bad. *sigh* I'm just a little bitch when I'm not very happy huh. As much logical sense as that makes, I need to cool it with him ... cuz he's nothing but good to me.

9:10pm - I probably woulda been passed out if I hadn't eaten earlier, cuz G'ddamn I'm hungry and weak again!

10:40am - So I did go out last night. Went home, got something to eat, and went down around midnight. K called as I was on my way down there, as well as Nancy (so I could hear the music in the background). Mr Man ended up down there about half hour later and when asked why he was there cuz we both said we didn't feel like being out, he said it was because of me. As I pointed out, I didn't tell him to go out, I'd wanted to do something with him earlier, but I wasn't about to pull him away from work to go out, esp seeing I didn't want to either. He said I "made" him go out because of the way I sounded on the phone when he called.

Since we both didn't feel like being there, we left an hour after I got there, and he still wasn't convinced I was ok, so he stayed most of the night/ morning with me. He is soo sweet in a funny way. I didn't expect him to stay, cuz for one, I know he had work to finish, so I was getting ready for bed and asked if he was staying. I told him he'd get a ticket parked out in the street...he said; I know. He said he was just going to lay down for a few minutes. I reminded him that everytime he's said that, he ends up staying and waking up in the morning going 'oh shit'. He said; "I know" and put his hand over my face so I'd shut up, close my eyes and go to sleep. lol. I was very proud though, cuz he woke up to leave w/out an alarm, and before me, after 6 this morning.

Work time... :-S

2:36pm - YES!!!! *Grinning like an arse*
Details later, I'm running off to go workout with J but I'm sure those important readers of mine can guess what it's about. *Still grinning*

6:03pm - It�s Spring for real now, no turning back.
My street is lined with these trees that bloom white flowers before the leaves come back, so now the street is beautifully lined with white floral trees. *Smiling*

Ok, I have good news and bad news:
Bad news is, I�m not moving to Orlando
Good news is, I will be there for a few months while I train with my �potential� new employer. I say �potential� cuz it�s a training period, after which they decide where exactly I best fit in, and at what level. But common, they�ve already been �very impressed� just from talking to me and seeing my history, impressed enough to make her the first THOUGHT of a newly graduated management hire. Not to mention, I�m beginning to (sometimes) go with the mentality that I AM the shit everyone tells me I am, so I KNOW I�m gonna do well and get all up in thur�. *Snapping fingers and rolling head* lol

There are no seen possible openings in the south (AKA Florida) but another bright side to this is that by the time I�m done with training, I�ll know where I stand with a certain situation and can base my re-location decision on other things. NahIMean? *Winking at Dre*

I had another banging ass workout (ebery�ting feel like jello now) an me nuh naym since 8 dis marnin, so I should get going. I have my official details package to go read, I haven�t taken a peek at THE #1journal for the day, and from some of the e-mail subjects I see, I know there�s more than the usual torie to be told.

O yeh. *laughing at myself* Special K was on special at CVS, so even though I have 2 boxes of cereal already, I bought another 4 boxes of that on the way home tonight� So I�ll probably go eat that. lol

6:36pm - Jus done reading me gyal journal and the mass of e-mails and of course I�m in shock. Ent that some strange ass BullShit going on down in LA. * Chups*

Note to the un-invited visitors that I have: I�ve been accused of being insane before, and ALMOST made to go to a psychologist (I think it was probably thought I�d kill myself or someone else if I was forced anymore than I had been), so in case any dumb cunt was thinking of it�. sorry. Won�t do you ANY good. Not to mention, me nuh lib inna no small minded country wid small minded people like dat, and my present and future employers are sure as hell not living in the 70�s. *Shaking head* me till cyarn believe!

*Sigh* .. I Gorn read my offer information seen

6:50pm - U know what? *Still thinking of the rassiousness of the Rissi situation* Why would people be so stupid for real? I mean, to go to this extent, now they have nothing to occupy their empty lives. They coulda just accepted the facts of life, and if they were looking further entertainment or drama, at least they'd have things to talk/ bitch/ marvel about or even change up stated situations to tell some real "Stories" about my girl. But nope. *Shaking head in mock sadness* they had to get dumb. Oooo boy. *sigh*

7:22pm - Dyamn. It�s school all over again for the however many months of the internship training part of this job man. *laughing * There�s a 9 page document with just the training requirements and guidelines, which include; not only practical training but readings, written assignments and tests with a 90% passing grade.

10:05pm - Heeey! I haven't seen an episode of Law & Order since the US decided to stop saving their daylight. I think this is deserving of a break. (I'll continue with some work during the commercials. haha)

11:20pm - Schweepy. *yawning*

6:45am - I slept very well! From 11pm till now.
No bad dreams (that I can recall) and other than some tightness in the middle of my back, no trouble getting out of bed.

6:50am - I was all ready to enjoy an egg and tofu omelette, but lookie here.. no bread in the place.

