Hikaru Mitsuharu: so I imagine you heard all that?
Kaede Hitori: *pretends she was here all along*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: The Morgans wish to employ me
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I told them Doyle keeps me mostly busy
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *smirks*
Kaede Hitori: *laughs*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: and you
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *winks*
Kaede Hitori: *smirks*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *said it though knows he didnt, just wanted to see her reaction*
Kaede Hitori: *looks around a bit*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: we should go home
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods to her*
Kaede Hitori: *nods*
*They return to Little Bishani*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods over to his brother and walks to the door*
*They both walk in, she stays near the door*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *kicks off his boots*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *removes his Kimono and Kasa as he walks in*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *leans back, cracking his spine a bit before walking over to the chest*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *talks as he roots through it looking for clothes*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: sometimes i wish i never left our village all those years ago
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *pulls off his tunic and stuffs it in his pack*
Kaede Hitori: *nods slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *thinks about putting the gloves back on, though doesnt*
Kaede Hitori: *admires the work on his back silently as he fusses through the locker*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *closes it tightly and just remains there, leaned on it, as he closes his eyes*
Kaede Hitori: Anta alright?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: sometimes... i just wish things were different
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods*
Kaede Hitori: *felt compelled to move to him to offer some form of comfort though remains still, uncertain..*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *brushes the swell of emotions aside as he feels himself nearly choke up thinking*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *back to their childhood, and his family*
Kaede Hitori: Do anta not enjoy antar.. job?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *stands ubruptly and turns making sure to block them out as he walks over to*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *the mat*
Kaede Hitori: *looks away as he turns*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *remains facing the wall. though does look back hearing her question*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: sometimes
Kaede Hitori: *continues looking off towards the icon*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says flatly*
Kaede Hitori: If anta did nani leave..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods his head, looking ahead at the swords on the wall*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I know
Kaede Hitori: and things.. developed as they have..
Kaede Hitori: between us..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: it's just sometimes it is all too much
Kaede Hitori: There would have been a big gaping hole of... secrecy and lies..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: dont you ever just wish things could be normal?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *turns to face her as he says it*
Kaede Hitori: What is normal?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *sighs*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i dont know.....
Kaede Hitori: This is normal for us..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: fishing, laying on the river
Kaede Hitori: Some would consider that boring..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *shrugs just becoming over worked and needing to relax*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *turns abruptly and drives the tanto into the training dummy quicker then*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *the blade appeared in his hand*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *grits his teeth*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I think perhaps I need some time off.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: my emotions have become more and more clouded since I came here
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I thought it would give me a new start, but all it has done is made me kill more
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the only good thing that has happened since being here.....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *turns back to face her from the training dummy*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: is you finding me
Kaede Hitori: *still doesn't look to him, nerves starting to overtake her again*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *stands silent for a moment after saying it*
Kaede Hitori: *seems at a fair loss for words*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looking to her but not directly at her, noticing her reaction to hearing it*
Kaede Hitori: am glad anta have atleast one good thing..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods*
Kaede Hitori: *peers down at the floor near her feet*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks over at her knowing he is making her uncomfortable*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: Kaede
Hikaru Mitsuharu: if I have said something to make you.....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *pauses*
Kaede Hitori: *shakes her head*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: well.. do you plan to stand at my door all night?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *tries to lighten the mood a bit*
Kaede Hitori: *shrugs slightly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: well.. I suppose that is up to you
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *sits down leaving his tanto in the dummy*
Kaede Hitori: *looks as if she wants to say something though is too nervous to do so*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just looks over at her, waiting to see what she is going to do*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notes her look*
Kaede Hitori: *looks around the room slightly, head still tilted down forward though eyes lifted*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: what is it?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks up at her curiously*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei was wondering..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *listens*
Kaede Hitori: *sighs and shakes her head as if to say 'nevermind'*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: no... what is it?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *is too intrigued now to let her not ask him whatever she was going to*
Kaede Hitori: *speaks lowly at almost a whisper as if hoping he wouldn't hear leaving her words too mumbled to*
Kaede Hitori: *really understand through the mempo*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *leans forward, as if trying to hear what she said, though coudlnt make it out*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: what was that?
