i wonder if this pain could be harbored, and put to the side.. because i would, but i cant..
dont u c hw im dstroyin myself..dont u c im breakin evrythin ive evr blievd in..do u think i cn hold it in..do u think dt i dont fil ds pain..did u hnestly think i ws fyn..lied evrythin ive evr held in..dont u c im fallin apart..nver 2b fixed
staring in the mirror..sighing at the sight..wiping away the tears..i cried again tonight..this feeling of emptiness..this feeling sorrow..i just wish for it to be gone..evaporate from the shattered area..where my heart used to be
Why won't the pain go away?
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
haha! 16 lng pla k0.. =D
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I feel it every day
I feel as if my world has crushed
I feel as if I've lost everyone's trust
To get up in the morning each and every day
Is as painful as seeing my life in a grey and rainy way
To live this life is the question
To make me know the true confession
Shall I go or shall I stay
Should I take this life away
Would people care to see me gone...
To see me lie dead at the break of dawn?
Would anyone care or would anyone cry
Or would they just see my dead body, turn away and sigh
Does anyone know my pain, can they say the've been there, too
Does anyone feel as lonely and as broken as I do?
Could someone rub my back for me
And tell me that everything will be ok?
Could someone sit beside me and tell me that
I'll make it through the day?
I need someone beside me to tell me that I'm strong..
I need someone to tell me that my heart will go on..
grabe..cant wait f0r next week... sana mkuha k0 na pic nyA.. haaay nku! kala k0 nman m0nday ngaun & dec12.. tsktsk cl0ck ko tlga! =P
scary!!! nanaginip nnman me ab0ut r0bots & death.. haaaaY! 1m0nth na cya gumugul0 s icp ku.. & i remember un nsa ilalim me ng trailer truck being a r0bot, childho0d dream k0 p cyA.. hmMmm..??
You Are 16 Years Old> 
haaaaaaay life......... ='(
8:53pm and nsa lab pdin ako...hndi prin pgod mgturo ang prof,, ears ko pgod na!! tska eyes! hehe...bute nlng may ym & frendster..hahaha!! naku, dmi p ggwen paguwe...haaaaay asar nman oh dmi pinapagawa! pro xmpre may fun pren starting 12mn later! haha!
im sooooooooo damn tired....haaaaaaaaaaay ='(
haaaaaaaay la mxado ginagawa sa lab.. naku! problem pdin ang gmik mmya.. complicated mxado.!! c mama kc eh, wrong timing magkasakit!! wahahahha!!! ayun.. la tuloy mghhtid/sundo skin.. sarap mag party tonight!! kya lng d nman kumpleto jemclan =( haaay once plang nac0mplete since hs grad.. waaaaaaah.. d pa ntuloy un gimik later b4 party!! haaay mukhang masaya p nman (xmpre!!) hahahha!! sobrang nagluk forward me dun,.. ohwelz.. may next tym p nman cguro..sana.. hehe!
wheeeeeeew! tgal nrin d nauupdate.. nkktmad kc eh! hmmm nuh kaya merun sa araw na to..!? sooooooooo lucky!! at last, nbukas ko nrin ung mark website ko..hahahaha!! kng kelan fading na ang westlife! tsk.. d bale, may video release nrin sa oct-nov ng "u raise me up" hehe!! hopefully.. haaaay! & biglang nag re-appear ang hs friends ko..hahaha!! weird!? esp, westlife friend na hmmmm about 3-4yrs ko ng hndi nkkusap! grabeh!!! nkkbaliw mga pangyyre!!! super duper saya ko tlga!!! im going crazy!! dhil ke mQ nrin!! wahahhaha!!! lolz.. nkkbliw tlga.....!!! ang hrap explain & hrap paniwalaan pero toto0.! hahaha!! i just cant get you(MQ) out of my head, boy your lovin is what i think about..
haaaaaay! tgal nrin ah..9days wlang pc!! ngaun install nnman ng stuffs! gud thing may backup me ng fave stuffs b4 mcra pc..hehe =P ampf!! malas nman.. talo lasalle knina! kala ko pa naman mgnda laro nila ngaun.. ah well, puro gimiks nnman dis wk!! nkktmad pmsok....! kundi lng dhil sa attendance, malamang buong week nko d pmsok. hehe! nkkadik mga korean muvieeeeeees!!!! qt p ng mga peepz hehe =D tagal mag dl...haaaaay! may psok nnman tom!!!