10:56am - What a waste of my life going to class this morning.
The director reviewed the status of our sick professor (which he did via e-mail yesterday) and then went around the class talking with each group individually. So basically my group sat around doing nothing of worth until 2 minutes before the class was supposed to end. Then we had to stay for 15 minutes so she could go over everything with us.

Ball was good today though. We're already in the "beer bracket" AKA Loosers Circle, so it was a fun, easy game, and we didn't even play the full thing, we all opted to watch the other 2 games being played during the last quarter.

In relation to today's Sun. Does LA have such a bad rap for security, or was this dude not in his right mind to think he could smuggle in 2MILLION dollars worth of coke?

2pm - Hey chicas. U've been doing really good with dropping comments and making my shout box into a mini discussion board over the past few days. Could be because I had things of particular interest to say, but either way... keep it up. *hint hint* lol

5:30pm - Maan did I have a banging ass workout!
Thanks to the musical motivation of DJ Quixx, I did 20 minutes on the elliptical, biceps, and another 20 minutes, and I was PUMPED! Lol
Walking home, and of course I need some energy after that shit, so I�m passing the Chinese restaurant thinking I should stop and get something, cuz I�m not gonna have time to fix N E thing before I head back on campus for my 6:30 class, and I don�t want to just eat cereal again. So I go in there, can�t decide, till I remember I have curried veggies at home.
Can I just have an order of white rice?
White rice?
Yes
Small?
Yes
Now was that a strange request? I didn�t think so, but N E hoot, dude takes my dollar, goes back in the kitchen and comes out and hands me my carton of rice. Now don�t anyone go tell Miss V. Lake I said this, cuz she�d be soo ashamed, but I was hungry, so I took up a fork so I could eat some of my rice on the way home.

Exit the joint, cross the street, and open up my carton to find the contents are yellow. So I turn back and tell dude that I requested WHITE rice, so he looks at me as if; yeh I thought I heard you say that, but I thought U made a mistake. So he says again: �White rice� I say yes, he say�s �Not fried rice?� * Do you REALLY Want me to answer you??*

lol. I just sent someone a message saying I had a banging ass workout w/out them, and boy did my phone ring quick! LOL Whooie.
Lemme go bade an nice up meself for class seen. Not that it's anything to nice up for, but considering the weather, and considering I usually look bummy every day cuz I go to work earlier in the day, I'm gonna try a ting dis evenin. *wink*

7:45pm - O Lord. Either I'm too close to this boy and can FEEL his presence, (as we all know I can definately feel his moods) or / and my psychic abilities are becoming a little too keen.

I'm sitting here in the lab (where he has no 'business' being, cuz them E's have their own computer lab, plus he in pratically LIVES in his accademic building), and just as I get this strange feeling, who walks up behind me. I'd spoken to him a few minutes earlier, which is how he knew where I was.

Thought he was going to stay and keep me company as we both did work, but he just disapointed me again (cuz I was a little down over something just before he got here.. which is probably WHY he came here). He just left as quickly as he came, to go to the HUB to meet some people to do some work I guess. Now the story he's he'll SEE if he can hang out tonight. *Pouting* I'm so spoilt. Well... not really yunno. Is jus that when I have reason to expect something good to happen, and get all excited about it, and U turn around and tell me that it might no longer be... common! A girl can't help but be disapointed ent?

8:20pm - Uggggh!! Can't fuckin' concentrate!

10:10pm - *Smiling* Why does this girl want to drag me out tonight so badly? In class tonight (The Jamaica trip class) she asked if I'm coming out, and I jokingly said "yeh man" (cuz of the memories we have of the last Tuesday night we went out). So she declares to this other girl and her fiance' that she's going out now, because I said I'm going. lol. She just called me again to say they'll be there around 11 so I have 45 minutes to finish what I'm doing and come out. How schweet eh. I'm hungry as hell, and I've been in this joint long enough, so I just might leave, go home and eat a lil' something (Cuz I'm already dolled up, but I have my backpack with me), and stop out at least for a little bit. We'll see. *Sigh*

10:02am - So off I go to the Prince concert at 4:30. Doors were supposed to open an hour before the 7:30 start time, but dude wanted more time to practice, so they didn't let people in till after 7. Our stand was ready to shut down a little after 9 when all of a sudden everyone decide to take their own intermission and came running for food and drink. So my night of work ended at 10.

K offered to come get me, so I sat waiting for him, he stopped at the bottle shop to get some Guiness, and took me home. Keeping in mind my headache never left me all day or night yesterday, I was feeling a bit down, after some very sweet messages that he left me, cuz I really would've been comforted if I could've spent the night with him. He told me he was going over by the boy (Bitch G) as soon as he got back home. When he was dropping me off, he said I WAS going to spend the night with him, cuz he was coming back for me when he was done. I told him I didn't want him 2 have 2 come back for me, and i'd probably be asleep anyway. I could tell he was serious about coming back, so I told him I'd just chill by him while he was with the boys.