Kaede Hitori: *reaches up to pull the mempo and mask off, slowly as if straining and reluctant to permit her*
Kaede Hitori: *words to be heard clearly*
Kaede Hitori: gusei was wondering..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *almost smiles seeing her finally remove them*
Kaede Hitori: If gusei could do anything.. to help improve antar mood..
Kaede Hitori: *she'd listen to the words as she spoke them.. not really much of anything to most but offering to*
Kaede Hitori: *tend to another for any reason other than killing them was rather.. odd*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *hears her words and doesnt quite know how to reply at first*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *though after a moment he simply motions her over with his hand*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: Hai.... you can come and sit with me and talk... instead of standing across the
Hikaru Mitsuharu: room from me
Kaede Hitori: *nodded slowly and did indeed move towards him despite how much tighter the knot in her stomach*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *waits to see what she does*
Kaede Hitori: *would get each step she took, once at the mat she'd try to make it seem like she'd lower to*
Kaede Hitori: *kneel in place though to her it was more like collapsing as she resisted the urge to clench her*
Kaede Hitori: *hands at her stomach*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notices her reluctantness and hessitation though thinks it almost funny*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: there is another thing....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *glances over at her as she sits*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: relax some
Kaede Hitori: *reaches for her boots before settling down to toss them towards the door though the effort falls*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *almost smiles, though it looks more like grin*
Kaede Hitori: *short about half way*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *triest o get a reaction from her as he says it*
Kaede Hitori: *doesn't offer any real reaction other than refusing to look him in the eyes*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: Kaede
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says her name in a tone of voice almost making him sound like someone else*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *softly, and without any sign of his usual monotone*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i do not wish to make you uncomfortable
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *tries to look in her eyes, though cant seem to as she looks away*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: would it help if I put a shirt on?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *waits for a reply but decides to just continue*
Kaede Hitori: *shook her head slightly no*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: is there anything I can do to that might help you calm?
Kaede Hitori: It... it's not anta..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *almost thinks it funny that a moment ago it was her asking him if*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *there was anything that could be done for his mood, and now it is him asking her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: well... if it's not me...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: then what?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *leans back a bit, letting his knees out from under him to sit flat on the mat*
Kaede Hitori: it's heihou
Hikaru Mitsuharu: you look fine to me
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says it questioningly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *reaches down, removing his sandles as he listens.. throwing them off to the side*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei think.. anta can help hai..
Kaede Hitori: Gusei just.. do nani know how..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks at her curiously,*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *arches a brow now, a bit confused at her comment*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *is a bit confused and blurts out*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: ok wait...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: just what is it you think I can help you with? what are we talking about here?
Kaede Hitori: *had started moving her eyes to focus upon his legs though looks away again to the floor at her*
Kaede Hitori: *side, still very obviously unsure*
Kaede Hitori: This.. aching pain... here.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *slowly starts to think he knows what she is speaking of*
Kaede Hitori: *moves her hand to her stomach*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *has a ahhhh look on his face as she says it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks a bit perplexed as he himself hasn't really had much experience on the*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *matter. his one ending in disaster*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: hmmm....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *begins to speak slowly, taking time to choose his words before speaking them*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: that is.. that is a matter of great confusion indeed.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I guess that all depends on just what you think this feeling is
Kaede Hitori: If gusei knew.. gusei would know how to stop this..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *he himself having similar feelings since seeing her again, and not quite knowing*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *how to express them himself*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I.. I suppose talking about it might help
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *shrugs a bit*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I can say the same thing Kaede...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *trails off a bit saying it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: after seeing you that first night, and talking..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *begins to speak and decides that maybe telling her how it has been making him*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *feel might help relax her some*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i have been feeling something similar to what you descrbe
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *thinks a moment*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: perhaps that is why i wish i never left
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks over at her as he says it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i had always wished i didnt, but seeing you that night and everyday since then
Hikaru Mitsuharu: has made me wish it more and more.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the same question over and over in my mind...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: what would have happened to us if i never left
Kaede Hitori: But.. kai-ma were so young.. things would have been different..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *shrugs*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: perhaps
Kaede Hitori: Anta would not be able to understand the life gusei was given
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *shrugs thinking about it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: maybe... but there was a reason my father sent me off
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i knew about killing even at that age
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks down a bit*
Kaede Hitori: Hai.. but knowing about it.. and doing it and enjoying it are two very different things
Hikaru Mitsuharu: that is why he sent me away....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I killed someone when I was ten.. a village man stole my fathers nets and
Hikaru Mitsuharu: supplies from his hut on the river.I went to get them back and ended up killing
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the man when he cursed my father for having more then him.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I have always had this mean streak I suppose
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks up at her slightly wondering if she understands*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *now why he was sent off*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: he thought that the Sinjo's teaching would break me from it.. but he didnt know
Hikaru Mitsuharu: what Sinjo tought.
