All my life I felt that there was a part of me missing somewhere. I am a very honest person. In fact, I've been told that I'm too honest for my own good. I do know that I haven't been honest with myself. As a teen, I used to try on my mother's lingerie. (Yes. I was caught.) Since then, wearing lingerie has been something I have always enjoyed. When I enlisted in the military, I had to stop for awhile because of the lack of privacy, but began again as soon as I could do so safely. During that time, I met a woman who I thought understood my needs, and she assisted me to go further in my cross dressing in the privacy of our home. I wore dresses/night gowns from the moment I walked in the door until I got up for work the next day. After some years, we parted ways and I stopped dressing up for awhile. I thought that I was happy without it, but after a few years, I went back to cross dressing and discovered that I was much happier being who I really was.
After about 8 years, I married another woman who was encouraging about my needs. There was always some tension between us and after the arrival of our baby she determined that she would prefer a woman and we separated. I again stopped wearing lingerie and was very depressed and closed off from the world. I didn't date or really talk very much to anyone about anything. Then one day I met a woman at work. We got to know each other and dated and I eventually told her about my "fetish" for wearing panties. She had difficulty accepting even that small part of me and broke up with me. In the process, she told another coworker about my lingerie. Shortly afterward, I left that job to take on a more lucrative one on the road and while I was away, that coworker wrote me some email explaining what had been told to her. On September 29th, 2000, I became honest with myself and opened up. As a lesbian, she was very accepting of my lifestyle and I opened up to her and told her the story from the beginning.
On October 4th, 2000, Kayle Jean Grayson was born. The name was picked out by my friend's life partner. It's a very beautiful name and I love it. I returned from an assignment on October 6th, 2000. During the week, we went shopping and picked out a skirt, blouse, vest, and make-up. It was so fun and I never felt so good. On October 13th, I became Kayle and we went out in public. I felt so beautiful being dressed up as a woman. Yes. I was nervous about going, but I had my friend and her life partner's support. I was in good hands. Now, with the help of her and her life partner, I am living a dream come true. What will the future hold for me? I don't know. I take one day at a time, hoping and praying that somewhere out there, a lady will understand me and accept me for who I am.
Now I am living and working as a woman 24/7 and currently on hormones. I'm a fun, laid back lady who has had many careers. I'm 5'10", height/weight proportionate with red hair with highlights and a grey strip on the rightside, and blue eyes. I love to read, watch all kinds of sports, movies, and music (any kind but rap or heavy metal.)