Heading to his place, and the story changes to he's helping Bitch move, cuz the likkle boy mussa get himself in trouble again, so he's moving, don't know where, don't know when, but he was moving some of his stuff over to K's place. Go over there, he goes over by Bitch, I take a shower and go to watch telle and shit. About an hour later, K, Bitch G, another bro of theirs; T, and some girl come over bringing stuff. They come with a couple boxes and then T sits around watching TV with me while the rest of them gone... then K comes back, and the 2 of them there talking about whether or not they going out for real. I announced my departure for bed, and them two were talking bout they tired, so I figured they'd be done soon for real.

Well with all the talk about me spending night with him, after all the back and forth and chatting and whatever else, it was after friggin 3 when this boy comes back to bed. And at one point he came in and talking about he soo can't wait to lie down in bed next to me. If that was the case, why could you not kick them dudes (an gyal) out sooner? Chu. And even after they left, he left with them for a good while yunno.
N E ways, I was pretty pissed. He jumps into bed, thought I was sleeping (But with T's big mouth in the place most of the time, I hadn't sleep a WINK!), apologizes for waking me up as he start to hug me up, and eventually I start a piece ah crying. Well I shouldn't say a "piece ah crying" cuz it was silent and dignified. lol. Oh well. So We sat up talking for a while, he wasn't, and seemingly still isn't convinced that the only thing on my mind was feeling bad about not getting to spend time with him like I wanted to.

I didn't feel too bad by the time I went to bed, and I woke up feeling better too (actually felt like jumping him when I woke up this morning), but I STILL have a slight headache and on the way to class I was feeling shitty again. *shrug* I guess it's just the fact that my time here is almost over (kinda... seeing as I'll be in the US for longer than expected), and I'm just wanting too much from him/ us.

Wow. Everything in front of my eyes just did the wave. *eyes wide open* You know when U're sitting up fighting sleep and you start to doze so you do that head dipping thing?... that's what just happened, but it's not because I was dozing. I hope something's not seriously wrong with me. (Headaches, dizzy feelings and all that shit).

I'm off... this should be my last Physical Therapy appointment this morning.

11:45am - I�m healed! At least healed enough for Craig to have let me loose, and comfortable enough to deal with what�s left of the recovery (for this particular injury of course) on my own.

I�d so love to sleep till it was time to go to my 3:30 class, but �hold on. I can! I was just about to say I have to get some stuff done, but I have time after my last class and before this presentation at 6:30/7 to head back downtown to get a card.
They�re having a student send-off for the director of our department this evening, and I wanted to get her a card. I am soo tired right now, I think I�m abandon all work and just go to bed.

2:15pm - I'm guessing now would be a funny time to mention how certain I am that something is definately not right with that finger I jammed last week...

A few additions to my rushed first entry.
The reason he�s not convinced, not getting to spend QT with him last night was the only thing bothering me, is because he claims that the past few times we�ve been together, I haven�t been myself and just seem distant and that I have a lot on my mind and I�m not into the moment; just being with him.

Also, last night was the first night he so openly acknowledged us being together around people. I know both Bitch G and T knew about us. I personally told the Bitch (even though I know he figured it out, but he was still trying to get with me, so I had to let him know it was more than a fling ting going on). T probably figured it out like the rest of them, and from talking to Bitch, plus, from something he said to me one time, I also get the feeling he and K ended up vibing about some stuff and K flat out told him how he feels about me. It was still somewhat of a moment to have the boys come over and not only find me chilling at the crib after midnight on Sunday, but also (Only T was there this time) K came in and asked:
Babes U aite? U need anything?
Then he sat on a chair they brought in which was right by my head as I was laying on the couch, and started playing with my hand.
I myself feel like ouhhing and awwhing thinking about it. *smile* I just need to remind myself of these things when I get doubts about anything.

Another thing I should remind myself of whenever I�m in doubt: Yesterdays sweet text messages, thanking me for my �support� (as a result of me feeling his bad vibe Saturday night):
Though I don�t show it at times, I really thank God for blessing me with you in my life. Thank you. Love� _ _ _
Might seem like a little thing, but he spelled out the entire name, so now I�m one of, if not, THE only non-family member who knows his middle name. *smiling*

4:27pm - I just saw my therapist walking thru campus. How random can you get. He ah bawl bout:
�Twice in one day, what a pleasure� lol
Kinda like Mr. DJ who called today and I made the mistake of saying I was just thinking about him (cuz I thought I saw he called me yesterday, and I was thinking; �WhatDahFock�), so he went off about that was SUCH a pleasant thought to think, cuz he was wondering what he coulda done to offend me so that I don�t return his phone calls. *shaking head at his womanizing ass*

9:20pm - That 'thing' with our director went until almost 9. I made my way to the gym with all intentions of working off the damn pizza they fed us, and trying to make myself feel better overall. (headache and bad feeling and all). I changed and headed to the weight room entrance, only to do a U-turn, grab my bag and headed right back out the door. U'd think at this time of day, and at this point in the semester, and in this lovely weather, peopole (and THAT MANY people) would not want to be up in the gym, but oooo no.