Kaede Hitori: Gusei think that.. maybe..
Kaede Hitori: maybe ji'kalna willed it as such purposely..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods thinking the same thing*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I have always wondered that myself
Hikaru Mitsuharu: but all I know... is that that night after finding out it was you,
Hikaru Mitsuharu: all these strange feelings came over me... all the memories of you came back in
Hikaru Mitsuharu: an instant... and thoughts of you from the years growing up away from you
Hikaru Mitsuharu: always wondering how you were, where you were.. if you were ok, if......
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks down*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: if you had found someone
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says it very quietly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *feels embaressed now having said it*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei have.. now..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks up a bit hearing it. slowly his gaze coming up to meet hers*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: you have?
Kaede Hitori: *looked up though slowly to meet her gaze to his, still slightly shaky*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: that is why... why you feel that knot in your stomach?
Kaede Hitori: *nods slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods a bit as he says it, thinking the same thing about himself*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei... cannot really be sure.. gusei-mo never had this happen before.. it just would make sense if it were..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *listens to her quietly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: if it were?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *is just trying to gently coax her along to make it easier to speak her mind*
Kaede Hitori: If it were..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: easier to speak what you are feeling?
Kaede Hitori: the reason for it.. this feeling..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: if it were easier to understand it hai?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods agreeing with what he has said thiking the same thing about himself*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *speaks slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: even having felt something similar to this....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: though the first time not as strong as this.....i still find it hard to describe
Hikaru Mitsuharu: what i am feeling... what i want to say next. I feel like that same little boy on
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the river the first time we met...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *smiles a bit thinking back to it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: does that make sense to you aswell?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks over to her*
Kaede Hitori: *nods*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *seems a bit more relieved seeing her nod*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: good.. then atleast we are in this together
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *grins somewhat*
Kaede Hitori: *looks down slightly and to the mat, still obviously a bit shy about some things to say though does*
Kaede Hitori: *so anyway*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei.. would nani want it... any other way..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks away a bit, thinking his constant gaze on her may be making her a bit*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *more uneasy*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods thinking the same thing*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *remains looking down and away for now, trying to give her a bit of room to*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *continue, not wanting to make her more uncomfortable by constantly looking at her*
Kaede Hitori: *doesn't really seem to have much more to say though once the few moments of silence pass, eyes*
Kaede Hitori: *would slowly be lifteed towards his*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: I.. I just want you to know I care for you Kaede.....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says it quickly thinking it the only way to get it out*
Kaede Hitori: *expression held no true definition though her eyes were almost pleading for.. something.. anything.*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks up toward her slowly after saying it, seeing her looking over at him*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods once with a slight grin forming on his lips. he slowly moves his right hand*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *out in front of him, leaving it there for her to take or shy away from*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *lets his eyes meet hers as he holds his hand out to her*
Kaede Hitori: *lowers her eyes to the offered hand and the notion alone caused the slightly easing tightness in*
Kaede Hitori: *her stomach tighten up again though slowly, her own hand would reach out to his*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *does something he hasnt dont in years as he sees her reach out slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *an actual smile forms on his lips ever so slowly seeing her reach out to him*
Kaede Hitori: *hesitates a moment as the tips of her fingers touch his yet after a moments pause, they*
Kaede Hitori: *continued a feather light touch along his fingers to the palm of his hand until finally resting down*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods slowly over to her, feeling her hand move over his and finally come to*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *rest in his palm. he gives a gentle squeeze after a moment, looking over to her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *the whole time*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *speaks lower now*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: it is alright to be nervous Kaede.... I am too
Kaede Hitori: *knew he was looking at her though she was more focused on their hands, fingers curling about his*
Kaede Hitori: *at feeling the squeeze, forcefully having moved her hand there though the fingers curling was of*
Kaede Hitori: *some natural accord*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *watches her reaction as their hands come together, their fingers intertwining*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *smiles at the feel of her hand in his though stays quiet wishing to enjoy the*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *moment and not ruin it with words he is having trouble saying as it is*
Kaede Hitori: *said nothing, watching her hand still then lifting her gaze to his, the trembling glisten in her eyes*
Kaede Hitori: *made it seem like she wanted to cry though no tears were had, blinking once and the possibility*
Kaede Hitori: *was gone, a faint tugging at the corner of her lips then faded as well*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notices her eyes begin to well a bit, though just nods letting her know*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *that everything is ok now*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks down at their hands for a moment, then back up to her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: they....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *stammers a bit at first*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: they fit good together hai?
