I was thinking, and as many people know, it's not the right thing to do...but I was sincerly beginning to smile again. until my spirit guide came to me last night, and she said, "look Joe, I know you like this guy, and you want to know if it can work out, but he's decided on who he wants, and he doesn't want you/ he wants your cousin, and I was really shocked, and I looked at her, and I asked her why, and she said it was the way that fate wove the cloth. Maybe I was silly huh? I mean, to think some great fabulous person would even think about me is ridiculous.
FYI~>Spirit Guides are sort of like guardian angels, that look out for us, and tell us things we need to know. My guides name is heather, and she sort of looks like roma downey, except without the accent. I think she told me this because the guy I like hasn't really figured this out for himself yet. Go figure.
As for Ryan, I am really getting over him. I know that he is 854 miles away, and as each day passes, it gets easier.
The differences between these two men, while can look like one small trait, can mean miles of difference to me. The difference between these two, happens to be a great deal. Ryan was abusive, verbally. He would say thigs to hurt me, and I know that this person wouldn't. That's miles of difference.
But none of this matters now. Heather said it wasn't going to happen, so I won't dwell on this any longer.
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