So here I am, home sweet home.
I just took a Zyrtex, cuz I'm really sick of this headache, and after 3 regular pain-killers, I figure it might be my sinuses after all, although it hasn't quite felt like it. I just hope the pill doesn't keep me up all night, cuz I've been having enough trouble sleeping (and waking up once I do fall asleep ironically enough) as it is.

9:50pm - WHAT was I saying at 10:20am last Friday?
Everytime I do that, something like yesterday (text messages and conversations) happen. *Shaking head*

I've been journalizing quite a lot these past few days. I think I should get my ass (and head) to bed now, b 4 I find something else to do or say.

9:20am - And I wake up with a headache.
Possibly because at 1am, I was rudely awakened by the sound of my building�s fire alarm. Dude next door was running up and down the halls on the phone with someone trying to figure how to turn it off. He got it off, then a minute later it came back on again. It kept going off and on for about half hour!
Did I also mention I was having the strangest dreams all night?! Jeez

11:22am - What's up with me?
I was feeling all sick and lightheaded in church this morning.

1:17pm - I could sleep all day. But apparenlty I WON'T sleep all day, I'll just have this friggin headache all day.

1:53pm - Ummmm. That lunch was bangin'!
Mrs. Lee's curried mix veg, my last piece of stew/jerk chicken, and some borccoli? *Nodding* One problem though... Now I want to jump back into bed.

2:45pm - Don't call... don't call....

10:57am - AHHHHH. I am not in the mood (as I haven�t been for the past few days) to write this dyam proposal abstract! At least I did a couple loads of laundry and tidied up my place a bit. *Frowning* But I really need to get some school work done. This evening I have this WLI dinner thing, then tomorrow (we all know how Sundays go by lazily) afternoon into the night, I�ll be working concessions at the Prince concert, and the upcoming week is gonna be a relatlively busy one (at least the 1st part of it). I�m SUCH a slacker. *Lowering head in shame*

11:15am - So bored.
I think I'll go fold my laundry (or not), eat somethign (again) and go sleep.
Where's my boy when I need him?
He's miles away stressing over a crucial exam.. THAT's where he is. *shaking head and sighing*

4:10pm - Going to this thing now....
Mingle with the parents and friends of the girls in the class (This is the thing I'm on the Advisory Board for), have dinner, and get a little more dispondent than I've been for most of this wonderful day.

9:15pm - Finally home. It was a really good program.
Kristin (The staff assistant for the initiative) was also feeling �Blah� today, and it turns out we had similar concerns with being there with no guests, so we sat next to each other and were blah together. Which made us less blah.

I�m a bit worried about the boy and that exam though. I tried calling him a couple times, the first being after 6, and then again almost 8pm, and his phone was off. So I�m thinking (hoping I�m wrong) the exam didn�t go too well, and he�s (obviously) not feeling too happy. I called him just as I got home not too long ago, and his phone was back on, but he didn�t answer. Sooo. *frowning *
Imma go try this work thing again before I decide to go sleep.

9:34pm - Just wondering what you were doing in here around quarter to 6 today. *shaking head* An is WHO was jealous of WHOse wonderful lives back in the day? chat bout. How come all of a sudden other people's lives are soo important to these people? Go find some other things to do to put that brain to use.
I really don't konw why I'm slightly annoyed by this right now, cuz I know it's happened before, maybe I'm just in a bad mood.
Lemme go put my little fingers to use see.
*Half laughing, half annoyed at my own dumbass mood*

10:20pm - Ugh! Just like I fuckin thought.
No direct words were needed, but he did call, and I guess I was right. He's sitting around sulking. Talking bout he was going to wait till tomorrow to call cuz he was hoping I was in a good mood and maybe going out to enjoy myself tonight. *Chups* Does this nigga not understand that I can tell when he's down, and whether or not he tells me, (or even just talks to me and I hear it in his voice) I feel it too. Shit man. *Kinda annoyed that that's the case*
Now of course I just want to jump into bed and cry.
*My headache just got worse*

1:30am - I think it's bed time again.

7:13am - It is SUCH a beautiful day. Yup, as early as it is, I can tell... Supposed to be really warm, and the sun is already high up in all its glory.

But why did I lay in bed last night acting like I do when K is here? I swear I was tired, but I was just lying there with my eyes wide open and having trouble falling asleep. My mind was going a million miles a minute, and I was thinking of ALL kinda tings and feeling like crying. Life has been good, (really good this year in particular) but .... I dunno. I guess I was just thinking too much. Particularly now that I know I'll be here for another few months at least, I really should take my boys advice and just live and enjoy life as it is now, and not worry about the future.

What am I doing? I'm up early, I might as well make use of the time and go be productive.