Kaede Hitori: *nodded slowly as the focus of her gaze followed the motions his did*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *lets his hand become looser so to more allow her to move hers over his*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *letting her take her time knowing that touching for her is something never*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *to common. wanting to make her feel at ease with it.*
Kaede Hitori: *the other hand not in his clenches slightly at her side and slowly as thoughts run through her mind*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notices her left hand clench a bit, and almost out of instinct begins to pull his*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *right hand away, thinking she might be too uncomfortable*
Kaede Hitori: *kept her eyes on his to watch his expression as very slowly her hand would move as if continuing*
Kaede Hitori: *its previous path, very tips of her fingers grazing lightly then over his wrist and the scars that follow*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *though as he feels her hand gently carress his, he leaves it in place*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks up at her wanting to make sure she is alright, looking for a sign to say*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *it is ok. you dont have to pull away*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *glances down a bit as he feels her fingertips run over the scars lightly, closing*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *his eyes at the sensation and memory of each. not wanting to see them now*
Kaede Hitori: *stopped at the instant his eyes closed and started to move her hand back to his which for the*
Kaede Hitori: *time being was like a 'safe zone' so to speak*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *feeling her move away from them he slowly opens his eyes again, first looking*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *up to her eyes, then back down to their hands*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *remains fixed on their hands for a moment, then looks back up meeting her gaze*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *and slowly speaks*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: are you alright?
Kaede Hitori: gusei-mo fine.. gusei-mo just nani sure anta are.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: hai... i am now
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods with a slight grin*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: it is just the scars......
Kaede Hitori: *looked down to her hand in his then back up, curious if she could continue as she was or just*
Kaede Hitori: *stay this way..*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *leaves it there not wanting to ruin the moment talking about it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *seems more calm now, seeming totally content to just sit here like this for*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *as long as she would allow it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *slowly moves his left hand out in the same manner he did his right, hoping she*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *would take it as well*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *though is slightly hesitant not wanting to make her feel overwhelmed*
Kaede Hitori: *clenched the hand he already had slightly as his other moved out towards her, eyes watching it a*
Kaede Hitori: *moment as if thinking of what she should do..*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *leaves it there waiting to see her decision, though knows he doesnt wish to*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *make her uncomfortable*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *grins a bit thinking about it then speaks slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: one is ok for now
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *smiles and looks up to her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *slowly moves his left hand back down to his side*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i don't want you to be overwhelmed by it, or myself for that matter
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks over at her as he says it*
Kaede Hitori: *watches it retract and she considered stopping him from doing so but can't manage to just reach*
Kaede Hitori: *out to grab it so offers hers to him instead*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *though he seems relativly calm his heart is racing faster by the moment sitting*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *across from her and just admiring her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *sees her reach out, and without a moments hesitation moves his left hand back*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *up, meeting hers.*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *breathes a bit heavier now, seeming to be slowly losing his calm exterior*
Kaede Hitori: *fingers curl lightly around his hand, her own heart audibly pounding as hands intertwine*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *inhales a bit to catch his breath. he begins to feel his emotions start to take*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *over and is having trouble now to just appear calm*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *wraps her hands up in his slowly, letting their fingers clasp together*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *speaks slowly and with a bit of a broken voice*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i have been thinking about.... about this for a long time Kaede
Hikaru Mitsuharu: just to sit across from you, and be able to hold your hands in mine and look into
Hikaru Mitsuharu: those beautiful black eyes of yours
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *waits silently after saying it, wanting to see her reaction to hearing it*
Kaede Hitori: *leans in towards him slightly, eyes fixed intently upon his, shifting focus between them*
Kaede Hitori: Tis yours that hold such qualities mine had long ago lost..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods slightly as he remembers back how they used to be the same as his*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: hai... i remember now
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *returns her gaze. feeling himself slowly getting lost in her stare*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *after a few moments he blinks a few times trying to snap himself from it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *shifts slightly on the mat as he begins to speak*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i think this is a good start...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says the next part a bit reluctantly but sternly at the same time*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: but.. perhaps we should stop for now
