Deepest Condolences

Living in New York City during the tragedy that has happened recently, I was touched by all the people now willing to help out--the ones giving blood, the police and firefighters saving people, and others simply giving a shoulder for those who have lost family to lean on. It struck so deep in me--I had a cousin in the area, but thankfully she's alife--that I just had to write this while listening to some old Filipino songs (they ALWAYS set the right mood). 

Believe me, even if I couldn't bring myself to tears, I was rather close to it the night of the attack. I live in Queens and my school is in Manhattan. I'm usually accustommed to going home by myself via subway every day.However, because of the attack, we were not allowed to go home by ourselves--we had to go with a parent. And since Manhattan-bound/downtown trains were closed as well as the bridges and tunnels, and the only way I could get to my Queens-bound train was with a downtown one, I was basically stuck. So I had to go to my friend's house for the night. (This friend is actually the real life Em Oni Komodo of Combo Unite.)

I was thinking that there was a good side to everything--hey, it'd be a sleepover with my best friend in the entire world, ne?--but I was wrong. That day had been her mother's birthday. Her sister had rewritten her birthday card, hoping to celebrate anyway.

The sister is actually Silverstar Wizard, a fellow author on FFN.

Another friend of mine, the real life Kay Diyosa of CU, was also touched by the tragedy. Oni called her and let me talk to her. Diyosa's sister had two friends whose relatives were in the higher floors of the World Trade Center during the attack. In the background, you could hear her sister's sobs. 

My world had been turned upside down. I'm sure that the terrorists, whomever they were, knew how much pain this would cause, and they were idiotic and insane enough to do it. I hate them now. They shouldn't die early...they should be allowed to live, but be tortured in totality for the rest of their lives...be allowed to run...never allowing them peace, because they're being hunted after...never, ever allowing them the peace they themselves broke for us. (Thanks for making me realize this would even be an option, Oni.)

If you aren't scared, I don't know what to do with you.

My deepest condolences to whomever knew anyone who had been killed or injured in the attack. Also such to the brave souls that are searching through it all for lives, who can only find rays of hope in that some people have survived for days in rubble...to those who can give blood...to those who are searching for the planes....

For those who did die, whether or not you rest in peace, we will make sure that justice is served. We, who are alive, will ensure that your deaths are avenged. 

For those that organized and executed the attack--I hope you're ready for the worst. The world has now turned against you. Now you are the United States' mortal enemy...and also to all those who have been hurt, directly or indirectly, from this attack. I hope you're ready to pay for your act of cowardice and injustice.

If you're wondering why I wasn't able to cry, to think that the world will end, I'll tell you a story.

My grandmother was raising my mom in the Philippines during WW II. She had high hopes for my mom, her sister, and her brothers--someone would go to the US and be relatively successful, someone would be able to climb out of this farm and live a normal life...your typical dreams of someone poor in a 3rd World. Her friends thought that she was nuts. After all, this WAS a war, and they HAD been captured by the Japanese.

My grandmothers' friends were taken away from their children. Obviously, if I'm alive, my grandmother was not.

I inheret some of this positive thinking in national crisis from my grandmother, I think. I really do. So all I can say is there will be a tomorrow. Yes there will.

Again, deepest condolences. I hope for the best.

Love, honor, faith, and justice,
Kawaii Dragoness

PS: Oni, Diyosa, Silverstar Wizard--please don't be mad that I mentioned you. It was kind of necessary for this. I hope that you understand.