10:20am - Aite, I love him to death, but I think today is going to start (more seriously this time) the downturn of affection for me. Don't get me wrong, I probably just can't explain it the way I'm thinking, but I'm not going to do the random calls and messages just to say whatever, cuz it hurts un-necessarily when I do it and he's too busy for me or my shit. I KNOW he's genuinely busy, (and I admire his determination and the way he has his priorities set) but when I'm all chipper and excited about stuff (or about nothing) and he's all serious and/ or down, I feel a kinda way. Not to mention of course I told myself I need to wean myself away from the situation so when the time comes, it won't be so hard to leave.. NahIMean?

O yeh, I forgot to mention.. I got off work today! *Grinning* (after an almost 2 month request off notice) I should be outdoors man. But I told myself I'd sit here and work on my assignment when I got out of class at 10 (Which I haven't started to do yet) and then I have this meeting at 11:30, THEN i'm gonna go work out, then another class at 4:30 and a CSA meeting (with food) at 6 tonight.

1:18pm - What a long ass meeting.
I've been indoors since prior to 9 this morning, frigg this work for now, I'm gonna go work out. Granted that's indoors too, but at least I can take a walk outside to get there; and then I'll probably find a spot to sit outside and try write up some stuff for my assignment on paper.

5:28pm - Wow. I realised everyone and their grandmother was outdoors because of the weather, but dyaamn! Half the class wasn't there, and this computer lab is empty as heck too!

My workout nearly killed me. It felt good, but I was struggling to walk afterwards (from cardio, cuz I did chest, not legs). I walked downtown afterwards and bumped into a couple people, so that killed my time before class. I also called Tony E. His secretary said he was still in, but on another call, so I left him a message. This was an hour ago, and he hasn't called back, so I figure when he DOES call back, it will be with some solid news.

I'm off to meet with my Mary-Kay beauty consultant to get me subben (FINALLY) and then this CSA meeting.

8:30pm - I�ll finally get to meet the Lee�s son next week. Dr. Lee�s B-day is the 22nd and Mrs. Lee says they�re planning a surprise party for him. But the biggest surprise of all is that their son is flying in on Thursday, and they�re gonna go to Dr. Lee�s office to surprise him. �Ent that sweet?

10:20pm - Well U tink is now I goin to bathe?
Big sis called (cuz I called her earlier and she was busy) and we spoke for about half hour. Then I signed back online and Lil' sis came on, so I was chatting to her. THEN K called and I told him I had food for him, so he stopped by, and we were sitting here chatting for another 45 minutes as well.

He did drop the class for that last exam he was distressed about. It's full for Fall semester, so he has to take it this summer, which screws up his plans for working this summer, seeing as he already got a pretty good response from that company he interviewed with Monday for a summer internship. So now he has no job, no money, needs to take a summer class (hence the need for even MORE money), no place to live, cuz his lease where he's been living is up, and it's expensive there, so he's not about to stay.

He'd gone to look about living on campus today (the apartments I stayed in last summer when I did my research thing). Hopefully I hear (in the positive) from Tony early next week, not only for the obvious reasons, but I'd want him (K) to cancel that housing request before they go bill him or some shit, cuz he can sure as hell stay here this summer! I mean if I get the job in FL, then regardless of visa status, I'd go down there as soon as I can to look for a place to stay (he even said he can assure I have a place BEFORE I get down there, cuz one of his good friends is down there). I have to pay rent here till August no matter what, so It's not like I'm loosing out on anything. Even if I charge him half of what I normally pay, It's a win-win situation.

So we had a nice little vibing session. I hope it works out (for both of us) soon. He has some EIGHT HOUR exam in another town starting at 8am tomorrow. I'm soo bad. We just went over in detail what degree he has and what he's doing now and what his concentration is, and I done forget what the exam is.. but yeh.. some big exam. Chups. I'd go over there at 6 in the morning to fix him breakfast or sandwiches to take with him if I could, cuz I KNOW the negro ent gonna eat!

Yes.. so for future reference (for anyone who cares AND myself); he has an associates in Computer Science Engineering (I'm not even sure I'm right about this now), and is doing Civil now, with a concentration in... SHIT! I 4got! *Chups* I know this part yunno, cuz I heard him telling someone about his concentration on the phone the other day. chat bout! I am such a stinker.
Actually, I really am a literal stinker, so I should go do that shower thing now (before my water mysteriously turns cold as it sometimes does again)

10:40pm - Fluid Mechanics... I'm pretty sure that's the concentration... Last entry.. Clothes are coming off now... shower... shower...

2:45am - This boy knew I was working late, and said he�d be on campus even later doing work. So he calls me just before he knows I get off work to let me know he�s still there. I call him back and he offers me a ride home, so I met him across the way and he brings me home. I thought he was going home as well, but he was headed right back to work some more. N E ways: kiss goodnight (morning); I�m getting out the jeep and he reaches in the back and says: �don�t forget about dinner� and hands me a container of food�
home cooked of course. *Smiling*

Just had to point that out B 4 my weary, loved ass fell into bed (only to wake up in a few hours for a hellish day).
Goodniday.