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *is finding it harder to keep control over the swell of emotions that is rushing*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *over him and is a bit worried he might not be able to control them if he remains*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *staring into her eyes*
Kaede Hitori: *remained leaning towards him, her nose mere inches from his as eyes studied his despite how much*
Kaede Hitori: *effort it was taking to remain so close.. she trembles faintly at his words and she leans back*
Kaede Hitori: *slowly pulling her hands away which dually seemed a more difficult task than putting them there to begin with*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *gently and ever so slightly begins to loosen his grip on her hands, though looks*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *back into her eyes almost not wanting to let go*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *almost hates himself for even saying anything, thought knows in his heart he*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *more then anything does not wish to rush her in the slightest*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: Kae...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *begins to speak though feeling her hands slowly withdraw he stops and loosens*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *his grip more making it easier for her to let go, as his grip almost*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *invulontarily seemed to tighten as he began to speak her name*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks down now, letting his hands fully open and allowing her to remove hers*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *if she so wished to*
Kaede Hitori: *stopped as his hands tightened upon hers and left them there even as he loosened his hold again*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notices her hands remain, though still keeps his gaze on the mat in between them*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *speaks quietly as he remains looking down*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i do not wish ..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: to force anything more Kaede...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *seems to have more to say though stop. either because he cant continue, or just*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *wont allow himself*
Kaede Hitori: *speaks in a low whisper though the tone of her words attempting to comfort, eyes trying to meet*
Kaede Hitori: *with his as she does so, wondering what more he had to say*
Kaede Hitori: anta are nani forcing anything..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *shakes his head a bit hearing it, though knows in his heart he is more*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *scared at this moment then he can ever remember for fear of doing something*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *that might make her think less of him*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *continues to speak slowly and almost so quiet as not to be heard*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: goddess knows i want to be with you.... and want what happens next between the
Hikaru Mitsuharu: two of us to happen.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *pauses a moment*
Kaede Hitori: *squeezes her hands about his at hearing his words, murmuring softly in return*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *slowly continues feeling her squeeze his hands gently*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i just dont want to rush anything between us.. i know we are both naive when it
Hikaru Mitsuharu: comes to anything more then this.... and i know you... well didnt like being touched
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *chuckles a bit as he says it and glances up at her slightly*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei do nani like to be touched..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: well... you seem to be getting over that fairly smoothly
Kaede Hitori: Anta are nani touching me..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks down at their hands still together*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: what do you call that then
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *almost laughs a bit, seeming to calm himself slowly*
Kaede Hitori: Do anta nani feel it as much more than that? Gusei do..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: hai i do...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: but i thought you meant even your hands
Kaede Hitori: Someone touching heihou does nani make heihou heart race and each breath an effort to get
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *realizes they were both speaking about something different and nods slowly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: hai... i feel it as well.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: and to be honest
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks up at her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: it does scare me
Kaede Hitori: Hai.. heihou too..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the feelings that rush through me when i look at you.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the thoughts that run through my head when i think of you...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: like i said, i feel like that same little boy you met all those years ago
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i lose control of my emotions, and my ability to focus on anything but you leaves
Hikaru Mitsuharu: me in an instant
Hikaru Mitsuharu: and that scares me
Hikaru Mitsuharu: i feel weak and...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *pauses a moment wondering if he should say it thinking it would make him*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *really sound weak*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: defenseless when you look at me
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks away a bit tryin to not let her see him as he says it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: the last time was nothing like this
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *says quietly*
Kaede Hitori: Anta are nani the only one..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *remains looking away slightly, though listens intently as she speaks*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods hearing her last comment*
Kaede Hitori: But gusei-mo willing to..