argh...wala nnman sa mood gumawa ng mga bgay bgay.. hehe! nageenjoy ako sa kalokohan n gngwa ku... hahahah! tska sleeeeeep! haaaaaay, sarap mtulog.. hnd ka maiistorbo.. pos relaxing pa! ah well.. next wk cgru start n me magarl.. not now, hrap biglain ang srili..! hehe� enjoy pko ngaun..hahhaha!! sarap ng wlang gnagawa, inaaral, pressure, prinoproblema.!!! sana ganito lagi.. hehe! =P
wheeeeee!! panalo dlsu against ue! haha!! sad nman, tpus n weekend.. ndi ko man lng nramdaman!! prang tulog ako hul saturday eh! haaaay bihira nrin mag ol, nkktmad kc eh.. mas msrap mtulog.. hehe! & mag daydreeeeeeam!!! tsk, may ggwin pko kalokohan sa pc kya w8 ko muna sleep parents.. 1hr 30mins to go.. haha! surf muna ng kunyari assignment =P
lagut lagut!!! bmblik ang sleeping days ko nung hs tlga ah.. hehe!! haaay.. tinatamad ako khit gusto kong magsipag!! wahahaha!! yeah! c kann yan! magsipag!!! hmpppph badtrip ang frendster n yan!! hahaha!! db mq?? =P waaaaaah...1st week assignment!? weird tlga pag college!! i miss hs n soooobra!!
haaaaaay...nuh b meron sa araw na to.. antok na antok ako gwabeh..! hehe! bmalik un feeling nung hs pag ginigising ako sa umaga.. "get awt im sleeping" haha!! 2pm nko ngcng, dhil sa car's horn & ingay ng mga aso.. haha!! pos after lunch sleep ulit... haaaaay ayun absent ulit ahaha! sana laging gn2, kun kelan ko trip pumasok tska me ppsok, un wlang bbgsakin prang sa hs lyf.. e2, inaantok prin, 8pm nah... hehe� dont know pero plan ko hul week absent.. hahaha!! asar!! gs2 ko gnun... lupet nman kc eh, 7absences lng pwede! bute p sa hs, 52 absences pwd... hehehe!
grabe!! so tired...!! galing kc debut ni pitchel khpun.. pos 4am n kme ntul0g, ngkwentuhan p kc!.. & eat ng tsibog esp. malteser!!! hahaha!! pos knina swim pah.. party ko nman.. tsktsk! 9 & 12 kmi ni pitchel pro 10 & 11 celebration nmen! hahaha!! haaaaay nkkbliw n party! & at last nkumpleto jemclan khpun!!!! after 2years.. hmmm, sna mkapagovernyt kmi lhat jemclan... hehe!! awt--
haaay..for d 1st tym! nangoncenxa ako.. haha! kc hhntayin ako ng mom ko mtpos mag adjust ng sked ko sa lasal.. (paalam ko! haha) tas eh sbi ko mhaba pila.. ayun hnggang 2 daw ayus lng sknya.. tas cge lng ako, khit alam kong impocble mtpus ako ng gnong oras kc nsa rp ako.! tas un bihis nko, paalis na, bgla nagbago ihip ng hangin!.. haha� ayun, stayed at home nlng.. pero bute nlng! baha pla un dadaanan ppnta lrt, hndi rin ako mkkdting sa lasalle.. tas if ever, past 7 na me mkkuwe. no doubt! til now la pa kptid ku, 5pm dismissal nya.. haha! baha kc sa espana., tas may rally p..supeeeer trafic!! timing eh noh?? =P
hayyy...! sa wakas!! updated nrin tong website.. hehe!! tgal ku nah nwla.. tsktsk, lampas 1yr!.. stupid comsci kc ehh.. kla ko mtututo me gmwa ng mgndang website!.. including flash, photoshop, etz.. un pla hndi.! haha!! ayus lng, at least gs2 ko rin nman un gngwa..mejo lng! hrap nssgad kc utak eh.. haaaay!! termbreak!! saya!! dmi gimiks! nkkpgod din...
..mq..