7:12am - Watch these people sending me an e-mail talking bout they putting a hold on my Diploma due to �unpaid charges� on my account. All because of about $100 in partially insured medical and perscription bills. *Rolling eyes*

O and MC: About that little phone message U left me last night... U RUDE!! :-p And it's a nightee from Victoria's Secret, so beg your pardon.

9:32am - Oook then. So my slight fear has been confirmed. All the talk I have about going home soon after grad and coming back to start work... hm. Well guess what? I can't re-enter the country until the work visa has been completely processed, and Lord alone knows how long that will take. O YES! Apparenlty, the govnt. only allows a certain number annually, and they've reached the quota for this year, so I there's no chance of me getting one till 2005 probably.

What I can do is apply for Optional Practical Training (Which is the 12 month thing U can do after finishing your studies). But once again, that's another application process, which I can't start until I have a firm letter of offer from my potential employer. What can U do. *Shrug*

Ah well.. I guess I might be home for carnival after all!
O yeh, maybe even in time for the Mr. & Miss Antigua so I can see my boys in top form on stage again. *Grinning*

4:18pm - Sociology class was a level above the usual interesting today, plus I made a stop to see my boy on my way home, so I�m in a good mood and have calmed down SUBSTANTIALLY. However, I still feel the need to point out ONE LAST TIME, (Minus the excessive expletives I would�ve used earlier) how much I HATE going to the health center on this campus.

All I wanted to do was follow doctors� orders and have my pressure checked since I (THOUGHT I) had the time. Is that too much to ask? Why did I get the usual �someone will be out with you in a minute� and then have to sit and wait for 10 before deciding to hell with it and heading to class?! Then when I go and kindly inform the receptionist that Kay is no longer in the building, she go ask; �So you�re just gonna leave then?� Yes maaam� I think that would be best, cuz even if someone DID come out to me within the next couple minutes, I would�ve had a helluva high pressure reading, cuz I was FUMING!
Buuut! Right now I�m just sleep deprived (and stink� my team lost yet another game of ball today�officially last place out of the 6 teams), so I�m gonna steady my hands to finish eating this young man's spicy food; jump in the shower; and pass the hell out!

O yeh� pleasant surprise in checking my paycheck deposits today� I got my tax refund. $175 baby.

10:44pm - Wow. I had to force myself to get out of bed. I've been having some weird dreams again too.

10:05am - So BOTH of the guys who graduated last year and R now working with EnP, are here. K said he was coming to pick me up around 10 last night, so I met up with the folks at the bar a little after 9. It was the 2 guys, one of the recruiters, (Not Tony) and this chick who is about to graduate with me and just accepted a position with them.

I did not sleep well at all last night. My hand really started to hurt me...it's megga swollen now. You know if you make a fist you can see the knuckles / bones at the base of your fingers? Well not my right hand, I can see the bone on the finger next to my thumb, and half the bone on my middle finger, but after that, it's just one heuge mound.

My knees apparently were also giving me stress last night/ this morning. I didn't even realise it till I woke up K with my noise and he woke me up (of course he thought I was already up.. but I really wasn't, i was just howling in my sleep) to ask if I was ok and started rubbing my knees.
I can hear a certain person right now saying how sweet that is... lol.:)

Aite.. typing hurts, and I don't work till 11, so I'm gonna see if I can get ANY assistance from these people in the International Students' Office to find out what I need to do to get back in the US safely after graduation and before work.

2:29pm - Considering the lack of proper sleep (pain; both knees and hand, as well as discomfort from gym aches) I didn't do badly at ALL today at work. Now I'm home fe go hole ah fresh to go to an earlier section of my English class so I can meet up with these peeps at 4:30 to get a ride to this WLI dinner thing, and then a lecture later on which should end after 8. THEN it's back home, only to head BACK to work from 11pm - 2:30am. THEN an 8am class tomorrow. And I can't miss it, cuz the prof is sick, so now the Director of our department is teaching it. :-s

8:05pm - Home again, well fed. Got a message from someone else in HR at Phillips Seafood wanting to arrange for an interview. I wonder if they found out about the visa sponsorship thing� Maaan.. Tomorrow�s Thursday right? Tony (BB) better call me. *Biting bottom lip*

8:08pm - AhWhaDeHellYeh. I�m anxious as hell to see MY new layout, and I can�t get onlne! I�m using DIALUP, what the hell could be the problem?!

8:24pm - Fina-frikin-ly

8:40pm - U know what? I can't even rememeber what my layout was like before this... Yes I know.. that was only a few HOURS ago, but I 4got. *Frowning* Thanks miss thang! ;-)

11:02am - Basketball injury for the day... jammed finger. And it hurts to type...

5:10pm - Remember some time ago I was cussing about being distracted in the gym by the show where some bitch was getting her face sawed open? Well the name of the show is �Who wants a famous face� or some shit like that. So why I trying to do my little cardio again today and this time I�m directly in front of the TV that�s showing that shit again. The last time, I jus happened to glance over and see this crap, but this time, even if I tried to look to either side to watch another TV, this shit was still in my view cuz it was all up in my face!