Kaede Hitori: *silences as she thinks.. trying to figure out what to say*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *lifts his head a bit waiting to hear what she was going to say*
Kaede Hitori: *huffs a bit almost lulled by the beating from her chest.. blinking once to return his gaze*
Kaede Hitori: gusei do nani know how to say..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods once trying to reasure her he will understand her no matter what she says*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: take your time..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *grins slightly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: it must be important if it is that hard to find the way to say it.
Hikaru Mitsuharu: and anything that important is worth taking your time for
Kaede Hitori: This.. feeling...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *does his best to just sound supportive*
Kaede Hitori: It feels like... it's compelling heihou to do things gusei have not even before considered..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: hai...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: well.. i would lie if i said i had not considered some
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *smirks a bit*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: but i understand what you mean. its like almost compelling you to....
Hikaru Mitsuharu: to see what happens next.. hai?
Kaede Hitori: *nods*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: that is the exact one
Kaede Hitori: It is.. quite hard to ignore..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods again, as he finds himself slipping into her gaze again*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: quite hard indeed
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *blinks a few times trying to clear his head but is having a harder time by the moment*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: that is why.. why i said i do not wish to rush things between us
Hikaru Mitsuharu: it becomes more and more difficult to slow things down as you go along...
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *talks like he speaks from experience though knows it is not much more then hers*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei-mo not so worried about that.. as fearing that it will go away..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: that is why i tried to pull my hands away Kaede
Hikaru Mitsuharu: go away?
Kaede Hitori: This tightening in my stomach.. it has made me feel more sick than guse have ever before been..
Kaede Hitori: yet so amazing at the same time..
Kaede Hitori: Awakening pieces of me, both inside and out, that gusei have long since pushed aside..
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods, not quite knowing what to say at hearing that*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: if.... if you mean the feelings that you had pushed aside.... they will most likely
Hikaru Mitsuharu: remain if you allow them to
Kaede Hitori: Gusei do nani want them to.. gusei am willing to just.. let be what will be.. without refrain
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods a bit hearing that*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: you are sure?
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *seems to tremble a bit hearing that thought quickly calms himself and looks at her*
Kaede Hitori: *meets her gaze to his with all the sincerity she can muster*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just nods as she looks at him, taking the time to study every inch of her face*
Kaede Hitori: Gusei have never been more so..
Kaede Hitori: *squeezes his hands in hers to emphasize the point*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *listens quietly as he soaks her in*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *smiles a bit feeling her hands squeeze his*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks her in the eyes and slowly inches forward, getting closer to her. the whole*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *time never letting his eyes leave hers. once close enough he leans in slightly*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *and lets his cheek brush over hers ever so slightly as he buries his face in her*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *hair. just staying there for a moment. His hands letting go of hers though only*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *long enough to find their way up and around her back*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *inhales slowly taking the scent of her hair in and closing his eyes*
Kaede Hitori: *trembles noticably as he nears though doesn't give any inclination that she wants him to stop, the*
Kaede Hitori: *knot in her stomach tight and she swallows hard to try to keep the nervousness down not much*
Kaede Hitori: *able to say much though seems to almost instantly calm down as his arms find their way around*
Kaede Hitori: *her back though heart continues to race, her own arms then lifting to wrap around him in return*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notices her tremble as he moves in and slowly runs his hands up and down the*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *length of her back, trying to sooth her as best he can*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *whispers in her ear as he moves just a bit from her shoulder*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: are you alright Kaede? if you want me to stop all you need do is say it
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *waits patiently for her responce, just rubbing her back gently*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *each time his hands reach the top of her back and her hair they go into it a bit*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *more, finally letting them go all the way up and through her hair*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *tugging at it ever so gently as it runs through his fingers*
