| Disclaimer: Everything trek belongs to Paramount, I am but a lowly fan. But I am soooo not happy with them so they can BITE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Summary: A/U and angst. The Commander is getting married and the Captain has to deal with who it is. See if you can figure out what happened. I might expand this into a longer story that would explain everything but I couldn't find a way to explain with out ruining the story. Could Have Been, Should Have Been By: Katy Jane Today I will perform the ceremony. I should be happy for him, I am happy for him, truly I am. I'm sad for my self; sad because I know that this could have been mine, should have been mine, but I was too stubborn, to blind, too stuck on protocol, to let it happen. I have cried thousands of tears for what I have lost and now my captain's facade is securely in place and I show no hint of my emotions, I may as well be a Vulcan. I take a deep breath and enter the holodeck. "Captain." He greets me with a warm smile, but not the same smile he has given me in years past, he reserves that for her now. He doesn't call me Kathryn anymore either, that too only belongs to her. If it had been anyone but her this would have been easier, but it is her, and now I have no choice but to face the fact that it could have been me. I take my place before the couple, their love so obvious in their eyes, and for a moment I slip and let my pain show in mine. He sees and gives me an apologetic, almost sad look. I don't want his pity, I brought this on myself. I quickly snap my facade back in place and begin. "We are gathered hear today to witness the union of Commander Chakotay and Lt. Commander Kathryn Elizabeth Janeway... the end I am going to write a longer version once I get time but for now I will tell you what happened. There was a transporter accident that created a second Kathryn Janeway. |