U don�t understand how this shit PISSES ME OFF!! It was the follow up to the same asshole who got her boobs, chin (hence the sawing of the face) and lips done, cuz she wanted to look like Pamela Anderson. I seriously wanted to jump in the TV and slap this heffer right in the chin when she�s sitting in the jeep whining and crying to her mother because very little bump on the ride home hurts her chin (which min well bandage up).

If it was hurting soo much riding in her SUV, how come running her mouth as she cried to her friend on the phone didn�t hurt?! She�s 23, and you shoulda seen her face when the Playboy promoter said her boobs were now too big for her to be in the Playboy college girls issue anymore. This of course, was after the nasty friggin scars had healed.

O yeh, and did I mention when she was sitting in the bar with her friends on the verge of tears talking about �I wish I could buy them all so no one else can have them� Because when she was comparing herself in the magazines, she realized that even with her new-found, too big for her body boobs, other women had bigger/ better implants than she did. *rolling eyes in UTTER annoyance! *

N E way, I gorn bade see� had a kicking ass game of ball this morning, and a pretty decent workout (�cept for that friggin distraction).
One of my boys that graduated last year and now works with EnP, called to say he and one of the recruiters are in town and they wanted me 2 come out for drinks with them tonight. Not only am I not drinking, (too much drugs in the system already) but it�s raining (I WALK everywhere I go, and even with an umbrella, it�s too nasty to be walking bout getting wet up so), AND they ARE still waiting for me to give them an answer. �. I should just go e-mail Tony now and tell him I�m declining�. I wish Tony E would call soon.

12:45pm - Doctor's visit at the hospital this morning, sleepy as all hell on the bus ride home, now I'm home and don't have to go back on campus till 3:30.

I was thinking of going to the gym before that, but I also wanted to cook... hmmm. It's rainy and cold, so instead of getting sweat up before having another 5 or so hours of activitiy this evening, I think I'll stay here and clean my crib.

2:13pm - Maaan. I just whanna curl up in bed!

5:29pm - Why does it feel like it's been such a long time since I've "done the dirty" (As Auntie Karen would say)? Cuz it HAS been a long time since I've done the dirty. *shaking head*

I did have something of semi-importance to say you know....

5:44pm - I'm craving chocolate.

9:17pm - I tried to better myself by working on strengthening my legs, but my knees just would NOT have it. And my head was also acting up so that I ALMOST wasn't able to complete an acceptable 20 mintues of cardio.
If only I could just get my behind in there every day, even if it's for 15 minutes.

10:41pm - Wouh. I stew some chicken with a little jerk seasoning jus now bouy... ummm. I didn't know I had it in me.

He is (sounds) too cute. lol

12:58am - I think I can finish this w/out having to pull an all-nighter, AND still make it to church in the morning.

1:55am - I need a break from this work, so I'll make a short entry to say: This morning, Ziggy went to work for 10, and K and I left sometime before 11. He got his hair cut at this place just downstairs, and then we hit the road around 11:30. He wasn't too pleased with the haircut, but he has an interview on Monday, so he wanted to get it done, and the one guy here in town who does brothers' hair, must've jacked him up once, so of course he nar go back. I will admit, the facial wasn't as good as it usually is, (he usually looks too sweet when he's just gotten a cut) but I thought the head was ok. *Shrug* N E hoot, we made a stop for gas (as well as tea for me, and gummy bears for him) and we were on the road. Since yesterday we said we'd take a shopping date, but we were both anxious to get home today, so nobody mentioned it again once we were on the road.

The drive back just seemed soo much more tiring than it did getting there. I dozed off for just a minute or two a couple times, and I know he was struggling cuz both of us were just quiet, cept when we had to decide what route we were taking. :) We did a good job of winging it on the ride back though. He only went off-track once, but I was confident enough that we were going the wrong way, so he turned around, and then called and asked his boy, and as it turns out, I was right. Got back into town in good time, just before 3, stopped for shit at McDonalds, went to his place, ate and went straight to bed! I think he got up around 9, I didn't open my eyes for real till almost 10. Came home, took a shower, and here I've sat.

Gonna get back to it now actually.. cuz I'm begining to feel sleepy.
'Naps' as long as that one this evening don't do as much good to me as they should when it's dark outside and what I'm doing while I'm awake is not too fun. I also took a Zyrtex, so that has been keeping me up as well. (it's a sinus pill, but 'hyperness' / 'restlesness' is a side-effect)

Aite, so sometime tomorrow I'll back up to how I ended up leaving here this weekend in the first place and what I did.
(Going to the Lee's tomorrow for "Easter Dinner" by the way)

2:40am - Me in response to a comment about Usher cheating on Chilli: Why do men do that? (Have a good thing in a woman, and then go fuck around with someone else)
Him: For the same reason someone gets a new car. The old one giving trouble.
Mr: But U don�t keep the bruck up car. You get rid of it before you get a new one.
Him: True, but some people jus different. They want to park up the ole car an have it there still, even though they gorn for a new one.
Both: That�s the mystery of it.