Kaede Hitori: *shakes her head slightly, arms tightening around him slightly*
Kaede Hitori: Nain
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *nods hearing her words and continues to let his hands run through her hair*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *slowly, taking his time to let it glide across his face as he lets it go each time*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *after several moments of contently running his hands through her hair he*
Kaede Hitori: *head tilts forward to hide against his neck and shoulder, eyes closing at the feel of his fingers*
Kaede Hitori: *moving through her hair, quiet easily relaxing her a bit more*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *moves his head a bit letting his lips gently touch the side of her neck. at first*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *gently kissing the length of her neck. taking time to judge her reaction to it*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *just remains there kissing her neck gently, waiting to proceed any further*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *moves his hands into her hair as he continues kissing her neck, grabbing it just*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *a bit, letting his hands wrap into it and gently pulling back on it*
Kaede Hitori: *head lifts from his shoulder to lean back as her hair is pulled, lips parted with the deep breaths*
Kaede Hitori: *taken.. not at all inclining she'd want him to stop*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *notes the positive reaction and suddenly stops placing kisses along her neck*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *then begins to gently bite her neck, not hard enough to cause any real pain but*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *more a pleasurable responce. the whole time his hands gently tugging on her hair*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *as he runs them through it slowly*
Kaede Hitori: *inhales slowly but deeply with a slight hiss as air is drawn in, a faint shudder comes and goes at*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: see im tryin to wait and not bombard you with emotes hehe
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *continues slowly making sure to cover every inch of her neck he can reach*
Kaede Hitori: *the gentle bite, head still leaning back with the tugging at her hair, eyes staring mostly at the*
Kaede Hitori: *wall behind him or the ceiling depending on which is more directly infront of her at the time*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *after spending some time at her neck he abruptly leans back, tilting her head*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *forward gently, his hands still in her hair. though not pulling atthe moment*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *looks her in the eyes for several moments as if looking for something said with*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *-out words.*
Kaede Hitori: *lifts her head to look to him, meeting his gaze directly*
Kaede Hitori: *notes the look though isn't quite sure what he is seeking yet though an expression would finally be*
Kaede Hitori: *easily noticed, eyes alone though would tell him how much she cares and that she's happy*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *seeing that he leans forward into her, brushing his nose across hers gently*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *then slowly and passionatly kisses her. taking time to let all the emotions that*
Hikaru Mitsuharu: *had been building inside him come out in the kiss.*
Kaede Hitori: *smirks slightly at the brush over her nose and had she been wiser in this sort of scenario she*
Kaede Hitori: *might have expected what was coming though wasn't so fortunate and caught slightly off guard by*
Kaede Hitori: *his advance and kiss and while she might have initially pulled away, it would have only taken that*
Kaede Hitori: *moment she'd thought about it for her to melt into the embrace and return it, eyes closed.*
The embrace lasted for several moments before they finally parted. The intense knot in her stomach was gone by the time they pulled away and a genuinely pleased expression appeared upon typically blank features. In silence they looked to one another, studying the reaction of the other. She wanted to kiss him again, to be in his embrace again. It felt so good and right as if it were meant to be as such though she couldn't bring herself to lean into him again.
Reluctantly, he spoke as he saw her become slightly uneasy at the thought, "It is time to go now Kaede, so you can meet Doyle." She looked down and while she knew he was right, his seemingly outward desire to stop the time they shared just minutes before made her a bit uncomfortable though the effort to pull away from him completely to stand and get ready to go was made that much easier. He stood as well to get ready though watched her closely almost instinctively knowing something was wrong. Once they were both ready he held his gloved hands out to her and once taken he would pull in slightly towards himself though not forcefully. She seemed unsure of what he was doing though after a step or two was taken towards him, her hands pulled from his to slide around his waist and his around her shoulders for a tight hug.
No words needed to be said and he knew then that she was comforted. They pulled apart again and while most would have held hands or moved out the door arm in arm, it wasn't like that for them. Out the door they went together yet contact from that point was no longer a thing of pleasure but 'touching' and she'd have no part of it.