| My Battle with Bulimia |
| No matter what all the magazines say, and MTV tells you, you DON'T have to be skinny to be popular. Trust me, I know. In the beginning of 10th grade, I had a crush on this guy. We flirted a lot and I was starting to get the impression, "maybe he likes me" well when people asked him about it, he told them no. One day when I was hanging out with him, he was telling me that I "jiggle" and I was pudgy. Later on that week, I found out that one of the kids in the band was telling everyone that I look like *Bob (the fat kid in band) whenever I wore my bathing suit. I admit I was a size 11-13, because I had big hips. I was actually pretty skinny. I had nice stiff abs and I looked great, but when I heard that being said, I looked at myself and all I saw was an ugly fat girl. I needed to loose it fast. Instead of being smart and healthy, by exercising and dieting, I decided to eat and throw it up in secret. I didn't really think of it as anythoing bad. You know? I thought "hey, I can eat and still loose weirght all at the same time!" but I was wrong. At first I didn't see any results, physically, but mentally, I was dying. I was tired all the time and I had no energy whatsoever. One day, while I was doing my thing in the bathroom, a friend of mine walked in and saw me kneeling under the stall. She knew something was up. She told a couple of my best friends that she knew there was something the matter with me, but didn't know if I was sick, or maybe I ate a bad piece of pizza, or if I was throwing up on purpose. She got a little nervous and confronted me about it. I didn't know that she saw me, so I denied it (all bulimics will deny it) and she noticed that I was getting really thin, really fast. She also noticed that I wasn't doing as good in guard as I usually do. She decided to check into the signs of bulimia and I just so happened to fit all the signs. After all my friends found out, I got upset that they were so nosy, but then I realized that they cared about me. After I found out that everyone cared and wanted to get me help, I knew I was hurting myself and I had to stop. I did and now I go to a GREAT counselor, Judy, who has helped me through every step of the way. Now I can say that I'm safe and I love the way I look. Just the way I am. Thanks to: Nicole, Felicia, Justin, Katherine, Steph, Matt, Megan, Noel, Joey, Amie, and everyone else who helped me through the hardest time of my life. Love you all. Thanks..*muah* Signs someone you know might be a bulima sufferor: 1. Bruised knuckles: from sticking their finger down their throat to make themselves throw up 2. Lack of energy: from not letting their body get enough nutirents and vitamins 3. Tiredness: also from lack of nutrients 4. Dramatic weightloss: from their body eating itself because it's not getting any food to break down If you or someone you know might be suffering from bulimia, get them help. It's a serious disorder that can be stopped before it gets too serious. Talk to a guidance counselor, teacher or even a parent. There are answers. Get help. *fake name so no one is hurt |