11:20am - I�m finished I�m finished!
The questioned sections on that shit were too repetitive, and I was not about to BS and give repetitive answers, so it was shorter than expected. Hey, I was up till 4 this morning working on it! Not to mention, now that this is my last submission, I�ve partially just gotten a Don�tGiveAFuck attitude after all the rest of them didn�t give a shit the past few times.

Aite.. so Friday. 1:30 (When his class is starting) the boy comes flying over here to get me and my laundry, then drops himself off on campus and sends me off. So I go by him, do our laundry (most of it) and watch some telle. He got a ride home and came back around minutes to 5. Before he went to class, I was explaining all the logical reasons why I figured we wouldn�t go again and he said he done say he going so he going (with or without me supposedly.. lol) He apparently got in touch with his boy the night before and he apparently had already arrange hotel room and all that. I had a feeling he was exaggerating, but still, he had me feeling bad about getting him psyched about going, and since he seemed EXCITED about taking an unknown 3.5 � 4 hour drive, then what the hell? Shit like that don�t happen to often eh.

I thought I woulda had to pick him up from campus, but when I called to ask when he�d be ready, he said he was on his way, so when he got home, I had to come back here to get dressed and get my stuff and what-not. The whole way there he telling me how we go get there that night and have a good time and he�ll remind me that I was the one saying I didn�t want to go. I wasn�t denying that I�d have a good time, I jut figured/ knew it would be a bit too hectic. N E hoot, we got to his boy�s place in Maryland a little before 9 then went to DC to pick up Dani.
We were gonna walk around at (I4get the name of the place by dani) and get something to eat, but then we had to go pick up the friend�s sister at some party to take her home. So back to Maryland we go.

K ate before we left here, but I hadn�t eaten more than cereal in the morning, a sandwich and ramen noodles around 2:30 in the afternoon, so me min HONGRY! And he was good hungry from the driving and the fact that he jus lub he tomach. I could tell he was getting kinda irritable, and I was down to the point of feeling sick.

We managed to make it to an I-Hop sometime after midnight / minutes to 1, and I swear I have not eaten that much in donkey years. I had THREE CHOCOLATE CHIP pancakes AND an omelet. That has to be the first time I even ate more than K! If I was thinking logically, I woulda eaten my pancakes first (Seeing as I was soo craving them from before we got there) and left most of my egg for him, but I started on the egg first, then went to the pancakes, then figured I wouldn�t have all that chocolate, so I went back to the egg, but then the pancakes were looking soo good that I went and finished that. lol

By the time that feast was over, it was too late and probably both too tired to think about any clubbing, so the friend directed us back to �The District� and we crashed by Dani.

O and about the hotel thing, the friend was supposed to set him up, but is not like he did anything definite before we got there, so I figured, why go thru the expense when Dani was willing to have us stay by her. Not to mention, if I didn�t link up with her that night, I wouldn�t have seen her at all, cuz she worked 10am Sat morning, and we left not long there-after. O an the friend lives with his mom, and he had to go to work at 5 am Saturday.

So that was my adventure of a weekend. Here Mr. Silly talking about where�s next.
Aite.. I gorn hop back into bed seen. Definitely didn�t get enough sleep. And I hope this likkle one don�t go change his mind about going by Mrs. Lee this afternoon. Not only has he never come over there (yet always begging me fe bring him back food) but at least if I go with him, I know I�ll have an excuse to leave early, cuz I�m leaving with my ride, and my ride leaving early, cuz I also want to get back home to do work.

3:45pm - *Chanting* Hungry hungry heffer

10:55pm - Went to the Lee's a little before 5pm. Left minutes to 7 and came over by K. He left around 8:30 to go do work with some peeps on campus. If he told me so, I wouldn't have come, but I'm sure he knew that, which is why he DIDN'T tell me. *smiling and shaking head*
No biggie. I watched Anger Management, downloaded Norton on his comp, and now I'm actually gonna do a little bit ah work.

I had a headache from earlier this afternoon, and I thought it was either from being hungry, or from not enough sleep this morning. It got worse after I ate though, and even more so now. *Frowning* It's not a sinus headache either. I feel like I've been taking in soo much crap that I don't want to take anything for it. My knees are hurting, but I didn't think to bring my meds for that before coming over here. I took both that and a Zyrtex this morning, so I just feel like I have enough drugs in my system for one day.

Today would've been day one of a new pill cycle, and THAT pill I DID bring with me tonight, but someone has said rather seriously for the last time, that I should stop taking it. I'd already bought the first pack of the new one the doc recommended, and after he first mentioned just stopping altogether, I figured I'd finish the last of the old packs, and not move on to the new, but alas, he's really concerned about my health, so dat go get dash way.

Aite.. gonna do a little something before... uhhh.. nevermind.
Ok, double nevermind.. it's Belly, not him.
Gonna prep this work for class in the morn and then hop into bed if my head doesn't feel any better soon.