Goodbye....
*Kawaii sitting in a dark room, lit only by a tiny window to her right. She is kneeling on the floor.*
I'm so sorry...I'm so, so sorry.... Combination Unite is no more. I had been running out of ideas on it for quite a while, not to mention that school was back so I didn't think I'd ever make it. Then the towers fell on September 11, 2001, and along with the rubble and paranoia came in a time of desparation for me, at both a national and personal level. I never thought that things would be how they used to.
The world fell when the towers did. And when the towers fell, I also almost lost a close friendship with one of the Pack members. We are now trying to rebuild what we once had from the very beginning, but it's not the same as it used to be. I am hoping one day that things will get back to their own pace, that I can start Combination Unite again, that things will be as close to normal as they used to be.
Why did I decide this? Well, to be honest, I am writing this on October 13, 2001. This was the first time that I saw the Manhattan skyline since the attacks. New Yorkers know that when you drive on the Triboro Bridge from Queens to Randall's Island (which is right east of Manhattan), you see the skyline, and the towers used to be right there. You look now, and there is a foreboding emptiness. Something is missing. It just doesn't feel complete anymore. And I didn't feel complete either. Something is missing in my life. Combination Unite would only remind me of that darkness in my life, of the towers falling, of almost losing one of the closest friendships I ever had. I don't need a reminder. I need to move on.
Combination Unite, therefore, is no more.
But what of my high plans, you ask? What of my ideas, my hopes? They will be transferred into my original novella, Dragoness' Ocean, and also into my semi-autobiographical memoir From the Journal of AquaFlame. I may also write an autobiography one day entitled Thoughts of the Dragon, but that is still up in the air.
My English teacher this year says that my writing is amazing, that I really should become professional someday. I thought that CU would be my transistion. But I've decided to plunge right in.
The CU site, after all, was only a subdivision of my dreamland. A new section, Loving Flame, will be created soon for my originals. Maybe one day I'll become a pro. But until then, the memories of the towers will live on, and so will my memories of good times with the Pack.
Another section may be created if you approve, entitled To Americana, with adoptables for the American spirit and the memory of Combo Unite. They may range from flags to the original flowers I created for the Pack members. But I won't delete the CU files: remember, if I can see things something close to the way I used to, then maybe I'll figure out a way to continue it.
So goodbye.... I shall see you again someday.
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And remember...I shall return.
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